you treated me like i was a whore. you cared so badly about being my first that you stopped caring about me.

i think i could tell you were gonna break up with me, but i took the liberty to do it first. i didn't want to, but i knew you stopped caring. i'm sorry you don't think we could've stayed friends.

Hi boo,
You look really good in black so I wanted to do that color for this but I know your favorite is purple. Every time i see purple I think about you. I think about when we layed in the hammock and you played a 60s music playlist. We layed there listening we didnt say anything. The sun was poring through the trees holding us up. You ran your fingers across my face gently. I loved when you did that it calmed me down and made me feel special. Then you asked me when you wanted to get married. You were always so sure we would get married. Why did that change? I remember the day you asked me how long do you think we'll last? I answered I don't know I don't want to jinx it. I really thought you were asking because you wanted me to say forever. Not tell later did I piece together that you had asked me because you were talking to your ex and telling her you would end things with me. I wish you couldve seen me when I found out. Even if you had seen it I know you would care because why would you do it in the first place. I had to have one of her friends tell me. I was shaking. It hurt so bad. I wanted you to know how much it hurt and I tried to tell you but you didnt care. I wanted to confront you in your face and tell you I knew but i couldnt. I got halfway there but I couldnt do it. Matt was there though I saw him and I broke down. All I said was he cheated and he pulled me into the tightest hug. Of course you saw that and jumped to conclusions. That isnt even the worst thing youve done. I hate you. You are a horrible person so why do I wish so badly you woud change and come back to me. I want to be with you forever. You are the only person that makes me feel this way.

I loved you so much I loved when you sang me to sleep and how you made me feel special and I still love you

this was the color of the hoodie you gave me. its been four months yet i still talk, and think about you everyday. please be okay with coming back to me eventually. there's so much i need to explain but just know i still and will always love you. please.

You hate me for reading your messages but you dont understand how long i waited for you only for you to tell her those things.

Im so glad with how far, youve came. Your such a good person to have in my life. Its a blessing that you let god into your life.

I miss talking to you till the sun came up when neither of us could fall asleep and I miss being able to just talk and laugh with you. I remember the first time you kissed me I could feel/hear your heart beat and falling asleep with you was one of the nicest feelings in the world. I miss being your friend. I miss you. I don’t have that special someone who somehow makes me magically feel okay anymore, just seeing your name pop up on my phone made me smile. I can’t do, watch or listen to certain things without thinking about you now. I wish things didn’t change between us because I really liked the way things were. I think the saddest part is that I was genuinely falling for you but you were still thinking about her....I’ve been learning how to be better. I’m (trying) to learn how to find happiness and worth within myself, without the constant validation of others. I’m not there yet but when I am it’ll be nice. I wish you didn’t change, you used to be a sweet and genuine person who was too afraid to kiss a girl but then you changed into something different... I know this “letter” is all over the place but I think that’s fitting

You were only a crush, a big one. When I first saw you walk into social studies in 8 grade I got butterflies. That whole year was filled with short glances hoping you would notice me. It was all good until you started dating her. I still had feelings for you then and even in 9 grade when you dated whateva her name was. I dream of what it what it would be like to be with you. I really liked you buh ig it was for the best. Hope you’re happy

I hope you’re doing well , when we went our separate ways I told myself that I would never love again . I hate you but I love you for our memories

The future is scary and uncertain, but I am certain that I want you in it. I just hope you want the same.

Extraño verte hacer cosas graciosas, solo quería que me notaras, quería ver anime juntos, tener el lujo de decirte "Darling", quería una oportunidad de hacerme notar.

I should've treated you so much better maybe if I did you'd be here today. I miss your family so much. I hope the best for all of you.

I should have treated you better maybe if i did you’d be here today. I miss your family and i hope the best for you all .

i wanted to ask you out so bad the first time i saw you, but i was too scared and i’ll never get that chance ever again.

hi ethan i dont really know how to start this other than I miss you. a lot actually. and I don't know how else to tell you because you're with her now and I cant change that. shes great actually shes pretty and nice and shes a strong person. something I never could be. i know its been a long time since we have talked but I still think about you I think about you almost every day. i want to text you so bad and ask how you are. how you're day was. but I cant. and its slowly killing me. i miss you more than anything. please come back.

i miss you dude. you’re perfect and we were perfect for each other, but we’ve both moved on. i guess.

i just want to be able to talk to you somehow and someway, you make me feel something i’ve never felt before.

I’m not the one you’ll wake up to in the morning; one day you’ll find her and she’ll love you like you deserve.

you’ll never know how much i love and miss you, only if we could have a second chance, but you’ve changed

i don’t regret what happened but i hate that it’s your name i’ll tell my kids when they ask who my first kiss was. well... my first everything really.

I loved you, which is why you got away with taking so much of me. Even now I give it to you, I hate myself for it

was i just not good enough? what was it that you had to pick her and not me? why did you even have to make a choice?

E I still pray for you every night that your safe and healthy. even though you broke me I still love you

i hate you so much for how you treated me and continue to treat me even after you broke up with me. i gave you everything i could give and i wasn't enough. you couldn't be loyal adn you couldn't be honest ever. the only thing i hate more is that i still miss you and a part of me is waiting for you to come back.

i’m struggling really bad rn and i don’t know what to do, all i want to do is talk to u but i can’t. i’m lost. i swuv you

Where did I go wrong? We loved each other and relationship was so strong. Unless you lied... I know exactly where i wanted to live with you and what our house would look like. I knew how many kids we would have and what they would each look like, one girl with wavy brown hair and a boy with curly blonde hair. I just know they would be so cute. I was so excited to marry you but you just gave up, you fell out of love. This was your favorite color while we were together, i dont know if it still is because you never talk to me anymore. i wish i had another chance because ik exactly what i would change

I can't love anyone but you. I only want you. I wished you loved me the way I love you. I've tried giving you distance but I regret it now. I'm too shy to say but I want you to stay.

You were stuck, I showed you love and left just as quick. The worst decision I made was being there in the first place.

you only wrote these and showed me when you were begging me not to leave. i see you never loved me now

i feel like i ruined everything. i miss talking to you everyday and getting to see you. i know you didn’t want anything serious, but i really wanted you to be my person. i still do. but there is so much working against it. you’re still not healed and go to school out of state. this would’ve happened eventually. just know i respect you and your decision. maybe in another lifetime, nerd. (also, notice the color i chose? i miss you and our purple hearts.)

You make me feel like coke. You make my mouth numb and my body shake. I wish we could go back to that first day in the summer when we snuck around and things were okay.

I hope you grow into the person I always thought you were. Time has healed, but i never want you back in my life..

i still love you and i know things will never be the same but being friends hurts too bad. i wish u understood how I felt. i miss the old you so much.

i- i know i shouldnt have told u how i really felt about u. it has taken me a long time to get over u, but i think ive finally done it.

how did you manage to make me fall for you so quick? you could shatter me and i would still let you in.

whats the point of being besties when we both know we like each other? all that accomplished was hurt feelings and being on different pages

i canNOT believe, after hiding my feelings for so long, i poured my heart out to u and u said "this is just bad timing" and "i dont want to ruin our friendship"

you made me feel like myself again..the first boy I ever showed my true self to. You understood me and continued to treat me kindly. I wish you the best. Goodbye monkey.

from the bottom of my heart i love you so much still despite it hurting me . the past nearly 4 months have been hard without you . it is starting to get bad again , the sad nights , the days i dont have anything to eat, its a big struggle again. i am completely jealous of how youve moved on . its amazing how strong youve been .

Im always going to love you, you saved me. Thank you for being my best friend, I cherished the every other day we spent together for months. Hopefully we reunite one day

i know it's really over for good this time but i'll love you f&a, e. maybe in some other lifetime or somewhere down the road we might meet up at the right time.

you were who made me the happiest. you were my best friend and when i lost my friends you were there for me. i felt on top of the world when we were together, i was the happiest girl ever. you treated me the best anyone could have ever, you taught me what i wanted in a guy. i would do anything to have the feeling back that i had when we were together. i miss you more than i ever thought i could miss someone. you meant the world to me and everything i did and still do is for you. everything reminds me of you. every night i go to sleep thinking about us and how we used to be. i never got to tell you but i just want to thank for you making me feel so special.

hi my favorite tall blonde bitch, u will never see this but i just wanted to say i kinda have a crush on you...

I miss u. I wish it was as easy to get over u as it was for u. i’m always gonna love you and it hurts

i honestly miss you. but I can’t trust you. i don’t know if anything you’ve said was true, I don’t even know if it would be true if you came back. how do I know? how can I know?

you're my best friend and i just want you to be happy. you're one of the best people i know and i don't know what i'd do without you. i love you.

english class; freshman year, we locked eyes for the first time and i instantly had this feeling, i know in my heart you did too. i remember catching you staring at me, just know my heart was pounding. i know how badly we wanted to talk but our fear got in the way, i regret that every time i hear your name. fast forward junior year i see you with your girlfriend, you guys seem happy so i try and let you go. but you had the nerve to gaze at me; thinking what we could’ve been, i could see the regret in your eyes. we’re 19 now, i think about you now and then. all i want to know is if what we had was real?

english class; freshman year, we locked eyes for the first time and i instantly had this feeling, i know in my heart you did too. i remember catching you staring at me, just know my heart was pounding. i know how badly we wanted to talk but our fear got in the way, i regret that every time i hear your name. fast forward junior year i see you with your girlfriend, you guys seem happy so i try and let you go. but you had the nerve to gaze at me; thinking what we could’ve been, i could see the regret in your eyes. we’re 19 now, i think about you now and then. all i want to know is if what we had was real?

i really cared about you. took you for granted at times. i feel like we could've been something amazing. you were so funny and willing to do so much for me. you hurt me though and i hurt you. and we can never re establish what we had :(