Unsent messages to ZACH

i never told you how you saved me, and that’s a lot coming from someone who never wanted to be saved.

you took a piece of me that i can never get back.. and you left with it pretending like you didn’t break me.

next time, when you don’t like someone anymore, just tell them. please. it’s a lot better if you just tell them instead of pretending like you still do. don’t waste someone’s time. -you know who it’s from :)

I still think about you everyday. I still wish you would have loved me. Not a day goes by that I don’t feel pain from you falling out of love with me, why wasn’t I enough?

and to think i would have been good enough for you. it makes me so mad you only wanted my body but fuck dude, i'm in love with you. it's you and it always has been you and it always will be you. every time you're around i can't help but get lost in your eyes and it sickens me because you'll only ever care about getting lost between my thighs. please. please give me a chance. sooner rather than later. please.

Our love was a surprise but so strong we were the same in everyway, two peas in a pod. but you left me.

I'm doing better now, and you've become a stranger to me. But I still wish to hear from you every now and then.

i would do anything to talk to you just once again. i miss you. i want to give you a hug bc you made me grow. i hope you do well in life. i wonder if you still think about me . till we see each other again. right place wrong time. - the 5th grade romance

I wish you would've just been transparent with me. Why'd you hurt me twice like that. I thought you would've changed over 3 years of not talking. I can't believe I let myself fall for you and get ghosted twice.

I love you but I can't let you waste anymore of my time. I deserve better. But I wanted you to be better.

I wish you realized all the emotions you put me through. You learned how my first broke me, yet did the same thing...

Ik you werent ready for a serious relationship but it hurt when you left and moved on like we had nothing.

Gosh you’re so annoying I miss you so much. Every day every second gets so much harder without you. Idk how I’m gonna do this. I hope you’re having fun though. I hope you’re happy. I just want you to hold me so tight right now. I need one last hug. I know I fucked up but I can’t do anything anymore. I can’t even fall asleep without taking something to help. I’m so sorry Zach. This is ruining me.

i miss how things were before and i’m mad u had to f*ck it up. but i’m thankful for the time we have now.

idk why i always come back to this site but hi. theres a lot of girls who have had their hearts broken by zachs lmao. kinda wish i could delete the other one i wrote ab u, its very much cringey and everytime i think ab it, i convulse and scream internally. anyways, i genuinely hope you are okay. you know, we had a pretty weird relationship in a very uncertain time. i really thought that i was ready for a that thing ppl call love, that i was mature enough and had the best intentions. my view of love was so fairytale like that it was very unfair. i had to take an honest look at myself and realize im no angel. the things i felt were issues between us were reflections of my own insecurities and had nothing to do with you. it was all me. i dont blame you, you did the best that you could in the circumstances we were presented with. i’ll always have a soft spot in mi cold dead heart for u. just want you to be happy man. thanks for everything and for making me realize that theres still good in the world.
onwards

Thank you for everything you taught me about myself. I wish things went the way I wanted, but maybe it was better they didn’t.

i love you, and i still love you, and i know you still love me, but some love can't be expressed in a way that is 'direct-to-sender', so i'm sending this out into the universe in hopes that, one day, it'll find its way back into a small home in the mountains with the same love in it.

I loved you so much it hurt, you let me feel something when I felt nothing. Do you even realise what you meant and still mean?

i confided in you about my mental health and the stuff about my mum. you didn't care. you just shrugged and said ok. when i needed you most, its like you didn't even care. i broke up with you on good terms... i lied about why i was breaking up with you... in reality i wanted to scream at you and tell you everything you did wrong. fuck you.

I know this is supposed to be for your first love but i don’t love you at all.. well not anymore at least. I kinda hate you now and idk how to look at you the same. My mind is going fucking insane trying to figure out if you like me or if i was just there for a short good time. I was just thinking about how you are different from the other guys but then you pull that shit. fuck you.

I wish that you would’ve given us more of a chance. I understand why you didn’t. But every relationship is complicated. I just wish we could’ve tried. Because it’s so hard to move on when you’re stuck with thinking what could’ve been.

I still talk to you in hope that you will come back one day. You will always have a special place in my heart and I just wish you cared about me as much as I cared about you.

I want you to know how much you mean to me. Whenever I am with you all my problems go away. You bring me so much happiness without even realizing. You don’t have a single flaw. I hope someday you see me the same way I see you. :)

every time i see you, i remember everything we did when we was together, and imagine what it would be like if we was still together

aight so fuck you for leading me on for ages when i was dumb and younger than you and i was expecting a fairy tale - i thought we were meant to be lol. also fuck you for moving issy after we stopped talking that was whack... but other than that yeh i still think ab you lmfao and my mum rlly liked you idiot