ur starting to remind me of my dad and it's scaring me. i know u are trying to be better but u haven't gotten better u haven't stopped nicotine, and i know ur friends aren't the best influences. u don't care about school. u haven't made any steps to ur future. but i want to give you a chance to be better so i am not giving up on u yet. at the same time though i am worried about my being around u.

I wish I could tell you everything thats on my mind. idk if i ever will. you have hurt me in so many ways. you have made me feel as though im not worthy of your time. as if im just a second thought to you. meanwhile, i gave you everything. why did you lie to me in all of those long texts you sent. when you told me you loved me, and that you appreciated me. why did you hand me these empty promises of a future together if you weren't going to fulfill it. everytime you said you would do better, and it was never true. but, still. ive never felt this way for no one else. i deserve better.

You were there for me, you were my best friend. You helped me through thick and thin and I can never repay you. Thank you for loving me and caring for me. I'll never forget the times we've had together. Thank you for always having my back and being kind, respectful and trustworthy. I hope you find the right one for you as you deserve it.

I want you to be hurting as much as I am, except I care about you too much to want you to feel pain. I miss you.

honestly i think we could have been good i'm sorry i didnt give you a shot. i guess the less i try the less i fail.

I really loved you and thought we would work out in the end but now you keep coming back then leaving again.

I don't know what you don't see in me. You are a bitch honestly. Why do I still like you its been a year and you still haven't noticed. What is your problem honestly. anyways much hate, someone who is a bad bitch that hopefully can get over your weak ass soon ;)

yes i know i admitted to moving and using that excuse to say i wasn’t wanting anything serious right now, but for you, i’d figure something out. i wish we could be together until i left. why can’t i stop thinking about you? do you think about me?

yes i know i admitted to moving and using that excuse to say i wasn’t wanting anything serious right now, but for you, i’d figure something out. i wish we could be together until i left. why can’t i stop thinking about you? do you think about me?

you're my first love. scared of being led on considering were not dating yet. i know i mean so much to you and im a happiness in your life but i cant think of the part where you could possbily leave which sucks but when time comes yk its alright because maybe you were a lesson brought into my life. and thats the reason im not stressing about why you havent asked me out yet. thats not me saying im going to wait a year for you either. if you want me so bad you can have me now. not when you feel ready out of no where. being emotionally unavailable must be hard for you but i hope i dont make you think loving someone is hard. thats all.

I can’t sleep because i’m so broken, you have hurt me so much and you didn’t even have the decency to apologise, did i not mean anything to you

i miss u and i cant get u out my head. there’s a part of me that wants u to come back but idk. i’m sorry i was harsh on you sometimes. i’m sorry i got mad at u in fights. i’m sorry for hurting you and making you confused about a lot. it’s me. don’t overthink who this is you know who this is nick. nose kiss.

I wish you cared about me the way I cared about you. But then I remember you didn’t, so now I’m happy you’re happy.

why do i miss u so much even tho i hurt u
ur even a mean person so y do i ?
i wish u could be my friend again at least

I dreamt of you last, dreamt of us and the way you made me feel.
I'm sorry I wasn't ready to be what you needed at the time. But let's be honest it was never going to work in the end

If you just stayed then everything could’ve been okay, but you left when I needed you so I had to rely on myself.

It's been months since we've talked but if you showed up at my door tomorrow, I'd take you back in a heartbeat.

We tried and it didn't work out well, but I still think we just didn't put down enough effort. I can't stand overcoming you one more time.

I miss our ft calls every morning & night. i miss ur smile when you would go into kiss me. i miss watching movies with you but becoming distracted by each other. i miss hearing about your day with your friends. i miss the old you nick, i don't miss the new you. i don't miss you. i just miss how you were back then

I wanted it to end too... but the was the way you said it meant to hurt me. I know its been done for a while but I didn't want to say anything to hurt your feelings while you took the chance to hurt me on the way out.

i’m still go i’m love with you. i cannot move on. i miss how we use to be and i miss your smile and laugh.

You were my everything. The one person who could make all the bad just disappear. But I always felt like I was a bother to you... I guess in the end I was.

Part of me wants us to actually be forever but truly I know we won’t make it and I’m sorry. I love you always even though you hurt me.

you’re my favorite person to be around and i absolutely adore you, maybe one day i’ll be okay to be with you.

why did you leave me? i understood leaving them, they hurt you, I defended you, I fought for you. but I was the one you left

im not done. I gave you so much of my time and energy and I regret everythin- well no because now I am the baddest b and you still stuck in the same mindset. I am never watering a dead plant again you gave me nothign but cringe. you loss luv. im embarrased to be considered "with you".. dead to me. dont ever mention me because I deserved better. I know I am your dream girl so good luck lol. I was way too good to you love try better thanks! Im done wastin my prescious time , im no longer yours and thats your punishemnt

What changed in one day?
We were dancing in the summer rain. The next I was alone in the thunderstorm.

thank you for showing me what it is to love and to be loved. i loved you the most and i am not sure if i could ever love anyone like i loved you. i was probably not at my best to be with someone and maybe you weren't too, but this served as an experience and a lesson. i still want you be happy, happy with yourself, and encourage you to always be kind. i hope you find your love and i hope you wish it upon me too. this is the closure i never got which took me so long to come to. even with all i went through, there probably will be somewhere in my heart space for you. jk no. jk maybe. you did mean a lot to me, but it was all too soon. i hope you never see this

You probably don't care, but I still really love you. I'm sorry I didn't give you the attention you deserved, just know that I valued every moment we had even if there were few. You hold a very special place in my heart.

I’m really sorry I hope you know that I tried giving you everything you deserved but I just wasn’t enough .

hey i don’t know if you read these either. I saw a note with my name on here and I think it’s about me. If I’m speaking honestly you wouldn’t hold me back and I still love you too. For now we’ll just say it was a right person wrong time situation but just know that even though you hurt me I’ll still always be there for you.

i’m still in love with you. i miss cuddling with you and laughing together. i hate nicknames but the one you gave me is the best thing that ever happened to me. why did you cheat

i'm not sure if i'll ever be able to love as purely as we did those many years ago. it was simple and sweet and perfect. i'll always be your sunshine.

it’s been a long time and still no one compares to you. i always hoped one day you would come back. i think about you all the time.

we used to be inseparable, now i don’t even feel like i know you. i never thought you’d care this little about me. you still mean everything to me.

I’m sorry I kept hurting you bc I was hurt myself. You’ll always be important to me but we both have to move on.

it's always been you. it took the world falling apart for us to get here... but we did it. we did it bub.

i still love you but i’m happy your life is together and you found someone else. makes me happy to see you happy. reach out again soon.

Oh I'm so in love with you and it makes me look stupid. If you're reading this... I hope you can see the signs each time we see each other.

hey, I know we just friends now but I still want us to be more than friends. ik we didn't talk for long but you picked me up from a really bad relationship and I just got attached to talking to you now it's kinda weird. Like I can't think or talk about you without just going crazy inside because I really wanted us to work out. You were the first boy I actually really liked in two years besides my toxic ass ex so that took a lot out to me also opening up to you after that short period of time took so much. I literally made myself so vulnerable and that wasn't enough. I know sometimes it just doesn't work out people are meant to be but I really felt like we had a good connection. well must have just been me, I got attached way to quickly and fell for you so hardly like back up. This has never happened before. I wish we could just go back and do it again. there's a lot of stuff I wish I didn't say after and stuff I wish I could realize and communicate more while we were talking. I'm a weird one, my mood swings are crazy, one minute I can be nice, having a good convo then Ill become hostile and rude because I get a bad feeling. I really thought you wouldn't hurt men and yes, you let me down nicely but it still really hurt. And now It's gotten really better, those feelings have somewhat died down, like if you texted me rn and said you'd miss me id tell you I missed you too but ik you wouldn't. idk you just made me feel so special like I never felt insecure about my body, n it was just something that you never pushed about which really made a difference. your a very chill person and I'm the exact opposite but I really try to be more chill idk maybe it's a personality defect. anyways I just hope we can try again.

i wish u knew how much i still think of you. and how much i wish u were here. i still hope to love you again one day. another year without you and the holiday season doesn’t feel the same without you. i miss everything about u

I hope someday we come to each other again. I know we still feel the same. I love you and I’d still do anything for you.

I hope someday we come to each other again. I know we still feel the same. I love you and I’d still do anything for you.

You left when I needed you there the most. After everything that happened you left me to take care of them alone. Why’d you runaway? Is it because you feel guilty? Well news flash, Nick, we all did. I thought out of everyone you would be the first person to understand that and the last to leave, I guess I got it all wrong. But still after all that, after months, years of telling myself i hate you, I still wait for a call, text, hell even a letter letting me know that your safe. If you saw me today I think you’d hate me. I changed for the better but you always liked me when I was at my worst. No more partying, no more chaos, no more benders, I couldn't do it anymore after Ty, I had to grow up. I like my new life and the people in it. Im terrified that you’re gonna show up and ruin it all. So why am i still grieving you? Why’d do I want you back at the same time? I just wanna see your face again, even if its just once. At least let me say goodbye.

I hope someday we can find each other again. We both still feel the same. I love you and would still do anything for you.

I keep thinking that I’ve finally moved on but then something reminds me of you and I’m 16 all over again with stars in my eyes.

i hate you. i hate the lies you told about me, i hate the names you called me, i hate what you did to me, and i hate the fact that i got into that relationship even knowing that i shouldn't.

It’s been 2 years and i’m finally over you, i’ve almost forgotten trauma you put me through, you aren’t my happiness any more

you’re never gonna see this, but just remember “nobody gonna love you like i love you”. forever. i’m happy you’re happy. and i am too now. ?

You Nick are the reason why i mentally cannot catch feelings for anyone else. And I hate you for that.