i did love you and i definitely would not trade our past for anything, but not in the way that you think. we didn't know each other for too long, but the feelings were genuine and intense (at least on my end). however, i never realized how much of myself i lost until you left. you leaving me was one of the best things i think that's happened to me this year. the way it was so easy for me to give up parts of myself was unbelievable. don't get me wrong tho, i'm not blaming you for any of it. you just happened to be the tragedy i needed to realize so many things about myself. although we talked about what our future would have been like, our relationship was definitely not meant to last. despite that, i've learned and grown so much. i really hope you're doing well. i do have to admit that i am still a little angry over how you acted towards our end, but only i can provide the closure i need. you said you ended things for a certain reason, and i really hope you were telling the truth. i know you wanted to stay friends, but i just don't think that would've been for the best for either of us. so i took you off all my socials, but you can still find me. also your best friend was acting real weird after we ended, just needed to say that lol. i hope you're taking care of yourself.

remember when i would stare at you during class and you would always smile so politely. that was always so embarrassing

all that? for what? for us to become “friends” again? you and I both know that things are never going to be the same. it was supposed to be us:( we were supposed to be the ones. what happened? I lost faith in love. I lost faith in the one thing I cared about the most.

Hi,
thank u for learning me what love is even tho u never really loved me the way u said u did.And I really miss u come back please.

You came into my life when I needed love, but all you did was add to the chaos and hurt. And somehow, your manipulation was deep, that I still miss you.

I hate that I miss you so much. You were an asshole and cold when with me. How am I the one addicted when I didn't even like you in the first place?

and if i could take it all back i swear that i would pull you from the tide.


is it worth the






wait

I miss you when I’m at my happiest and when I’m at my saddest. I miss us, I miss believing in our forever.

I am ashamed and embarrassed at the fact that I still want you to come back so I can know you still love me

please, please, please call me back. i want to listen to your voice one last time before i let you go

Al día de hoy sigo teniendo sentimientos por ti y me jode saber que si regresas te voy a aceptar en mi vida

YELLOW for sunflowers, dreams and the shirt that you let me wear home, but i choose Black for hardened nothingness.

why did u think it was a joke? it wasnt funny. no one laughed. it was offensive. it hurts me like hell.

I've had feelings for you for the longest time but things have gotten in the way. I hope you find out one day. ily

it's weird how this time last year we didn't talk to each other & now all i want is you to talk to me

I hate that you smoke, I hate that you drink, I hate how you don't reply, and I hate how you don't care.

oh how I wish to find your words right here.
oh how I wish for a proof, that you think of me sometimes, too...

You are my flesh and blood. I wish everything you ever did was forgivable, but what you did to me that day will never leave.

Fuck you! I didn't deserve what you did to me. But I want to forgive you to let go of the pain I associate it with.

I’m so sorry. For everything. You treated me the best. I really did love you. I just love him more and always will.

Il nodo alla gola da quando me ne sono andata sapendo che non ci saremmo visti per anni è ancora intatto. Dopo un anno mi manchi ancora come il primo giorno.

Hey. I really like you, and you probably don't feel the same way and I will probably never get the courage to tell you.

You are my first "I love you" and the first time I feel so stupid because you cheated on me. Congratulations.

you make me feel like a brand new person someone worth doing things for I wish I could figure myself out for us

When you cheated I used your toothbrush to clean my toilet .. I guess I was abit psycho like you said.

I always loved the way your eyes curved first, before the corners of your mouth pinched into a smile. It was unlike anything else to watch.

Same place at the same time on the same day ... you don't even know how much i am connected to your soul

it´s been 6 1/2 months for me. Eventhough you tould me i was yours and i was all you wanted, you found someone new.

I think I´ll only write this for myself. Did you know how much you hurt me when you left? And yeah of course i know we weren´t in a relationship. But when we texted each other everyday, went on dates and compliments each other, we both knew what we wanted. It´s also really heartbreaking that u wanted me first. It´s been 6 1/2 months for me. We planned so many things for summer and summerbreak and then u left me in march. You told me i was yours and i was "all u wanted". It was so hard for me to like you, but then the feeling came and you just left. You know what? fuck you. Also you have a new girlfriend. She´s rlly kind and nice but you told me i was yours. It still hurts. Hopefully you´re happy now. I hope she really does deserve you.

I will love you no matter what we get put through. No matter what you put me though I will always support and love you. Even if you don't have the same feelings for me.

For the little bit that we had, I let you slip away. I had so much from the past that I never deal with and I let it get in the way. I'm sorry. We deserved better my guy.

when we were together, you read me an excerpt of a journal you wrote in when i made you mad. today, my boyfriend read me an excerpt from a journal he keeps about how happy he is with me.

I knew you would leave me but I wasn’t ready, man. I’m trying my best to let go. I know I can do this.

I still love you like the first day, but weren't mean to be. The sunflowers always will remind me of you

i wish you liked me back. i play it off as if it was a small crush but i really hoped it wouldve worked out.

It‘s just one month until you‘re leaving and I’ve never felt so safe with anyone as I did with you. I wish you would stay and things could work out. Hopefully our paths will cross one day again.
Already missing you, A

you could tell me about the things you're going through but you don't so fuck it, it's your choice at the end of the day...

I still have our Polaroid picture in my wallet. I think I always will. I never forget you or the single green light...

You’ll always have a spot in my heart that no one will be able to fill. I know you didn’t mean to hurt me and I know you have a good soul. I will always love you, I wish you the best.

I am sorry that I used to be super messed up. I promise I am not like that anymore. Im actually quite the opposite.

the tears, the fights, the lonely nights we’ve had even when we are right next to each other.. the sadness, the madness, & the happiness .. through it all I still manage to fall in love with you, more & more everyday... it’s you. It can’t be anyone else.

Tu estabas con el mientras yo te miraba y anhelaba desde lejos y nunca te diste cuenta que mi amor era algo más allá de lo que cualquiera podria darte, querida D

i like you n everything but you left when i was in my worst times when i thought you were gonna stay.

i'm happy that i finally cut you off. i deserve better. your true colors were shown. don't ever speak to me again. thanks.

cambiaste toda la perspectiva de mis cosas, por tu culpa ya no soy la misma persona y jamas te diste cuenta de eso.

Ughh where do I even begin, you were the senior and I was a freshman. You played football and were super hot, how could I not like you. We clicked so fast dude, I was shocked haha. You were so mature about everything and I think that's why I was so attracted to you, you understood what it was like to be me almost. Kinda scary but whatever. I first started noticing that I was falling for you when I had a panic attack the afternoon after school when you gave me my first kiss. I was so overwhelmed with my feelings that I just broke down. I knew we were never gonna be in a relationship but man was those few months fun before you got a gf. I miss you sometimes but I don't let myself get too sad about it because you're an a**hole. You were a good friend but when you and your gf were together you literally cheated on her with me and I didn't know ya'll were together so I felt like shit after. But damn how I wish you and I were sitting in gym again just talking about stupid stuff.

I love you, and I will love you if I never see you again and I will love you if I spend ever moment of my life beside you. I love you more than the sun loves the moon, more than humans love oxygen, and more than you love snow. Etsi sit finita vitae; amor immortalem.

I know you that you are a really bad person but I just can’t stop thinking about you and how much we are meant for each other bc I’m an awful person too we could be the most catastrophic and toxic couple ever but I know for a fact that I would love u and I would try to fix you but I know that you don’t want to be fixed so for now fuck off dumbass
I know that some day u will come back
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u ruined ur relationship w ur gf and she blocked me on ig, for what?? u didnt even d8 me or take me to prom, cheating asshole. Still listen to ur fav artist but i hate u, hes MY fav artist now....

Hey hey hey! I never told you but you are one of my favorite people in this life, and maybe I'm a little bit in love with you, but I think that our friendship is so good that I don't wanna mess up, you know? Last saturday I hugged you so hard and I hope you felt that moment like me, with the loud music, people dancing around us, both drunk and telling each other things like "I love you" in a friend way of course, I just wanted to kiss you and that would have been perfect, but I'm happy with what we have, I don't wanna change that, I promise you I will be with you always, as long as I can, as long as you let me. I love you and you deserve to be happy