From: ABC
To: Lucas
Date: November 21, 2020, 5:29 am
u made me feel something i never felt before, what we had, whatever u want to call that wasn't much... but it mean't a lot to me and i don't know why. but u moved on. i haven't. i will one day, but u will always own a piece of my heart. there's something about u. but im getting tired of waiting for u. waiting for u to like me back or snap me, or give me a hug when i see u. i've watched u love other girls, and yet i don't believe our chapter is over. it was over a long time ago and a part of me wants to staple in more pages to keep writing, another part of me knows that we are out ink. i miss u everyday... last year u were the first boy to ask me to dance, my first kiss, my first everything. our conversations were dumb and stupid. but we were both different people then. a maybe just maybe u think of me at the same time i think of u. it's taken me a while to pin point the reasons i can't let u go, but i figured that out. the way ur mean to everyone but me, the way u smile melts my heart, and when i look into ur stupid eyes i don't want to look away. maybe the chapter is over... but what if the ur in the next? what if the next chapter is us again, but better, the storm lifts and everyone can come out of the homes, what if we aren't really over. i got attached to u and i will wait for u. while i wait i might talk to other people, kiss other people, but it will always come back to u. i don't want to have to let u go, so please, tell me u feel the same. tell me u want to spend the rest of ur life with me, only me. kiss me in the rain or in the middle of the skate park in front of ur friends. facetime me whenever u can, call me just to hear my voice. screenshot my snaps so on the nights we don't see each other, u can give me a kiss goodnight. do all the things i'd do if u still loved me. if u ever did love me, or that was a lie. i lost u a long time ago, but u will never ever lose me. i know i have to move on, and that i'm just a friend to u, but it breaks my heart that i might have to let u go one day. whatever happens, i love u.