Unsent messages to HIM

For so long I was blinded by who you really were because I so badly wanted you to be the person I thought I knew.

I love being your friend. But you're so sweet and caring, its hard to not think about how happy you make me. You deserve the world.

You still remain the only person I trust to tell all my secrets and difficulties. To open my heart, in fact

You still remain the only person I trust to tell all my secrets and difficulties. Open my heart, in fact

If only you could just apologize, and actually mean it. What you did to me that night I will never forget.

I dreamt about you it was the first time I dreamt of a life where I was older and we were together and in love i know it’ll never happen but I’ll keep dreaming

I lied I still liked you but it’s better for you to be with someone who isn’t mentally drained. Hope you’re happy you deserve it

fuck you. i tried so hard everyday to not get mad at you when all you did was play your stupid fucking video games and ignore me to talk to your "friends" who'd only treat you like shit. i don't get it. i don't get it at all. even when you were with her i made sure you were always happy. after we started dating i made sure you were happy. i wish i didn't have to beg you to love me back. fuck you for breaking my heart. fuck you for telling me that you loved me and losing feelings a week later. fuck you for messing with me because your friends "told you to". and honestly fuck me. i fucking hate myself for still caring. for still loving you when all you did was hurt me. i wonder how many times i forgave you just because i didn't want to lose you. and you know what, i still lost you. you made me feel like i was never good enough. i wasn't good enough. you loved her. why couldn't you love me like that. you moved on while i'm trying to figure out where it all went wrong. you made me feel complete, but broke me at the same time. it's been almost a month but i still get excited when i hear my ringtone or finish practice because i'm expecting a text from you. if you could see how awful you made me feel, you would never be able to look me in the eyes again. i hate myself for still caring you, but now i really don't know what to feel. i still love you but i hope you find the girl who makes you happy. the brunette with brown eyes and big boobs. the girl who'll play video games with you. the girl i couldn't be.

thank you for everything, but I do not have the energy anmore. you broke my heart twice and ig that's enough

You give so much love but you are blind to the love you receive. I hope one day you will see how truly beloved you are

The police were brutal to the protesters last night and I was just glad that you weren't there. I miss you.

this is me saying goodbye becuase the love i feel you cannot excuse the pain you have put me through and even though thinking of you still makes my heart ache i need to let go of you to make myself better and to move on to a future that doesnt include you and the mind games you play, feeding me fables from your hand

I feel so hopeless watching you love someone else. I wanted to be the one who made you happy. But as long as you're happy :)

i cant get the nerve to tell you to ur face or thru a screen but I think I like u yet i don't want to mess up our friendship.

We were unstoppable, and beyond perfect for each other. Religion split us apart. My heart still aches for you before my slumber.

Don't you know that loving others requires loving yourself. I guess that's why you can't find true love

What hurts most is that you still fail at loving yourself. Why is it that everyone loves you but yourself

too young for love, may we meet again when our mindsets are mature enough to hold a stable relationship.

You never really showed me how you felt, I don't even know if you really cared. If only you had said something.
I really like you, I still like you. Hope you are doing great.

i think i love u. it’s written all over my face when i see u. i know u know...so why won’t u acknowledge it?

I hope I cross your mind once in a while so I don’t feel pathetic for thinking about you all the time.

I hope I cross your mind once in a while so I don’t feel pathetic for thinking about you all the time

sometimes i take your sweatshirt and wrap it around me the way you used to hold me, the way you now hold her

sometimes i take your sweatshirt and wrap it around me the way you used to hold me, the way you now hold her

Some days i miss you more than anything in this world, and when im sleeping my body still makes your room in my bed, why did you just leave?

i will always love you even though you'd pick her over me anyway. it feels like i'm ding yet i can't stop loving you. i knew from the beginning we would never work out, but i prayed so hard we would. i hope she makes you happier than i ever could.

It’s been 1 year and 5 months since i started liking you. I can’t tell you my feelings since you like somebody else...

Even though you'll never know, i hold a place for you in my heart.
But I know my worth now. I'm slowly getting over you.

I miss you and honestly it was my fault I felt guilty for wat I did and decided to keep it to myself and break up w you cuz u didn’t deserve from what I did to you and I jus hope you moved on to someone better and be happy as much as I wish that was me and I hope she loves your siblings and your mom the way I did I will always love you and you’ll always have a special place in my heart and if I could go back and change what I did I would but I will always love being with you was like realizing all I ever wanted was right there I felt safe w you in your arms and I wish I told you the real reason y I broke up w you cuz it wasn’t that I lost feeling for you and I had two moths to forget about u since I was moving but now I can’t even go into my old house without getting flashbacks of us every time I blink all I see is all the memories we created in that house and I jus miss you and I wish and pray to god that one day we can see each other and meet again or bump into each other in the future and start all over cuz I believe that we were right person wrong time I love you

You said you didn’t want anyone when really you didn’t want me. Two weeks after us you got a new gf. You made me want to die because I wasn’t enough. I tried to kill myself twice because I was so alone. I never told you because you never even asked how I was. I guess it’s because you didn’t care at all.

I hate writing things down. Because it's proof, but you should know. I'll always have a soft spot for you, and I'll always hate you. I'm sorry I guess.

When you said you really wanted be friends after you broke my heart why do you try so hard to avoid me?

why did you text me like the old us last night u texted me like you never even left me.. what happened that made u do that then ghost me today.

why did you text me like the old us last night and then tonight your back to normal.. as in not texting me. what happened.

I don’t know what to say... but you really hurt me.
To sum it all up I felt like I was just some kind of experiment... but then again I can’t seem to be as happy as I was when I was with you:/

I don’t know what to say... but you really hurt me.
To sum it all up I felt like I was just some kind of experiment... but then again I can’t seem to be as happy as I was when I was with you:/

No matter how many times you hurt me with what you did
I would never be bad for you anyway... and that’s the problem

No matter how many times you hurt me with what you did
I would never be bad for you anyway... and that’s the problem

you know what drives me crazy? that in every second of my whole life i would never say no to going back to you. i would change my whole damn life in one second, just for you.

i cant belive how much time i wasted on you. it was like 2 and half years. and i didnt mean shit to u i wish i could go back in time. and u know what kills me the most is that i was fine before i met u. and while i stil loved u but u idndt like me i had so many chances ttaht i didnt take because i still loved you, wow. and now im just so tired. so fucking tired of waking up every day. its so hard, i feel like theres no one to be there for me. i always try to be there for anyone and everyone but its so hard to stay alive. i lost intreseted in staying alive. someone told me that. and omg i realted so much but i helped him instead of saying "same" that guy doesnt even like me anymore. i put in so much time and effort to people that dont even like me anymore and its so fusturating. i dont know y i love so quickly. and idk why i would ever tell u this ig but i think its bcuz u made me like this. i loved u so fuckign much man. i wish i said so much more when i had the chance but now its like we are just friends that are friends bcuz we have the same friends. u dont even think about me, its so annoying how i care so much. and soemthing is going good in my life but no its not anymore. i just cant stop thinking. i want something good to happen to me.i cant even cry anymore. im so numb sometimes. u made me love and care for anyone to much idekwhy u would do that i dont know how to explain anything u did to me idk if u ever thinnk about me idk how to explain anuthing im feeling rn all i want is a hug life gets so hard people expcet somuch for me it makes me not wanna be here anymore. i cant control my feelings too anymore, theres this new guy (btw im telling u this bcuz before i cauhgt feelings we were bestfriends and this is something i would tell u) anyways i like this kid sm but ofc hes talking to someone, but he legit flirted w me and eveyrthing like cmon man u couldve told me something before. and before that i liked this kid and ofc the prettier bettergirl came and stole him for me ig. life is so fucking boring. i feel like im trapped, i wake up in the same position everyday. ur the one that i loved and even tho u never felt thesame i will never forgot. idek what this is, its all over the place, i dont get it. i dont get anything,, i tried so hard for u. i still do, icare so much like omg stop.

why her and not me? I fucking adore you, please come back one day you’re the only thing keeping me here.
Don’t want me back when I’m gone.
All my love, S

I thought u were in love with me but u make me feel so sad rn
I’m gonna love u forever and that hurts

I've always been drawn to you and its hard to ignore that feeling. You confuse me, you seem like you love me with all your heart but then the next minute you make me feel so insecure and I start hating myself like it's my fault. Yet I still love you. So please come back to me without that toxic masculinity idea because guys are cuter when they actually genuinely show they love a girl. I miss you.

I know your going to break my heart one day, I say I trust you but after everything, I just don’t. I’m madly in love with you so when you do eventually crush my heart, I’ll know the time we have head together has been life changing but please don’t break my head you mean everything to me

I miss you more, everyday. I miss laying next to you. I miss feeling safe in your arms. You made me the happiest I’ve ever been.

I want to be with you so bad, i say that i dont want a relationship but i do with you. I just cant take the risk of losing you. I love you.

please come back, tell me you regret leaving...tell me that you miss me and that you still love me. i need you, you were the only person i had, please come back...with you I'm happy.

sometimes when i hear the sounds of the waves i think about you and become so grateful for the way you left me, in silence

so why did you lie to me? why did you tell me you liked me and then pretended you didn’t when you know how much i liked ? why did you leave me for her? and most importantly, why wasn’t i got enough?

I need you. So bad. And I wish you loved me back because I can’t imagine you holding anyone else the way you held me.