Unsent messages to ETHAN

Don’t tell me you were afraid of hurting her, that’s bullshit, you saw what she was doing to me, to us, yet clearly it meant nothing to you... I expected better

What a sweet, innocent crush I've had on you for the longest time. But you definitely don't like me back, though you may have at one point.

i know you only said you loved me bc i needed to hear it but it hurts knowing you say that to others now

hey ethan. we haven’t talked in a long time. i miss you. you were one of my best friends and now you’re not and i wish you would come back

i’ve liked you for 4 years and i still do. but of course you chose my shorter, prettier, blonde best friend. even tho i wish that i was in her place right now, i hope you are truly happy.

Hey,
I know it’s been a while and you asked for space but I don’t know I just wanted to talk to you. I want to talk to you all the time but I can’t and it’s so hard. I miss you so much. I’m so sorry for getting drunk at your house I’m so embarrassed that I did but you were so good to me that night taking care of me, I told my friends the next day that I think I fell more in love with you after that. I don’t know what I did wrong with us, I thought everything was going so good and then it just ended. Those few months we had together were some of the best of my life, you’re everything I have ever wanted. All I do is cry now, On top of you leaving me and accutane And school I’ve gotten so depressed. I never thought I would say I have depression but here I am, the happiest girl alive, the saddest. Ethan I just want you back, you hurt me so bad yet I would still break my back for you. I know you asked kaden if I hate you and no Ethan I don’t hate you, I hate the way my heart broke when you left me, and is still breaking. I don’t know when you will be ready to come back to me but I pray it’s not too late. I just want to be back in your arms, loved by you. I feel like I’m drowning waiting to be saved. Please save me baby. I love you.

when the time of us ending comes, i know i will be ready. for things that all end; from the finishing sips of the large smoothie that i hoped would last, i was full and accepted the drink was over. it will apply with us. when you diminish from me, i will be ready for your leaving.

i wish i was more than an emotional support animal to you now. i remember when i could feel how much you liked me back.

i loved you so much, i dont know what went wrong. we were in so much love. we talked about a future together, we had it all planned out. what went wrong? u still tell me you love me sometimes and i think thats what hurts the most. i want u back in my life, it was better that way. you make me the better me. we are meant for each other, i wish u would come back. i love u so much echin, please come back

thank you for making me one of the happiest people in the world. i miss you everyday and i want to be there with you forever. you exist in me, and i possibly couldnt have paid you back for what you've given me. it hurts to be madly in love with someone you can't have

i love you , its true . why did you lie to me . i saw a future . you lied and treated me like shit . you ruined me like everyone else did . i hate that i still love you . i wish you would come back to me and get out of that toxic relationship . you know i never liked him .

you made me feel like nobody else has before. ill always remember you and a part of me will always love you no matter how old we get. you will always have a special part of my heart but ill never let you know that, i still care and love for you.

I’ll never forget you and how blindly in love with you I was however I’ll never look at the past year the same again . Thank you for giving up because I would of never let go otherwise

No love has felt the same since, I wish things would have turned out differently. Sometimes I think that we'll find our way back to eachother even though we're so different now.

We loved each other’s soul so pure and raw. I think I’ll never be able to replace what we use to had.

Baby If I fall in love again. Promise me we will find our way back to each other in another life time.

Baby if I fall in love again. Please promise me,In another life time we’ll find each other and fall in love again.

where do I even start haha. we met I fell in love you didn't but you made me believe that you were in love when in reality I was just another one of your girls. I fell so hard for you, you couldn't even begin to imagine how many sentences a day I would talk about you to everyone. to my sister, to my friends. they were probably sick of hearing your name come out of my mouth but did that stop me no. because I was so in love with you. I wanted to tell you everything, I wanted to talk to you but you didn't and that's what broke me the most. And when I told you about it you didn't, believe me, you made me think I was crazy for thinking this but in reality, I wasn't I was right.

still think abt how happy you made me. Maybe in another life. I still talk to god about you. love you shu

i listened to dear april and it reminded me of you. i just realized that the thought of you doesn't make me upset anymore. i hope you find something very authentic and beautiful one day.

I wish we would’ve waited to reconnect because I’m ready to be friends again but I wasn’t before and because of that you and I made a mess of things. Now we’re strangers. I miss talking to you so much. I hope you know I loved you for exactly what you are and no other reason but that.

imagine talking to another girl when you were telling me different and then kissing someone the same day you were calling me your "girlfriend" have fun without me milk breath

you embarassed yourself by lying to me and now im doing better without you because you gave me the confidence i now have so thanks for helping me thrive whilst youre sat in your room sad because no one likes you anymore especially me :) good luck with all the other girls btw i wish you the best i guess

I smiled, laughed, cried and hated myself but I was okay with that. because no matter what you made me feel it would never overcome my love for you.

sometimes I wish I had done things differently, if I did the outcome wouldve been much less painfull.

It was unfair of you to hold such double standards for me. You took and took from me until I was done. And after it all I still wish you the best :/

I miss you. I loved you even tho i never said it. I’m sorry I ruined it. I’m sorry we couldn’t make it. Maybe we’ll come back another time and it’ll be just like the old times. Please call me. I’ll always be here

every time we break it off i miss you and every time we come back i regret it. i don’t know if you’re the one but i really wanted you to be.

I still look for you in every person I meet but all I want is for you to be happy. I’m so proud of you shu

You were the first person I ever fell in love with. You held my hand for the first time and taught me so much. We don't speak now but I appreciate what you've done for me.

You can keep acting like you don’t care all you want. But we both know we weren’t supposed to end up this way.

did u ever actually give a fuck i am in fucking pieces i hate the person i am you were all i had i just can’t do this

Please keep dreaming! You will run a thousand miles, climb tall mountains, and reach for the stars. I love you❤️

I’m to letting go of what was once we had. I waited long enough. I should have listened when you said I deserve so much better.

i rushed you. i fell too quickly and that scared you. we were so great together but something in you changed. your feelings changed towards me. you left and it hurts so bad.

We were never going to work and trust me I never expected us to, you were just my summer romance as they say but that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt when you left. I am me and you are you. Sometimes, I find myself lying awake wondering if your there thinking about me too. I miss your laugh it gave me hope that for a while everything was going to be ok. You weren’t good for me at all and I knew that. That’s the issue with you and I, I only ever seem to see the good in people no matter how small.

You broke me. You hurt me. You left me for her. But somehow I end up forgiving you. I still love you.

im sorry im not more active in talking with you i know how you feel and i just feel like im walking all over you i dont know if youre good for me or bad but i dont care im never going to stop taking to you as long as im alive

i wish i understood why you left me, but at least you taught me it's okay to love and be loved. i miss you everyday and i wish you knew it.

I still don't understand why you left. Did she have something that I don't? Was I not good enough?
Was I unworthy?

I’m glad that the stars lied, you’re never coming back:,>because You don’t deserve the woman I have become.

i really wanted you. i did. but you were out of my league and you didn’t notice me. i don’t blame you at all. i wish we were friends ;(

you're literally drop dead gorgeous and really funny and your laugh is best thing to hear but a girl like me doesn't stand a chance with a guy like you. i hate that so much :///

i shared a lot w/ you that night that maybe i shouldn’t have shared. i shared it because i loved you. i liked you a lot. i miss the old you. i wouldn’t regret sharing it with you if you were your past self. i don’t know why you turned out this way or how but whatever. i love u. i’ll never even stop loving you.

u can finally drive!! pls come back so we can drive to get chicfila and watch the stars like u promised.

no matter the terms we ended on, i still want the best for you. i dont hate you, i hate who you have become. youve become the person you said you would never be. i just miss you. what happened to my best friend?

i miss you everyday. even though you tried to keep us together in the end we both knew we had to let each other go. we’re not talking right now and it’s kind of hard but i know it’s for the best. whenever or if we even do decide to reconnect i hope we’re both healthy, our best selves or at least working to get there, and moved on from each other. because i know i can’t let myself talk to you again when i still have feelings for you or if you still have feelings for me. it’s selfish both ways. i guess i’m mad at myself for how much i love you because i’m not making it any easier for myself to let you go. i wish you nothing but the best and so much happiness.

i chose this faint pink bc that sums up how i feel about you. the love i feel for you has always been faint, but it never went away. Not that you know how i feel lol. But yeah i like you. i wish your depression would go away, i want to help you. hope your doing better :)

do you accually care about me or do you just wanna fuck. im okay either way i just wanna know who im falling into knowing theres a 50 50 chance youll catch me.

why'd u do this to me man. its been like 2 years and i have a girlfriend now and really happy but man. you fucked me up bad. you were there for me in the peak of my depression and damn man. you really just left me like that. you left to change for the worse lol. in reality youre a fucking pussy who doesnt deserve shit. you were so sweet but now you're racist, homophobic, and transphobic? absolute shit. yet i still like the idea i created of you inside my head and now im struggling to keep my relationship cause of you. fuck you bro. you fucked me up so bad. all those facetimes, texting, calling, and playing games together really meant nothing to you. i know you dont miss me. i wasn't pretty. but i was sweeter and much more caring than now. fuck you lol