Unsent Messages

what we had was special to me, i never fell for someone so quick and so hard. it was even harder to hear you say all these amazing things to me one morning to only turn around and say you "lost" feelings for me in a matter of hours. but weeks later you turn around and say that it was your mom's fault? what the heck man? if it really was then that was no way to end it, kind of toxic i wont lie. the fact that we are still friends after that is amazing but sometimes i still feel like we have that vibe that we did when we were dating and it that will never disappear. i don't know how to describe it but at times i wish it didn't exist, i think things would be so much easier and my mind would not be as fucked up as it is, if we never happened. i really liked you fummy and you kind of fucked me over, you broke me. made me feel dumb and that i was not worth anyone anymore. i just... i just wish you were honest with me sometimes. if you were, maybe things wouldn't be the way they are now......

and if for whatever reason you see this, no you didn't.