Unsent messages to CONNOR

My mind constantly plays the moments we’ve shared together when Im curled up in bed pretending I get to hold you like I used to. I miss you and what we had terribly but it’s for the best that things are over now. I love your broad shoulders and the freckles all over you and the way your face looks when you’re smiling. Im always gonna treasure you and you better not forget about me either biotch

You’ve made life very difficult for me. Although I’ve known you for the time I have, you always have to impact what I do without having to do anything, I’m taking that power back and leaving you behind.

I don't know how to feel about our relationship or how it went. All I know right now is that I feel like the world has intentionally brought us apart and together so many times it's dizzying. I hope that you learn respect.

You broke me. You broke me and I can't even see your face without panicking. Why did you have to fuck with my whole life? I really thought I loved you.

you moved on. i hope shes everything you need. i hope she reminds you that you're not too much. i miss u

i opened up to you about everything, and you joking about my mental health isn’t funny it’s fucked up, the least you could do is ask if i was ok u bitch

Thank you for being there for me when no one else was. i'm sorry i was too unemotionally stable for you

i don’t want you in my life, but i want you to know i wish you the best and hold nothing against you. best of luck

You know I thought giving each other space would be good and I was ok the first day. Now with mother nature messing me up, my emotions run high and I miss you

I know you don’t love me back. And I know I’ve messed up a lot, but I’d do anything for you to be happy. I miss what we had.

even when i know i’m just an afterthought, i still have hope that you might want me like you once said you did

thank you for teaching me what heartbreak felt like. i wish i never ruined our friendship. i miss you.

Hey, um I hope that ur doing alright. Cant wait to see you in 10 days. Hope that what I want to happen will happen. See ya then

idk how to tell you that i like you when you live on the other side of the world, idek if you feel the same way anymore, you made me feel like you cared and that you liked me too, until you just stopped showing that

"i know we'd be much happier together"
you left? if you know that, why would you leave me when I needed you most? my life went completely upside down and the only person I wanted to talk to was you and you wouldn't even answer a question about my math homework. i said i would've fallen for you in the airport but the fact of the matter was is that i already did by the time you told me it wouldn't work. i cried for almost two months straight. you saw me struggling with life, with heartbreak, with feeling absolutely alone, and you never once asked if i was okay. every part of me wants you to just text me and say you miss me. i want you so badly to say you messed up, that you shouldn't have left, and that you wanna make it work. but i know you'd leave again. i know id fuck things up again. id be too scared that you'd leave and id push you away. id ask a million times a day if you still cared about me and id remind you that if you wanna leave, you can. because if I'm prepared for it, unlike last time, it wont hurt as bad. i miss you. there are some nights where ill just look at our old texts and cry because i was stupid enough to care about someone i had never met before that fast. I know you've moved on. I've seen it. When I saw the picture of you and her, my stomach dropped and I felt like time had stopped. I wish you weren't so hard to get over. I wish you didn't leave my heart in such agony, such distress. Yet here I am, three months later, still trying to feel the way i felt with you, with someone else. It hasn't worked yet, in case you were wondering. i wish i could turn time backward. i wish i would've just bought a plane ticket before you ended things. I wish i didn't catch covid. I wish i wasn't so far away. I wish you would've given me a chance because every day since then I've wondered why I wasn't worth it because I would've spent every paycheck I had on coming to see you. its stupid and cliche and little by little, i am getting over it. maybe i was too damaged for you, but i hope i meet someone who will take the risk and decide that maybe, just maybe, I'm worth the flight.

I wish you missed me like I miss you, I hope you're well and ok and I know we haven't talked in months but you'll always have a special place in my heart and I wish you come back I don't know where we went wrong

hey long time no talk. I wish you would talk to me more and its been like 4 or 5 months whatever but anyways i really liked our conversations and all and i felt like our humor clicked and all but you never reached out after that. Its fine though ive found someone else to dream about

you texted another girl to fuck 20 mins after we broke up. it killed me but it felt like i couldn’t leave you

I don’t know where we went wrong. I still hope that one day you will text me and it will all go back to being good but you also caused me too much pain so I know that it can never go back to normal.

I wish we had longer together but you needed to find someone who truly deserved you. I'll miss you forever, Z

Connor, you are this amazing guy that I will love to get spend my life with. When you told me you had a girlfriend I was happy for you because I knew you had someone to count on when you felt sad. I have to let go of the feelings I have for you cause it’s only doing harm to me. I hope you have a wonderful life and that you are happy with whoever you spend your life with

I hate the fact that I can’t stop thinking about you and it’s not even the real you just what’s in my head

You're on my mind constantly. I don't know how you actually feel about me, and it hurts me. I know you could do much better, but I just wish you would love me like I love you. I wish I never met you.

thank you for loving me despite me being a pain in the ass. you are the greatest thing i’ve ever loved. i can’t wait to see where we go from here connor riley

You were my first love and i’ll never forget the time we had together. you destroyed me when i found out you never liked me. i wish you the best, but i hate you for giving me trust issues.

I know I have a hard time expressing myself, but I just want you to know that I care about you, more than you think. I know you know I have commitment issues, and I'm thankful you still try to work everything out with me. I'll love you forever. And that's the problem.

Why did i keep falling in love with you? I don't know. All of my friends didn't see anything in you and honestly i don't anymore. But i do miss you facetiming me to wake me so i wasn't late late for school. I miss hangout with you. I miss us randomly fting and talking for hours. I miss us ranting to each other. I miss when you would get mad and the only only thing i could do to calm you down was give you a hug. But honestly you did this to yourself. You lost me. You decided you wanted them more than you wanted us. Its your fault and you blame it on me. I loved you and i thought you loved me. The kid you are hanging out with now, they are so bad. I'll be here for you but we wont be friends. I'll be here if you need to rant. I'll be here if you feel like shit. I'll be here if you NEED to talk. But not if you want me back, I'm never putting myself through that hell ever again. I loved you and you didn't love me the same way. You didn't understand. I was IN love with you and you weren't in love with me. It broke me, now i don't understand why i wasted any tears. Now you've led me to hate you. When all of my friends talked bad about you to me, I defend you. But now all of the thing they said were true. Now we are strangers with memories. Some things just don't last forever i guess.

I miss you like crazy. I can’t get over it either. I can’t text you because I don’t want to bother you because you’re with her now. You give me this hope that we will be something later but how long is later?

you hurt me pretty bad, but i saw a change in you even when i didn’t know what you had done. and i think all the nights i cried just to feel the way i did when i first met you really prepared me for what i was about to find out. however i do thank you for showing me some sort of love and helping me see how strong i am without you.

i really do love you. your losing feelings aren’t you. i rlly think so. ik you are. i want to know the truth man.

I miss you more then you will ever know, and being your friend is the only way I can be in your life. that's fine though, better then nothing I guess. I just miss the version of you that was in love with me.

i still think about you all the time... i really miss having you around. you always knew how to cheer me up... please tell me what i did

Thank you for being so kind. i think about the back of your car a lot. i know you won’t say you love me but i wish.

My heart still races every time i see you and i cant help but smile at your face. even when i was the one who left...

I've been on delivered for 3 weeks. Regardless of my feelings for you that you don't know about, why won't you respond? We're friends. You have time to talk to all your other friends, but me. I don't care if you don't like me like I like you. I just want us to be friends at least.

i still think of you when i wake up and before i go to bed. i will never not love you, and sometimes i think i’ll miss you forever.

I’m trying not to fall for you. I don’t think my friends approve but maybe it’s too late and maybe I love you already.

i have been missing you a lot recently...please just text me again. i was happy to have my friend back:(

i wish we talked things out. i dont want to get back together but i cant help still being upset about it

i keep praying to god that maybe you'll come back and say you've missed me. you wont. you never will.

i wish we had made more memories together before you left, but i replay the memories we do have over and over. i still have the earplugs that you gave me (dumb i know) and of course, Adrienne. i will probably never see you again but i miss you. maybe in our next life.

hi. i am in love with you and i probably will be for the rest of my life. we havent talked in forever and yet there is not a minute of the day where you leave my mind. every single time i get a notification i pray its you but it never is. were not even close enough to call ourselves friends when once we were pratically dating. im sorry for anything toxic i ever did for you and i know you'll literally never see this cause i dont think you know it even exists but if you do, i hope even if you cant tell its me, i hope it reminds you if me and makes you message me :) i love you and i just wish you could see.

i loved you and you were everything to me but when you got with caitlyn the same day you said you love me, i was broken. when you got annoyed at me for getting over you after a few days that also hurt. its like you wanted me as a second choice, a backup and i just couldnt deal with the thought but i hate you now.

terrified to move on because moving on means forgetting, and I would rather be heartbroken then to forget about u

I really do love you. I’m tired of watching your relationship from the sidelines, but I know I’m just a friend. I just wish that I had the comfort of knowing he loves you like I do.

I really like you and I don’t know how you feel about me. I know you said you don’t want a relationship but idk. I can’t tell if we’re on good terms or not but I really really hope we continue to talk

i know it wasnt much and i wasnt your first choice, but maybe later we will meet again. still im grateful for what we started even if we left it openended

We were young. We were best friends. I truly loved you and still do to be honest. 6 years later... why did you leave me? I think about you so much, I hope you think of me.

just like pyramids. I wish we were even friends, I seriously felt like we were soulmates. Your the one part of home I miss sometimes. Maybe Ill meet you in the next life. If you see this please reach out, trust me con, its me. Hope life is treating you well.

During the start of our relationship I thought of breaking up with you so many times. I don't know why i never actually went through with it but I'm glad i didn't. I've been with you for over a year now and i hope it continues on for more. I love you.