you weren't my first love. I havent had one yet, but now I really wish you could be mine, or maybe each others. It hurts that it may never happen.

this is my second one of these because I realized I had more to say. you probably have better things to do than to read these, can't say the same for myself, but I just want to tell you that I regret it. I really do. but part of me likes to think it happened for a reason. right person wrong time, perhaps? idk. you have so many girls, but when I tell you that you are the only guy I talk to, im serious. you deserve someone better than these other girls, please give me a chance. or a second one because I really screwed up the first. because of that I don't think you will ever look at me the same, and that's what I have to live with now. what if I said yes? what would have it been like? I just hope you still don't see me as that person I was years before. I was scared of the idea of it all. we were young. we still are and I made sure to tell you that. just don't forget about me completely, ok?

there was no need to be embarrassed when i didn't want to go to the movies with you but go off. please do not swallow girls' faces when you make out with them; I hear too many complaints. you were actually really nice when i saw you on the range that once time though so i guess i forgive you.

You're in my 5th period and you sit two seats from me. I really like you, but I don't have the balls to tell you.

You broke me I gave you everything I tried to but you were focused on other females I miss you so much it hurts

you were my first real boyfriend. I never felt that love before, then you ripped it away before I could close my eyes

It hurt when you pretended to like me because you were bored. You hurt my young heart in so many ways. You pretending it was fine when i was broken. It was a waste of my time that i will never get back. Fuck you for being such a player! Fuck you for hurting me and not giving too fucks!!!!!!!!!!!

You absolutely broke my heart for the wrong reasons but i learned so much and im going to be so much more careful about who will have the chance to break my heart

Hearts can’t handle being broken on repeat. But for you, my heart is yours. Kill me. Keep kissing me.

I wish you listened to what made my heart break. You were so beautiful but In your eyes I never held your attention.You gave it out to every girl and that broke me. I could’ve given you the world if you were able to change like you said... Thank you for being my lesson.

you might not be my first love but I need you to know I’m proud of you for being one of the best people I’ve ever met. I appreciate everything you do for me I wish I could repay you one day

thank you for showing me that people do love me, thank you for staying up with me because you wanted to make sure i didn't do anything stupid. i love you.

I miss you so much and i want you to come back.i don’t think i will ever get over you. I am so in love with you i can’t stand it. It tears me apart every single day because all i ever think about is you. You treated me so poorly and always made me upset but i am so connected to you it’s crazy. How am i suppose to through away years of such a deep and passionate connection to you? I hope and pray to god that sooner or later, you’ll look back and realize what you put me through and realize what you lost. And then, once you’ve matured and realized, you will come back. I can’t throw this away.

To the boy who made me laugh everyday at lunch, who always put up with me, and always knew what to say, I love you. I always have and I think I always will. I can feel us drifting away from each other, but those who love each other never really lose one another. To my best friend, and the kindest, funniest boy I’ve ever met, thank you for putting a smile on my face on days I needed it the most. I hope your light never fades.

I don’t know if I loved u or the idea of having u. Either way u would never love me back. U didn’t care about me yet I still put in so much effort. U broke me and I don’t think I’ll ever be put back together.

I would do anything to see u again. I think about u 24/7 and I just want you out of my head. I don’t know if I’m in love with u or something but either way u don’t give a shit about me and it hurts. I was just another random hook up for u. I know I’ll never mean as much to u as u mean to me. U have made me miserable the past couple months yet I still want u so bad.

u knew me at my worst. i'm sorry. everything leads back to u but i'm finally done. i've grown and i'm happy now. i don't miss u anymore

i wish you would stop playing and ask me to be ur gf , you like me and i like you but nothing is happening i feel like i’m wasting time.

I hated what you had done to me for so long i hated you. I hated you for lying and cheating but now i want to thank you. You showed me who i never want to be and made me get my shit together so thank you.

a lot of the time, i think about how much genuine love and raw emotion i felt when you and i talked . what made it seem so foreign to me though, was how far away you live and how i probably didn’t mean as much to you as you do to me. when i heard your voice, or saw your face, i couldn’t help but have a rush of adrenaline and what felt like pure ecstasy. i don’t know if i fell in love with the comfort you brought me, or the fantasy of us being together some day, but what i do know is that you are and probably always will be my first love. besides family, i have never meant the words i love you as much as i did when i said them to you. i could only hope you felt the same, but i realize more and more that you probably were just bored, and the connection that you and i had will only be a jaded memory, if you ever remember me at all in the future. i hope you do, because i won’t forget you. if you havent noticed yet, i’m saying “i hope” a lot, because of the amount of confusion and lack of closure you’ve left me with. it’s okay though, because i know i didnt do the same, and i will always want the best for you, even if it will never be with me. it’s hard having to move on from someone you pictured being around a lot longer than they did. i remember you specifically telling me that time is on our side, and i will never let those words slip out of my memory. even if you do, i won’t forget what you told me and how you made me feel in the span of less than three months of knowing each other. maybe one day, we’ll cross paths, and you’ll recognize me. maybe one day, we’ll cross paths, and you don’t recognize me at all - just a stranger, like i wish i had always been to you.

You said you didn’t know why you broke up with me. You said were better off friends. You told me you loved me an hour before breaking my heart.

i love you so goddamn much. you do so much for me, i want to do the same for you but i don't know how

when you feel lonely at night in Chicago, know that there's still a girl in Cleveland and she still loves you.

As much as you left me feeling incomplete, i still miss our texts. I hate you, but i cant stop missing that old feeling.

I would give anything to be with you again it’s been 6 years and i’d still choose you over anyone else.

You make me feel things nobody has ever made me feel. I gave everything up because I was scared. I wish I could tell you I was sorry but I’m scared it’ll rip us apart. I couldn’t ever imagine my world without you in it.

I love you. I love you and I wish I could say it normally like we used to. I wish I could apologize for ending something with so much potential all because I didn’t know who I was yet. I know I still love you and I couldn’t ever imagine a world without you.

I feel like we were destined to not work. Our relationship started badly and sometimes it was beautiful and magical. Other times I quested whether we were hiding from something else and using sex to cope. Your new girlfriend is wonderful, and I truly sincerely hope she makes you feel special the same way you made me. I’m sorry I sucked so much, and I’m sorry I ended us so poorly. It was never you please know that.

I care about you so much, but it is time to let you go. I hope you find a girl that loves you as much as i do. And i don't even hate you for breaking my heart

i know you weren’t ready for a relationship and i was always proud of how you worked on yourself but i would have dropped everything for you if you wanted me too

Thank you for teaching me what love shouldn't be and for helping me know what I deserve even if you didn't provide it.

I still wish you were the person I thought you were, instead of the person who taught me not to trust myself.

Honestly you were my first BEST friend and i miss you more than you can imagine, i dont know your number or any social media to get into contact with you and the fact we no longer talk is 100% my fault. I knew you were going through a hard time with just life and getting into college so i shouldve been there for you more and for that i am so deeply sorry. I think about you very often and im very sorry we are no longer friends.

i don't know if you really forgive me after i apolgized, but i really hope you do and i want to start over. remember we talked about if we were broke up we would probably growing on ourselves and then getting back together when we're ready? it's like i feel like it's now like now is the time. right back under nick if you feel the same way and make the colour pink

You're not my usual type; however, we had a great connection. You're an asshole, but I still hope you find someone who makes you happy and doesn't just use you for money

I thought I’d never stop hating you. I did. You still deserve good things, just not me anymore. I hope you find your home someday :)

i cant believe it’s been almost two years. and to think i haven’t taken action on my feelings until now

i think i loved you and i hate myself for it knowing i deserve so much better. i wanted you to grow to be the man that deserved me, but you only broke my heart.

I really liked you. I really did. Maybe I still do. I regret what I did, but I also regret meeting you. You violated me in the worst ways possible.

It’s been so long and I still love you. I keep holding on to the memories we had, but we both moved on

u will never read this but i hold on to the memories, imy so much as a best friend, i wish we could talk again

i miss you. she has you and i’m so happy to see you happy. i think about us a lot and what we could’ve been. in another life bubba

i miss you so much. but you were always going to be more than a friend for me and i was always just going to be a friend to you.

I don't know what your doing but I think I'm gonna fall and you won't be there to catch me. I won't admit that I like you because then it'll be real

I’m R. I felt a connection between us and I liked talking to you so damn much. But you left without explanation. And I often wander why and if there was something wrong I did.

I know we made a deal to end it when I had to leave, but it still feels like I lost. I love you. Do you?

Thank you for everything. I will be forever grateful for everything you have done for me. I wish we would have kept in contact in college-- I think we both needed to grow and find ourselves in a way. I really like who I am becoming. I don't know if you knew how much I liked you, admired you. I loved having you in my life as a friend regardless. Lately I have been dreaming about you... I wonder if it means something. I wish you nothing but the absolute best. You deserve the world.

I wish I could tell you everything that has happened. I know we dating a few times and it never worked out. But I only broke up with you Bc I love you too much to date you and I thought I was not good enough for you

You re entered my life again. We’re both different people now, so why do I feel so safe when I’m with you? Take care of yourself. I’ll always love you, even if you never loved me.

This might sound weird but i truly love you with all my heart. Thank you so much for being here with me and dealing with my random shit. I love the way you talk to me and the little things you say to make me smile, the little laughs and moments we share. I love you.