Unsent Messages

I don’t understand how I cannot stop thinking of you. I just want to be happy in a relationship, but I always wind up losing my feelings for them because the voice in the back of my head is still rooting for me to be with you. I’ve known you for four years, and told you how I felt at least once every year... Except for this one, because now, my best friend is on your arm. You never told me how you felt! You’d tease me and wink at me, but when I ask for you to explain what it’s all supposed to mean, you go silent. Why couldn’t you answer me? I try so hard to pretend I’m happy for the two of you, but it hurts. It hurts so much. I love you so much, and I can’t see myself being happy with anyone but you. Not even the therapy can help me, and it fucking sucks! Just answer me! Do you like me? Yes or no? One word. One answer. It’s not that hard. You could’ve at least told me no before you started dating my best friend. I can’t even be near the two of you at the same time without having to bottle up my tears. Why wouldn’t you answer me?