You are exactly like him, the man i forever have hatred for. How could you do this knowing you’d hurt me, especially you knowing the things he did.

we were such a mess, we won't ever work out, and idk if its because I care too much and I drive you away, I want us to be together forever but it just isn't healthy. Maybe in another life we were destined but what's meant will always come back or if it truly was would it have ever left ? all these unanswered questions but all I know is I will always be here for you, love you J but I'm letting go for the best once this is posted I won't be looking back.

U’re that type of boy that I always swear Im never gonna fall, but, I think that I did it and... f*ck what it supose that I dot ?

idk what it is about you, you make me want to not talk to anyone else but you, i have to force myself to talk to other guys because i know you’re talking to many other girls, i can tell you’re starting to feel something to but all these girls make me so insecure, you told me i was so beautiful but what about them, they’re bodies are better and they’re just as beautiful, how can i not be insecure? I want to be the only one on your mind just like your the only one on mine. I feel like one day you show all your attention and say your getting attached to me but the next it’s like i’m just another girl. Idk.

I hate writing things down. Because it's proof, but you should know. I'll always have a soft spot for you, and I'll always hate you. I'm sorry I guess.

I still think about you all the time, I see you every day but you're just somebody that I used to know now. I miss you

I'm scared...I'm scared we have gone too far for true feelings to ever be developed into something....I gave you the world but you keep hurting me and somehow i cant get you out of my head...even though im starting to think that leaving you and everything we had may be the best option for me...for my mental health....maybe ill give it a bit longer and then we can come back in a year or so and catch up.... :)) :/

fuck you. i trusted you enough to open up and you still left me. i got no explanation, it’s been 5 months.

what did she have that i didn’t? why did you have to cheat...again? why couldn’t you just love me how i loved you? i have so many questions i’ll never get answers to.

i wish i would’ve told you how i felt when you talked to me. i wish i would’ve told you how much the little moments meant to me. i wish i would’ve told you how i could tell what mood you were in just by a picture. i miss your voice.. you don’t send videos to me anymore. i wish i could forget everything we did. i wish i would’ve told you sooner. i hate you. i want you to be mine again and forget about her. i should’ve told you.

We went from buying a private island to live on it to strangers in one week.
You will always have a special place,even if I don’t.

i wish you knew how much i truly loved you. i miss you so so much it kills me every time i hear your name.

You broke me into a million pieces and you’re the reason i don’t believe true love exists. Yet a part of me still misses you everyday

All I have ever wanted was physical affection, touch is my love language. Because of you, I always flinch.

You said you didn’t want anyone when really you didn’t want me. Two weeks after us you got a new gf. You made me want to die because I wasn’t enough. I tried to kill myself twice because I was so alone. I never told you because you never even asked how I was. I guess it’s because you didn’t care at all.

Remember the night I found an inchworm in your hair? I was in love with you but couldn’t even look you in the eye.

Every time you talk to me about her it kills me. You know how much I feel for you. Why do you do that to me.

I knew you were always going to leave in one way or another, I just wished I salvaged the time we had.

You can’t keep going and coming back like nothings changed. You say you want me and yet act like you don’t. I still love you

Everytime your name comes up I have the urge to protect you and your feelings, even tho you never, even for a second cared about mine

I miss you and honestly it was my fault I felt guilty for wat I did and decided to keep it to myself and break up w you cuz u didn’t deserve from what I did to you and I jus hope you moved on to someone better and be happy as much as I wish that was me and I hope she loves your siblings and your mom the way I did I will always love you and you’ll always have a special place in my heart and if I could go back and change what I did I would but I will always love being with you was like realizing all I ever wanted was right there I felt safe w you in your arms and I wish I told you the real reason y I broke up w you cuz it wasn’t that I lost feeling for you and I had two moths to forget about u since I was moving but now I can’t even go into my old house without getting flashbacks of us every time I blink all I see is all the memories we created in that house and I jus miss you and I wish and pray to god that one day we can see each other and meet again or bump into each other in the future and start all over cuz I believe that we were right person wrong time I love you

Hi. I hope you don’t see this & if you do I’m sorry I had to go away. Life was making me insane and needed some space to breath. But now I think you hate me and don’t want anything to do with me. You thought I just wanted to play games, but whole time I’ve been going to therapy, seeking help, and working on myself. And I don’t want to die anymore, which is a plus.
I don’t know if we will ever speak again and that isn’t up to me. My love for you was so fucking pure. I thought you were the one. Even after you cheated on me. How fucking silly of me. And I can’t decide if I would still think of you today had we been in different circumstances currently. I miss calling you baby, and sleeping in your arms. The thing is I can’t have you and lose you again, that hurt too much the first time. This is getting long yikes I haven’t written you in awhile. I’m proud of you. So fucking proud of you. And I miss you more than you will ever know. Goodbye my love

i am scared to believe that you are actually a hypocrite who forgot about me and still wouldn't apologise. please prove me otherwise

You broke me so hard that I don't think I am going to be enough for anyone. I gave you my soul and sanity. You just spit on them.

as the tears run down my face i write you this in hopes you’ll find it. you know how i told you i cried in the shower that one night well i only told you a small fraction of the whole truth. you’re not the only one who overthinks at 3 a.m. especially if you compare it to me. i miss you every second of the day hoping that if i some how miraculously turn my head a certain way ill find you one morning in my bed or at my door waiting for me yet ik your not gonna be there. it kills me to know that far into the future only one of us will wake up to the sunrise while the other watches from above. i cant imagine my life without you and even i have never felt this way about someone really anyone. talking about our future reminds me of the good times ahead that i just hope won’t change. yet ik one day you’ll find someone who has everything you have dreamed of in a woman while i watch from a distance hoping that you know ill always love you forever no matter what happens. i want a forever with you... a type of forever you’ll never find... the type of forever that our kids will look at and hope that’s what they have in their future. i loved you first and i hope to be the one who loves you last. you’re my one and only... my david william. ~ love, Maria Gerhardus

Sometimes I think of what we had, and my heart breaks. Sometimes I think of what we had, and I want to vomit.

i miss you so much and i know we were bad for each other. i see you now happy with her and it honestly hurts.

you changed me. good and bad. I now know how i should never be treated. I also now know how to love enough for 2 people

hi i miss you. i hope to see you really soon. i hope you're doing ok and that your happy.. um i love you bye

i loved you and you took that and didn’t stop even after i said no. you completely broke me. and i loved you

I don't know what to say. I can't explain what I'm feeling right now. I'm just so hurt. Why did you lie to me? Why did you make me suffer so much pain after I begged you not to hurt me? I opened up to you about my past and told you about him. I told you about how he broke me and how he used me. I was so serious about you, but you took me as a joke and ended up using me because you were bored. Was I not good enough? What did I do? Why did you promise me loyalty if you were going to talk to ten more girls? I'm so tired of wondering where I went wrong for you to use me for your benefit. You hurt me and left me broken and in pain. All my questions remain unanswered because of your constant lies. All I asked was for your honesty. I begged you for it. You knew I needed reassurance. But you didn't give it to me because EVERYTHING you told me was a lie after lie. I even confronted you about lying to me about loyalty, and all you had to say was, ''I don't know what you're talking about''. It's not fair. At all. I gave you my heart and trusted you. But you took it and shattered it, even after I asked you not to. After I found out what you did to me, I lost complete respect for you. I knew I had to let you go. I forcefully stopped loving you because I knew you were wrong for me. I knew you weren't who I pictured you to be. You did so many things behind my back. Things you promised me you'd never do. I'm so hurt by what you did. All the pain you put me through. You moved on after two days. You went to see a girl and left me in despair. You told people lies about me but, why? Did I truly mean nothing to you? What did I mean to you? I'm so curious it hurts me. I just want answers to get closure.

The fact that you dare to miss me gets me so mad. Weren't you the one who let me leave? I left for a good reason. I let you go because I knew you were a lying and manipulating person who couldn't keep his promises. You promised me so much yet lied about it all. You said we would get married. You told me we were forever. But when I left, I didn't see the determination in you to keep me. That's when I knew I had to let go.

i don't get how we can be so good one day and so bad the next? i just want to go back to october and relive all those memories if i knew it was going to end so soon. just know that i want u back.

i wish you knew your impact on the way I see other guys and always compare them to the way you made me feel

you stole almost every single drop of the person I was. I was a shell of myself when I was with you. you made me a worse person. you almost stole who I am away from me. I fucking hate you.

I can't handle the pain that you cause, when I am with you, but when I am alone I wish you were here to get me through this pain.

i thought i would be nothing without you, but now i see how amazing i am. i don’t need you. fuck you

i can openly say it wasn’t love because we don’t/didn’t know what that was but i love the way you’re there right when i need you to listen to my useless stories and help me get over my random. now despite us being completely different we were the same in so many ways. i honestly wish you were more content and confident with in yourself because honestly your beautiful. i love you

You left like our time together meant nothing to you, that nothing ever happened between us. Now you’ve already moved on and are happy with her while I’m left to be broken

hey. I hate that I couldn't make up my mind. I hate that I was too insecure to reciprocate. I hate that I never gave you a proper chance. And I hate that I realized that I liked you after I rejected you. I wish I could set the record straight before our lives completely change... but I feel like its too toxic to call. I don't want to do any more damage.

I want to hate you, but I can't because I love you too much and that is heartbreaking. I hope you're happy with her though, just don't come crawling back when it doesn't work

No one will know me the way you do, I don’t want anyone to. I will never love someone the way I loved you. You’ve ruined all my favorite songs, my favorite places, my favorite foods- all just tiny reminders of someone who I will never be enough for.

I never told anyone this but I’m secretly so insecure and you’re quite literally the only person who ever made me feel normal

You left me when i was the most in love, lost in you. It's been a year and still nobody compares to you.

you haven't smelled like yourself lately. you've started smelling like her and dogs. i know you said you'd never cheat but it's getting harder and harder to believe you

You were all I thought about and you were all I needed but I wasn’t even you’re priority and the worst part is I was okay with that

Even though you'll never know, i hold a place for you in my heart.
But I know my worth now. I'm slowly getting over you.

You’re so much more than what you think you are, and i wish you knew. I’m sorry I was an ass that morning, I love you with my whole entire
heart.

i miss you. i still wonder why it was so easy for you to leave and why i’m still holding on. please come back. i miss our late night talks...the way you would slowdown when you walked beside me so i didn’t have to speed up. i miss your laugh and the face you made when you were surprised. i miss going out of my way to see you in the halls, even if it was just for a moment. i just miss you. Knowing you don’t miss me back is breaking me inside, YOU meant more to me than any other guy. sometimes i ask myself, did i actually mean something to you? or was i just another one of your girls. i wish i could have you back even if it would be just for a moment...

why would you come back in my life and tell me you loved me and tell me all these things I craved to hear? Just to leave? I didn't care the first time you left because there was nothing to hold onto. but you came back. why would you come back? you should just have stayed away. now I care too much