Unsent messages to D

hi d. I dont know if you'll see this or not. you fell asleep again and I yet again cannot sleep. lately I've been thinking about us quite deeply l o l and I found that I truly do love you with my whole heart and no one will ever come above you. you mean the absolute world to me and I never want to loose you. I just wanna see you man so badly and give you the biggest hug and tell you how much I love you in person. but I guess that's not possible atm. please never leave me

I miss you. Why you stop loving me . All the times you called me mamas and hugged me tight. I just . Ugh where did I go wrong .

Do you remember how our eyes were shining when we met each other after a long time that's how my heart shines now because i can't see you anymore but my heart still remembers that feeling.

we spoke for the first time when i was drunk i think i gave off this bad impression. i promise you, you meant so much more to me. I just havent been myself

Hey hey hey! I never told you but you are one of my favorite people in this life, and maybe I'm a little bit in love with you, but I think that our friendship is so good that I don't wanna mess up, you know? Last saturday I hugged you so hard and I hope you felt that moment like me, with the loud music, people dancing around us, both drunk and telling each other things like "I love you" in a friend way of course, I just wanted to kiss you and that would have been perfect, but I'm happy with what we have, I don't wanna change that, I promise you I will be with you always, as long as I can, as long as you let me. I love you and you deserve to be happy

u ruined ur relationship w ur gf and she blocked me on ig, for what?? u didnt even d8 me or take me to prom, cheating asshole. Still listen to ur fav artist but i hate u, hes MY fav artist now....

I still have our Polaroid picture in my wallet. I think I always will. I never forget you or the single green light...

I knew you would leave me but I wasn’t ready, man. I’m trying my best to let go. I know I can do this.

You are my flesh and blood. I wish everything you ever did was forgivable, but what you did to me that day will never leave.

oh how I wish to find your words right here.
oh how I wish for a proof, that you think of me sometimes, too...

i still feel as strong towards you as the first time we ever said i love you - i wish you felt the same

the worst part is that i’ll never know if u faked it because u left so easy as if i was never there but you loved me and showed me a way of love i had never seen before

Naive and toxic. Lustful and messy. It was good until it wasn’t and I was left to pick up the pieces after.

I wish you knew I didnt bury my feelings like I said I did. I wish we had a chance. And I really hope it would work, when in reality, I'm not even sure if it will. So I'm just pretending to be a friend. It hurts to see you talk about her in a way you would never do for me. I wish you even considered about us. I wish and I hope.

i don’t think you realize just how many things i did for you unconditionally. i just wish you enjoyed it at least.

I really miss you and I wish you’d hug me. You never did no, but the thought of it gives me butterflies.

You numbed me to your love w all the stuff you pulled. Yet still I don’t want anyone else’s love but yours.

When I told you what my problem was with you, you told me that you’re a shitty person and you wouldn’t get back with you if you were me. After saying that you still tried to get back with me. What happened to you saying you don’t wanna hurt me?

If you want me back...why won’t you try to get me back? Don’t expect me to randomly run back into the arms of the person who broke me.

Sometimes I wonder why you’re always the one running back to me. Was it that I wasn’t the problem? Or is it because I didn’t chase you?

Why do you keep coming back every time I’m doing good? If you’re gonna leave then at least do it properly.

Se que jamás tendré el valor de decírtelo, Pero fuiste mi salvación, Me construiste de la forma más hermosa que hayas podido y enserio lo aprecio
Pero al igual que me ayudaste solo fui para tu diversión ¿no? Luego me di cuenta que no me armaste con cariño, me armaste con pura avaricia, me querías para ti, no para estar contigo, me engañaste toda la relación con la misma chica y yo lo intente, pero tu fuiste peor, eres una mierda de persona y yo también, Nos veremos en el infierno.

when we fight or are just mad i always put my phone on airplane mode and text the things i wish i could tell you but i have a feeling you would get mad

You ruined a lot of things for me but also showed me how to like myself. You were scary to everyone but me.

i've been in love with you for the past 3 years now and everytime we talk i fall for you more. i want to be close to you but i feel like the more i talk the more you'll hate me. i miss you so much and i hope i can see you soon xoxo

you don’t know this but i’m lowkey in love with you. ik you’re straight and we’re bestfriends but i want you to know that i literally love you so so so much. you mean the absolute world to me and i fantasise about being in a relationship with you all the time. i hope you find that special someone who will make you happy (even if it’s not me)

i really liked u in 3rd - 4th grade , i never really found out if u felt the same . i dont like u anymore but i still sometimes think about u . why did we stop talking ?

I think it’s time for me to let go. I mean, I already have. It’s just I hoped you would come back and I know you aren’t. One last walk and that’s it I’m deleting you forever. I need to move on :(

You're that one person I would drop everything for. I miss you so much. You don't realize how good you made me feel about myself. I felt safe with you around. I miss every little thing about you. Your smile, your eyes, your touch. Most of all I miss your laugh. It would brighten up the whole room. I miss the car rides. I miss laying with you. The last night we were together I sat up to look out the window and you sat up with me and just held me. Is it because you knew it was the last time you would see me. Do you miss me as much as I miss you. You called a mutual friend of ours to ask if I was okay because you thought something had happened. Does that mean you still care or were you just being nosy. You claim to hate me but I know there has to be a part inside of you that loves and misses me like I do you.

to be honest i have no idea why i’m writing this, i know you probably would think this is weird or whatever if you ever saw it. i don’t know what colour to put because when i asked for your favourite you said about five, i’ll give you orange though, if see this then you’ll know it’s for you - hopefully lol or not that might be embarrassing. anyways, i thought i’d be over you, completely over you but even after six months of not communicating when i saw you again all the feelings i left you with came back. i miss when you smiled at me, i miss how you would always hype me up when i dissed myself, i miss walking with you and noticing our height difference - because you’d make me feel safe, i miss how you used to tell me about your dreams and when you used to ask me questions, i miss you. so much. i wish we could speak again but i know the cycle would just repeat itself. i’m so sorry for messing it up so many times. i’m so sorry for making you feel like shit. i am so sorry for ignoring you even when you were all i could think about. writing this hasn’t made me feel any better but maybe you’ll find it one day, or not and it’ll just be out there on the internet for eternity. either way my feelings for you won’t change in this moment. maybe when we’re older we’ll see each other and laugh about our little crush as a teenager, maybe i’ll never see you again. i hope i do. thank you for believing in me.

I don’t think you realised the impact you had on me , you sharing the music you liked with me means I can’t listen to certain songs anymore. I miss you.

It's hard to grapple with the fact that you know more about me than anyone else, yet you are a stranger to me now.

i loved you yeah, but did i really love you?, or the toxic you, i never loved the real you. it's because you never showed it .

the pain caused by losing you was unmatched to most pain. my love for you will continue to grow until i am old. even tho we were far away my heart will always be fond of you until i take my last breath connecting with you changed my life. you are we truly remarkable person. when you told me you didn’t wanna be with me anymore it killed me but i knew you needed to be happy.

You’ll have to live the rest of your life knowing you let the best thing to happen to you go. That’s my revenge.

why was i not good enough? where did i go wrong? i loved you more than i loved myself and you didn’t care.

you being far away doesn't make me feel jealous or whatever, but i know you love me more than i love you. i think im uncapable to love. not your problem tho. so stop making it your and making me feel guilty

Sometimes I am scared that you will leave me for someone else and I know I am not the greatest boyfriend but I am trying my hardest..

on est comme des aimants , j’attend juste que tout soit stable pour faire les choses correctement avec toi ( jtm encore un peu)

i really thought you were the one. we even planned our future together. but at the end you didn’t love me as much as i loved you, you didn’t miss me as much as i missed you, i was 99 percent of the relationship, and you were only 1. at the end of the day i stayed up thinking if you still loved me. you fell out of fall a long time ago but still stayed with me but had your eyes on another girl. i always wanted closure to make sure we were okay, you would always say yes, and say how much you love me and miss me, but now looking at it, it was just a lie. when i got the closure i wanted that was the moment where i found out everything you said was a lie. none of it was true. and now you have me broken not believing in what anyone tells me anymore. i don’t even believe in promises anymore, not even from my friends, or my family. i cant trust no boy anymore. you left me at my lowest but you didn’t know that. and you left me with no hope. i always thought that if i was meant to be you would come back. and you did come back. but you js hurt me even more. but we both hurt eachother in ways we can’t explain. i’ve always wanted to wish you the best but now all i wish you is worse after all you put me through. i’ve never thought my “first love” would end up like this.

When I first saw you I knew it was going to hurt when you left me, now you are gone and so is all of the love you had left for me... if you ever had any to begin with. Since the only color you can see is blue that is the color of love my heart holds for you. I will always have love for you no matter what happens or doesn't until we meet again I will be reliving and loving every moment as if it was my last.
~ From the bottom of my heart love,
Me

it was pretty unfair to tell me that you didn't like me but still being that jealous and possessive over me

i loved you more than i loved myself.
no matter what happens, i think a part of me will always love you.

When I first saw you I knew it was going to hurt when you left me, now you are gone and so is all of the love you had left for me… if you ever had any to begin with. Since the only color you can see is blue that is the color of love my heart holds for you. I will always have love for you no matter what happens or doesn’t, until we meet again I will be reliving and loving every moment.

I thought I would always love but I was wrong bitch
While I was talking to you and planing dates with you you were already talking with her
She is not a bad person
The only one that fucked up was you
You are such a fucking narcissit
You don't give a fuck about others
You are just trying to find the easiest girl to hookup and then you ghost them
I hope one day that you feel the pain that you made so many girls feel
The best decision that I have ever made was unfollow you and not look at you at school
I don't know how do you live with the idea that you make so many girls feel so bad about a guy like you
Try to be more like your best friend
He is so much better so much more kind so much more respectful so much more handsome and so much more tall

Hola se que ahora estás con una persona mejor o tal vez no pero quiero que sepas que yo siempre estaré para ti,como siempre lo hice,nunca te deje de amar me enseñaste que las personas no son lo que aparentan ojalá no te arrepientas de el error que cometiste,no comprendo porque después de apoyarte en todo,hayas tomado otra decisión,te quiero muchísimo y te extraño,sabes no te eh olvidado porque es imposible,te ame,te amo y te amare siempre, gracias por los pocos momentos felices,R.):

I want to know about you, how are you, what are you doing, I want to look into your eyes again and know that everything will be fine

you always snap me and never actually text me, but when we see each other, there's such chemistry and we can ramble on for hours about anything. i wish you would stop playing everybody, including me

I should have noticed you were unhappy because you smiled so much. I love you. Hope you are smiling down on me.

why did you get so bored easily, Its the first time I've tried with a guy and you choose to talk to every girl you can find under the sun, I show you so much care and respect and love yet you continue to run back to the girl who treated you horribly, why her, why not me