I know I can't have you, but I really want you. I miss talking to you and I miss your voice and i miss your voice

I didn’t love you the same way you loved me but I was too selfish to let you go.
Now, I’ve lost you forever.

I hear your voice and I remember things that happened a year ago as if it happened yesterday. All the hurt. All the love. I wish I could forget.

i love you. ik i never said it but i love so fucking much. i wish i could have told you but the idea of telling u terrifies me

in the case it all doesn't work out right now, one day it will. we've still got the rest of our lives. at the end of the day, youre in my arms.

i loved you. i still do. even though we only talk a little now, i can’t stop it. your smile is my favorite thing ever and i miss you.

ik u dont want a relationship this year n who knows if u even like me back. ill wait for u tho, itll be worth it.

I know you’re not coming back and that may be what hurts the most. But it must stay like this. I have to say myself.

You weren't my first love but I couldn't help myself from writing one of these for you. I wish you knew how special I was and I wish you would treat me better regardless of the distance. You mean so much to me, not sure why. You're not good for me but I'd like to know what it would be like to be loved by you.

I spend Sunday's reading our old messages in order to feel something.
What if it's always going to be you?

do you think we'd still be together if that hadn't happened 5 years ago? Because i do. I hope we find our way back someday

i loved you with every atom of my existence. Yet out of all of the possible ways to let me down and move from each other, even though the feeling wasn’t mutual. Even though I loved-love you. You took my life from me, you took my trust and literally threw it all away with THAT condom wrapper that you left in that bathroom. THAT bathroom you soon left been seen walking out with girl that wasn’t me. At THAT house party that we went to together. THAT night i realised that I love you.

Hey princess, I miss what we had. I miss when it was only butterflies and not knowing if i’m gonna loose you or not everyday. I tried so much for you and, yet you put 0 effort. I love you, but please I wish you tried harder for me.

Every time i think about you i cry, and i regret everything that i've caused. Though 6 month had passed, i miss you and i still love you #carrots

i’ve given you so much. i’ve offered you so much. i never receive anything in return. some “best friend” you are.

staying up all night hurts me but its the only way i can feel close to you right now. i wish that you didn't make me feel as weak as i do now. its almost been two years and im starting to feel so pathetic...

You really were my first love and you taught me a lot. So thank you for cheating on me. I now know my worth.

they say never make someone your everything because when they leave you will have nothing. well i had never heard that saying until yesterday so now that im here, almost two years later, feeling alone and like i nothing care to maybe help me out here?

you might have been the first person that i ever loved. i would have never admitted it but looking back i know that much was true. then you took my trust and destroyed everything. your name is still bitter in my mind but it doesn't hurt nearly as bad as it used to. i hope that you're doing well and know that a part of me still misses you and that i know you're sorry for what you did and i'm sorry too.

you asked me one day after school why i laid in the snow in the middle of the field. i would of expected myself to of done it for your attention but i did it because you were around and when you were around i felt like nothing in the world could ever hurt me, i could let myself go to another universe in front of who ever, whenever and not worry about looking insane. i could finally breath and not care and completely let myself go. that had never happened before, completly letting myself go i mean, and it sadly hasn't happened since.

thank you so much for everything, you have no idea how much you help me. stay alive even, I can't wait to see you again, I miss you

I’m letting go.
You were so wrong for me and I hate myself for how long it happened. I hope you find the girl who makes you happy.

And it’s not even you anymore, it’s about us. You did this and yet I blame myself for your mistakes. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I miss you, so much, too much it hurts.

you are like elevator music to me, for i don’t know how i couldnt live my life without you in the background.

I'm not sure if what I felt for you was love, but I'm pretty sure it was. I will never forget you. I wish I had known you were sick before you left us x

I knew from the minute I met you that I was going to fall completely in love with you, but I never imagined it would end up hurting me this much. Take care of yourself. I love you always.

i felt like this was my first time genuinely liking someone. you were always sweet to me and i’m glad we’re still friends. but i wish i stepped into ur life more when we would see eachother everyday. now we just text and i hangout with ur younger sister sometimes. maybe something will change next year?

You definitely aren’t my first love, nor are you anyone i have been inlove with but i truly care about you. i’m always so happy when you are holding me. you were the first person i felt comfortable to be near me in that way since the thing happened to me. i would love to love you but i just can’t.

i’m sorry, i loved you, i should’ve told you, i made it so complicated for myself, i don’t blame you.

You only used me for my body and then dropped me when you wanted. I'd come running back everytime tho because I loved you

the memory of you has stained so many of my favourite things. its time for me to reclaim them. i never should have showed you my favourite shows, songs, and everything else. I can't even lie in my own bed without thinking of memories of you. how did you manage to ruin every single aspect of my room without ever having even been in it?

u ended it on facetime and when I said goodbye u said "u dont want to talk?"....why the fuck would I want to keep talking after u broke my heart lol wtf

fuck dude. who would’ve know that one night would do so much damage. scary thing is you don’t even know

You touched me on places I never been touched. You made me feel butterflies. But then you dropped me like I was a joke

its funny. I always feel guilty writing to you on here, because im not even truly sure anymore that you were my first love. I dont know if that was love. we always said we loved eachother, but maybe we just loved the way we made eachother feel. less alone. looking back, it doesnt feel like real love.

Sam you have absolutely changed my life. You opened my third eye and I really think we are meant to be. I will never stop loving you even if we do not end up together because my love is unconditional. I could never love someone like I love you.

i don’t know how i feel about you. i want to date you, but at the same time i don’t. i want you to keep pushing this because i will give in soon.

holy shit i think im finally over you, it still hurts but a little less...i'll always love you and look for you in a crowded room :)

We don’t even talk right now and you don’t think about me at all, but I still hope it’s you and me in the end

i will always love you , your hair , your smile. i hate that i can’t have you and that you don’t want me , you never want me , you just want my friends. but i still love you

you broke me in so many ways i'll never be the same, you stopped me from feeling love and now i feel empty

It’s been 4 years since we broke up and there’s not been a single day I haven’t thought about you or missed you.

When you said that we cant wait on eachother i really wish i said we could because i want you back in my life

i hope you won’t ever find this but if you do i just wanna let you know you mean the world to me and i love you with all my heart ??

i think you were my right person, wrong time. it’s been a couple months but i think of you every day. im here if you want me

If I’m being completely honest, I fucked up in so many ways but you did to, we were both terrible for each other, but I miss you so much, we had so many good times together and I can’t get over you, I still cry to this day, you were my person even if it was hurting me, I wish I could go back in time and fix this, thank you for the best year of my life and I hope you find someone better and don’t manipulate her like you did me, I miss the kisses, the smiles, the laughs, the eye contact that made me have butterflies, I miss everything about you, I love you with my whole heart, I don’t think I can ever let you go, sometimes I wish you would come back but other times it’s just like if you did come back I wouldn’t be happy, I’ll only feel joy when I’m with you, this shit is tearing me up but I have to let go, goodbye

i wish we never met. I always thought you were cool till you sexually harrassed me and blamed it on someone else. I fucking hate you.
if your seeing this, you suck. you and tyi fucking suck.

I dream of marrying you, it's too early to say I love you though. And if that dream doesn't come true, I will not be crushed.

sometimes i think i miss you but i honestly just think i miss the way i saw you it was so innocent it was genuine love but you destroyed me sam.

You warped my view on love and sex for months. You effected me so much. I no longer feel attached to you.