Unsent messages to HIM

I come back to this site daily hoping that u might of wrote to me.
- the girl who gave u too many chances but still waits to give u another

hey! i miss you alot...i hope we could talk more you mean so much to me. but why did u leave me? we were perfect for each other. till our next eclipse, my moon.

I love you. I love you too much, thanks for saving my life but I hate your fucking boyfriend because he doesn't make you happy, It does not give you the affection you deserve.

because of you i lost myself, i started to not act like me anymore, everyone is asking why i changed, and honestly i don't know of it's because of the love that i had for you, or because the fact that you completely broke me

where are you? i pray for you everyday. when time is right come find me and take me away. i will keep praying. i love you.

why is it that i was completely hooked on you, but you didn’t care? you didn’t care that i cared. i still care. i loathe you, but i love you. love you with every single bit of myself. you’re the love that could’ve been, but never was. my first love, i’ll always love you, and i hope that one day you’ll love me too

I wish you had never said how you felt knowing you were never going to act on it. It has left me confused while you go about your life unbothered.

its interesting how a person can love another no matter what is happening between them. i always thought you really loved her, and thats why you would always cheat on me and lie to me. i thought you were choosing her over me because you loved her more than you loved me, but eventually i figured it out. you never loved me. never loved her more than me too. i was just your plan z. i dont know about her and about what you truly feel towards her but what i will never forget is how you lied to me throughout the years and told me you hated her. it was funny of me to believe after all what you put me through. i dont know what to do. you always chose others over me, and thats why you have someone new now. i cant love because of you, i let some boy treat me like an option and thats all on you. you damaged me and theres no going back. you broke my heart and i just wonder if you ever think of what you did to me

I’ll wait. No matter how long it takes. I want no one else. I love you, and only you. Your the best I promise.

I'm thankful for what you did to me even though we were only 5-10 I'm not entirely sure how I feel about you still but I haven't quite figured out the concept of love yet so I'm not sure what i felt towards you or if i still feel it. i know we aren't together for the best but i wish instead of messing with eachother when we were way to young to feel anything that we couldve done it all now so i could figure out if im done with you or not. you still pop up in my dreams and surprisingly i still enjoy them none the less. i dont remember much when i was with you because we were so young but i know that i thought we were going to be together forever. but things changed, you changed. you began getting all cocky and rude. first to everyone and then to me. thats when you decided to end things. i acted like it didnt bother me one bit because it didnt but now im older and i realise what ive list. i know you like my bestfriend and it pains me to see how happy she makes you (even though she isnt interested) it still hurts to see thats shes getting all the attention. if i could do it all again i would without a doubt. to see what we had was real or just some childsh friendship. im not sure if i entirely loved you or i loved the thought of you and i know that you loved the idea/thought of me. i could tell when you began to loose interest i could see it so clearly i just played it off but we drifted. i feel so pathetic because we werent even really together but i wish we were. i wish i was a different person, the person you wanted. and if i could i would. but dressing and being how i am makes me happy. i know you think im some complete weirdo now and think im gay for the way i dress. i wish i was back in primary school so we could do it all over again because i know id do things differently. i wish i could restart my whole life so i could go to the same school as you. so i could live a different life be a different person. but everything happens for a reason and even though im not sure i want somethings to happen i know ill benefit from them in the future. i think i still love you and i would kill just to be with you- to feel your touch, your smell. seeing you when you were with her made me sick to my stomach everytime someone bought it up i pushed it to the back of my mind. i honestly couldnt bare it. you arent a very nice person- you say slurs, you body shame and probably way worse. in my mind your you but your not. your who i wish you were. you may have the same looks and the same name but you actually love me and are kind. i think im always going to have feelings for you. i love you

trying to let go of my claim on you. hope whoever u end up with treats u well my sweet boy. i love you, always

I never told anyone this but I’m secretly so insecure and you’re quite literally the only person who ever made me feel normal

hey. I hate that I couldn't make up my mind. I hate that I was too insecure to reciprocate. I hate that I never gave you a proper chance. And I hate that I realized that I liked you after I rejected you. I wish I could set the record straight before our lives completely change... but I feel like its too toxic to call. I don't want to do any more damage.

you stole almost every single drop of the person I was. I was a shell of myself when I was with you. you made me a worse person. you almost stole who I am away from me. I fucking hate you.

hi i miss you. i hope to see you really soon. i hope you're doing ok and that your happy.. um i love you bye

i miss you so much and i know we were bad for each other. i see you now happy with her and it honestly hurts.

Every time you talk to me about her it kills me. You know how much I feel for you. Why do you do that to me.

we were such a mess, we won't ever work out, and idk if its because I care too much and I drive you away, I want us to be together forever but it just isn't healthy. Maybe in another life we were destined but what's meant will always come back or if it truly was would it have ever left ? all these unanswered questions but all I know is I will always be here for you, love you J but I'm letting go for the best once this is posted I won't be looking back.

i didn’t know how much of a creature of habit i was until you left and there was a ‘you’-sized gap on the bed.

When I look around, all I can see is your face and how much love I have for you. But you're not here anymore. I've been replaced.

im so confused. how did you switch up so fast? i thought we could be something. i just want u. i want you to like me back. i need you and you dont even want me.

I choose pink because I remember that that was your favorite color even though you never wanted to admit it. I hope you never see this but idk how to tell you that I still love you. I moved too fast and ruined everything.

if you haven't figured yourself out. why would you lead me on for a month then say you aren't ready out of nowhere then breakup with me

why? why did you toy with my feelings and acted like you liked me? my friends all told me to stop talking to you because they knew i would end up broken in the end and my brain knew it to but my heart didnt listen and here i am broken. you truly meant alot to me. but my main question is how could you tell me all this meaningful stuff just to ignore me. you cant do that to someone. you made me fall for you just so you could leave in the end. what part of that in your brain makes sense? when we first started snapping i was in a decently dark place but you helped bring me out but here i am two months later back in that dark place because of you. its been a week or two since we last talked and we see each other and i keep thinking something would click in your head and make you think "hey i should probably snap her back" but no, you continue to ignore me. i told my mom about you. i dont know how im gonna tell her that we arent really talking anymore. i miss you and my brain knows i shouldnt but i do and i cant stop. but you probably dont care. so yeah in conclusion fuck you.

you loved me first, but got with her. i was the first choice then became the second. why did you lead me on?

fuck you. for not fighting for me. for giving up on us. and you're right, I am better off without you.

I have met so many people, yet you are the only one that makes me smile, cry, hate and love all at the same time.

hi.i miss you. i don't know what happened.i miss crying to you on the phone and you promising you'd never leave. its okay i don't blame you. do you still feel like you have to compete with your brother? you don't baby i promise. i love you. please come back

As much as I want to hide it, I still like you and I don't want to feel this fucking feeling anymore because I'm hurting myself ... it bothers me that you talk to me about other girls even though you know my damn feelings

we went from talking everyday to strangers, u loved me bc u were bored, u broke my heart and lied, fuck you

Hi. I hope we will end where I want us to end. I hope you will stay in my life for as long as you can.
I've never felt so safe with someone and you always succeed in making me smile.
I love you

I no longer wait for your replies like how I used too. Sure I still get excited when you text but I'm not wasting my time waiting for your reply. I'm proud of myself and I hope you miss me :))

when it’s a really bad night, i turn my airplane mode on and text u all the things i wish i could say.

It's been a while, I do not miss you, but I know you miss me. I grew as a person and learned to let go. It was probably the worst kind of pain I had to go through. Forcibly letting someone you truly loved out of your life. I thank myself every day for being strong and for letting go when I needed to the most. I am still hurt, but eventually, I will grow and learn that you are not my genuine person. I still believe that somewhere in you, you're still the boy I first met. But I now know otherwise. And I'm happy I do because if I stayed, I would have gotten hurt even more. You may not have been a blessing, but you were a lesson. You taught me the worst kind of pain. And I'm still upset about everything you put me through. Yet, I forgave you because I was the bigger person. You stooped so low by making these immature decisions. You lowered the bar by a lot. And you still miss me? That's absurd. You have zero right to want me back, not after what you did. You hurt me. But, as I said, I still forgave you. I never want to hear your name, ever.

I was the worst in our relationship.
You were so good and you were listening and I.....I ruined everything!
Please forgive me...

When you left it hurt so bad. It still hurts whenever you text me and you did break me. It's ok though. I can't forgive you yet but I promise I will xx

you took away the pain. and thats all i needed from you at first. but when you held my head when you hugged me. but when you looked into my eyes and smirked.
but when you pressed my body against yours. but when you held me when i was shaking. but when you said you loved me. but when you held my face. but when you told me you loved the things i was insecure about without telling you i was.
then i needed alot more than i thought.

hey,
Ik spreek je niet meer, maar wauw perfectie ben je. Ik wil dat alles terug gaat zoals het was. Ik mis je.

Every day I feel guilty looking at you, because I know I'm only with you because I can't be with him.

I love everything about you, your smile, eyes etc.. but i hate how you love her. It's not fair to have this unrequited love for you.

Why say stuff you don’t mean nor show. For the record, I would’ve broken every principle I have for you.

Even if it was fake for you it was real for me. I can't stop loving you as easily as you stopped loving me.

sometimes i still wonder what could have been. i went to the store where we went on our first date and bought that subpar candy we tried. i ate it in my car alone and listened to the songs you said you could listen to for the rest of your life. i don't know if i miss you or if I'm lonely. i'm not sure why it can't be both.

you told me you would not play me cuz you knew how much it hurt but here I am, very much played, very much hurt

you broke me into pieces, put me through hell, ruined my mental health, stopped me from believing in love again but yet im still hoping for you.

i’m sorry i pushed you away. i was scared of losing you. but i guess i pushed you away so far i lost you accidentally.

i’m so in love with you it’s just like weird i hate you so much but your like so perfect and i just wanna be with you but i know it wouldn’t work out , you are the one for me i know but hey maybe it’s just like trying to fit a puzzle piece into a piggy bank gap yk ? lol

Its so hard to hear you, see you. Like my heart skips a beat everytime…i miss your hugs(and i could really use one now)..

I know that retweet was for me and i hate u. Just stop doing things for me to hate u. Im becoming a bad person slowly

i really did care for you even tho we weren’t together you were like my brother and one little thing ruined it all and i miss you so much