Unsent messages to MICHAEL

i don’t know why but i miss you , you’ve been at the back of my mind for years . even when i had a boyfriend i thought about you , we spoke and it made me happy ur a prick and u make me mad but speaking to you made me so excited and i loved it . i wish i knew how to speak to you , you do not deserve my love at all and i wouldn’t call it love but i think about you often and have for the past few years . i don’t know why there’s something about you that captivates me completely . i wish there was more to you and i wish you opened up to me . weirdly you’ve been there for me , you noticed when i was sad and noticed when i was happy you complimented me and noticed stuff . but you’re so immature it sometimes annoys me cause i think we’d get along , not necessarily romantically

I don't really know what to say to you if I were actually having to send you a message. You've hurt me multiple times and everytime I stuck around. but I finally gave up on you and you hated me for that. I loved you and you messed up not me. But it is in the past. I don't love you anymore but sometimes I still want to know if your ok or just talk to you.

I love you now, i will love you tomorrow and i will love you forever and i hope you know that. Now date me stupid bitch im planning our wedding on pinterest

I'm so scared of falling in love with you but I think there's not really a point in trying to fight it. Please don't hurt me.

i think i hate you, but here i am, writing this. wish things hadn’t gone the way they did. i think about you a lot.

How could you do that to me and then decide just to pretend it never happened. You know it made me uncomfortable.

I still think about you every day. I know you do the same. We don’t talk anymore but it’s made everything so much easier. Thank you for letting me go because I know I wouldn’t have walked away on my own. I don’t want you back, ever. You made me sad until I loved the shade of blue. I was scared of new commitments with other people. I realized someone else leaving like you did, was what scared me most. But I’ve accepted that. There’s an end to every beginning. So I’m not scared anymore. Thank you for helping me learn what I want and don’t want in my future relationships. Thank you for staying up on the phone with me late at night...when I was too scared to be by myself in the dark after a bad dream. Thank you for making me believe I was selfish and too much to handle. This is me letting you go..finally. I forgive you. Sometimes I can’t help but think we ended too quickly. Maybe one day we’ll run into each other and have our happy ending. Find a place to live together and do all the things we said we would. Or find our own people that are our own happy endings. I’m changing. I’ve changed. I still love you to the moon and back. That’s the only thing that has stayed the same.

do you still have the bracelet i bought for you while i was in spain? i still have the things you got me

I like you emotionally. You are healthy and perfect for me emotionally. But idk man it’s too early in my life for me to be in a relationship. I want to fuck around a bit! But I also know it would be stupid for me to fumble someone as perfect as you and it would kill me to see you with someone else.

what we had was special to me, i never fell for someone so quick and so hard. it was even harder to hear you say all these amazing things to me one morning to only turn around and say you "lost" feelings for me in a matter of hours. but weeks later you turn around and say that it was your mom's fault? what the heck man? if it really was then that was no way to end it, kind of toxic i wont lie. the fact that we are still friends after that is amazing but sometimes i still feel like we have that vibe that we did when we were dating and it that will never disappear. i don't know how to describe it but at times i wish it didn't exist, i think things would be so much easier and my mind would not be as fucked up as it is, if we never happened. i really liked you fummy and you kind of fucked me over, you broke me. made me feel dumb and that i was not worth anyone anymore. i just... i just wish you were honest with me sometimes. if you were, maybe things wouldn't be the way they are now......

and if for whatever reason you see this, no you didn't.

I miss you, to the point my heart hurts just thinking about you. One day we will be friends again :')

Where did I go wrong? I fell so hard for u, and u just left out of nowhere. Do i ever cross your mind?

hey. just to lyk. even though ur not in my life anymore, u made me the happiest ive ever been. ill never b that happy again.

YALL THAT LAST ONE WAS A MOMENT OF PURE WEAKNESS HOPE NONE OF MY FRIENDS SEE THIS LMAAAOOOO FUCK BITCHES GET MONEY YA HEARDDDDDD

black, like your favourite colour. i still remember the little things, you might not though. i will always pray for your protection, health and success. i think you could've been my first love; maybe even my only love but you had to be a little bitch boy and listen to your little whore friends....chileee i popped off lmaooo. it still hurts but I make jokes so my friends think I'm over it, I've tried to move on but fcking hell everything he does I compare to you even though I shouldn't, I hope one day our paths cross again. just wanna revise with you on ft one more time, or fall asleep to you watching your stupid youtube videos. i miss you, K

I long for your touch, your smell, your voice. My desire to feel your love again, in person, has taken over me. I miss you. I want you. I would do anything to feel you again.

i really hope you work when i do so i can see you and have that short small talk like we do, or your smile and wave when you see me. You live rent free in my head :))

It’s been months since you cut me off completely, not going to lie, it was incredibly painful to not have the person whom promise me not to leave no matter what, who saw important people leaving my life and promised me to not do the same. But I thank you for doing so. I love the version of myself right now, watching the growth and maturity of my mindset towards my future, but most importantly, to not have my happiness depend on someone else other than myself. I finally gave myself the strength to forgive my past actions and that’s all I need. You’re my first love and there’s no doubt I still believe that we’re soulmates, but your true colors are showing and you’re no longer the sweet boy whom I fell in love with. You’re a different version who I can’t recognize. Despite that, I’m keeping my promise because we were once best friends, I’m here... always. Thank you for being my high school sweetheart, I will always love and adore you. Take care.

I have feelings for you, I don't wanna ruin things or make you uncomfortable so I can't tell you. But I'm praying you feel the same way. That's all I need to hear right now, please, please hold me and tell me everything will be okay

Michael! I like you... a lot! I know that you're probably not interested, but you're perfect the way you are

i hate what you did to me but what i hate more is that i can't hate you. why did you do this to me when i loved you so much? how could i end up just being another body to you when you told me you loved me? i guess it's my fault for believing you when you said i was important to you. i dont even recognize you anymore... and here i wouldve done anything for you. you didnt have to lie.

i saw you today for the first time in months. it was so awkward but it still feels so natural with you. i wish i didn’t still love you after a year

I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving you. So if one day you decide you love me too, I’ll be here, waiting for you

I'm sorry it didn't work out between us. It was so hard for me to open up to you because I've been hurt so bad in the past and I was scared you were gonna hurt me too. I couldn't get myself to let you go so thank you for doing it. I wish it could've been different, I really think we could've been something amazing. I still care about you and I hope someday you come back to me so we could work things up. I'm finding myself again, which is good and as I said before, I wish you all the best, but at the same time I wish you would give us a second chance.

i feel like if we started over i would be able to make you happier this time. but u were the one who hurt me so i don’t even know why i want to.

i told you i loved you in all the little ways. like not being able to sleep w/o knowing u were home safe & smoking in your sweatshirt so it would smell like you. but... you told me you didn’t in all the little ways. even though you said you did.

I miss you bugging me about not replying within 20mins. I would stop the whole world just to talk to you. I hope we meet again when the time is right, for now, I will wait but just know, I pick you, and I'll pick you over and over again.

every time i see a white truck or tacoma it reminds me of you, and sometimes i hope it really is you driving past, so i can see you again

you weren't my first love but the one I will never forget, you don't even know how much pain I was in when I read 'pending' my heart literally broke in 2 bro, I loved you so much and you never noticed I dreamt about you 5 times and could never concentrate in class bc I was always thinking of you. But then you got a girl about a day after I saw the pending this broke my heart even more

I know in the future, you'll be the one I tell my kids about. But will I be the one you tell your kids about?

I still find myself wanting to tell you things that are happening in my life. But we're strangers now. So I can't.

I miss you but I know you don’t miss me and don’t want me anymore and that hurts but only if you knew how much I missed you then you would see why it hurts so much

Hi im sorry about doing that to you. I hope that they accept you. I'll protect you from Lexi so you cant be hurt I'm your personal bodyguard now, you cant say no>:). It might not seem like it but I love you Michael (no homo) You always treated me like an angel and i repay you by being a bitch, im still scared but ily

you have always been all i’ve ever wanted... from adventure to having someone to laugh with. i love you.

the way i thought about you wasn't the way that you actually were. you said the meanest words and it makes me so sad to think that i actually liked you. you hurt me so much and for that i hate you. i wish i never see you again. although you never apologized, i forgive you because my heart needs to be put at rest.

part of me knows ur reading this. and part of me knows ur happy without me. and it hurts so bad that i’m not.

why were you so toxic that it was perfect. you killed me inside but made me like that feeling. i miss us and how shitty you were.

i know we were super young and i spent so long trying to figure out if i really loved you but i think i did. i know you never gave a shit about me and im fine with that - i'm in love with someone else now and im really happy but i just wanna put into the universe that i'm thankful that we met when we did, and no matter what you'll always be my first love :)

i thought we had something special. turns out i was just one of your other girls. i can’t get over you.

Im not one to catch feelings and not loose them fast. So why can't I get over you? Why did it take u nothing to get over me?

I was so in love with you until you made me see you different. now i can’t see you romantically in any way anymore.

I could forget all about you but the second I see you, and you get that look in your eyes and that stupid crooked smile appears on your face, its back to square one

you were the real mvp, you were the best person but also the worst to me but I miss you more than ever right now.

its been 9 years and every once and while u make it seem like u care, tell me how you really feel for once before I go crazy

When I think about how our love just disappeared my heart aches and I remember how happy we both were. I think about when our faces would go red anytime we glanced at each other. I think about when we first started liking each other and we were too shy to talk. I remember how happy I was just to see your face. I remember how you kept the thing I gave you back when we were 10. I remember how much it hurt me to say goodbye. I will always love you honestly even if only a little bit but true love never dies.

I know we can’t be together forever but just know that I would travel a million light years just to be with you.

what sets this world and i apart, is that the world sees you with their eyes, i see you with my heart

you hurt me so much more than i ever thought anyone could. you still appear in my dreams after three months of us not being together, tormenting me and making me feel like how you treated me was what i deserved. the only thing i have to say to you is that you never deserved me. i was so good to you and i ended up being used for my body so fuck you.

you said your feelings would never change. I still love you. it hurts to see how we are now. we are strangers now.do you even miss me. or think about me. where did your love go my sweetheart. I love you mt.

I wish I knew if you still cared. You're on my mind constantly and it kills me to know you're not mine anymore. I still love you. I haven't moved on. I miss you, a lot.