Unsent messages to ETHAN
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 16, 2020, 4:30 pm UTC
you were my first love. now i am relieved that you were not my first kiss. now i am wondering who your most recent kiss was.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 13, 2020, 7:58 pm UTC
I look for you in every person I meet. You broke my heart and made me lose hope, but I'd do it all again.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 12, 2020, 5:52 pm UTC
you made me feel loved but only for the low low price of heart break. was i not good enough? you taught me love but for a price. a price i wasn't willing to give. you wanted me first and then to the curb i go!
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 11, 2020, 11:22 am UTC
this is ruby. i still think about you, and i can’t decide if i need you or if i never want to see you again.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 11, 2020, 1:25 am UTC
even though you broke me i don’t regret it because it made me who i am now but ik i’ll always love you a little bit
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 11, 2020, 1:11 am UTC
Bue... Creo que no es fácil verte con otro y siendo yo tu consejero más tu mejor amigo, pero creo que igualmente son sentimientos pasajeros y que con el tiempo serán olvidados.
Eso, te quiero. Si llegas a leer esto.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 10, 2020, 7:19 pm UTC
idk what happened between us... we were so in love and then you just gave up... but you have a new girl now i hope shes making you as happy as you said i did.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 10, 2020, 6:45 pm UTC
Hey. I just want to say that you and your brother have become very important pieces of my life, and I want you to know that I love you very much mysterypf. you are SO funny and smart and you always have something good to say. thank you. I love you.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 10, 2020, 3:09 am UTC
I want to tell you that I really love you. Your smile, the way you care, the way your eyes light up whenever you talk about something you like. I love you so much, Ethan.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 9, 2020, 10:02 pm UTC
i thought what we had was special but you ended it like it meant nothing to you. i still think about you every day and hate myself for it.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 9, 2020, 8:41 pm UTC
it's been years, but I can't forget about you, or what could've been. no matter what, I hope you're happy.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 9, 2020, 5:51 pm UTC
i loved you before
i love you now
I’ll love you forever
but i know it’ll never happen in this lifetime. maybe we have better luck in the next one...
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 9, 2020, 2:25 am UTC
The day before we broke up, I had a dream about our wedding and future together.In the morning I was the happiest I ever was, until you broke up with me.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 9, 2020, 1:47 am UTC
I'm someone you wouldn't even give a second thought. But I wish we could be friends. I feel like playing d&d with you would be a blast. I'm just too nervous to talk to you since we aren't that close and we haven't seen eachother in over a year. Hope college is well and that you're having fun. I still pray for you every now and then and hope you're doing ok. I know life can be hard even when it feels like you shouldn't have a problem with it. The classic "I have a great house and family, why am I having such a hard time?" But I hope the feeling doesn't plague you too much and you're able to enjoy the little moment. I have a feeling you'll never see this. But its easier to send this to a sea of words than to say it to you directly.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 8, 2020, 7:38 pm UTC
I put all my trust that I had into you. It felt good to open up but I don’t know if I’m able to do it again w someone else.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 7, 2020, 10:49 pm UTC
i know it’s stupid , we facetimed , and then saw eachother in school , nothing much and you were so blunt and rude and your not even good looking but you made me laugh , you made me feel worth it , you made me feel beautiful and i was happy showing you my thighs and my body because i felt good about myself and when you would take deep breaths and say i was so pretty and acted like i was the most gorgeous woman on the earth. why did you stop messaging me , why did u stop calling me , why do u see me now and not even smile as if i never existed, why. you’ve hurt me more than you know it , i’m sorry
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 6, 2020, 11:28 am UTC
you took away what i can never get back. i loved you. you used me. i hate you and hope you’re miserable
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 6, 2020, 8:42 am UTC
y wasn’t i ever enough for u:( i tried so hard to b what u wanted, but in the end u wouldn’t ever want to b stuck with me. i was just a pass time,
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 6, 2020, 8:41 am UTC
y wasn’t i ever enough for u:( i tried so hard to b what u wanted, but in the end u wouldn’t ever want to b stuck with me. i was just a pass time,
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 4, 2020, 10:34 am UTC
Why don’t you text me ? I wish you would . I hope we can reconnect again and actually get to experience what we couldn’t . We were little kids at that time, we graduated hs this year and I didn’t get to see you for the last time.If you see this I hope you know it’s me .
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 4, 2020, 3:09 am UTC
today was the first cool fall day i've experienced in 2 years without you here. you were all i thought about
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 3, 2020, 8:03 pm UTC
i told myself i didn’t love you but i did. you made me feel things i’ve never felt before. we were best friends. and then you left me. why did you leave me? what did i do? i trusted you. i was happy for the first time in a while. and then you left.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 3, 2020, 4:54 pm UTC
if you tell me you want me, tomorrow or 10 years later, i will drop everything & everyone to be with you.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 3, 2020, 7:33 am UTC
You blocked me out of nowhere and without a word. We may haven't been talking as much but I still would've been there for you if you needed me... no matter what.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 3, 2020, 7:31 am UTC
I wasn't upset that we broke up. I was more upset that we couldn't keep the friendship... like you said we would.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 3, 2020, 5:55 am UTC
i don’t think what we had was real. it feels like i never truly knew who you were even after 9 months.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 2, 2020, 5:33 pm UTC
Telling you everything going on about me, while learning everything about you, is something I’ll miss forever. I made this end, it’s me to blame. A part of me wishes we will talk again.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: November 1, 2020, 8:25 am UTC
Dear Ethan, you were my first love. The person I thought I would grow old with. The person who I thought would be there for me through everything. On my birthday card you wrote about our trust and how strong it was. And then this happened, we were together since I was thirteen. You were all I ever knew. Up until now my teenage life revolved around a boy, the one boy i thought would always be there for me when times were rough. We made long distance work for nearly two years. Then you moved back. I often think to myself, if you hadn't moved back none of this would have happened. But then i also think, if a boy who claims he loved me more then he loved himself, can sit there and say the things you said to me, maybe you didn't love me as much as you said. I guess it's just the fault in our stars. Maybe it was a case of the right person at the wrong time. But look how messy it is now. We can never go back to how we were. Your family was my family, your mum was my best friend. When we broke up i didn't just lose you, i lost a part of myself. I didn't cry much at first, I was so mad, I couldn't cry much because reality hadn’t hit me. The reality that my dreams were just that. Dreams.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 31, 2020, 8:10 pm UTC
you’re still in my dreams & that has been the only aspect of life that i haven’t gotten bored of.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 31, 2020, 1:13 pm UTC
you make me so fucking sad all the time, so why do i still love you? part of me wants to move on but i know i can't. distance is too hard for me, but i want to be with you but i can't keep going on like this. i'm too scared to let you go but i also know it might be the best thing for me. you make me so confused it hurts.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 29, 2020, 5:13 am UTC
I haven’t taken a full breath since I lost you, but I truly hope you are happy. Please don’t forget my love
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 29, 2020, 5:10 am UTC
I haven’t taken a full breath since I lost you, but I truly hope you are happy. Please don’t forget my love
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 29, 2020, 4:49 am UTC
I haven’t taken a full breath since I lost you, but I truly hope you are happy. Please don’t forget my love
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 29, 2020, 4:47 am UTC
I haven’t taken a full breath since I lost you, but I truly hope you are happy. Please don’t forget my love
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 28, 2020, 2:38 am UTC
u say u only have eyes for me but i can't believe it when there's plenty of people out there so much better than me... i'm just waiting for u to realize it
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 27, 2020, 11:02 pm UTC
i love you and I’m glad I met you love, you’re the best. hope to spend the rest of my life with you ?
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 27, 2020, 10:45 pm UTC
in another lifetime, we would be married with that house and those dogs and a couple of babies. I miss you
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 27, 2020, 1:17 pm UTC
I wish you hadn't said the mean things you said. I thought you were the one, but you left me to heal on my own. The sad thing is I think someone else is way better for me than you were, and they are just my friend.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 26, 2020, 6:32 pm UTC
i’m sorry for all the hurt i’ve caused you. please come back, i need and love you more than i realized. i’m sorry for being so naive and impulsive.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 26, 2020, 6:20 pm UTC
i’m sorry for all the hurt i’ve caused you. please come back, i need and love you more than i realized. i’m sorry for being o naive and impulsive.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 26, 2020, 1:22 pm UTC
u were the first person who made me feel loved, then u hurt me when i was at my worst. i cared so much but i doubt u took a second to consider how much pain the smiles covered
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 25, 2020, 8:38 pm UTC
There's something about you I can't just get away from. You were the first guy i have ever had strong feelings for, and made me feel ecstatic. You probably don't feel the same now, or you probably do, idk, but I still like you. No matter what.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 24, 2020, 1:02 pm UTC
You are all I ever wanted, your curly brown ringlets and blue glistening eyes.
I love you and I’m sorry x
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 24, 2020, 12:33 pm UTC
i miss you so much, just tell me why, why you got with her and why you left and why you faked it for 6months
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 24, 2020, 4:35 am UTC
When I was in hospital you wrote to me that you will never forget your first love. I never told you, but you were my first love too. I still love you, but she is better for you x
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 23, 2020, 12:46 pm UTC
I miss you. We used to be best friends in primary and I haven't seen or talked to you in years. Do you still think about me?
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 22, 2020, 6:35 am UTC
I hate that you put me through so much and act like u didn't. you come back when ever u want and do u understand how draining that is for me? having to telling my bestfriend that you're back after i promised myself and her I wouldn't let myself deal with that pain again and look at what I did . I let you in again and again and all u wanted was my body. please mature one day. I'm fucking tired of your shit and you treating girls like objects. grow up. aren't u exhausted?
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 22, 2020, 4:44 am UTC
I wanted so much to say yes, but I couldn’t form the words. Now I only wish to talk to you again. Though you don’t seem to want to.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 22, 2020, 4:42 am UTC
I wanted so much to say yes, but I couldn’t form the words. Now I only wish to talk to you again. Though you don’t seem to want to.
From: ABC
To: ethan
Date: October 20, 2020, 8:23 am UTC
english class; freshman year, we locked eyes for the first time and i instantly had this feeling, i know in my heart you did too. i remember catching you staring at me, just know my heart was pounding. i know how badly we wanted to talk but our fear got in the way, i regret that every time i hear your name. fast forward junior year i see you with your girlfriend, you guys seem happy so i try and let you go. but you had the nerve to gaze at me; thinking what we could’ve been, i could see the regret in your eyes. we’re 19 now, i think about you now and then. all i want to know is if what we had was real?
