Unsent messages to NICK

I used to wonder how people felt to be left behind by the love of their life...after you i don’t need to wonder anymore

i fucking love you dude. with everything in me. i just know that you're my person. i still remember when you liked me but i was too busy focusing on someone else. and now that i realized i have feelings for you, youre focusing on someone else. lifes weird af. but i know the universe will put us in the same lane soon. i hope youre doing okay right now, its been a while since we last talked. i miss you. i cant wait to see you soon.

You were everything I wanted and more, I miss you. We were always afraid, but couldn't stay away from one another.. we've moved on, but i'll never love someone like i did you. I'll love you always. You have a part of me and my heart always.

u will never read this but i hold on to the memories, imy so much as a best friend, i wish we could talk again

It’s been so long and I still love you. I keep holding on to the memories we had, but we both moved on

Thank you for teaching me what love shouldn't be and for helping me know what I deserve even if you didn't provide it.

a lot of the time, i think about how much genuine love and raw emotion i felt when you and i talked . what made it seem so foreign to me though, was how far away you live and how i probably didn’t mean as much to you as you do to me. when i heard your voice, or saw your face, i couldn’t help but have a rush of adrenaline and what felt like pure ecstasy. i don’t know if i fell in love with the comfort you brought me, or the fantasy of us being together some day, but what i do know is that you are and probably always will be my first love. besides family, i have never meant the words i love you as much as i did when i said them to you. i could only hope you felt the same, but i realize more and more that you probably were just bored, and the connection that you and i had will only be a jaded memory, if you ever remember me at all in the future. i hope you do, because i won’t forget you. if you havent noticed yet, i’m saying “i hope” a lot, because of the amount of confusion and lack of closure you’ve left me with. it’s okay though, because i know i didnt do the same, and i will always want the best for you, even if it will never be with me. it’s hard having to move on from someone you pictured being around a lot longer than they did. i remember you specifically telling me that time is on our side, and i will never let those words slip out of my memory. even if you do, i won’t forget what you told me and how you made me feel in the span of less than three months of knowing each other. maybe one day, we’ll cross paths, and you’ll recognize me. maybe one day, we’ll cross paths, and you don’t recognize me at all - just a stranger, like i wish i had always been to you.

Hearts can’t handle being broken on repeat. But for you, my heart is yours. Kill me. Keep kissing me.

It hurt when you pretended to like me because you were bored. You hurt my young heart in so many ways. You pretending it was fine when i was broken. It was a waste of my time that i will never get back. Fuck you for being such a player! Fuck you for hurting me and not giving too fucks!!!!!!!!!!!

you were my first real boyfriend. I never felt that love before, then you ripped it away before I could close my eyes

You're in my 5th period and you sit two seats from me. I really like you, but I don't have the balls to tell you.

It’s been 2 years and i’m finally over you, i’ve almost forgotten trauma you put me through, you aren’t my happiness any more

I keep thinking that I’ve finally moved on but then something reminds me of you and I’m 16 all over again with stars in my eyes.

I hope someday we can find each other again. We both still feel the same. I love you and would still do anything for you.

I hope someday we come to each other again. I know we still feel the same. I love you and I’d still do anything for you.

I hope someday we come to each other again. I know we still feel the same. I love you and I’d still do anything for you.

i'm not sure if i'll ever be able to love as purely as we did those many years ago. it was simple and sweet and perfect. i'll always be your sunshine.

hey i don’t know if you read these either. I saw a note with my name on here and I think it’s about me. If I’m speaking honestly you wouldn’t hold me back and I still love you too. For now we’ll just say it was a right person wrong time situation but just know that even though you hurt me I’ll still always be there for you.

yes i know i admitted to moving and using that excuse to say i wasn’t wanting anything serious right now, but for you, i’d figure something out. i wish we could be together until i left. why can’t i stop thinking about you? do you think about me?

yes i know i admitted to moving and using that excuse to say i wasn’t wanting anything serious right now, but for you, i’d figure something out. i wish we could be together until i left. why can’t i stop thinking about you? do you think about me?

I really loved you and thought we would work out in the end but now you keep coming back then leaving again.

I want you to be hurting as much as I am, except I care about you too much to want you to feel pain. I miss you.

I never wanted to break up. You stopped fighting for me and that’s when i knew i had to. I still love you and don’t want anyone else but you:/

I know that we probably won't talk again but i just wanted to let you know that I'll be always here for you

I’m sorry you didn’t know you broke me. I’m sorry you didn’t know I was in love with you I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I’m sorry I smiled when you walked through the door. I’m sorry I wanted to be your friend.

Its not fair u dont wanna see me with someone else, and tell me u love me and fuck with 10 others, and lying when i ask if u did

Its not fair u dont wanna see me with someone else, and tell me u love me and fuck with 10 others, and lying when i ask if u did

i wish you could understand where i was coming from and how much you hurt me, but were just strangers now and it hurts to say that. slowly getting used to a hole in my heart where you were. you showed me how easily i can be disposed of. you fixed me only to break me again.

i knew you liked me and I pushed you away, even tho it was kindergarten, i still think back and regret not liking u back

Why do you just dissappear and come back acting like nothing happend? I care about you and I'm so confused like you genuinely hurt my feelings when you don't tell me what happened or when you are leaving.

We were so young when i started to like you and i never realized you liked me back until it was too late now we’re in 9th grade and i haven’t seen you since i moved away in 6th grade and i don’t think i’ll ever be over you.

I wish I could tell you how much I think about you. And that I think I'm in love with you. I want you to stay.

i left because the longer i stayed, the more i regressed back to my old self. i’m not blaming you but you knew how much i loved you. why did you lie and tell me broken promises? i’m healing my heart and it might take a lifetime. i’m sorry it didn’t work out

There are so many things that I wanted to say to you but you left. I was so happy that I found someone that would literally watch the stars with me. You made me so happy but so crazy when you weren't with me. You made me learn so many lessons, thank you. I want you to be my last lesson. I wish you the very best. Much love.

I care about you so much, but it is time to let you go. I hope you find a girl that loves you as much as i do. And i don't even hate you for breaking my heart

u knew me at my worst. i'm sorry. everything leads back to u but i'm finally done. i've grown and i'm happy now. i don't miss u anymore

I would do anything to see u again. I think about u 24/7 and I just want you out of my head. I don’t know if I’m in love with u or something but either way u don’t give a shit about me and it hurts. I was just another random hook up for u. I know I’ll never mean as much to u as u mean to me. U have made me miserable the past couple months yet I still want u so bad.

I don’t know if I loved u or the idea of having u. Either way u would never love me back. U didn’t care about me yet I still put in so much effort. U broke me and I don’t think I’ll ever be put back together.

I miss you so much and i want you to come back.i don’t think i will ever get over you. I am so in love with you i can’t stand it. It tears me apart every single day because all i ever think about is you. You treated me so poorly and always made me upset but i am so connected to you it’s crazy. How am i suppose to through away years of such a deep and passionate connection to you? I hope and pray to god that sooner or later, you’ll look back and realize what you put me through and realize what you lost. And then, once you’ve matured and realized, you will come back. I can’t throw this away.

I wish you listened to what made my heart break. You were so beautiful but In your eyes I never held your attention.You gave it out to every girl and that broke me. I could’ve given you the world if you were able to change like you said... Thank you for being my lesson.

You broke me I gave you everything I tried to but you were focused on other females I miss you so much it hurts

You Nick are the reason why i mentally cannot catch feelings for anyone else. And I hate you for that.

you’re never gonna see this, but just remember “nobody gonna love you like i love you”. forever. i’m happy you’re happy. and i am too now. ?

i hate you. i hate the lies you told about me, i hate the names you called me, i hate what you did to me, and i hate the fact that i got into that relationship even knowing that i shouldn't.

we used to be inseparable, now i don’t even feel like i know you. i never thought you’d care this little about me. you still mean everything to me.

I’m really sorry I hope you know that I tried giving you everything you deserved but I just wasn’t enough .

What changed in one day?
We were dancing in the summer rain. The next I was alone in the thunderstorm.

you’re my favorite person to be around and i absolutely adore you, maybe one day i’ll be okay to be with you.

You were my everything. The one person who could make all the bad just disappear. But I always felt like I was a bother to you... I guess in the end I was.

i’m still go i’m love with you. i cannot move on. i miss how we use to be and i miss your smile and laugh.