Unsent Messages

I wanna say that im completely over you but I just don't know if I can. Ive thought about you recently, even though ik you don't ever think of me. I had a dream last night I was with you and your family. Now all I can think about is how tf could I screw up and leave you. You chose not to give it another shot bc of all the "bad" stuff that happened. But what bad stuff really happened? Our childish and stupid arguments? We were young and we've both grown. In a 4 days it'll be 2 years since the day we met. I can't believe it's almost been a whole year without you. I feel like im over you but just everything still reminds me of you. How tf am I supposed to get through this week trip if our families decided to go together? Like were about to go on vaca together and you don't even talk to me. Obviously I wasn't too important for you to ever talk to. The only time we got into a deep convo is the night after I called you drunk and you said we should be good friends like before again. What happened too that? I still think your my twin flame, or at least my soulmate. My mom still thinks were gonna get married lol. Okay well ily 3000.