No matter how many times you hurt me with what you did
I would never be bad for you anyway... and that’s the problem

it hurts so bad that you can easily forget abt me yet im still here after a year after a whole diff relationship still craving you, someone i never had

i have never loved someone the way i love you. how can i love someone i've never met? i ask myself everyday but you made it happen. life was so empty without you, im here now, sitting in my room crying thinking of that you could leave me one day. what will i do without you? i finally have a reason. i love you

hope your happy with her. just know i’ll always be here for you whether your with her or not. please don’t treat her the way you treated me though. shit sucks.

I miss the way you would smile after I caught you staring at me. But I miss the way you kept staring even after I caught you

I can't get you out of my head. I'm trying to be happy but it's so hard when I keep thinking about you

whats the thing that makes you so scared that you have to play someone that you have feelings deep down?

boy just lemme love you fuck. pls just communicate with me. if u don't like me anymore just lemme down easy so I can finally move on.

I really wish you knew how much I want you to be mine, but just like what they said, I'm pretty enough to fuck but not to date.

none will know this is me, none will know this is for you.
every time i fall asleep i imagine you next to me like before. you small ugly place could have not been great, but we were together in it. this is how i understand how much i loved you. i went through shit to be with you, i risked my life, my relationship with my family, my going to school on time, the sights of the people in the neighbourhood, i stepped over my principles and expectations to be with you, just being with you was enough for me, it was even too much, i couldn't ask more. i was grateful to whatever God there is but it seems this was no good. i miss you. i miss hugging you from behind when i was cold, and you'd forget i was there and turn your back grabbing most of the blanket... i miss you, with your early soft lips kissing me, with your warm hands and feet, warming up mine. i love you still and i don't know when i will finally forget you. i hope you are fine even though i attempt to hate you for not even giving me a simple why and sorry. i guess it hurts more if you come just for that, i want you to come to stay. because i want to hold your hands again, i want to rest my head on your chest and feel your scent. i miss your scent, you know my perfume and told me you'd remember me like that. how stupid i did not realise that was a goodbye... how stupid i did not believe you were capable of that. you think you were being romantic, love? it hurts even more. how do i remember your smell? i miss your skin's scent, not the perfume i bought you. i want to run my hands through your hair because i just want. i just want to dive in you once again. i don't wanna do anything useful in this goddamn world, but just touch you, just dive in you love. be able to see you, to watch you, stare at you, at your big black eyes that sometimes show me emptiness, that sometimes make me question if you actually love me or even anyone else in this world. because you are so warm but i'm afraid you are very cold inside. i miss you and i love you, with all your demons and wrongs. because i simply love you, do i need to give one more excuse for still wishing to be next to you, when i should wish you death? no no please don't die, never die. my heart cannot handle losing you. breathe somewhere. i wish you could simply breathe pressed to my lips. i don't wanna do anything but be able to kiss you, just enjoy your taste once more. please be here again, come to me. i won't push you if you tell me you've kept loving me all this time. i miss you, i'll say it loud. please be my destiny even though you did the worst thing to me. i'm ashamed, yet not all, to have been loving you so strongly no matter what... i did never know i was capable of a love of this size... i love you.

and i've only allowed you to touch me, i remember your skin burning, i remember you wouldn't speak a word and you'd usually be breathing hard.. was it bad or you really loved me?
i will never forget that night we made love in the shower. when i was pushing myself almost into you, you said: "ufff i just wanna go into you sometimes so much". thanks for waiting for me to be ready. but in that moment, not only i wanted you so much, but i truly felt like a woman. you are not a very dominant nature and i am too much, yet i wanted to be weaker than you so much. i hated my strength of character and my charisma, because i just wanted to feel you were more powerful than me. is this just toxic love? or do i love u so much i wish to burden myself to feel you higher than anyone. idiolize you.
you could not stand for me, but i still wanted to show you and clap for you. i loved you and it hurts to know none will ever be able to love you half as much as i did. you might never realise that, but i hope you will. because i am willing to go to hell and back for you.

come to me. because every sad song i listen to, reminds me of you. because i cry myself to sleep. because i don't wanna go to heaven if this life is without you. because nothing will heal me if you never come say to me you still love me. because i won't be able to forgive myself, love. because i am blue without you, sad blue. but if you like blue, i'll paint myself forever like this. anything it takes to make you stay... because you are my destiny, you are my one and only. please, love me again. come love me now or just die. i cant take it anymore. i just wanna die.

I care about you so much but I can't seem to feel the butterflies anymore. Sometimes I wish we stayed friends and nothing more. You mean everything to me and I don't want to repeat the same mistake I made when I was younger, but it's so hard for my feelings to stay. I don't know what to do anymore.

I look at you and your already looking. But it’s a specific look. There’s something there. And often times we just keep staring and smiling.

I’m confused. You say you like her, yet you talk to me more than her. You say you like her but you don’t look at her the way you look at me.

Have you ever made eye contact with someone and just knew that you guys would have something in the future. Cause same, it was you.

Am i really that bad? I know you hate me, even when you say you don’t. But tell me, what was it? You were so in love with me i saw it in your eyes but then you just stopped talking to me. I told you at the beginning that you will hate me at the end, but this time i thought it was different, i thought i did everything right you still left. I always wanted nothing more than for you to be happy but i still had a little bit of hope that it could’ve been with me. So tell me what was it this time?

i want to change bodies with you, only so you could feel the pain that you are making me go through rn

Loneliness is difficult to accept. I won't lie after I left you, I proceeded to ask myself if I made the right decision to leave. It was so hard for me to let go. I didn't want to. It was the last thing I wanted to do. I wasn't mentally ready to since I loved you. I wanted to stay, but I knew I couldn't, not after what you did. You lied and manipulated me into thinking you were right. All the stories people told me were the truth. There was proof, and when I confronted you about it, you denied it. That's what made me furious. You were a liar. But I refused to accept it because I was so attached too to you. Everyone told me that you weren't the right person for me and that anyone else could give me the affection you gave me, but they're wrong. You made me feel as if I was able to breathe. As if I've been underwater for a long time and then coming up to take a big breath of air. I was so hurt. The amount of pain I was in is indefinable. Why did you lie to me? Was I not good enough for you? I told you to leave if you weren't going to be committed to me. I told you I was hurt and that I was scared. I begged you not to use me if you were bored. Yet you still did. And every day, I ask why.

Ive always wanted to be the type of person that someone can watch and they will fall in love with. Just like how I fell for you.

You are driving me insane. If you don’t love me, don’t look at me like that, don’t flirt, don’t touch me on “accident” and then smile

Ur probably over me but I still think about it. Even if it was only the talking stage. I should of never pushed you away hopefully one day you will cr

I can’t figure out how you got me to act so evil. I’ve never treated anyone the way I treated you. I’m sorry I really am. At least now I know I can never have you in my life. You are beyond bad for me.

i finally let you go and i’m glad i did. i did like u , u felt different idk wtf it was abt u that i liked so much but at the end u were jus like everyone else ??‍♀️? i let u go cuz i know my worth nd i wasn’t gonna continue to allow u to treat me like a fucking option. some days i do think about u but the spark isn’t there. it’s more so the memories i think about but u i don’t miss even the sad playlist i have when i play it i dont feel a overwhelming heavy feeling in my chest while i think about u anymore. the spark is gone but i have learned to rlly love myself and not be so clingy when i like someone.

i think i don’t know how to let go because when i stared into your blue eyes, on either side of your little freckled nose, i saw a forever. and now everything else just looks like a temporary mess..

i wish it didn’t hurt so much to love and care about you but we can’t get what we want, i hope you’re happy with her :(

We used to talk all the time and it made me so happy seeing your name pop up on my screen, you stopped texting me all the time and quit having real conversations with me. I want to know what I did wrong. You started ignoring me and talking to everyone else but me. I find myself wondering what would have happened if I told you I like you, would you have stopped talking to all those girls or would you have stopped talking to me. I wish I never got involved with you that way I did because everything I did with you made me more attached and I didn’t want to be. I hope your happy with her while I break down more and more each day asking myself what if.....

you said you loved me but you left. i could tell you hated that i stopped trying to win you. you loved the way i gave u attention but as soon as i stopped you were upset with me

i fell for you so.hard. but I knew I could never tell you, I would rather hide my feelings than lose you completely. i’ll always have feelings deep down but I know you never felt that way about me. there’s no one like you.

sometimes I wonder if you actually love me or if it's just all a dare that your friends tell you would be funny

this is the colour of your eyes. i wish i cold stare at you again, wondering if i mean something to you

I wonder if you write to me on here... I see my name with specific words and it makes me wish you did.

I have loved you since we met, and can’t stop thinking about you. You are the only one and I can’t tell you. I want you to be happy, but I want you to be happy with me. You’re special, I can’t say why but I love you.

I wish I wasn’t so blinded with love. You hurt me so bad I may not be able to love everyone the same.

why? why did you toy with my feelings and acted like you liked me? my friends all told me to stop talking to you because they knew i would end up broken in the end and my brain knew it to but my heart didnt listen and here i am broken. you truly meant alot to me. but my main question is how could you tell me all this meaningful stuff just to ignore me. you cant do that to someone. you made me fall for you just so you could leave in the end. what part of that in your brain makes sense? when we first started snapping i was in a decently dark place but you helped bring me out but here i am two months later back in that dark place because of you. its been a week or two since we last talked and we see each other and i keep thinking something would click in your head and make you think "hey i should probably snap her back" but no, you continue to ignore me. i told my mom about you. i dont know how im gonna tell her that we arent really talking anymore. i miss you and my brain knows i shouldnt but i do and i cant stop. but you probably dont care. so yeah in conclusion fuck you.

I don’t know what to say... but you really hurt me.
To sum it all up I felt like I was just some kind of experiment... but then again I can’t seem to be as happy as I was when I was with you:/

I don’t know what to say... but you really hurt me.
To sum it all up I felt like I was just some kind of experiment... but then again I can’t seem to be as happy as I was when I was with you:/

I used to see love as a vibrant red colour, but ever since you left it’s turned to black.Thanks for that :)

why did you text me like the old us last night and then tonight your back to normal.. as in not texting me. what happened.

why did you text me like the old us last night u texted me like you never even left me.. what happened that made u do that then ghost me today.

you broke me and didnt care. thank you for everything i learned. "i cant have a relationship rn we are both going to college soon" yeah college in the same fucking city....and how is your new girl that you started dating 3 months after we ended things. i hope she breaks your heart

You were a lost Planet. A small solar system trying to find its adrift celestial body. I'll hope you find her one day

Ur excuse to leaving me was telling me u weren’t ready for commitment but in reality u just wanted to be with someone else which hurts. It hurts to know that once again I’m left as the second option. The option that u know u can always come back to. U know ima always be here if needed and thats what hurts that u take advantage of that love I have for u.

Everytime I meet someone new I think about how much it will hurt me when they leave. But, with you it was different. I never thought about that when I was around you but I actually ended up leaving.

I’m sorry I was so horrible to you. I did not realize that I didn’t love you, I didn’t realize I was gay.

Every time I listen to 'Your Graduation' I think about you and wonder how you interpret those lyrics...

Every time I listen to 'Your Graduation' I think about you and wonder how you interpret those lyrics...

We didn't work because we gave our hearts to the wrong people already but it's okay we thought they were the right ones then, now we are too broken to love each other and we both know we are the right ones.

When you said you really wanted be friends after you broke my heart why do you try so hard to avoid me?

You are my bestfriend and I never want to change that, but part of me always wonders what it would be like if we was more than that❤️