You were my first crush.We met when I was 16. You celebrated my 20th with me yesterday. I wish you liked me back.

its probably been a full year and I was completely over you but I had a dream and u were perfect, why couldn't we have been just as good?

I miss you every day. I’m sorry. I miss the feeling of your arms around my waist when I’d wake up next to you. I miss sitting in your passenger seat. I miss your lips against mine. I just miss you.

i have the urge to apologize to you everytime i think of you, but you disregard every word i say. nothing would matter if it came from my mouth.

I will never understand why you can't see all the good things about yourself. I guess I'll have to see them for you.

How could you do that to me and then decide just to pretend it never happened. You know it made me uncomfortable.

I hope one day you find someone that you truly love, and you don't have to pretend, like you did for me.

i think i hate you, but here i am, writing this. wish things hadn’t gone the way they did. i think about you a lot.

I love you so much, u just mean the whole world to me. &’ i hate this break up buh I understand. I just cant accept it. U were my home. My bestfriend. My everything &’ a part of me hates it because its the most painful thinf i have felt in months..You saved me life from the darkness u brought pure bliss to me and i loved that. But now, we’re just strangers.. And i hate it so much, it breaks me...I love you so much. Hold on to that..

I miss you. Im not ready to let go, and ik thats not good but. Idc. I love you so much. I always will..

I'm so scared of falling in love with you but I think there's not really a point in trying to fight it. Please don't hurt me.

I can't believe you couldn't tell I liked you. How obvious does a girl need to be in elementary school, blockhead?!

Summer 2020. We got sooo close and you instantly became my best friend. You've been there for me since the day we met. I've cheered you up and you've cheered me up. I know that anything I tell you, no one would ever know because you would never tell anyone anything about me. I'm pretty sure I'm falling for you but i can't. You my little stick buddy and i can't loose my bsf...
but tbh i really am falling for you and I'm trying to get over it by talking to John but your on my mind 24/7 and idk how to fix it. Why does this always happen!!!!! I always for the people I shouldn't be falling for!!! Anyways... love you (i think)

I love you now, i will love you tomorrow and i will love you forever and i hope you know that. Now date me stupid bitch im planning our wedding on pinterest

the way i thought about you wasn't the way that you actually were. you said the meanest words and it makes me so sad to think that i actually liked you. you hurt me so much and for that i hate you. i wish i never see you again. although you never apologized, i forgive you because my heart needs to be put at rest.

i miss you and it sucks. i wish i could see u and talk u again but u probably don’t want that. why did u have to say that? i wish we ended on good terms bc then maybe u could have celebrated my birthday with me and i could have celebrated ur birthday. i can’t go to any of our places wo thinking about our memories and it sucks bc i just want to be talking to u again. i want to tell u about my day and i want to hear about urs. i know that i have to let u go and maybe a couple of years from now i’ll see u again and we can reconnect but for now i have to get over u and trust me that’s the last thing i want. bye. i hope u have a great life and i hope u r as happy as u can be.

you have always been all i’ve ever wanted... from adventure to having someone to laugh with. i love you.

I don't really know what to say to you if I were actually having to send you a message. You've hurt me multiple times and everytime I stuck around. but I finally gave up on you and you hated me for that. I loved you and you messed up not me. But it is in the past. I don't love you anymore but sometimes I still want to know if your ok or just talk to you.

Dear michael,
It’s been two months since we were together. i’ve gone so long without seeing you. hearing ur kind voice. your joyous laughter. I haven’t gone a day without missing you. i miss those soft kisses and heart melting cuddles that i wanted to last forever. i miss those brilliant blue eyes, and your soft dark hair. i miss talking to you after a hard day and feeling so loved that all my problems felt as if they melted away. I miss staying up all night talking to you about our future. i miss binge watching shows for hours on end until nights darkness turned to dawn. I miss our bike rides to the park where would lay in your hammock for hours overlooking the immensely blue water. i miss being able to be myself around you. I miss acting like complete idiots together and laughing at the dumbest things. i miss you teaching me how to play video games and even though i would be terrible at it you still would be so proud of me. I miss everything about you. You came into my life and took away my darkness. now that you’re gone i can slowly start to feel it come back. i’ve never met anyone like you and i’m not saying that to be cliche. i’m saying it because you moved me in ways no one else has. I love you now and forever.

fuck you. you gave me hope and let me imagine our future together, knowing it wouldn't happen. you never cared, you never loved me. i was young and intoxicated by the idea of you. you are the biggest mistake i ever made and you will always be my biggest regret.

you moved on after two weeks and that completely broke me because if you could move on that fast then i must not have meant anything to you.

i don’t know why but i miss you , you’ve been at the back of my mind for years . even when i had a boyfriend i thought about you , we spoke and it made me happy ur a prick and u make me mad but speaking to you made me so excited and i loved it . i wish i knew how to speak to you , you do not deserve my love at all and i wouldn’t call it love but i think about you often and have for the past few years . i don’t know why there’s something about you that captivates me completely . i wish there was more to you and i wish you opened up to me . weirdly you’ve been there for me , you noticed when i was sad and noticed when i was happy you complimented me and noticed stuff . but you’re so immature it sometimes annoys me cause i think we’d get along , not necessarily romantically

im trying to call you and talk to you bitch literally talk to me hoe ik you love me:) - from your favorite person

oh boy. you probably will never see this which is great. i like you and your gonna have to deal with it. i cant change it. trust me i want to. but maybe one day u will get ur head out of ur asshole and think the same about me. but for now i guess it will be this way. #itdobehardsometimesdoe #iminpaiinnnnn

i just wish you weren’t afraid to love me back. you’ll never not be perfect for me. i’ll always love you.

haha I finally spelled your name right anyways you think i dont miss you but i do you made me feel a way no one has before I wish we could try again but its best not

I'm so sorry. You were right about everything. I'm an attention whore and I'm impatient and I'm stupid and I'm so sorry but I don't know what's wrong with me. I shouldn't have been so quick to judge when I've got so much shit to work on. I'm more manipulative and toxic than you and I'm so sorry I can't believe I've put you through so much shit this month. You deserve someone better who's patient and kind and will devote all their time to you. I'm sorry I couldn't give you everything you needed. I'm selfish and I can't see past my own needs.

I wasn’t good enough for you. She is. She is skinner, prettier, smarter. You choose her over me. I was your „second”. You only wanted nudes from me. I was only body for you. You were soo nice and you told me that you like me sm, i remember all things you said to me THAT night.. You told me that you care about me. Once, you helped me when i had my first panic attack.. do you remember that? Broo i told you bout my trauma, and you still left. It was all a fcking lie. You choose her and you will always chose her. She is heather. I heard what you told her about me.. she told me. I cried myself to sleep every night after this. Im not mad.. okay maybe sometimes i am. i told you how much i hate myself. I hate myself every day more (because of my trauma) and you still left and did what you did... bro.. i trusted you. If you show something to your friends, i will k1ll myself and you know that.. im so scared that something will flow up. I wrote a su1cidal letter few weeks ago and you are there... im not going to do this idk, but you know. I miss you so much. Now its 1am and i need to go to sleep, but i cant. I cant stop thinking about you. Idk if you know that but i wrote a song for you about how much you hurted me. something. But i didnt finish it. Goodnight michael. Have fun with her:))

i really couldn't tell the difference between pain and love. you're mostly dead to me but u live on in my heart.

I wish I wasn't such an emotionally manipulative bitch, I wish I could show you I changed but you're with someone else and you look happy. My Dad said you couldn't talk to me till I was 18 and the night I turned 18 I waited up all night for a message from you. It's so sad to admit, I tell everyone I'm over you but I'd give anything to get you back. I deleted my Facebook so I couldn't see you with her. Your happy faces on your wall. I haven't been happy since you left and I hate you and myself for the fact you find happiness so easy.

Hi im sorry about doing that to you. I hope that they accept you. I'll protect you from Lexi so you cant be hurt I'm your personal bodyguard now, you cant say no>:). It might not seem like it but I love you Michael (no homo) You always treated me like an angel and i repay you by being a bitch, im still scared but ily

Hey, I know it's been hard lately and I want you to know I'm always here for you no matter what. I do wanna tell you one thing tho. You already know I like you and everything. But I honestly do really like you. And you may not feel the same as me but, It's hard to see you like you were today :(. I love seeing you laugh and everything and really does make my day. It also makes my night when we ft. I really enjoy that because I've never had someone like that to me. But I really do like you and it's hard to explain because I think you like someone else, but it's okay if you do I understand because no one likes me but I really hope your night gets better and everything.:) I also enjoy talking to you and everything. No matter whats it about even if it's that little convo we have in class I really enjoy it. And I may be rude sometimes but that's me being me. And I don't even like that. I really do like you and everything but I cant tell you that because I feel like ill be judge hard lol. But if anything is wrong let me know because I'm always here for you and I want you to remember that.

I dreamt of you last night. You pat me on the head and gave me a smile I haven't see in years. I blushed like a middle schooler. I miss you.

I regret it so much, rejecting you because I couldn't get over myself. Now the distance between us will never change.

not a love letter but i love you so much to my bestfriend, whose a literal copy of me and i can’t wait to move w
you :) little slag

i want to be part of you life but i know i’m not the right girl so i hope i can make you happy as a friend and i hope she loves you as much as i do

i want to be part of you life but i know i’m not the right girl so i hope i can make you happy as a friend and i hope she loves you as much as i do

hey, it has been a while since we last talked. i want to know how you're doing and I want to know that you're okay. you were and always will be my first love and I am here for you for anything. it's been 2 years but I still think about you all the time. you're mad at me and I completely understand, I wasn't the best person mentally at the time and I have gotten better. if you ever get around to seeing this, please let me know how you are. goodbye.

you do not talk to me. you make fun of people. you like trump. but you are the only person that can make me smile.

You were my first love. I could never forget seeing you for the first time in Mexico. But 6 years I wasted on you, and for what. Nothing.

pretty pink huh? anyways i gave you five chances took you back every time when YOU broke up with me good luck finding someone like me i can guarantee you no one is as stupid as i am. i loved you if we hadn't broke up we'd be at like a year, oh and another thing i was never controlling or toxic you were just kind of a cheater and liar, i will believe myself over you any day i said it before and i will say it again. i have had literal proof that girls liked you and ive even had people say it soo.. kinda sad even then i was still being treated like shit when i needed "a reason" for you to remove them but apparently my feelings weren't reason enough, yeah i found my self worth and i've already found people better then you so good luck finding someone who can replace me.

you finally made me feel okay for the first time in a long time. i still don’t know what happened but you hurt me beyond repair. i wish things could just be normal between us, i miss you but i know you don’t feel the same.

you finally made me feel okay for the first time in a long time. i still don’t know what happened but you hurt me beyond repair. i wish things could just be normal between us, i miss you but i know you don’t feel the same.

I wish you was able to hold me as more than a friend like you do to others. But then I wish I wasn't like all the others, I wanna be special.

I miss you but I know you don’t miss me and don’t want me anymore and that hurts but only if you knew how much I missed you then you would see why it hurts so much

I wish you would have taken the time to notice me and the little things I did for you, I keep telling myself to get over you, but I can't do it, you ruined me.

The moment I knew my heart dropped and I sat in my closet crying. I wanted to call you right then and there and scream into the phone never talk to me again because you were everything you told me to stay away from. Everything you promised to protect me from. And most importantly everything you said you’d never be. But I was and always will be so different with you because even if you hurt me more than I thought anyone ever would I would beg you to stay because I need you to breathe … I didn’t want to think of a day waking up and not texting you or telling you every detail of my day that no one else would care to hear. I think the thing is I knew what my gut said but I ignored it because I wanted to do everything with you. I’m angry at myself if I’m honest… I’m mad that I knew what was happening and I let myself slowly break waiting and hoping that something would change when I knew it wouldn’t . You can say whatever but I think that we both know it's bullshit. In all honesty you fed me excuses to comfort yourself , .. because we all make choices , It was a personal choice and that’s your choice and it is completely fine. But I just hope you remember that eventually when you do get bored… of that rush from some random hookup or having however many fuck buddies that the girl who was always down for you… the one who would love you when you were bald… or going deaf cause you were old and even on every bad day… that she was the one you chose to leave. I hope you see one day that I didn’t stay because I was your best friend … I stayed because I wanted to be with you no matter what because you were my everything . And you chose what direction that lead to but I can’t sit here and pretend its ok or that i'm ok…because while I waited for the text that never came every night I also slowly lost myself until eventually I didn’t know who I was… I wasn’t happy , I wasn’t the girl who loved every little detail of life, or who ate without a care in the world. I became someone who stuck a smile on , and who stopped eating thinking it would make me prettier… I wanna fall involve with myself.. because I lost her a long time ago. I hope one day you realize that I gave you my all... more than I ever have. I hope you know that i wrote important things you told me down becuase I knew i'd forget with my memory loss. I hope you know that I still text your friends to check in because I can't go longer than an hour without thinking about you. I'll never believe in pinky promises, or I love you's , or any pact... because we were suppose to be forever and now I know not even thats true. I love you more than I could ever explain. I hope you still stare at the stars and love life's little things. I'll have you forever in my heart Mike B ... I wish I could erase the pain. But I wish you the best.

Hi. Yes, thats me AGAIN. Sorry if i impose myself haha. No, dont worry im not gonna tell you „goodnight” or „have a nice day” radomly. Its just me. How to start here.. i hope everything is okay in your life. Im here to tell you that im so so sorry and i miss you so fcking much. But i know i cant „go back” to you. I know you dont want it, and im soo scared. Im sorry. Fck. You can have every girl you want, like really. Im not gonna impose myself. I miss you but you also very hurted me. Oh, so fcking much. First time when you asked me for nudes.. i cried myself to sleep. I was so so scared and the only thing i can say is that.. i have bruises next to.. this. Okay, changing the subject. Im so so fcking scared of you. I sent you on snap my photos in only bra and panties. Im so so scared, my hands are shaking.
I have no strength. I hate myself every day more and more. I told Amelia that i sent you this (chilee
I didn't tell her anything else, not even about what we wrote about in general) and she told me something, what hurted me in milion pieces. She
she said: Ola you are so fcking easy. Its true. I dont even know you at all and i sent you this... and i was near to sent you nudes. Fck. Remember when I told you about lake and camp.. i trusted you.. I hope you didn't tell anyone. I have no strength. If you tell anyone, im will k1ll myself. You know that. Im so so scared that something will flow up. Np. what i sent you or about the lake.. I know you hate me. Okay, next thing. Remember when i told you that my chest hurts? I was
lying in bathroom floor crying and shaking. I was talking with you then. I told about this (what happened) to one of my bfs and she said that it was a panic attack. That nigt

It's crazy to me that you want to still stay friends, and I'm the one putting in all the effort. It's like a repeat of when we dated. I'm getting tired. I just want to rest for a bit and be doted on for once, even just for five minutes. Please.

This is the second message I've written b/c I have a whole note section dedicated to unsent messages... I was just wondering when it ended for you? because i knew it was done when "I'll call you" turned into " I fell asleep" and "sorry" turned into every other message. When you stopped calling to say hi... or really calling at all. I hope she was great but I hope you know whats happened to me since... I wish I could've told you everything that I hid for those 2 months because I thought you were already so tired of me I held all my problems in... i'm falling apart but I guess everything happens for a reason. Theres so many things I want to say ... good, bad, mean but I don't know how.