i always try to get over you but i can’t no matter how hard i tried cuz ik i deserve more, but i still want you deep down .

I wonder if I would have loved the real you just as much as I did the version of you housed within my brain.

I love you too much, too hard, and too cautiously. You think you understand my love for you but you don’t. It terrifies me. My heart rests in your hands.

i told you i loved you in all the little ways. like not being able to sleep w/o knowing u were home safe & smoking in your sweatshirt so it would smell like you. but... you told me you didn’t in all the little ways. even though you said you did.

I miss you so much, and it was all my fault because I couldn’t open up to you when I really wanted too. :/

you were my first love and it hurt more than anything when you left me. but if it’s meant to be, the universe will bring us back together

i feel like if we started over i would be able to make you happier this time. but u were the one who hurt me so i don’t even know why i want to.

dear michael,
you were my first love and maybe even my last. i saw so much in you and i put so much into you. i thought you would be my one and only and we would be together forever. just like we always promised. but nothing in my life ever turns out to be the way i think it will. you cheated on me. three different times. i tried to forgive you but you just got more and more toxic and manipulative and you stopped trying. i dont know what i ever did to deserve it. so i left. and the pull and want of you came back and i got back with you. and i just couldn't take it anymore, and i left. for real. you promised youd change but thats what you promised every single other time too. what was i supposed to believe. should i have taken another chance on you? i'll never know. it may be toxic of me but i hope you never move on, and i hope i find you in the future because i dont think i can ever stop loving you no matter how bad it seems.. i need you lol

i really thought i’d be single forever because i didn’t think i’d ever fall in love. but.. you showed me what love is. i think about our time together frequently. i miss you every day. i still have hope we can be together if it’s meant to be in the future. but if not.. i wish you the best. i hope we can be in each other’s lives, though, because you’re existence is one that i cannot let go of. i love you.

i ran out of time to tell you how I felt. it’s been four years and I still haven’t met someone who can make me smile like you could. i miss our laughs in 8th grade english and you telling me about hockey.

Did I ever meant anything to you? Would you have stayed if I had asked you out? Why were you so scared of being in a relationship? Did you hate me for what I did and will we ever go back to the way we were before?

i love u more than words - u deserve nothing but all the kisses & hugs in the world bab
- lots of love,
celia

hellooo. yup our bond is really nice and i really treasure our friendship it's really cool and you are such a sweet and supportive friend ily. i really appreciate what we have and how i can tell u anythinh god bless u. ok goodnight

hey, its me again. my friends are tired of hearing about you so here i am once again. its been a little over a year, i miss you. the hugs, the kisses, the way you made me feel when you would hold me. but its over now and you moved on but i clearly didnt. ive tried i rly have with other boys but nothing feels the same. the only thing the same in the end is the hurt they caused me, i think its because i would always talk about you. they knew I still missed you and they were right. whenever i drive past your house i peer back to see if your lights on just to make sure you got home safe. whether im your girl or not i still care about you. it hurts me how easily you were able to move on but i understand, who wants the broken girl anyway...right.

I'm sorry it didn't work out between us. It was so hard for me to open up to you because I've been hurt so bad in the past and I was scared you were gonna hurt me too. I couldn't get myself to let you go so thank you for doing it. I wish it could've been different, I really think we could've been something amazing. I still care about you and I hope someday you come back to me so we could work things up. I'm finding myself again, which is good and as I said before, I wish you all the best, but at the same time I wish you would give us a second chance.

I feel like your my soulmate but I’m not your’s. I hope you and your girlfriend have a loving relationship...you deserve all the love in the world.

I hope you find happiness. somewhere. somehow. i know you said i broke that. but you’re also on tinder now

i still love you but it’s time for me to realise i love who i thought you were and not who you turned into

you’re the only one who knows everything about me, you’re the only one who truly understands me. i miss you

You know it kind of pisses me off that the only time you want to talk to me is when its convenient for you

i simped for u wayyyy too hard. u were probably my first love even if u didn't like me back. still love u as a friend

I'm sorry for being immature but I deserved better. I understand I made mistakes too but I can't forget yours. You put me through so much stress and I couldn't sleep because I was with you. Now I can't sleep because I'm not with you and I'm sorry for being so indecisive and I'm sorry I ended things. I think about you everyday and wonder if I made the right decision. I think it was just the wrong time. But then again, you had so long to get it right and you never did. You used to be so devoting and then you turned into this monster and I cried when you would touch me. You changed and I miss the old you. I miss all the memories and the pictures. It's frustrating because the only memories I have of you are the happy pictures we took and it makes me question everything. I know there were so many bad memories that ended up outweighing the good but I can't but miss you and regret nearly everything I said to you. I can't tell you how sorry I am. I still love you but I don't want you.

I'm glad you were the first but I'm scared you'll be the last. I'm scared I'll never be able to get over you because I still love you but I don't want you. I'm sorry for making such a big deal out of everything. I'm stupid and immature and I don't know how to handle my emotions. It's not fair to you and I'm sorry I have to put you through so much shit. Like you said, I'm an attention whore.

You're one of the most stubborn people I have ever met but you will never be as stubborn as me. I'm sorry I was selfish and didn't put you first. I was the toxic and manipulative one and I didn't deserve your time and energy. It still hurts to talk about you and I'm scared to let go. I know I can't ever get you back because I'm an immature piece of shit but I want you to know I will always love you and I wish I could've done more for you.

I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving you. So if one day you decide you love me too, I’ll be here, waiting for you

I hope we never cross paths again. I wish you knew I truly loved you, but I had to do what I did for my safety. I really meant it when I said I hope you never lay your hands on another woman again. No one deserves that level of physical and emotional pain. I only wish you healing, love, and peace. As painful as it is, a part of me will always have love for you.

I felt as if I could never get close enough to you. I wish I could crawl inside your heart so you could just keep me safe forever.

Your smile is the most contagious thing I can’t imagine going a day without it, but can’t go one more with it I can’t stand being friends with someone I like so much.

Thank you for being my favorite person. So far I haven't found anyone else I liked as much as I liked you, but I hope you've found somebody good to replace me with.

Do you remember that day we were laying in my bed and you asked me if I wanted to grow old with you? I looked at you like you were crazy but it has haunted me ever since you left

What is ahead for me is there good things Coming my way will i Ever Get a job or get money and Girlfriend is luck coming my way will make more friends.

I never knew losing you would hurt so bad, I knew we could work, but we just couldn't, I wanted us to be that couple that struggled with 1000 miles of hurt and still pulled through and made our dreams happen...

PT.2
I dont think i will ever forget bout you, you made me to lose trust but to understand, I miss you, and it hurts like hell when we don't talk, I'm still in love with you and holding on, maybe because I cant move on...I- i don't know what to do

I shut you out and shut you down because you hurt me so badly but sometimes I fantasize about running into you and your mom at trader joe's, just to see you again after years have passed.

You led me on while you had a girlfriend, and I still can’t stop thinking about you. How pathetic is that?

i saw you today for the first time in months. it was so awkward but it still feels so natural with you. i wish i didn’t still love you after a year

thanks for always being there for me and helping me thru absolutely everything. i miss u more than u know and i wish u nothing but the best.?

You were in my dream last night and when we hugged it felt like all my broken pieces were put back together

you hurt my heart real bad. kinda sucks that once i finally poured out my feelings u turned me down but it's probs fine. i don't want to tell you how sad i am because i know you're going through so much with your dad and everything, so i just keep it to myself. but deep down i just want to tell you how bad it hurts. also i hate that we're talking like we're just friends now. like stop asking me things about me and just have sex with me bro. i mean daddy. hehe. also i will never look at my cheeta print underwear the same after what u told me ;)

It never gets easier without you. I hope to find someone who makes me as happy as you made me. I miss you more than anything..

I will always love you, no matter how hard i try to hate you. Thank you for letting me experience love

Dear Michael, you hurt me. Actually you hurt me a lot but I don’t have the courage to tell you. What am I supposed to say that I’m so sensitive that your little jokes and shoves hurt me? I can’t do that, you’re already going through so much. Nonetheless I love you so so much and I hope you get the strength to be the best you even if we don’t end up staying friends. I’ve loved this friendship for longer than I can ever say but if you truly don’t want the friendship I hope you’ll speak up soon.. I hate feeling this way.

you broke my fucking heart bro. i genuinely saw myself marring you. you lead me on so bad holy hell. i’ve never loved someone more in my whole life. why do we have to be just friends i can’t be just friends w you i’m in fucking love w you wtffffff. i hate myself for loving you.

Part of me hopes you get clean so you can be happy, the other part hopes your addiction takes you to hell.

i hate what you did to me but what i hate more is that i can't hate you. why did you do this to me when i loved you so much? how could i end up just being another body to you when you told me you loved me? i guess it's my fault for believing you when you said i was important to you. i dont even recognize you anymore... and here i wouldve done anything for you. you didnt have to lie.

Michael! I like you... a lot! I know that you're probably not interested, but you're perfect the way you are

I have feelings for you, I don't wanna ruin things or make you uncomfortable so I can't tell you. But I'm praying you feel the same way. That's all I need to hear right now, please, please hold me and tell me everything will be okay

i've always wondered why you used me for so long. or did you love me and just fell out of love? thank you for teaching me that love hurts. i'll never forget it.

I will never get tired of supporting you, helping you, and loving you, but I can't always be there. You have to know when to do what you need to do.

you were the only person who made me feel safe. the only person who really cared about me. i love you.