Unsent messages to CONNOR

please treat the next girl better

i love you so u conditionally that it hurts

You have my heart, even after all these years.

Regardless of what we become, I will always love you.

you changed me for the worst but i still miss you

Yeah, I'm not coming home with you. It'll just be you and Kelley. But hey, look at it this way. At least she'll actually be a mom, and you won't have to rely on me anymore.
I'm sorry honey, I love you so much.
-your big sister

You’re the best friend one could ask for. I still hope you find happiness despite the absolute despair I feel when I think about losing you.

I'm sorry I never knew what to say. You were the first person to ever care and I didn't know how to handle that.

Even after all you’ve done my heart still wants you...I wish it didn’t but maybe in another life you’ll be my yellow

Hey love bug! I’m sorry for being such a bitch. Although sorry won’t cut it, I wish I could be there for you. I hope you live out a happy life and find someone to really love. x

I just got over the fact that you were happy without me, that you've found a new love. but then you came back into my life and you cheated on your girlfriend and called me a mistake...

I know I had a boyfriend at the time but you still made me feel like the most special girl in the world. I think we met at the wrong time. Maybe in the next life we would work. You still mean so much to me.

you came into my life and filled a gap. an emptiness. and now that you’re gone, that gap is bigger than it has even been before. it feels like dying.

I will never understand how you did those awful things to me, but for some sick reason I still love you.

You changed so much from the amazing boy I knew before and I can’t help but feel like I did that to you. No matter what I know you still have that kind heart you had with me. I’m sorry for everything. You deserved better than what I was ever going to be able to give you. I hope You didn’t change out of pain over me, but because it’s who you wanted to become.

i defended your name when everyone said u were bad for me and then u went and showed me that they were right.

i don’t know why u ever did what u did but i hope you know it haunts me that i still think about you everyday

Ive moved on now, but i still think of the pain you caused me as you lead me on and manipulated me for so long

hey connor, it’s been awhile. in another lifetime, we probably would’ve stayed friends, and I’m sorry that couldn’t be a reality this time around. i hope you’re doing ok, wherever you are.

i chased until my legs ached because you made me feel like i was worthy of love. unfortunately, it was only temporary.
we were too different, and i've changed a lot since then and i think we would get along better now but i have no interest in chasing you ever again. i must let my legs rest

sup jazz boy. I doubt you'd use this site so I'm gonna say stuff ig. ur pretty cool u know. don't let anyone tell u different. :)

You left me when I needed you most after you promised you wouldn’t. After I dropped everything to be there when you needed me. And yet I would do it again in a heart beat. I still Love you with everything in me, and will for a very long time.

god you give me butterflies, i really hope you invite me over. Im sorry ive been drunk so much, but its the only excuse I have to say how Im truly feeling. otherwise you wouldnt want to be around me. hell Im drinking as i type this. just hoping ill stay ip until youre out of work and you'll invite me over so I can see you, and I can see your handsome face and feel you touch me and kiss me cause fuck, i miss you so much. i hate how much I love you, because I really do love you a lot Francis.

god, i tried I really did, i tried to ignore how I feel and get over you. but when I look at you I feel so much love and happiness, even now after we've broken up, when we hook up and you kiss me I can feel the butterflies and my heart jumps. whenever you call me handsome i acutally believe it, even after days of self hate. you make me feel amazing and I want you, I want you back and I want our future but you dont know what you want and god does that fucking hurt. but i'll stay and ill wait until you deicde, even if it means just being your fuck buddy until you move on because I really do love you, more then I have ever loved someone. I dont wanna lose you, I love you Francis.

You are the type of person that people's mothers warn them not to get affiliated with. They are right.

i really need to grow a pair and text you. you are my first love, and i know youd hate me for saying i love you. youre a dick, youd show all your friends, laugh, maybe even say it to me - how stupid you think that is. i hated you so much i started to love you. you dont get it do you? stop flirting with me, stop making me laugh, stop. please. i dont want to face heartbreak, i break hearts i reject i dont GET rejected i have boys trying so hard to catch my interest yet i love you so so much..

i cant believe i fell for you. i refused to believe it, i loved you so much that i started to hate you.

i don’t know why i still think about you. it’s been years. i don’t know if you’re still with her because we lost all contact but you guys were perfect, so I’m assuming you are. I’ll never be good enough, will I?

You said yellow was a nice color. That was the last good conversation we had. The rest were fights. I miss you so much Connor, but I need to let you go. You were my yellow, I hope I was yours.

I'm sorry. I wish this could have ended differently. It's taking all of me to not call you right now and take you back. I have to let go, though. I deserve more than to be half loved. Thank you for everything.

I just wish you understood. Please come back I miss you more than anything. I’m sorry it got ruined for us so many times. I’m sorry, I love you.

It hurt breaking your heart. I wish I hadn’t fallen out of love. But I can no longer hear it in the silence. I’m sorry

so i dont know what to say other than you broke me, it took a little less than two years to realize you are not worth the tears, you hurt me more than anyone can. but the thing is i forgive you, i dont forgive you to make you feel better, but for me to move on, because if i dont i know i'll never let you go. i love you forever and always

you are the problem, i wasted so much time and patience with you, hope you’re doing horrible. fuck you for everything you’ve done, don’t want to hear from you ever again, kys

Do you still think about me like I think about you? I mean, the answer’s pretty obvious, because you still write these dumbass messages on here for me, right? Honestly can’t tell if they’re you or not. Either grow a pair for once in your life and text me and say what you want to say to my face, or keep being spineless. Truth be told, I am content with never talking to you again due to the complete lack of respect I have for you. Do you even want a proper goodbye or would you just prefer we fade out of each others lives and act as if the other never existed? Your choice.

i feel like i don't even like you anymore, but i need to hold on because i care about you so much. please give me your love and attention again. i miss the old you :(

Dear Connor,

I really don't know how to properly word this, and I feel like I've never really known how but I guess I'll start by saying thank you; thank you for showing me how to love. I've never truly known how to live my life without feeling like every single day would turn out to be a disaster. However, from the minute I met you, I knew that my life was going to change for the better. I never completely knew why, or how, but, I just had a feeling- and I was right. Connor, you taught me that instead of every day turning out to be a disaster, every day would actually turn out to be a story. A long-lasting, pure memory. Every moment spent with you is a time in my life that I'll never forget, as it has helped me grow as a person, has helped me smile and laugh even on my darkest days, and helped me believe that even I, can be loved and accepted into this world. Thank you so much for that. Even if we haven't known each other for too long, I can definitely say that you are the best thing, by far, that has ever happened to me. I will continue to love you until the day I die, because I have always wanted you, and will always want you. I love you so much.

You are doing great alone but just know that I miss you. I still remember the lockers before religion class.

i’m in love with you. and i’m terrified to tell you bc i’m scared it’s too soon. i’m scared to scare you away but you’re all i want. you make me so unbelievably happy. this is just the beginning

i’m in love with you. and i’m terrified to tell you bc i’m scared it’s too soon. i’m scared to scare you away but you’re all i want. you make me so unbelievably happy. this is just the beginning

i treated you so unfairly afterwards. i’m so sorry. i was in so much pain. im glad you’re doing well now. i’m glad you found someone else. i haven’t yet but maybe i will soon

you're a good kid. you'll make it far - i know it. thanks 4 everything and it makes me so happy to see that you've got a good group of friends that you love and a really pretty girl by ur side - connie is so gorgeous, go you !! i'll always have love 4 u just not in that way and i hope ur healthy. love - the girl who had her first kiss w you

i really like you a lot, and i can feel it deep down that it’s gonna hurt when this doesn’t work out, but always know that u were my first true love

i can’t be friends with you not only because you took advantage of me but because every time i wanted to be happy you would flip it and refuse to even try to help yourself. i can’t help myself when you’re around.

i love and miss you so much. i think about you and our friendship everyday. i will never forget you. i hope you come back

I hate how much I miss you, but I miss you more than I ever thought I would. You ghosted me back in July and I've barely talked to you since. I really do hope you're happier, you honestly deserve it after some of the stuff you've gone through. I hope you know that you're still cared for and that I'll always hope for you to be happy. You were the first person to throw me through such a loop and you made me believe that there were still good people out there. I hope that whichever lucky girl you end up with, that she's the happiest when she's with you.

I still hear you in the laughs of strangers and I wish one day I’d turn around and it would really be you

I miss you everyday, it pains me so much. I just want to talk to you again, please. I hope heaven is good. I love you

i finally let you go. i feel like i can finally breathe and be with someone who actually loves me and wants me.

I'm afraid I'll never love someone again. the person i love is dead, but maybe i'll find you again in another life.