i’ll never understand what you got out of it. but i’ll always love the sound of ur laugh and the way u talked to me

man we havent talked for months, but the three years ive known you have been great and i know ill always miss you but at the same time im glad were not friends anymore

i hope your year was as good as i hoped mines would be! you helped make it better and i thank you for that, please don’t let us loose contact again i can’t wait for all the memories we’ll hopefully make together

Do I ever cross your mind? For the most part I don't think about you, but when you pop into my head I feel like I could be with you after all this time and everything would be the same.

i know we dont talk anymore, but i hope ur doing ok with everything and finally got off the transplant list:)

even tho its been 2 years i still wait for your name to pop up on my phone everyday, call me. i miss u.

Dear Ryan, I don’t even know where to start. You and I have been best friends for years. It all started in 6th grade, when we were the oddest ones in our little group chat. I remember we liked eachother but you were too scared to ask me out. Yeah then I kinda tried to and the next morning you were very uncomfortable :) a month or two later I tried again because you still wouldn’t. We dated for a year, it was funny because we had no idea what the future would be. I broke up with you a week after our 1 year oops. We didn’t talk the rest of the year and it honestly made me sad. In 8th grade we became best friends again. I liked you a couple times and then found out you like others girls and I hated myself for months. Then we both got into very awkward bad relationships around the same time. Later in the summer after 8th grade we both ended them and became closer. I remember the day my old best friend sent me a screenshot of her texting you. She asked if you liked me, you sent a bitmoji shrugging. I had realized I had feelings for you and a couple weeks after that I told you and I was the happiest I had ever been. The best time of my life was with you, because I was with my best friend, the only person who truly got me. You wouldn’t ask me out though, so I started overthinking you didn’t like me. I remember I asked you to come over my house and you just decided to ignore me the whole day :( I knew something was wrong, and the next night I was hanging with my friends and I texted you asking if you were losing feelings. You never answered that question, but wrote a long paragraph how amazing I was and good enough but you just weren’t ready for a relationship. After that, I had a horrible sadness. I felt so weak and not good enough. You would still act like you liked me but flirted with my friends, which would cause drama. You started becoming mean and I would be mean back and I had enough so I told you I needed a break from our friendship. It was hard I’ll admit it, not talking to the person I tell everything to. I would see you in the halls and you looked sad. Around 2 months later, I had told you I was ready to be friends again. We became closer and my feelings for you grew, well they never really went away. I was still sad though because I just kept thinking you would never like me again. That wasn’t until the summer going into sophomore year. I found out you liked me. It was an amazing feeling. I found out from a friend but you later on told me you liked me and that you were ready for a relationship. You were so sweet to me but things didn’t feel right. It felt like we were just friends. I could tell there was something wrong with you. I started overthinking that I was doing something wrong and grew into a depression. You were the only person that truly made me feel happy though. You would always cheer me up. You’re one of the only people I can be my true self around. I noticed you started getting weird. I texted you asking if you would tell me if there’s something wrong. You said that you felt you made me really sad (I was very sad and still am) and I reassured you saying that wasn’t the case even though it kind of was. You sent another paragraph saying that apparently I’ve changed, and I’m not the same person I was 2 months ago. I felt horrible, like thinking I’ve become a horrible person. I had no idea I’d change, but I guess I could see how. Because of how sad I was, I was becoming more quiet and less crazy than I am. I realized you like me for me and truly want me to be happy but you do not think you can give that to me. You said I deserved better and I felt horrible, like I did something wrong. You said it was best to end things so we could both become happier. Although I hated you saying that, you were 100% right. It was for the best. But it sucks because I hate losing my best friend. I hate change, and losing the person you tell everything is hard. So here I am now, only a couple days after everything ended. I’m doing okay, but overthinking a ton. My sadness is getting worse and my best friend told me that I have changed and she wants the old me back. I’m struggling but I am trying to do that. I just wish I could have advice because I’m going through a lot and usually I would go to you for this but I can’t anymore. I’m sorry if I had hurt you in anyway, I wish you the best. Hopefully we can reconnect in the future and gain back our bond like last time. You are amazing. Love, me.

You said you wanted to marry me. You said you never wanted "us" to end. And yet you left me all alone. Now I don't know if I'll ever be over it.

I love you so much and i wish i could have you back. you mean so much to me and you did so much for me when i didn't.

regardless of how many tears and heartbreaks, i’m like a lost puppy who will always return home to you

You’re hurting me right now. But I know that I would be friends with you if I knew that sometime in the future we would be a couple again. That might kill me. But I have a feeling that this is right person wrong time. I love you to the moon and back. I mean that. I just wish you knew how much I missed talking to you everyday...

i still think about you. you said you really liked me and i did too but i’m sorry i was too scared to get into the relationship with you. i’m sorry

I don't know what's up with you, and I wish you'd just tell me. You won't see this anyway b/c you forgot about this website.

I miss you every second of every day. I have not been on here since when i was manic. I am so sorry. I thought i could handle it all myself and i couldn’t. I never even told you everything that was going on because i was scared you would leave me. But because i acted the way i did you left. Do you remember smoking in my bathtub together? I can’t go in there without crying anymore. I can’t look at the empty spot next to my bed where your mattress goes. Or use the plug you used for your Xbox or listen to our songs. I had to get a new desk chair because the one i had was where you were sitting when you broke up with me. Dotty wears one of your old jackets that was too small so you gave it to me. I wish i had been wiser. I wish i had known how bad an episode could be, and acted in a completely different manner. I guess now i know. I have learned so much in these months. I have become a much better person. I cry every night. To this day. Nobody is even remotely attractive to me besides you. I wish i could have a way to contact you and tell you everything. If i could just hear your voice say my name one more time. Or see your smile for one instant more. I could die happy. I miss you so much. I wish i had taken the Polaroids of us. You probably threw them away. I was so fucked up when we were together. I’ve never been this stable in my life they finally found medicine that works. I wish you were here to see me doing well. So i could show you how you deserve to be treated. You deserve the whole world and more. I love you. Forever. I think that’s the last thing i said to you in person. I wish i had hugged you for one moment longer. Or looked in your eyes to memorize them just a little better. I miss the feel of your hands. And the sound of your voice. And your smile that lights up a room. Almost every day I’m hit with a different memory of us doing something stupid together. I miss your company. And your mind. I miss you, sweet boy. I’ll never stop loving you, and I’ll never try to forget you. Thank you for being the best boyfriend ever. I’m sorry it had to end but i understand why you left. Completely. I’ll see you in my dreams my love.

Fuck you for thinking you could just screw me over like that. have fun with her. I hope you're happy.

you were the reason I had trust issues and even after we broke up you still managed to mess with my life. own up to the shit you put me through because while we were together all you ever did was lie lie lie.

i really thought it was going to be something special. I felt safe in your arms... ill never feel that anymore

i saw you today for the first time in a while. you were with another girl. i wondered who she was, trying to contain my jealous thoughts. wish i could've held onto your hug a little longer.

how long does it take to move on? im fearful you already have, and i feel stupid for holding on but i still love you, and i wish i could call and tell you. you were my best friend. i miss you uncontrollably and my world is quieter without you in it :(

you probably thought i was boring, i was tired. i wanted to say something but i thought i would mess it up, im bad with words, i want to re do that night

Some days I don’t even want to live in this city anymore it causes too much pain knowing you are down the street from me

Some days I don’t even want to live in this city anymore it causes too much pain knowing you are down the street from me

i'm sorry if i bother you. i don't want you to feel like i'm burden or that talking to me is a chore. i love talking to you, and i get really scared that you don't feel the same. it could just be me. i understand that, but, maybe you could give in a little and seem like you actually like talking to me.

I wish you were the man I know you could've been.I would've never done to you what you did to me.I hate you.You made me feel unloveable.

You were the first to make me feel special, but go ahead and make the others feel special as well. Our time was short and well spent but I’m glad you were there for me, take care and thank you. I love you very much.

I’m sorry. And I miss you. I wish things had ended differently. There’s so much I still have left to say. Sending you love always.

I loved you more than I loved myself. I hope one day we can go back together and do things differently.

So much time spent on you. Everything about you is amazing. I wish things would have ended differently. Love u

i love you bubs. forever and always. tell mama i said thank you for everything. after a while crocodile.

what made you believe you had every right to be hers? at least we learned what type of people to stay away from. i loathe you more than she does! xoxo, yk who.

it's been two years of finding our way back to each other. And I no longer cry over all the girls you constantly chose over me, I no longer cry over what could be and how much I miss you. Instead I'm appreciative of the good and learn from the bad. Thank you for loving me, thank you for showing me that I need to know my own worth and love myself. Thank you for being the safe place when I felt like I didn't have one, for being there for me through all my worst days. No matter what's happened I still wish you the best in life and hope you can have that relationship you've always wanted with a girl who loves you just as much as I did. I know there's so much I could say to you but I've kind of put all that hurt in my past and tried to grow from it. I don't blame you, we're young and loving someone like we did too young before we matured wasn't the best idea but I wouldn't take it back. I love you but I'm not in love with you anymore, I guess I just know that if we're meant to be it'll happen but I'm not pushing what's not meant to be. You've left me with attachment issues and trust issues that ruin all my new relationships even when I try to get past them.

i like you and i’ve always liked you. i was never enough nor will i be. it’s too late to tell you everything now

Since we are the same age and neighbors, I wish we would get along so we could create so many teenage coming of age memories.

You may not have known it, because I never said it, but you were my first love. What happened to us? At least we're still friends.

Thought about you today at work. Missing you and our mems and jokes. Sometimes I sit back and think how this could even be real without you. I’m so strong for letting you go. Hoping you miss our crazy deep talks and all the other dumb shit we’d do. I love you always Ryan

Thought about you today at work. Missing you and our mems and jokes. Sometimes I sit back and think how this could even be real without you. I’m so strong for letting you go. Hoping you miss our crazy deep talks and all the other dumb shit we’d do. I love you always Ryan

Thought about you today at work. Missing you and our mems and jokes. Sometimes I sit back and think how this could even be real without you. I’m so strong for letting you go. Hoping you miss our crazy deep talks and all the other dumb shit we’d do. I love you always Ryan

i loved u and u took advantage of that. u manipulated and mistreated me for months and i overlooked it bc of who you were in the beginning. i miss the old you.

wow i can't get over you and trust me i've tried, but it's the ones that could have been that really do hurt the most

i wish things didn’t end that way. i miss you but i know i deserve a far better love. i just wish i knew why you hurt me the way you did and if you ever truly loved me.

I am so in love with you it hurts, but you're with her and it's all I have to not breakdown at work. I've never been yours, and you were not made for me.

did u ever go to bed thinking about me? did u ever just start having random thoughts about me? bc i do. and its so unfair bc i am trying to move on but u make it so difficult. its been 6 years. i need to let u go.

you know we both still love each other. i’ll wait for you but please hurry, life is hell without you.

It's still hard not knowing if you left me because you didn't love me anymore or because something happened to you.

It baffles me how I used to think our love was so pure when you made me feel so bad sometimes or when I acted in childish ways. I wish we ended sooner and in a better way.

i thought id be over you by now but now you sit in my class in the row beside me and all i can think of is our hours on end facetimes and how we would stay up all night jsut to talk to each other never running out of things to talk about, my love for you came so easy and you lifted me up and i took it for granted. im sorry and i miss you so much

u meant so much to me and i cannot stop thinking about u. it hurts that u were so ok with letting me go. u couldnt even admit what u did wrong and makes it seem like u dont even care. all i wanted was some reassurance that u still wanted me bc we were being distant, but it backfired, we were both in the wrong and u couldnt say sry back

i just dont want to get hurt again and idk if i can forgive u fo what u did, u didnt even apologize back or seem to care that i left and thats all i wanted was to feel wanted and u barely did that at times

you will always be the one i wish it worked out with, and i know we’re both gone now, i hope things are well with him, i’m doing okay, but dear god do i wish it could’ve been you. much love for you, always. i’m here for you, even if there’s comes a day we haven’t spoken in years, i’m here bubba.
love, ty

The person I once knew and loved exists somewhere, but we are separated by too much time for me to ever reach you again. I miss you. Forever and always.