i confided in you about my mental health and the stuff about my mum. you didn't care. you just shrugged and said ok. when i needed you most, its like you didn't even care. i broke up with you on good terms... i lied about why i was breaking up with you... in reality i wanted to scream at you and tell you everything you did wrong. fuck you.

i wish you didn’t treat me like shit at the end of our relationship. i think of you every day. i miss what we had.

ive been in love with you since 6th grade and im pretty sure I always will be. I think about you all the time, way more than I would like. but I still find myself writing this. I loved you then and I still do. our relationship might of not been the longest but it was definitely the most genuine. even though we haven't talked for a while, I still like you. ik you'll never read this but I hope ill be able to tell you this one day.

sometimes I think about who you used to be. I really loved you with everything I had in me. It was a good lesson and I have grown so much from it. sometimes I wish we had stayed friends or civil, we really went through so much together. I used to be so hurt over it all, now I really understand we had to end for the better of us both. I hope one day we can catch up and smile on the years we spent together, you'll always be my first love.

i know you used me because you were bored, but i genuinely loved you. i loved you more then i loved myself

I still think about you sometimes, but in an "I hope he's doing well" sense. I wish we could be friends.

hey. u may read this at some point idk but it’s A. this note is the same color as ur rockstar jacket. have any guesses? anyway i think we were a good couple just not at the right time. we both hurt each other but it was worth the fun. bye lolz

i did everything for you just to be left alone. you hurt me so many times and i still stayed because i loved you.

you’ve changed. i guess the least i could say to you is that i’m glad you’re not in my life anymore. i miss when we were 11 all the way to 13. but i guess now, 2 years later, i see that you weren’t the person i thought you were.

He is so much kinder than you'll ever be. You never cared for me. He does, a googolplex percent more.

i wish i could do more to help you but i can’t, and it haunts me everyday that there isn’t a way i can help you.

Sorry that I was so eager to love you that you felt lyou needed to push me away to catch your breath.

You are one of the most genuine human beings I have ever met. I could see myself falling so in love with you

i've tried to write this a hundred times but no words can come close to how i feel about your existence and your current absence in my life. you are special zach, i miss you.

I miss you. I wish things ended differently. Not a day goes by that your not on my mind. i’m glad your happy now but it sucks that i’m not. I will probably always be here if you ever do decide you want me. Also I know you won’t see this but thanks for hurting me. Go fuck yourself

I still love you. I don’t think I will ever stop loving you. I wish I could be with you. I just want to talk to you, I miss you.

I loved you. You were what i Iooked forward to in the day and what comforted me at night. Those times, our times. It felt like something else. Your smile drove me mad and I was trapped in your gaze but the best part was the way you acted. You always caught me staring but you were always staring back. I always used to wonder what it was about you or even if you felt the same. Its not like you are gone. I see you every day and everytime for that split second I wonder what you think about when your eyes are in mine. It sounds cliche to a really crappy point and I never thought I could feel something like this but I do. I replay our conversations all the time and its like a fantasy, I was addicted to the way I felt about you and I dont regret it. You made me feel something indescribable. At first I thought okay let's see how stuff goes but as rumors passed and thing s became clearer I started to think. More and more. That's when it clicked. Oh shit. It honestly amazes me how fickle men can be. Or just the way their actions relate to their conscience. That one time when it was snowing and all I could think about was the warm feeling that you gave me in the coldest times or the way you teased me and held a longing stare. Then it was weird. I never saw your face or heard my name in your mouth for 8 months. I think I subconsciously waited while my body yearned to move on. Our little conversations meant so much to me. Friends dont look at the way we do to each other. Everything was weird and uncomfortable and different and just felt wrong. It all was jumbled up inside that small room and it was like we never met. For God sake you wouldn't even look or say hi. Now I'm thinking what the hell is going on. I knew for a fact that you liked me zach. I also knew for a fact that I loved you too. There were times I considered telling you. I planned it all out. I walked up to you said my piece and walked away. Reality hit and I could do it. I think my head has made it worse than it actually is. The pain, the joy the endless wonder and hope. And if it couldn't be any more confusing you started to be normal again. The jokes the stares. I mean that was a job I tried to give up but clearly the manager was being a stubborn prick. I didn't even understand what was going on in my own head.Every time I look at you everything rushed back and I do t think I can cope with that anymore. I am not going to let someone who doesn't have the ability to text me more than 4 words back or even for that matter contact me me to use me control me. I am my own person and that is that. I deserve so much more. I hate that I still hope and a part of me is still hoping. Its not like I can just kick you out of my classes or ignore you completely. It never began. But it felt so incredibly real and you said one thing but your eyes were telling a different story. Maybe you do wonder and think , damn I miss her. Every blue moon i hope and wish I could relive those days, even a moment. But now I'm tired of leaving unwanted and neglected. You could still be ICANT EVEN EXPLAIIN. even if you feel that way, good for you. I realised I started to turn myself off slowly, bit by bit. I listened to music louder and more often. I smiled less and talked more. I stopped looking at you and felt this power of understanding self worth and who I am and what I bloody deserve. Congrats! You have a superpower on me now. I didn't want to let go what made me sad because it makes me happy but I have too much to offer and the world is big enough for me to get over you. Maybe in a different lifetime love. In the end all I want is for someone to hold my hand like a movie and for us to have the nights of our lives and for him to make me feel like I cant even stand or just-. I want to drown in my own love and happiness, ravishing comfort every night. I believe in love because you made me feel it. But I want chaos and a mess and all of that sappy stuff because that's who I am. I don't let people see it and I am super glad I never let you. I am not going to let someone make me feel so useless and unwanted and confused and wronged and dumb and hopeful and mad. I am working on myself by myself. My heavy soul can't comprehend the happy personality and this is one of cases where it just gets weird. I dont regret you or how it ended zach. I remember how happy it made me. I also remember the understanding you brought to my naive mind. I won't ever regret you because it was like dipping my toes in the love I longed for. It was pure and honset and one of its kind. You are my favorite and most painful story to tell. So as I sit here, I thank you for all you've done but also change my views and opinions of you. I dont hate you. I never will. I just realised that what I need and my goals just dont fit with yours. And thats okay. I can get through this. I will the time to become even better than i am now. The next time I see you you are nothing more than a peer. It is going to be tough but I need to and want to. You are a lesson and a moral. Thank you.

I loved you. You were what i Iooked forward to in the day and what comforted me at night. Those times, our times. It felt like something else. Your smile drove me mad and I was trapped in your gaze but the best part was the way you acted. You always caught me staring but you were always staring back. I always used to wonder what it was about you or even if you felt the same. Its not like you are gone. I see you every day and everytime for that split second I wonder what you think about when your eyes are in mine. It sounds cliche to a really crappy point and I never thought I could feel something like this but I do. I replay our conversations all the time and its like a fantasy, I was addicted to the way I felt about you and I dont regret it. You made me feel something indescribable. At first I thought okay let's see how stuff goes but as rumors passed and thing s became clearer I started to think. More and more. That's when it clicked. Oh shit. It honestly amazes me how fickle men can be. Or just the way their actions relate to their conscience. That one time when it was snowing and all I could think about was the warm feeling that you gave me in the coldest times or the way you teased me and held a longing stare. Then it was weird. I never saw your face or heard my name in your mouth for 8 months. I think I subconsciously waited while my body yearned to move on. Our little conversations meant so much to me. Friends dont look at the way we do to each other. Everything was weird and uncomfortable and different and just felt wrong. It all was jumbled up inside that small room and it was like we never met. For God sake you wouldn't even look or say hi. Now I'm thinking what the hell is going on. I knew for a fact that you liked me zach. I also knew for a fact that I loved you too. There were times I considered telling you. I planned it all out. I walked up to you said my piece and walked away. Reality hit and I could do it. I think my head has made it worse than it actually is. The pain, the joy the endless wonder and hope. And if it couldn't be any more confusing you started to be normal again. The jokes the stares. I mean that was a job I tried to give up but clearly the manager was being a stubborn prick. I didn't even understand what was going on in my own head.Every time I look at you everything rushed back and I do t think I can cope with that anymore. I am not going to let someone who doesn't have the ability to text me more than 4 words back or even for that matter contact me me to use me control me. I am my own person and that is that. I deserve so much more. I hate that I still hope and a part of me is still hoping. Its not like I can just kick you out of my classes or ignore you completely. It never began. But it felt so incredibly real and you said one thing but your eyes were telling a different story. Maybe you do wonder and think , damn I miss her. Every blue moon i hope and wish I could relive those days, even a moment. But now I'm tired of leaving unwanted and neglected. You could still be ICANT EVEN EXPLAIIN. even if you feel that way, good for you. I realised I started to turn myself off slowly, bit by bit. I listened to music louder and more often. I smiled less and talked more. I stopped looking at you and felt this power of understanding self worth and who I am and what I bloody deserve. Congrats! You have a superpower on me now. I didn't want to let go what made me sad because it makes me happy but I have too much to offer and the world is big enough for me to get over you. Maybe in a different lifetime love. In the end all I want is for someone to hold my hand like a movie and for us to have the nights of our lives and for him to make me feel like I cant even stand or just-. I want to drown in my own love and happiness, ravishing comfort every night. I believe in love because you made me feel it. But I want chaos and a mess and all of that sappy stuff because that's who I am. I don't let people see it and I am super glad I never let you. I am not going to let someone make me feel so useless and unwanted and confused and wronged and dumb and hopeful and mad. I am working on myself by myself. My heavy soul can't comprehend the happy personality and this is one of cases where it just gets weird. I dont regret you or how it ended zach. I remember how happy it made me. I also remember the understanding you brought to my naive mind. I won't ever regret you because it was like dipping my toes in the love I longed for. It was pure and honset and one of its kind. You are my favorite and most painful story to tell. So as I sit here, I thank you for all you've done but also change my views and opinions of you. I dont hate you. I never will. I just realised that what I need and my goals just dont fit with yours. And thats okay. I can get through this. I will the time to become even better than i am now. The next time I see you you are nothing more than a peer. It is going to be tough but I need to and want to. You are a lesson and a moral. Thank you.

I loved you. I still do. That hurts. I want to move on like you did. You did it so fast too. And things left off in a shitty way in a shitty town. Maybe one day we’ll come back to each other but for now we’re back to being strangers. I’ll keep the promise we made though. Any time you need me I’ll be there.

DNA from a kiss last 6 months in your body its almost been two months and soon it will be 6 and then you are really gone

I liked you so much and I still do even though its been 2 years. But somehow I still cant get over you

i know how wrong n unrealistic it is, but my love for you is like no other, nothing i’ve felt before
and seeing you with her is shattering me.
i’m sorry i’m not good enough

god, i didn’t think you would let me go this easy.I miss looking into your brown eyes u were the only person who understood.

I know I was not what you wanted, we were and are still to young to know, but just know you made a big impact on me. i'll never forget who I thought you were.

yk what fuck you. you ruined me and you have no idea how badly you affected me. you never even said why u left.

Thank you for being an amazing friend and sharing stories with me. I miss you so much. please stay safe and know that you are worth it.

you're doing great bubba. i'm so sorry for not being there i'm sorry for putting u through all of this

i thought i was over you but then you send me those voice memos of you singing and i can’t stop listening to them. i wish you could come back to town so we could hang out i miss your hugs

honestly surprised it’s been this long and you haven’t reached out, unless you’ve realized you’re wrong for once

You told me you loved me and then said you didn’t and took advantage of my feelings to boost your ego. I still would wish you the best even after all we been through.

what happened to not being able to leave eachother alone? you made a promise and again you broke it. i hate that i love you.

i hate you so fucking much and the thought of you and anyone else makes me so happy bc i know they won’t ever be as good as me.

i know we have a rocky relationship but please refrain from playing with my feelings for a bit. the whole you ghosting thing caught me so off guard and i really liked you :(

you wasted my time for months and I want to text you so badly but you don’t deserve anymore of it. it makes me hate you when I wonder if everything was a lie.

Uhm... hi :) kind of nervous but hello:) how are you? hope your doing amazing, will I like you a lot aha, kinda think you got this already. But all of our early memories were worth it and you definitely worth it>3, literally miss your smile, laugh, and your warm company.
i love you...

i miss how things were before and i’m mad u had to f*ck it up. but i’m thankful for the time we have now.

I cannot seem to let go, there's just something there that is keeping this flame alive. So please tell me how to put it out for good. I need to let go.

you always took advantage of the fact that i loved you and you came back when you were bored or lonely. you never deserved me

i’m not good at texting you directly so. here. you mean so much to me and i have trouble being not awkward. i love you (only like a friend homie) but yeah.

please never forget about me. about the nights you told me to look at the moon, the plans we made, the songs we made each other listen to, the i love you's, everything. you made me feel okay when i wanted to be gone even when you were part of the reason i felt that way. im still waiting for you to call, give me some sign that you still care. because i know you did. going through our first few months of messages hurt because you cared so much and i took it for granted. even though that changed i still had you. i still had that hope we would go back to normal and you would show me that love again. when everything got bad i always thought well at least ill have you. as long as i have you that's all i will ever need. and then just like that you were gone. im making it without you but this past month has been so hard. there's been times where i can't take it any more and i go to call you because i know hearing your voice would make all my problems go away but i can't. i really miss you dude. forever.

you have no clue how i feel about you. you make me so happy, and something is telling me not to give up on you.

What are we? We act like best friends and kind of like more but she likes you and I dont want to hurt her. Please tell me. I think im in love

What are we? We act like best friends and kind of like more but she likes you and I dont want to hurt her. Please tell me. I think im in love

I hate you. You made empty promises, got me to trust you, love you... and just like everyone else, you left like it was the easiest thing ever. You broke me but it only made me stronger. You didn’t deserve me. I still think about you from time to time. I see pictures and you don’t seem the same. At the end of the day, you made your choice and you did it to yourself. I’m starting to be happy without you in my life and it breaks my heart bc you use to be the one who made me happy. Now you just bring me pain and stress. Thank you for the lesson.

Gosh you’re so annoying I miss you so much. Every day every second gets so much harder without you. Idk how I’m gonna do this. I hope you’re having fun though. I hope you’re happy. I just want you to hold me so tight right now. I need one last hug. I know I fucked up but I can’t do anything anymore. I can’t even fall asleep without taking something to help. I’m so sorry Zach. This is ruining me.

Ik you werent ready for a serious relationship but it hurt when you left and moved on like we had nothing.

zach, thank you. god i cant even thank you enough. i feel like youre always ALWAYS there for me. i wish i showed all that back, but i really suck at those types of things. god i couldnt ever thank you enough. ilysm, i dont know what i would do without you. i love you, no homo ofc ofc :))

you were wrong, you said I would move on. just like I always do. but it's been two years and I still think about you.

zachary,,, i hope u stop hurting,,, you dont say it but,,, ik its there,,, theres sm i dont understand,,, but just know that i think of you often,,, your role in my life is quite nice and i appreciate absolutely everything you do for me even though i never stick around long,,, you do sm to impact me and those around you,,, heal,,, i love you bubba

I wish you realized all the emotions you put me through. You learned how my first broke me, yet did the same thing...