Unsent messages to ZACH

i really do think that we had no reason to fall in love. it was stupid and shouldnt be called out for. i trusted you with all the things i told you. i vented to you about personal things that i regret telling you. you probably dont think about me at all. im just happy that im over you. i will never give you another chance again.

i used brown so this would stand out. how can i make you mine though we got out whole life in front of us?

i hate you, thats kinda all i have to say, you broke me and made me feel like shit and the fact that you cheated on me with my bsf?! wow and then on top of that when we broke up you had the nerve to leak my nudes and cheat on oriana by asking me for more nudes your literally trash how tf has nobody called you out yet i should tell your mom wtf you did to me, you only used me for my body not my love all you want is to lose your virginity so you can talk about it with your racist friends,when i was with you i felt like nothing you put me in such i bad headspace to where im in a deep depression and its all your fucking fault, i hate you so much you never told me you loved me EVER and ya know i was dumb enough to let it slide when i shoulnt have. i wish i never met you tbh... i hope sombody puts you in your place one day

I don’t know what love is. But when I’m with you I feel different. You will never see this but I wish you did. I wish I knew how you feel.

I should have asked you out that day. I’ll never find out what your answer would have been and I wish I knew. I wish you would tell me.

you have no clue how i feel about you. you make me so happy, and something is telling me not to give up on you.

you always took advantage of the fact that i loved you and you came back when you were bored or lonely. you never deserved me

Uhm... hi :) kind of nervous but hello:) how are you? hope your doing amazing, will I like you a lot aha, kinda think you got this already. But all of our early memories were worth it and you definitely worth it>3, literally miss your smile, laugh, and your warm company.
i love you...

You told me you loved me and then said you didn’t and took advantage of my feelings to boost your ego. I still would wish you the best even after all we been through.

i thought i was over you but then you send me those voice memos of you singing and i can’t stop listening to them. i wish you could come back to town so we could hang out i miss your hugs

Thank you for being an amazing friend and sharing stories with me. I miss you so much. please stay safe and know that you are worth it.

i lowkey wish you would’ve never been stolen from us :( i wonder how things would be, miss ya old friend

I put time and effort into you, and all I got back was you just using me as a distraction cause I wasn't the girl you really wanted.

I loved you, and i dont know why. You treated me like shit and led me on. But ill always love you. We are friends now and i wouldnt date you again but for some reason....i love you.

We facetimed tonight. I had so much fun. Enjoyed every second of it actually. It's almost like I could talk to you or HOURS but i cant because you have to go to sleep early because you have to go to the gym. When you leave, im sitting here, typing these, and crying my eyes out.

thank you. thank you for showing me your worst sides so that i could bring out my truest self. i hate you for how you treated me but i thank you for making me realize my true worth.

I cat wait until we see eachother. I overthink a lot but i think seeing you would be a whole lot better.

I'm sorry that I never communicated. I wish I could change the past. I'm glad that we're still friends, but you will always have that place in my heart.

I thought we were close friends but it feels like your just trying to hurt me because every time you call its bad news

Man... I miss you so much. You were my person and I still believe that to this day. No matter how many times you hurt me or betrayed me you were the love of my life. I have so much love for you still to this day and I see you struggling with life and it breaks my heart because I know you don’t want me to be there for you.

I love you so much and I miss you beyond words.

i love you so much and i can't seem to leave. you constantly hurt me but you're the boy who saved me. at this point though i don't know if you saved me just to ruin me again....

You came into my life when I wanted only to do with myself, but you’ve been the one thing that I look forward to every single day. I just hope you feel the same...

you were my yellow. that wasn't what i wanted to wake up to. if only you could hear the way i talk ab you.

I thought we had something. You had me so convinced. You hurt me even though you knew I was hurt before and scared of it happening again. So why am I the one apologizing?? Yeah you apologized but I had the right to be petty after what you pulled so check yourself. You have no idea the pain I go through every time I see you knowing I can’t run into your arms or kiss you. I love you just please take me back I can’t deal with it anymore

I believe that you were The One. I just wish I was the one for you.
I wish I wasn't in love with you, but I am.

i've tried to write this a hundred times but no words can come close to how i feel about your existence and your current absence in my life. you are special zach, i miss you.

You are one of the most genuine human beings I have ever met. I could see myself falling so in love with you

i did everything for you just to be left alone. you hurt me so many times and i still stayed because i loved you.

I don’t understand how I cannot stop thinking of you. I just want to be happy in a relationship, but I always wind up losing my feelings for them because the voice in the back of my head is still rooting for me to be with you. I’ve known you for four years, and told you how I felt at least once every year... Except for this one, because now, my best friend is on your arm. You never told me how you felt! You’d tease me and wink at me, but when I ask for you to explain what it’s all supposed to mean, you go silent. Why couldn’t you answer me? I try so hard to pretend I’m happy for the two of you, but it hurts. It hurts so much. I love you so much, and I can’t see myself being happy with anyone but you. Not even the therapy can help me, and it fucking sucks! Just answer me! Do you like me? Yes or no? One word. One answer. It’s not that hard. You could’ve at least told me no before you started dating my best friend. I can’t even be near the two of you at the same time without having to bottle up my tears. Why wouldn’t you answer me?

you lied to me
you betrayed me and everything we had
you left me three days after Valentine's day
three days after promising we'd grow old together
you then bullied me as if breaking my heart wasn't bad enough
so fuck you
fuck you
fuck you fuck you

The first day I spoke to you, I thought I was going to marry you. Four years later I'm okay again after having my heart shattered by you.

looking back I really wish that I would've told you how I felt because I truly think things might've turned out different for us if I did

i think i love you. i thought i was incapable. im sorry for acting like I don't care sometimes. i really do.

I know you love her, but I loved you too. I watched your games, I sang 1D songs with your sister, your mom and I went Christmas shopping, and our brother and I built lego contraptions together. And us? We ran from cops, sang Michael Jackson songs at the top of our lungs, and snuck out to a different city every Friday just to feel alive. We did. I did. And you left. You still left.

i hate that you text or call when you’re high or drunk, and you have a girlfriend. i want to know the reason.

I wish you would just fucking tell us what you're feeling and how you're doing so I don't have to constantly worry about you. why the fuck are you so anxious and uptight all the time?

I hate you. You made empty promises, got me to trust you, love you... and just like everyone else, you left like it was the easiest thing ever. You broke me but it only made me stronger. You didn’t deserve me. I still think about you from time to time. I see pictures and you don’t seem the same. At the end of the day, you made your choice and you did it to yourself. I’m starting to be happy without you in my life and it breaks my heart bc you use to be the one who made me happy. Now you just bring me pain and stress. Thank you for the lesson.

What are we? We act like best friends and kind of like more but she likes you and I dont want to hurt her. Please tell me. I think im in love

What are we? We act like best friends and kind of like more but she likes you and I dont want to hurt her. Please tell me. I think im in love

god, i didn’t think you would let me go this easy.I miss looking into your brown eyes u were the only person who understood.

DNA from a kiss last 6 months in your body its almost been two months and soon it will be 6 and then you are really gone

I loved you. I still do. That hurts. I want to move on like you did. You did it so fast too. And things left off in a shitty way in a shitty town. Maybe one day we’ll come back to each other but for now we’re back to being strangers. I’ll keep the promise we made though. Any time you need me I’ll be there.

i wish i could do more to help you but i can’t, and it haunts me everyday that there isn’t a way i can help you.

ive been in love with you since 6th grade and im pretty sure I always will be. I think about you all the time, way more than I would like. but I still find myself writing this. I loved you then and I still do. our relationship might of not been the longest but it was definitely the most genuine. even though we haven't talked for a while, I still like you. ik you'll never read this but I hope ill be able to tell you this one day.

if you're actually looking at this website, which i doubt you are, look up your middle name instead. i dont think you've written me a note though. you must be over me while im still holding on.

you showed me every aspect of love. the good,the bad, the pain, the happiness all of it. i will always love you.

Idk you make my feelings go crazy and confused. You act like you care about me but am not sure if your really do?

I love you still and i miss you more than anything i miss what we had and i’m sorry that’s we both messed it up

you made me feel like the only person in the world but then you left for no reason with no explanation except for telling e you cant love me anymore and that really broke me

fuck you your the fakest person i’ve ever met, i can’t believe i let you talk shit abt me behind my back. that’s right, i fucking knew all a long but it doesn’t matter right? cuase i’m just a bitch