all i want is closure but i don’t want to ask bc then ull know i care more than u. the sad thing is i actually thought we could’ve worked.

Will I ever hear from you again? Who knows, you know where I am. I guess you’ve moved on. But guess what, I’m doing the same.

I never realised you cared until it was too late. We were younger and now we’ve grown and I understand, which only makes me want you more. It hurts when I hear about your relationships because I know no matter how many times we make eye contact you will never care for me like you used to. I wish I could talk to you and tell you how I feel but what’s the point when it’s the idea of you that I like. I don’t know you anymore.

i think of you from time to time but i know you aren’t right for me. i hope you find yourself and happiness

your the reason im happy and your the reason im starting to love myself again and if we dont work out idk what im gonna do without you

you made everyone else who i ever thought i loved irrelevant. we were bad timing and i wish we could do it over because you always have an imprint on my mind and heart

I love you so much and I don’t know why you can’t feel the same about me. Everything feels so right when we are together.

I don’t think you’ll ever realise the shit you put me through and that’s ok. We weren’t right for each other and that’s clear now. I’m stronger because of it.

pt 2 - oh how things change. don't say you love me still and then do what you did. you've fucked me up, and idc if you didn't do it on purpose, you never do. you never intend to hurt the person who would have went through hell and back for you. i really thought you were different, but i guess people lie.still missing you x

what happened? what changed? was it something i did? or was your plan to fuck me over the whole time? did you mean any of it?fuck you. you broke me.

maybe it's time to let go. i think now seems about right. i don't know if I'm holding onto you or the person of you that I've made up in my head. speak soon xx

you chose her over someone who would always have your back and now that someone has to pick up the pieces from that girl that broke you

Deep in my heart I always knew that you were gonna be like the others, you hurt me too...I was in love with you, but you never realized, you just played with me

As much as we are over and in our new relationships I don't think you know how much you permenantly scared my heart and the way I look at love.

It hurts me that you'll never see me the way I see you. It hurts me that you'll never care about me the way I care about you.

We just met at the wrong time.....if we had met later in life I know we would have been perfect....I still love you.

My heart is still aching but I know you’ve moved on. I just wish you would’ve told me why you left so maybe i could feel better about myself now...

hi sam. i don't know who you are but i felt compelled to write this. you will be okay. you will be OKAY. all the love

hi sam. i don't know who you are but i felt compelled to write this. you will be okay. you will be OKAY. all the love

hi sam. i don't know who you are but i felt compelled to write this. you will be okay. you will be OKAY. all the love

You were the only good person I have ever been with. I'm sorry for not being mature when we were together. You may think I am over it but I think about you everyday and I hope one day we can try again. I love you.

i think i’ll always love you. we’re together again now, but something doesn’t feel right. when i think of you i think of her and you, and it scares me. i know something happened between you both but i don’t know what. i can’t ask because you’ll get mad at me.

I miss you so much!this is why I hate love! I fell out of love, you left and just like that I loved you again:(

hi hun, i don't think you'll ever see this but i just wanted to say that i can't put into words how much i love you even through all of our ups and downs and both of our crazy lives. i can't express enough how lucky i am to have you in my life. i know you're graduating this year and i really hope our journey doesn't come to an end you complete me and i can't imagine spending my time or life with anyone. i know people say we're young and dumb and don't know what real love is. but i believe that we will grow so much together and become amazing people separately and together. i'm so very thankful for you and i know i don't say it enough but i am so in love with you.

Well here i am typing to no one, well you did it again, i mean not yet but i feel in 8 hours ill have the break up text but while im waiting ill write this. um i didnt do anything tell you what you did wrong. i want you to change and we have dated a whole 9 times. you seemed genuine this time. your touch. your thought process, its uhhh well. beautiful. i mean even if blakes right and your playing me i guess im ok with that. coming over and holding you or you holding me just makes me happy. Your ex messaged you today. dont know what you said but if my thoughts are wrong ill see you and find out the hard way. i told my mom what happened tonight and she was upset to say the least. not angry but sad. seeing her kid get hurt again. it pains my mom to know im in love with a girl who doesnt act like she loves me. im very confused about homecoming pics. why did you let your friends belittle me. im trying my hardest to make you stay but i cant give you reasons when i know you are going to leave like you always do. then you will eventually lose your next boyfriend and come back to cause me more pain. Now to the other ending to this story.
if you are being truthful about loving me this time i love you too dork. i really am in love and i know you are up and ignoring me. you are very maniplutive but yep im crying. why do you treat me like genuine shit. god i cant even think of a better ending. im never gonna break up with you but im mad. im angry that you laughed while i was expressing genuine things i was scared about "Im NoT lEaViNg YoU" like sure you arent. but i guess ill wait. weve lasted 2 months so far so yeah sleep well i guess.

I wish I could tell my parents about you, they just wouldn’t agree with it. I hope you’re not angry when you find out, I hope you still like me.. you’ve been coming distant. I don’t know how to do this

i wanna make a better one. hi Sam its been about 1 day since weve seen each other and i hope ill see you in 7 hours and 30 mins. i love you and you make me extremely happy and i cant tell you that enough, you are the reason i wake up. i mean no normal girlfriend does 201 missing assignments for there boyfriend because it stresses them out. it kinda shows how perfect you are. well to me atleast. ive yet to give in to the bs my friends tell me about you. im 16 and feel like im in love. the way you hold me and tell me you love me makes a shit day go to an amazing one. i wish you didnt want to leave. you wont tell me you do i but i know you and i know you want someone else even know i cant find out who it is i know you wanna leave but you made that promise. i thank you for pitying me and caring about my feelings. if you find this tell me and just do it 81580. i expect it to go up when you want angel again. god it hurts youve chosen the dude who fucked your entire life up over me. ouch dude like really. i am useless not even my parents want me. if i left this shit town i wouldnt be missed. my friends dont check up on me anymore and your all i got. my parents scream and yell at me and my grades are destined to go back down the drain. i know your calling him because you wont call me. im sorry im not enough, i never was good enough. not even for my mom and dad. i cant keep it in anymore, im sorry. alot for a better note huh. wow. i literally cant think about you in a positive light. you cause me so much pain tonight. ive never wanted to just disappear this much. im so fucking hurt. why would you do this to me? you like seeing me in pain dont you? FUCK DUDE.

my biggest regret is that i wanted to change myself, so that maybe you’d like me as much as you liked her.

It’s been years. Even though I forgave you, I’ll never be able to forget you. I even thought about you when I saw Ed Sheeran live and he sang ‘our’ song.

i would take you back in a heart beat, and i only ever want you to be happy, even if i were to sacrifice my own happiness.

I wish you knew how much I liked you, how much I missed you. Sometimes I wish I told you. I hope you're doing okay.

This is the colour that i think of you as: pretty, calm, cool and forgiving. If she wasn't with you i think that i would have had a chance with you. i've always had a soft spot for you since junior school, to be honest i think that you still have a soft spot for me. if she wasn't here we may have been together. if you asked me out i would say yes in a second without a doubt. I think that i may still love you a little bit xxx

there were endless butterflies everytime i saw you, now i realise it was more of a warning than an invitation

i’ll never get to say this to you but u saved me. you helped me through so much without you knowing. i really like you and i know you don’t feel the same but you’ve always been the one for me and i love u. i’m sorry but i do, it’s hard to not say anything to you because you don’t like me like that but i really really like u

For the 5 years, you were the main thought in my head, all I would think about. Now, I don’t even notice you in the halls anymore.

it's been years but I regret pushing you away. you hold a special place in my heart and I won't ever forget you

i hate thinking about you. i hate looking at you. i hate hearing your name. i also hate hearing your voice. everyday i wish i never even knew you.

i miss you so much. i can’t stop thinking about you. when i’m alone and i think of you my throat gets tight and i can’t breathe. i know even when i’m old and married i’ll still remember what we had.

tbh all i wanted to do was go get mcdonalds with you at 3am and eat it in the car with music playing too loudly while we couldn't stop laughing and simply just felt infinite like they do in perks of being a wallflower. all you've ever said to me is hi, but i think i'm okay with that now.

I'm so sorry. I truly am. You meant so much to me its untrue.
But i guess it's never the right place or time is it?

you had the weirdest impact on my life and i probably could've gone without you but its okay because i'm not mad that you are in my life, i just don't need you i never did. you honestly made things worse at some points and better at the others.

i feel like you love me more than you love your own girlfriend, and that scares me. we will either become so close that we fuck, or have a falling out from how close we are now. we wont stay this way for long. im just terrified that i like you. from a non-emotional standpoint, this is the worst decision.

ive loved you since the first time we spoke and i think i always will and i have a feeling you do too

im sorry i keep texting you with updates. i know you dont care, but i am clinging to this for dear life because i cant accept that we're done.

how long will it take to realize how selfish you are. You've created your own reality and have shaped your own public image. People aren't just calling you an asshole for no reason. You hurt me and so many others, but I hope you learn to grow the fuck up.

i'll never stop loving you, i just keep trying to get over you and end up disappointed when at the end of the day you're all i want. forever and always.

i wish you knew how much you genuinely mean to me. I’m sorry i always make things bad but i don’t know how to act around you.

I have this thing where I try to save everybody. I didn't know I was destroying you. I shouldn't have said those things to you and im so sorry from the bottom of my heart. I wish I never lost you and I wish it never came to what it came to and im sorry about the outcome. if I could go back in time I would change everything. im sorry for being hurtful. I was so mf depressed and I swore I would never make someone else feel that way but I did. I love you so much.

you were my yellow you made me smile and made me finally feel like I had a place and even though you knew how fucked up I was you still got to know me. then once I had made one mistake you cut me off, how can you tell me you love me then cut me off just like that. youre a fucking asshole and I can't believe I let myself fall involve with you because you created a whole different personality so I fell in love with a version of you and I hate you for it you made me hate myself again fuck you.

this is my apology to you. my way to say sorry for what i caused. my apology for expecting love i could never have. my apology for my heart breaking over the thought of us that was impossible to reach. i am sorry. i’m sorry i loved you when i should have known you would never love me.