I’m sorry. I failed you, we all did. I swear I tried to get to you that night on the bridge, but the fear in my heart as you turned around wouldn’t let me move. I’m sorry I didn’t get to you in time to stop you. I’m so sorry. I love you

i should have said no more and you should have listened harder, but i know you are a good guy that will always wonder why there might be another star in the sky.

me saying, I'm okay, not now, can you stop, its fine really, please no, and then sighing when I give in was never a yes

Thank you. Thank you for being there for me through everything, until you physically couldn’t anymore. I’m sorry I didn’t realize sooner that you were in pain. Just know that you were it for me. I could never replace you even if i tried. Even if i wondered the world searching for souls alike to yours i will always come out short handed. I wish i had appreciated you more while you were here with me. I wish you could have stayed longer. Stayed with me. I love you and miss you always.

I wish you would call. I wish you would care more. I wish you cared more about checking up on me rather than making sure I'm blocked on every account I have. I know you know I check. I wish I could hate you but I don't.

It hurt to know you didn't like me. What hurt more is knowing you fell for our other roommate instead.

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

admitting to myself that I was in love was the hardest. I hope we don't hurt each other. I love you so much

hi. we were good friends for a while but I always thought I liked you far more than you liked me. I wish we were close again, and met up and called but yknow I've probably missed that chance now.

I miss you, I miss talking to you.you were my first love and you'll always be apart of me. I just want to talk to you.

I can't wait to see you tomorrow!! I might make more of these but for those search up sunflower max because that's the unsent nickname I'm gonna use for u

whenever i think of you, im reminded of the colour green. i think youre one of the few people that match my energy, although you can be a little unpredictable at times. we dont talk as much anymore, which sucks cause i love our conversations. i know ill never be able to see you in person, but im ok with it. i think our friendship is destined to be short lived, yet we talk as if we've known each other for years. i hope its not just me who feels this way between us. you have my ideal personality and energy, youre pretty sick, but still an asshole. i think i love you, but it doesnt matter

we liked each other so much. where did it all go wrong. granted i never told you and that my have been on me but god, i'm sure i made it pretty obvious. i hate myself for not ever telling you, we could've actually gone somewhere. i miss the trips when we would go camping and fuck around in the rain. i miss messing with you for wearing a beanie too high up on your head. i miss babysitting your little sister. i miss you so fucking much. i hurt you though. i don't know if i will ever be able to forgive myself for how manipulated you because was a ware of how much you liked me. i'm so sorry and i hope we cross paths soon again, ciao

You’ll always deny cheating on me but you can’t look at me anymore. Do you know you fucked up? You hurt me so badly. But your girlfriend is really nice and I hope you don’t hurt her like you hurt me :)

i want to be with you so bad but you don’t like me like that anymore. u dont know how much pain u have caused me

Where to begin. When we started talking I smiled. You were always so easy to talk to. I could say anything and you would listen. Our friendship blossomed over the month and when you asked me to the play with friends I was happy I had a friend who valued my company. But you fucked it up. I come to find you used that as an excuse to get me alone on a date. Because it wasn't really us and a group of friends going. It would've been just you and me. When I heard that I was scared. Scared that you couldn't tell me the truth. But when you followed me around the school that was the final straw. I don't regret rejecting you. I just miss the Max I used to know.

If I could go back in time to when it was just us against the world, I would. I hope one day it can be like that again.

I wish I could talk to you again. I miss u but I think deep down we think it's easier not to. It wouldn't work.

i’m here for you. ik you don’t trust me because of the shit you’ve been through in life. but i care about u so much.

i'm sorry if I'm not good enough for you but i love you more than u know. i wish i could tell you how you upset me without upsetting you and without you having a huge reaction. i want to help u but sometimes ur just so blunt i feel useless or like you dont want me there. it hurts when u send me dry texts and wont tell me how youre feeling. i know i do the same but if i tell u whats wrong you throw it back in my face. i know thi isnt true but i sometimes feel like you only want me for sex or to pleasure you and when i dont you get in a mood. i always ask if youre okay and comfort you but you rarely seem to do the same. i dont want you to get pissy with me when im upset. i wish i could tell you how you upset me without making you feel bad. youre more than good enough for me and i love you.

i loved all the time that we spent together. i know that we kinda drifted apart towards the end and im sorry for ignoring u. i rly miss our fts and i want to text u and talk like we used to but i dont want it to be awkward

i miss what we had. even though it wasn't much, it felt like the world. and it sucks knowing it'll never be the same

Picked orange, of course. You know why. I miss you, and sometimes it's really hard. But I don't even waver in the fact that I know I can flourish without you. Now the only thing I see in 10 years is myself. And I sort of like it better that way. take care Maxy. I love you.

i like you more than i like myself. i just wish you’d get excited when you hear my name.. that’s all i want.

i miss talking to you sm. you were my best friend and i don’t think i will ever lose feelings for you

i think of you nearly every day. i’ve typed messages i’ve never sent. i’ve tried to hint to it, but i’m too scared to tell you, maybe because i’m scared that you will love me

I knew you never loved me but the thought of losing you hurt to much doesn’t matter know u left anyways

when u texted “im not fighting for u. i dont want to”, that just about broke my heart into a million pieces dude.

you might not be my first love but i think you're going to be the love that will always matter the most

Your old YouTube videos saved my life, you’re like a dad to me, even tho I might’ve never met you.
I Hope 2021 treats you well MamaMax.

I love you too you fucking egg. I hate talking about my problems and you know that. I'd rather joke about my trauma than unpack it. I don't even know what i would talk about if i was forced to talk about my problems.

i love you so much. i don’t know if i’ll ever not love you. and it’s killing me seeing you slowly lose interest in me.

I love you. more than platonically. but it will never happen. so I might as well give up. and I can't even tell anyone. I just want to be with you.

You taught me to hate myself. I didn’t really love you I was 12, but I still obsess over what you would say to me. I still can’t eat or leave my house without makeup, I still do 100 squats a day to get that hourglass shape you constantly nagged me to work harder for. I guess it’s not your fault I’m insecure, but did you have to fuck my bestfriend?

i was young, dumb and new to love. it was clear that neither of us were actually ready to commit, but we didn’t admit it out loud. i was forced to confess my love and you couldn’t handle it, left me to my own thoughts for several weeks, only to be forced by your friends to interact one last time. those few weeks were painful, but the one thing that really hurt me was the silence. i still don’t know if you actually liked me or just wanted me for the chase. i forgive you

Oh, your mind. Your brilliant mind. But not brilliant enough for you to know better than to mess with mine.

We will never ever EVER be a thing and that's completely okay. I am more than happy with being your best friend. You make every day worth living and make my day brighter with every second I spend speaking to you. You are absolutely one in a million and I wish you saw yourself how I see you. Luv Yeeee xx

When it's night, I'll look up at the sky, staring at the stars with wonder and longing. When look at you, I feel as if I am stargazing; I long for your stars. I long for you to show me your constellations, your hidden galaxies, so that I may show you my abandoned planets and intense supernovas.

If thinking about you and replaying out memories in my head is the closest thing to having you then I'll do it no matter how much it hurts me.

I loved you more than anything in the world. After 3 years of being together, I hope that other girl was worth it.

you cause me so much pain. but i just wonna feel that happiness that i felt when i was in you arms that night.

I’m sorry I hurt you, but you were hurting me unintentionally. I love you, but I needed to love myself first.

I can’t stop thinking of you every day and it hurts to know you probably don’t even think about me once.

im sorry i cry all the time. i just wanted you to be there for me ya know, im sorry i was tough to love hun.

im sorry im so clingy but im so terrified that youll leave. im in love with you. but im temporary to you.

thanks for ruining Brighton beach for me. It was my favorite place but now it just brings back unwanted memories

you were the best part of my year. you really were. But then again you were also the worst. i hate the fact i still love you. after a day you moved on when i just cant and now im scared of love. so all i now how to say to you is fuck you.

I still think about you, whenever your name pops up my heart sinks. i'll never care about someone as much as i cared about you. i feel so lost without you, i just want you back.

i hate the way you keep coming back just to leave me again. but i hate the fact that i let you do it even more. you're the most important person i've met this year but i don't think the same is true for you. i let you use me and give me the bare minimum over and over again and i'm so mad at the person you've made me but i'd be that person forever if it means you'll finally reciprocate feelings. i literally will be anyone you want me to be because clearly i'm not enough for you right now.

whoever said your first love had to be romantic, oh and human? i love you maxie. thanks for taking away my fear of dogs. thanks for always knowing when i'm sad and thank you for always getting excited whenever i come home.