Why do you behave as if I am invisible
Why do I still think about you
Why did you ask to meet and talk about it all , why , why why why

? I’d just gotten you out of my head

i told you everything they done to break me and you done just that and worse.. thanks for breaking me even more

i hope that someday this universe has a strange way of bringing us back together. maybe it will all make sense then.

how were we supposed to be together anyways.. we're both heartbroken people trying to love each other, I guess it just doesn't work out like that

trying to let go of my claim on you. hope whoever u end up with treats u well my sweet boy. i love you, always

i can't wait to meet you. i've been manifesting so hard. i want nothing but the best for us, i love you

It’s been 1 year and 5 months since i started liking you. I can’t tell you my feelings since you like somebody else...

I dropped you because I knew I deserved better. I dropped you because you couldn't handle me. Just saying, I'm not sorry.

I wish you’d wake me up with your video game playing and this time I’d get up to hug you, one more time.

I’m terrified of you forgetting me, even though it already feels like you have.
I don’t think you ever believed me, but I promise I loved you more.

when frank ocean said "I'm sure we're taller in another detention, you say we are small and not worth the mention" I never fully understood until I met you...

you always make me so happy and every time i’m by you nothing can go wrong you are the best thing that happened to me

I'm glad I wasn't enough for you. I'm glad you never loved me like I loved you. I'm glad you chose her and not me. I hope she's all you need and you're good to her. I wanted to be your everything but I wasn't and thats okay. Sometimes I wish you think of me when your alone but I don't know if I meant enough to be reminisced. Hope life treats you well and you get all you want out of it but I never want to be apart of it.

i just recently found out how you felt about me. sorry I don't feel the same way:/ like really really sorry

i will always love you even though you'd pick her over me anyway. it feels like i'm ding yet i can't stop loving you. i knew from the beginning we would never work out, but i prayed so hard we would. i hope she makes you happier than i ever could.

I'm scared that I'm falling out of love with you, But I don't want to because you're the first guy I've ever wanted to marry.

i like you, i talked about you to your bsf. I'm sure you don't back tho, its okay. Thats life it happens. Right?

you messed me up really bad and idk how i'm ever going to get into another relationship without being scared of them randomly leaving. i don't even know what a real relationship is anymore. still miss u tho lol.

I'm thankful for what you did to me even though we were only 5-10 I'm not entirely sure how I feel about you still but I haven't quite figured out the concept of love yet so I'm not sure what i felt towards you or if i still feel it. i know we aren't together for the best but i wish instead of messing with eachother when we were way to young to feel anything that we couldve done it all now so i could figure out if im done with you or not. you still pop up in my dreams and surprisingly i still enjoy them none the less. i dont remember much when i was with you because we were so young but i know that i thought we were going to be together forever. but things changed, you changed. you began getting all cocky and rude. first to everyone and then to me. thats when you decided to end things. i acted like it didnt bother me one bit because it didnt but now im older and i realise what ive list. i know you like my bestfriend and it pains me to see how happy she makes you (even though she isnt interested) it still hurts to see thats shes getting all the attention. if i could do it all again i would without a doubt. to see what we had was real or just some childsh friendship. im not sure if i entirely loved you or i loved the thought of you and i know that you loved the idea/thought of me. i could tell when you began to loose interest i could see it so clearly i just played it off but we drifted. i feel so pathetic because we werent even really together but i wish we were. i wish i was a different person, the person you wanted. and if i could i would. but dressing and being how i am makes me happy. i know you think im some complete weirdo now and think im gay for the way i dress. i wish i was back in primary school so we could do it all over again because i know id do things differently. i wish i could restart my whole life so i could go to the same school as you. so i could live a different life be a different person. but everything happens for a reason and even though im not sure i want somethings to happen i know ill benefit from them in the future. i think i still love you and i would kill just to be with you- to feel your touch, your smell. seeing you when you were with her made me sick to my stomach everytime someone bought it up i pushed it to the back of my mind. i honestly couldnt bare it. you arent a very nice person- you say slurs, you body shame and probably way worse. in my mind your you but your not. your who i wish you were. you may have the same looks and the same name but you actually love me and are kind. i think im always going to have feelings for you. i love you

you're the best part about my day because you are the only one who can ease the pain and make me smile

I'm sorry that I never made you as proud as I should have, but at least she does. You'll never really know how much you mean to me, but please remember that I love you more than anything and you saved me more than you'll ever know.

I’ll wait. No matter how long it takes. I want no one else. I love you, and only you. Your the best I promise.

i feel so empty without you like i lost the sun. i didn’t think about it but now it’s gone and it’s all i think about.

no matter how hard i try to tell myself it's not you, i can't help but ignore the signs. i like you so much it consumes me. i wish you would open your eyes and see that I'm madly in love with you. notice me. see me. pick me. we could be something amazing, i know we could. because whenever I'm with you, i light up and i know you do too.

i wish i could go back and fix every mistake. im sorry for everything that it was and everything it couldve been.

Some days i miss you more than anything in this world, and when im sleeping my body still makes your room in my bed, why did you just leave?

whenever my parents mention your name to ask how you are, my heart skips a beat and I feel the butterflies fill my stomach. i can't escape you.

sometimes i take your sweatshirt and wrap it around me the way you used to hold me, the way you now hold her

thank you for making me fall inlove with the sky, it reminds me of the first day we met each time I look at it at night, and even tho we are completely different people now you’re still a shitty person.

when i was at my lowest you comforted me and when you were at your lowest i comforted you but now you know nothing about me because of her. the perfect blonde. thanks for being a dickhead

the way you lied to me will stay in my heart forever. i cared so much and you just used it to make fun of it to you're friends. i'm kinda over you but the pain in my heart when i said she was ur new gf was so much . you have a piece off my heart please take care for it and don't break it to. i loved you so much why you hurt me like that? someone please talk to me. i love you

I still miss u even after all these years & i wish you could see that we could be so good together if we just tried

you’re a really great guy but you’ve been hurt one too many times... by me. i wish i could go back and re-do my actions. i hope you take what i did to you and grow from it. i hope you heal. i hope you find someone who will treat you better. you deserve happiness:)

sometimes i go back and wonder if i was just a game to you , how we would fall asleep on the phone how my mom met you and how much she loved you . we were toxic for each other and how many times did we run back to each other and talk about our past and the little things that made us happy . now seeing you happy with her , makes me happy but also rips me apart , i miss you but i know we cant do nothing cause it seems like you happy and im still stuck on you and all our memories but i dont bother you cause i respect your relationship
just know i love you and will forever be here if you need me

sometimes i take your sweatshirt and wrap it around me the way you used to hold me, the way you now hold her

I know I messed up and I put you through so much, and I’m sorry. You deserved so much better and I want you to know that. I really think that we’re right person, wrong time but you probably don’t think that. Just the way we could talk about anything for hours and it could be dead silent and we could be just looking at each other and I still wouldn’t be bored, but I messed it up and I know I did. I hope you’re so much happier right now than you were with me. I care about you and love you so much.

its interesting how a person can love another no matter what is happening between them. i always thought you really loved her, and thats why you would always cheat on me and lie to me. i thought you were choosing her over me because you loved her more than you loved me, but eventually i figured it out. you never loved me. never loved her more than me too. i was just your plan z. i dont know about her and about what you truly feel towards her but what i will never forget is how you lied to me throughout the years and told me you hated her. it was funny of me to believe after all what you put me through. i dont know what to do. you always chose others over me, and thats why you have someone new now. i cant love because of you, i let some boy treat me like an option and thats all on you. you damaged me and theres no going back. you broke my heart and i just wonder if you ever think of what you did to me

for so long i’ve wanted to know what it feels like to be loved by you. i guess that day is never coming

maybe it would have been better if i have never met you so i couldve spared myself to what real heartbreak feels like

hey amo, mir hei es zitli nümm mitenand gredet aber ih wott ds weish ds keh sekunde vergeit i dere ih ni a di denke. mir hei so scheisse viu erlebt i nur 2 mönet oder so. ih ha denkt ih ha di am afang fr immer verlore und denn hani di doch wdr a mire sitte kah. du hesh mir mi leid und kummer durch dis lache und dini wörter lah verschwinde.. weish no als mir immer bis 10 am morge ft hei.. wie oft am tag mir gsnapt hei..wie du mir immer über dini sorge verzeut hesh so wie ih über dini. aus du mir dini ganzi ufmerksamkeit gschenkt hesh du hesh mir zgfüh geh die einzigi i dine ouge zi und das ish eine vo de gründ werum ih mi verliebt ha. buebe wie dich gits nümme..hani denkt u ih ha würk denkt du meinsch aues was gseid hesh vorauem bish extra fr mi nach bern cho und scho aus ih di ha umarmt hani mi sicher gfüht idine arme und die rose wo mir geh hesh ich schmiltz. du hesh mir so viu liebi zeigt a dem tag ong ih ha denkt ih ha mi zuekünftig ehemaa gfunde, der vater vo mine chinder mahn. ih ha dir mini jungfrälichkeit geeh mahn u du machsh de..sitt meh aus 4 wuche kehs fucking zeiche vo dir khört. du bish gange ohni ebbis sege..ih hülle weg dir 24/7 und du merksh es nimau. dini lüge hei mi zerstört. wenn du ds lisish ih wünsche dir zbeste vor weut pass uf di uf und ja bye. ps ti amo

i’ve shown interest in everything that you like even if i don’t enjoy it. why cant you do the same for me.

You taught me how to love myself, you made me feel like a princess. I love you so fucking much you don't even know. ur my whole world. but ur slipping away and the shittiest part is that i cant do anything. ill love u forever. thank u for everything. u kno ill always b here for u whenever.im sorry if i did anyhting to make u loose feeling. im rlly sorry if i did.

everytime I’m in pain I imagine you watching me, suddenly the pain goes away...


why did you pick her?

I love you and you don’t even know it but Ik you wouldn’t feel the same. It’s been 3 years since we met and every time I look at you my world
changes.

i thought love was supposed to help you grow, not teach you to close yourself off. you taught me i am worthy of equally returned love. but you also taught me i was exhausting. you taught me i drag others down. after all we've been through, you taught me i will never truly be able to be cared for like i deserve.

you were the closest thing to love i have ever felt it sucks i’ll never know what it’s actually like with you

I’ll love you no matter anything. youre perfect in any way to me. pls dont change. youre all i need to survive

Hi,
It is me again!
I know you have moved on, and I am happy 4 u. It is just so unfair that I am stuck on the same shit, that I am dealing with this and cannot seem to move on after almost a year. I met sb else, I feel like we fit together so good! But also that did not turn out great, I got ghosted and dissapointment strikes again - used to it already.. Cause love just does not turn out great for me... I would like to let you know, that you will ever have a place in my heart, no matter how hard u fucked up. I just feel like I deserve the happiness you have rn. It is just the least - I need sb, just like I needed you back then.

Goodbye, live your life and I am there if u need me, 4eva.
xx

I still read the letters you gave me and I know you still watch out for me.
Thankyou for allowing to feel this type of love, I’m just sorry we didn’t get our happy ever after.
I hope you get it from her.

Well, i do not know when will i meet you, but i truly hope is sometime soon.
I love you, but i don't know you yet.