Unsent messages to SAM
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 10, 2021, 7:16 am UTC
i loved you with every atom of my existence. Yet out of all of the possible ways to let me down and move from each other, even though the feeling wasn’t mutual. Even though I loved-love you. You took my life from me, you took my trust and literally threw it all away with THAT condom wrapper that you left in that bathroom. THAT bathroom you soon left been seen walking out with girl that wasn’t me. At THAT house party that we went to together. THAT night i realised that I love you.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 10, 2021, 6:12 am UTC
I spend Sunday's reading our old messages in order to feel something.
What if it's always going to be you?
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 10, 2021, 4:41 am UTC
in the case it all doesn't work out right now, one day it will. we've still got the rest of our lives. at the end of the day, youre in my arms.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 10, 2021, 2:52 am UTC
I didn’t love you the same way you loved me but I was too selfish to let you go.
Now, I’ve lost you forever.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 10, 2021, 12:18 am UTC
i would take you back in a heart beat, and i only ever want you to be happy, even if i were to sacrifice my own happiness.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 9, 2021, 12:32 pm UTC
I don’t think you’ll ever realise the shit you put me through and that’s ok. We weren’t right for each other and that’s clear now. I’m stronger because of it.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 8, 2021, 9:57 pm UTC
You make me so happy:) I wish you understood how much you mean to me, I hope you don't leave me I've always loved you
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 8, 2021, 5:33 pm UTC
I hate that you hurt me so badly to the point where I’m still crying over you and it’s been almost 4 months since you left.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 8, 2021, 5:32 pm UTC
I hate that you hurt me so badly to the point where I’m still crying over you and it’s been almost 4 months since you left.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 8, 2021, 5:37 am UTC
you’re my best friend now, and the only thing i’d trade that for is how things were before that summer
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 8, 2021, 4:59 am UTC
i wish i had the confidence to talk to you back then, now i feel like i’ll never have the chance again
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 7, 2021, 11:38 pm UTC
I will always love you, i love everything about you from your laugh to your eyes, you mean everything to me, i hope we stay together forever, i promise to give you everything and i’ll never let go x
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:32 pm UTC
youre a whore x
jk lol
i wanna meet you but i have social anxiety so i will be putting that off for as long as possible
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 7, 2021, 2:42 pm UTC
i think i submit too many of these, but anna said blocking you was for the best so this is how i get it all out. i've put them under ten different names, all related to sam, but i still wish that i could just tell you how i feel.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 7, 2021, 8:11 am UTC
i know everything’s hard right now but you have to keep going. life will get better and i think we both need to hear this.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 7, 2021, 6:42 am UTC
It'll be a year since you died in a few days. Could I have stopped you? If I had paid more attention would you have stayed?
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 7, 2021, 2:02 am UTC
i love you so much i hope you never leave me. i’m sorry i hurt you so much, i hate it but i’m so broken but i know you still love me and that’s how i know you’re perfect for me. i love you bunny
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 7, 2021, 12:04 am UTC
i miss you. i wish i can go back and admit that i still have feelings for you. i miss watching u play chess...
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 11:29 pm UTC
when we first fell in love, everything matched, and then it didn’t. i got my prom dress in purple to remind me of you, but by that time you were already gone, and I didnt know it was with her, another her, another friend you probably cheated on me with. you became a culmination of everything I hated about myself and all of my insecurities, and I still hate that you made me question who I was because purple is not your color anymore, it’s the color of goddamn royalty and I wish I could tell you to go fuck yourself on my throne.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 10:41 pm UTC
i wish you knew you weren’t ready before i had to find out myself. by then it was too late to not get attached.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:42 pm UTC
I still think about you a lot. Maybe it's because you moved away before we got to see things all the way through or maybe it's because you were my first love. It's been two years, but I wish I could've spent them with you. I have no problem moving on and I've dated other people just fine, but I can't help but wonder what could've been if you had stayed.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 7:22 pm UTC
Is it sad that I still think about you sometimes even though I know I’ve already moved on? I guess I’ll never know
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 7:21 pm UTC
Is it sad that I still think about you sometimes even though I know I’ve already moved on? I guess I’ll never know
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 6:22 pm UTC
i wish i never introduced u to her cuz now all u worry abt is her u dont even talk to me anymore. what do she have that i dont?
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 3:20 pm UTC
I love all the different pieces of you and how perfectly those pieces fit together to create you. My lil Marley
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:30 am UTC
I truly wish I never met you. All the most traumatic events of my life are tied to you. You exist within me as pain.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 6, 2021, 2:05 am UTC
even though we didn’t work out. you will forever have a special place in my heart that one one else can.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 5, 2021, 8:38 am UTC
You never even noticed me unless you were picking on me. I dont know why but at a point i didnt want you to stop.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 5, 2021, 7:14 am UTC
it’s been almost 4 years since we broke up. i still love you, but i hate you even more. i hate the fact that i will never be able to love m back the way he loves me because of you. i hate the fact that you told everybody i cheated when it was really you...multiple times. i hate the fact that i will never know how to love myself because you tore me apart piece by piece. i still love you but i will always hate you more.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 5, 2021, 3:38 am UTC
I liked you before you ever liked me. Is this just sex to you? I don't know if I'm ready to be with you because I'm falling for someone else.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 5, 2021, 2:57 am UTC
I really fucking like you. I can’t get you off my mind. I have no idea if you like me or not but you keep sending mixed signals. You’re so cute and funny and overall amazing
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 5, 2021, 2:55 am UTC
you don't even know that it's you but it is. from the first day we met. i love you. you are my world. thank you.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 5, 2021, 1:21 am UTC
Thank you for everything. Some part of me will always love you even if for now we can only be friends.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 4, 2021, 10:51 pm UTC
I thought you were showing me what love was, but you just showed me possession and hatred. You took a bright young girl and turned me dark, and I’m still recovering. How could you? You hurt so many people, and what was it for? Attention? I think you’re a psychopath. I hope you never find love, and I hope someone tells you how selfish you are. I wasn’t the first and I won’t be the last, and that breaks my heart. You’re a monster and there is nothing redeemable about you. Fuck you. Sincerely, all the girls you broke.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 4, 2021, 9:06 am UTC
I try my best not to break, but it hurts knowing you are happy and it’s not with me. So sorry that I’m avoiding you.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 4, 2021, 6:09 am UTC
Fuck you, seriously. I deserve an apology, and I don’t deserve to be so sad, so heartbroken, because you left
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 4, 2021, 4:20 am UTC
i sometimes look to see if you ever leave any messages for me. i often see some that relate to our relationship so accurately, but i have a deeper feeling in my heart that tells me it isn't you. maybe i asked for too much, maybe you felt like you couldn't reciprocate the friendship that we had so long ago. i think this will be my last message for you. if you want to ever come into contact with me again, you can. but i want you to know that you'll be meeting a completely different person, one who has changed for the better.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 4, 2021, 12:18 am UTC
Sometimes I wonder if it’s my turn to be selfish too, but I know it would hurt you. It’s not like you cared much when you did it
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 2:32 pm UTC
I’ll never forget about being ur smol little bumblebee. I love you and I always will even though we are thousands of miles apart.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 11:58 am UTC
i didn’t know what i wanted and that was my mistake, you were perfect and i threw it away, it just wasn’t our time. i had so much fun every time we hung out and you made me feel like i was genuinely someone for once in my life. i won’t ever forget you.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 10:14 am UTC
Best friend’s boyfriend, well, ex now. I liked you since I met you and when you broke up I thought it meant I had a chance. Then, she made me promise to never date you, or even be friends with you. Fuck. My. Life.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 8:29 am UTC
i know ill never be able to get back the old you but please just try to love me like you used to. i’ll never give up on us.
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 8:16 am UTC
I wish I didn’t give it to you when I did because I really liked you but it’s the only way I thought you would want me
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:56 am UTC
I know your going through a hard time right now and you don’t have much time left with your grandma but please stay strong for me just until you move and we can be closer together
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:42 am UTC
I don't feel safe anymore. I haven't in a while. But in your arms, just for a moment, everything felt ok. I could breath again. Now I am suffocating
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:24 am UTC
I lived in a world of darkness, but you were a ray of light. All these years later even when I think I don’t need your light anymore - you take me by surprise by bursting back in with your colour. Your smile is so beautiful I find it hard to describe. When you smile you make everyone around you want to smile too. Your eyes are such a soft azure blue - and your smile reaches right up into them
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:47 am UTC
i don’t know why i thought we ever had a chance ; why i thought i ever had one but you were a very heavy page to turn in my book
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:37 am UTC
you were amazing at the beginning, but you stopped loving me just as I fell for you. why didn't you stay?
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 2, 2021, 5:34 pm UTC
i can't listen to that khai dreams song sunkissed without thinking about you please don't hmu again if you ever see this but, i just wish you cared about me as much as i cared about you :(
From: ABC
To: sam
Date: January 2, 2021, 12:43 pm UTC
i hated you so much for what you did to me. you fucking ruined my mind. i want you to hurt as bad as i did.
