Unsent messages to HIM
From: ABC
To: him
Date: July 10, 2023, 7:42 am UTC
you confuse me so much and i dont know what to do .
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 18, 2021, 4:50 pm UTC
I still miss u even after all these years & i wish you could see that we could be so good together if we just tried
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 18, 2021, 2:44 pm UTC
when i was at my lowest you comforted me and when you were at your lowest i comforted you but now you know nothing about me because of her. the perfect blonde. thanks for being a dickhead
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 18, 2021, 7:51 am UTC
i wish i could go back and fix every mistake. im sorry for everything that it was and everything it couldve been.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 17, 2021, 6:58 pm UTC
I'm glad I wasn't enough for you. I'm glad you never loved me like I loved you. I'm glad you chose her and not me. I hope she's all you need and you're good to her. I wanted to be your everything but I wasn't and thats okay. Sometimes I wish you think of me when your alone but I don't know if I meant enough to be reminisced. Hope life treats you well and you get all you want out of it but I never want to be apart of it.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 17, 2021, 5:44 am UTC
I wish you’d wake me up with your video game playing and this time I’d get up to hug you, one more time.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 17, 2021, 1:53 am UTC
how were we supposed to be together anyways.. we're both heartbroken people trying to love each other, I guess it just doesn't work out like that
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 17, 2021, 1:22 am UTC
i hope that someday this universe has a strange way of bringing us back together. maybe it will all make sense then.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 17, 2021, 12:04 am UTC
i told you everything they done to break me and you done just that and worse.. thanks for breaking me even more
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 16, 2021, 11:18 pm UTC
Why do you behave as if I am invisible
Why do I still think about you
Why did you ask to meet and talk about it all , why , why why why
? I’d just gotten you out of my head
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 16, 2021, 8:33 pm UTC
i miss you. i still wonder why it was so easy for you to leave and why i’m still holding on. please come back. i miss our late night talks...the way you would slowdown when you walked beside me so i didn’t have to speed up. i miss your laugh and the face you made when you were surprised. i miss going out of my way to see you in the halls, even if it was just for a moment. i just miss you. Knowing you don’t miss me back is breaking me inside, YOU meant more to me than any other guy. sometimes i ask myself, did i actually mean something to you? or was i just another one of your girls. i wish i could have you back even if it would be just for a moment...
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 16, 2021, 9:17 am UTC
No one will know me the way you do, I don’t want anyone to. I will never love someone the way I loved you. You’ve ruined all my favorite songs, my favorite places, my favorite foods- all just tiny reminders of someone who I will never be enough for.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 15, 2021, 8:12 am UTC
as the tears run down my face i write you this in hopes you’ll find it. you know how i told you i cried in the shower that one night well i only told you a small fraction of the whole truth. you’re not the only one who overthinks at 3 a.m. especially if you compare it to me. i miss you every second of the day hoping that if i some how miraculously turn my head a certain way ill find you one morning in my bed or at my door waiting for me yet ik your not gonna be there. it kills me to know that far into the future only one of us will wake up to the sunrise while the other watches from above. i cant imagine my life without you and even i have never felt this way about someone really anyone. talking about our future reminds me of the good times ahead that i just hope won’t change. yet ik one day you’ll find someone who has everything you have dreamed of in a woman while i watch from a distance hoping that you know ill always love you forever no matter what happens. i want a forever with you... a type of forever you’ll never find... the type of forever that our kids will look at and hope that’s what they have in their future. i loved you first and i hope to be the one who loves you last. you’re my one and only... my david william. ~ love, Maria Gerhardus
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 15, 2021, 7:18 am UTC
You broke me so hard that I don't think I am going to be enough for anyone. I gave you my soul and sanity. You just spit on them.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 14, 2021, 10:58 pm UTC
i wish you knew how much i truly loved you. i miss you so so much it kills me every time i hear your name.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 14, 2021, 6:48 pm UTC
idk what it is about you, you make me want to not talk to anyone else but you, i have to force myself to talk to other guys because i know you’re talking to many other girls, i can tell you’re starting to feel something to but all these girls make me so insecure, you told me i was so beautiful but what about them, they’re bodies are better and they’re just as beautiful, how can i not be insecure? I want to be the only one on your mind just like your the only one on mine. I feel like one day you show all your attention and say your getting attached to me but the next it’s like i’m just another girl. Idk.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 14, 2021, 4:37 pm UTC
You are my bestfriend and I never want to change that, but part of me always wonders what it would be like if we was more than that❤️
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 14, 2021, 6:32 am UTC
Ur excuse to leaving me was telling me u weren’t ready for commitment but in reality u just wanted to be with someone else which hurts. It hurts to know that once again I’m left as the second option. The option that u know u can always come back to. U know ima always be here if needed and thats what hurts that u take advantage of that love I have for u.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 13, 2021, 10:59 pm UTC
i miss laughing with you, i miss being mad at you i miss being my you. I compare myself to others so often but then i remember what we had. It was the smallest things we did that would literally warm me. When you would in class and we just make eye contact and then we would quickly look back. the dumb remarks and jokes you would make. Even just helping me and asking me questions was enough. Everything about you is fucking perfect. Your eyes are hazel but hazel green in light, you have dark eye bags, your hairs straight but never stayed down, it always had this little poof. I loved that. I wish you still talked to me like you used too. Your the first person i’ve ever felt this way for wtf. Everyday i have this desired feeling to be by you or even with you. Every night i wish i was in your arms. I go to sleep thinking about you. Am i like that for you? Your out of my league i doubt it. Who knows maybe you’ll see this. I love you. Please love me back someday. Everytime i talk to you i feel safe. Every song i listen to reminds me of you. Every video reminds me of you. I remember the smallest things about you.The color of your backpack, the drink you always bring. The smallest things. Sometimes i think to myself, is this an obsession? i don’t think it is though. I think i just fell for you. Extremely hard. Please be the one. The feeling i get when i’m with you is extremely hard to discribe. Maybe you know maybe you don’t. When i complain about you to my friends they go “their not worth it” but you are.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 13, 2021, 8:01 pm UTC
I hate how I still can’t get over you even though you’re no good for me. I hate how I know I deserve better, but I’d lower my standards for you. But more than anything, I hate how I still can’t hate you.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 13, 2021, 11:39 am UTC
Even though we have not spoken in weeks, you are still everywhere. You are in the rain, the sun and every song i listen to. I hope you are okay.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 13, 2021, 7:19 am UTC
You were my best friends crush but I loved you too there’s no way I could leave this situation without one of us getting hurt.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 13, 2021, 6:50 am UTC
I don't understand you anymore, you make me doubt of myself. Idk what's right or wrong. Your ILY didn't even last a month
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 12, 2021, 10:02 pm UTC
why am i not your type? we've planned to meet in NYC so many times. planned to have late night adventures. planned to see and do so many thing.. but everytime i think its going good, you talk to me about her. its always her. i want to be yours.
my heart mourns everyday for you, for you to love me.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 12, 2021, 9:08 pm UTC
i trusted you like no one else, and you proved it was a mistake. and the worst part is that you thought it was just for fun.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 12, 2021, 2:17 am UTC
some people come into our lives to stay, others are just lessons. i guess you were just a lesson i failed to learn.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 11, 2021, 9:56 pm UTC
In movies, there’s normally a bad guy and a good guy.
We were both villains in this.
I’m sorry
Wish you were too
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 11, 2021, 11:23 am UTC
i still know everything about you, people talk about letting go and i cant seem to get you out of my mind and accept the fact that you have someone else and I never had a chance in the first place. i will always hope our alternate selves end up together happy as i was when I was with you... in your arms... you me to to me. I miss u
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 11, 2021, 4:29 am UTC
we broke up but never went a day without talking to each other and you wonder why I think you still care, a person who doesn’t care wouldn’t talk to me
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 11, 2021, 3:23 am UTC
i just wished you knew how much i fucking loved because i remember our ilym fights but it was so easy for you to replace me within days and i cry whenever i think about you even after a year. you fucking knew about my trust and commitment issues yet let me fall in love w you. i should hate you but i cant
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 11, 2021, 2:27 am UTC
I miss the simple times, the times where you used to knock down my jenga towers and give me your jumper when I was cold, I miss you
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 10:43 pm UTC
i miss that night me and my best friend walked 10 km to see you. we got home at 4am knowing we'd be grounded. i thought it would work out between us. i wish I could take that night back. anything to go back to that night.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 10:41 pm UTC
you will never know how hard i fell for you. and I know I should have told u before it was too late but when I found out you went to her house my heart completely shattered. maybe someday we will find each other again.or maybe not.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 8:14 pm UTC
I used to do things becuase I wanted to, now everything I do is an effort to distract myself from you.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 7:24 pm UTC
You said I love you too fast. You asked me to be your girlfriend too fast. You rushed us to the end before we could even get to know each other.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 1:45 pm UTC
I’m so happy for you. I felt guilty moving on but he loves me in ways you never could. He’s a good one. Even taller than you ;) I knew we really were never meant to be. But I wish you all the goodness in the world and thank you for letting me go
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 1:32 pm UTC
I don’t hate you. But I hate how you did things awful enough to make it possible for me to never speak to you again. That’s why I always got so mad, because I knew I couldn’t stick around immaturity.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 10:00 am UTC
It’s time to let each other go. I don’t feel that way anymore, and I don’t wanna play this game any longer
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 10, 2021, 6:35 am UTC
i don’t blame you. i blame myself for getting attached. i knew i was only your distraction. you were mine too at first, but i hate that i got attached. you had just gone through a breakup and need a distraction and i needed one too. we were both there and it was easy. but i got attached. i don’t blame you, i just wish it were different. i wish you were here.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 11:32 pm UTC
I still read the letters you gave me and I know you still watch out for me.
Thankyou for allowing to feel this type of love, I’m just sorry we didn’t get our happy ever after.
I hope you get it from her.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 10:56 pm UTC
I’ll love you no matter anything. youre perfect in any way to me. pls dont change. youre all i need to survive
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 10:28 pm UTC
you were the closest thing to love i have ever felt it sucks i’ll never know what it’s actually like with you
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 8:54 pm UTC
everytime I’m in pain I imagine you watching me, suddenly the pain goes away...
why did you pick her?
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 5:25 pm UTC
you’re a really great guy but you’ve been hurt one too many times... by me. i wish i could go back and re-do my actions. i hope you take what i did to you and grow from it. i hope you heal. i hope you find someone who will treat you better. you deserve happiness:)
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 11:07 am UTC
whenever my parents mention your name to ask how you are, my heart skips a beat and I feel the butterflies fill my stomach. i can't escape you.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 8:31 am UTC
no matter how hard i try to tell myself it's not you, i can't help but ignore the signs. i like you so much it consumes me. i wish you would open your eyes and see that I'm madly in love with you. notice me. see me. pick me. we could be something amazing, i know we could. because whenever I'm with you, i light up and i know you do too.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 9, 2021, 7:08 am UTC
I'm sorry that I never made you as proud as I should have, but at least she does. You'll never really know how much you mean to me, but please remember that I love you more than anything and you saved me more than you'll ever know.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 8, 2021, 5:57 pm UTC
I’m terrified of you forgetting me, even though it already feels like you have.
I don’t think you ever believed me, but I promise I loved you more.
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 8, 2021, 7:45 am UTC
why would you come back in my life and tell me you loved me and tell me all these things I craved to hear? Just to leave? I didn't care the first time you left because there was nothing to hold onto. but you came back. why would you come back? you should just have stayed away. now I care too much
From: ABC
To: him
Date: January 8, 2021, 1:45 am UTC
I want to hate you, but I can't because I love you too much and that is heartbreaking. I hope you're happy with her though, just don't come crawling back when it doesn't work
