Unsent messages to D

why did u think it was a joke? it wasnt funny. no one laughed. it was offensive. it hurts me like hell.

i did love you and i definitely would not trade our past for anything, but not in the way that you think. we didn't know each other for too long, but the feelings were genuine and intense (at least on my end). however, i never realized how much of myself i lost until you left. you leaving me was one of the best things i think that's happened to me this year. the way it was so easy for me to give up parts of myself was unbelievable. don't get me wrong tho, i'm not blaming you for any of it. you just happened to be the tragedy i needed to realize so many things about myself. although we talked about what our future would have been like, our relationship was definitely not meant to last. despite that, i've learned and grown so much. i really hope you're doing well. i do have to admit that i am still a little angry over how you acted towards our end, but only i can provide the closure i need. you said you ended things for a certain reason, and i really hope you were telling the truth. i know you wanted to stay friends, but i just don't think that would've been for the best for either of us. so i took you off all my socials, but you can still find me. also your best friend was acting real weird after we ended, just needed to say that lol. i hope you're taking care of yourself.

after 3 years... i’m getting over you. over the fact that we will remain unfinished. over the fact that you will remain a stranger with my secrets forever.

I wish I knew that only because you were the first I didn’t have to hold on and stick around for that long. Thank you for the lesson.

I love you. And every time I acted like I didn't I was just so sick of you always being there. Every single time I was sad, happy, angry you were the only one always there and it hurt more than anything.

You were the one who made me the luckiest person in the world. You were the one who made me understand what love is. You were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. You were the one who lied to me every step of the way. You were the one who destroyed me and left me like a child who got bored with his toy. I loved you so much. I hope that one day you'll understand that I was the best thing that ever happened to you. You'll understand that when it's too late. Fuck you

somehow, a time zone away, when i call you about the sunset, you look out your window and describe the same one. that's my favorite thing

Te amo como no tienes idea siempre serás mi debilidad créeme que cuando te dije que enserio me enamore de ti fue enserio no sabes cuanto me duele ver que jamás fuimos algo ojalá coincidamos en el futuro por ahora quiero que seas feliz y sabes que siempre estaré ahí para ayudarte solo llámame si necesitas algo te amo Domenica como no tienes idea ❤️

i wish u would just talk to me i'm really falling for u and i'm scared tbh pls don't hurt me, see u at school

ur such a kind person u got me, i hope i can be urs one day, even though i still don't know u so much

you lied about killing yourself. i was behind the screen balling my eyes out begging you to stay, now you say "i was never going to do it" take it into consideration on how other people feel about that. fuck you. i loved you.

I never told you I loved you. You never did either. We were both always too afraid and that breaks my heart so much more.

why do you make me feel like this? why are you giving me so many mixed messages? if only you knew how i felt about you

I writing this bc idk what to say to you. My mind is very confused on what to do rn. I think I like you, but do you like me? Like wat? Very confusing but I really can’t go right up to you and say.....I think you like me back bc you are kinda flirting ig? You really make me laugh, sometimes to hard, but doesn’t sometimes equal all the time. I would give you my full attention but when I like somebody I over attention and im not myself. I would but I still like him, when im pretty sure he doesn't feel the same way. thanks for the laughs.

You never loved me the same way I loved you. You went to heaven and took a piece of my heart with you. I miss you every single day...
Fly high D

In another dimension we’re living our lives. Together. In love, or maybe just as friends. I just miss you and your goofy smile. Childhood sweethearts.A

I think I’m obsessed with you . Or the idea of us? Idek I miss us being best friends or whatever. Come back , I’ve never felt so alone. A

I’ve never known why I was so in love with you. My first everything. I’m never going to get over you. A

You are hurting me all the time and I still believe you’ll change. This is the definition of toxic relationship.

lo nuestro no fue más que amistad, pero sin duda los momentos a tu lado fueron incomparables.
lamento haberte hecho daño, espero te encuentres bien estés donde estés.
pd: por alguna razón siento que la vida nos va a volver a juntar, ojalá no me equivoque.

I just helped you feel ok about telling your parents about your girlfriend. I said I'd always be here. I still mean that... even though I sobbed that whole time we texted. I hope I brought you some peace. You deserve that. Even though I'm literally being torn apart from the inside out, I still love you. There's nothing I hate more than the fact that I finally got the courage to tell you how I feel then you get a girlfriend. It's not fair. She will never ever love you more than I do. Not in a million years...

I believed you. I put my faith in you. I believed in the love that wasn't even true. You were the first one to say "I love you" and I now feel so stupid for believing in that. You said I wouldn't ever leave me now look where we are. I think it was my fault for believing. I should have realized before I wasn't good enough for you. I tried my best. I was even myself with you. I LET YOU IN. I should have known I was just a joke to you. You told me so many lies and yet I believed. How could I be so stupid. And you wont answer a simple question. I loved it when you would call me those nicknames. You gave me many nicknames and i would like it. You would say so many things which i now relize are lies. I wished we had stayed as stranger.

Je sais pas c’est quoi notre relation mtn, mais bon j’ai passé une bonne année avec toi. Merci d’avoir était la pendant que j’étais triste ou autre mais je sais qu’il n’y aura rien entre nous mais je continue d’y croire même si ce n’est qu’un échec :)
Val

you don't even know how fast i forgave you and forgot about how you hurt me. i miss you some days but i know you won't ever say the same. i still think about you a lot. even though i shouldn't.

you promised me you would never leave me. why did u leave me and blame me for everything. you made me hate myself.

people like to tell me i’m prettier than she is & it just shatters me bc it means you didn’t love my heart enough.

why did you stop talking to me?- why did you stop taking time out of your day to spend with me-why did you leave me? my days are all the same and it will never go back to how it was, we will never be the same as we were and it hurts it HURTS me

i never actually thought that we would be able to drift away from each other, but every day i feel us distancing. until now, we're no longer anything, we no longer have what we had and its the end for us. the saddest part is i don't know why and i never got to tell you that i loved you-

sometimes people will tell me i’m prettier than she is. i think it’s supposed to make me feel better but it just makes it worse. bc then it means you didn’t love my heart enough.

Hey, um i know that we broke up because you went to train for the army and you said that you don't have the time for me but i know that you had a girlfriend a couple weeks after we parted. i missed you alot but i reached out to you and now we are friends and getting closer and you said that "you missed me and that u appreciate me highly and that you are pretty confident something will happen again" but i don't know what to do. i like you i really do. my friend said that "hes just playing around and messaging you for fun and you don't want anything out of it" and i know you said that it wasn't true but i don't know where i stand anymore.

its you , it was always you . my heart skips a beat when i see you , i never knew how it felt to love someone until i met you .

God, I wish you weren't so far away. you have no idea how much I want to know what it is like to touch you.

I’m trying to collect the shattered pieces on the floor but you keep picking up shards and stabbing me.

sometimes i sit and wonder why you used me for so long and lied to me and i just sat there and let it happen

Debiste habermelo dicho, así no estuviera tan rota.
¿En algún momento pensaste que me afectaría? Eres tan malditamente nada empático, eras a la única persona a la que e querido genuinamente ¿Y así me pagas? Un maldito año desperdicíe intentando hacer que me quisieras, cambíe mi forma de ser y lo que no te gustaba de mí y aún así te importo una mierda todo eso.
Te defendí, apoye y escuche cuando tuviste problemas, dime ¿Que me faltó? ¿En qué falle? Por qué según yo te dí todo y más de lo que tenía. Espero solo que seas feliz y te des cuenta de lo que perdíste. Esto es una despedida para siempre, necesito estar en paz y perdona pero no pude decírtelo por que al parecer estás felíz sin mi cuando yo me derrumbó.
Se feliz con ella, ¿No es eso lo que querías después de todo? Que feo que después de lo que te hizo sigas ahí. Siempre supe que no la superarias pero no que me usarás así y luego regresaras con ella.

"it takes grace to remain kind in cruel situations." one thing that i learned from our relationship was that sometimes its okay to be cruel too and that being kind wont always mean that good will come to you.

You broke me entirely and completely but i still dont see a life without you. we never dated but i did fall in love with you , or maybe i didnt fall in love with you maybe i fell in love with how you treated me or the words you spoke to me ill never know but you caused me the most pain ive ever felt and yet i still want you in my life . were friends rn but ik thats all we'll ever be and not because you rejected me but because i wont allow myself to go through that heartbreak and misery again ill always hold you somewhere special in my heart but i know deep down were not right for each other and ive come to accept that and im fine with it

i used to be able to smell you when i went walking in the cold i did it everyday but i cant anymore. ill never forget the last time you looked into my eyes, from there on you looked straight through me like i was never there, like i never existed. i cant tell if i hate you or not, i really want to hate you, god please let me hate you.

I love you, and I will love you if I never see you again and I will love you if I spend ever moment of my life beside you. I love you more than the sun loves the moon, more than humans love oxygen, and more than you love snow. Etsi sit finita vitae; amor immortalem.

Ughh where do I even begin, you were the senior and I was a freshman. You played football and were super hot, how could I not like you. We clicked so fast dude, I was shocked haha. You were so mature about everything and I think that's why I was so attracted to you, you understood what it was like to be me almost. Kinda scary but whatever. I first started noticing that I was falling for you when I had a panic attack the afternoon after school when you gave me my first kiss. I was so overwhelmed with my feelings that I just broke down. I knew we were never gonna be in a relationship but man was those few months fun before you got a gf. I miss you sometimes but I don't let myself get too sad about it because you're an a**hole. You were a good friend but when you and your gf were together you literally cheated on her with me and I didn't know ya'll were together so I felt like shit after. But damn how I wish you and I were sitting in gym again just talking about stupid stuff.

i like you n everything but you left when i was in my worst times when i thought you were gonna stay.

For the little bit that we had, I let you slip away. I had so much from the past that I never deal with and I let it get in the way. I'm sorry. We deserved better my guy.

I will love you no matter what we get put through. No matter what you put me though I will always support and love you. Even if you don't have the same feelings for me.

Hey. I really like you, and you probably don't feel the same way and I will probably never get the courage to tell you.

please, please, please call me back. i want to listen to your voice one last time before i let you go

I am ashamed and embarrassed at the fact that I still want you to come back so I can know you still love me

and if i could take it all back i swear that i would pull you from the tide.


is it worth the






wait

I hate that I miss you so much. You were an asshole and cold when with me. How am I the one addicted when I didn't even like you in the first place?

You came into my life when I needed love, but all you did was add to the chaos and hurt. And somehow, your manipulation was deep, that I still miss you.

Hi,
thank u for learning me what love is even tho u never really loved me the way u said u did.And I really miss u come back please.