Unsent messages to D
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 12, 2021, 8:42 am UTC
i didn't expect to fall for you the way i did. i didn't see it coming when you hurt me, i thought i meant more to you than i did. i just wish you wanted me instead of him.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 11, 2021, 8:42 pm UTC
i love you and i wish there was more that i could do for you. i'm useless and i don't understand but i will always try for you.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 11, 2021, 1:57 pm UTC
I catch myself reflecting on my current relationship. You traumatized me. But I still hope you’re doing ok.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 11, 2021, 1:11 pm UTC
i wish that things ended better for us i care about you and i know you feel the same but everytime we are together i'm always the one being hurt.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 11, 2021, 4:04 am UTC
you were such a good dog and i took that for granted. yeah you might’ve been annoying at times and sometimes i wish you never existed but if i would’ve known that you weren’t gonna be here much longer i would’ve made those last days the best days of you life. i miss you more than you could ever imagine. i would do anything for you to be here rn. for you to cuddle with me one more time. for you to bite me one more time. just for you to be here. i was thinking abt asking for another dog but i know that would hurt so much.i really don’t think i would be able to love another dog the way i loved you. i’m so sorry puppy tht i couldn’t give you what you deserved i wish i could go back in time and fix that. you deserved so much more than what we gave you. i miss you so much i’ll always love you puppy
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 11, 2021, 12:30 am UTC
your words meant nothing you hurt me in ways you’ll never understand i tell myself i hate you and i do so why am i writing this on a background of your favorite color
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 10, 2021, 6:53 am UTC
in another universe, reality, or life i know for a fact it would be you and me vs the world. but in this life you will be somebody elses, and thats ok :)
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 10, 2021, 2:36 am UTC
I'm grateful that you taught me exactly what I shouldn't accept in all my future relationships by being such a fucking asshole. I forgive you regardless.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 10, 2021, 1:21 am UTC
You can’t keep fooling around your gf/bestfriend, you are messing with her head, if you love her, stay
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 9, 2021, 10:53 pm UTC
Estoy confundidĂsima, no sĂ© si me gustas o no. Se me cruzan problemas varios, que encima te involucran, pero sĂ© que soy capaz de afrontarlos. Juro que darĂa todo por ti. Te quiero.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 9, 2021, 9:11 pm UTC
I wish that I could take back those times I allowed you to touch me without really feeling for me like I do for you
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 9, 2021, 8:57 pm UTC
you said I would be so happy with you if I lied and I know that wasn’t true but I didn’t think you would just leave
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 9, 2021, 7:19 am UTC
i'm over you. i'm over you even though you cross my mind back and forth throughout the day. i'm over you even though i still create scenarios of us together to help me sleep at night. i'm over you even though i'm closed on starting any new relationships. i'm over you even though i still associate the colour yellow with your name. i'm over you even though certain songs still remind me of our relationship. i'm over you even though in reality, i may not be.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 9, 2021, 7:11 am UTC
ever since the breakup, a few changes have happened. my new classes are way easier than the one's i had last sem, that means no more stress crying over any homework, which, if you remember, i used to do a lot. when we were still together, i remember bringing up how my basketball season was supposed to start this winter. unfortunately, they cancelled the season again because of corona which really sucks. i also had a spiritual awakening not too long ago, which before you call me insane for, has actually helped me with this whole separation process. life at home has been going pretty well until the last few days. i've become quite dependent on weed as a way to help me cope, which you can assume my parents aren't supportive with. though they're not mad, i cant help but feel as if i let them down. i've been having a lot of breakdowns and i guess depressive episodes without it and though i know its best to quit now, but i don't think i can see that happening. i haven't opened up to much friends about this, you're one of the first. i just think they'd find it difficult to understand why i cant stop, because frankly i dont know either. my mom has just been upset and my dad had to take a stress leave from work. i feel really shitty, as if i can't do anything other than let them down. they want me to go to therapy again, but i'm not really willing to do that. they've been more understanding with my mental health. they've been really patient with me and i just want to make them proud. i didn't mean to make this a whole vent, it's just so easy to talk to you, which after months of not speaking, you'd assume differently. i gained a little confidence during winter break, the tiniest amount perhaps. talking to other people still doesn't feel right so i avoid doing that but that's really been all. things haven't been great, but they haven't been horrible and i guess that's pretty much all.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 9, 2021, 2:24 am UTC
it will be hard not thinking about you everyday and starting to forget about you slowly. i knew you we’re bad for me.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 8, 2021, 12:03 pm UTC
I was a bit harsh on our last conversation but I hope you know that I really wish you’ll figure it all out and be good
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 8, 2021, 8:36 am UTC
i’m really sorry for the past i know ive done some really bad things and i would do anything to take that back man. help me what to do to get you back in my life
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 8, 2021, 7:11 am UTC
u have taught me what it’s like to be treated well. to be finally truly loved and cared for. thank u, my soulmate. i love u.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 8, 2021, 3:24 am UTC
i do care, i promise. please reach out if you need. i hope you’re doing better and i hope you understand why i can’t call.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:19 pm UTC
If I were a fool to be lead on by you, then a proud fool I shall be, there is still a small part of me who misses that.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:12 pm UTC
i’ll never see myself the way you see me. but i see you. perhaps this is one of those rare occasions where i pray for my first love to be my last.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 7, 2021, 1:42 pm UTC
Te extraño en mis noches de insomnio como este que estoy pasando ahorita,pero diferente por que no estas tu escribiendome
Hablando puras babosadas y esta bien si te aburriste de mi,te entiendo,casi nadie me entiende ni yo misma.
Solo quiero que sepas que me hiciste muy feliz hablando contigo,sentĂ una conexiĂłn inexplicable,fue muy bonito,gracias.
Y me hubiese gustado durar mucho más tiempo hablando pero todo en su momento se esfuma y creo nuestra historia ya era tiempo para que pasara.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 7, 2021, 7:00 am UTC
I thought that being with you would make me happy more than anything. Now I don’t think this is happiness...
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 7, 2021, 2:29 am UTC
I couldn't stop thinking about you then, but now you're someone else altogether...and I can't help but wonder if that would be different if I had said yes.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 6, 2021, 8:07 pm UTC
i crushed on you for the longest time, but you never knew. for 3 years i watched you slowly fall for my best friend, but i never said anything because i am a coward. i'm trying my best to move on now.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 6, 2021, 6:23 pm UTC
It hurts me how u can switch up and move on so easily. I am scared to tell you my thoughts because they might hurt you not because I don't care. I want to talk to you but I am scared I might annoy you. Tell me what should I do? Watch you slowly leave me and suffer in silence and in pain? It pains me but I love you :')
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 6, 2021, 1:58 am UTC
Its going to be Valentine's day next month. Remember last Valentine's day? It was the best one I've ever had. I wish I could relive that day. I don't know how to move on because I know we can't be together and that you don't love me anymore but I will forever love you. Its been really hard without you. I'm trying to get past it but it just seems like I can't. I'm gonna miss you this Valentine's day. I hope you are happy. I hope you are with someone new. I wish only the best to you even after what you did. I love you. Good bye.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 5, 2021, 11:26 am UTC
I don't think about you anymore. Hope you're happier than you were with me, you deserved to be happy.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 4, 2021, 10:34 pm UTC
I know you that you are a really bad person but I just can’t stop thinking about you and how much we are meant for each other bc I’m an awful person too we could be the most catastrophic and toxic couple ever but I know for a fact that I would love u and I would try to fix you but I know that you don’t want to be fixed so for now fuck off dumbass
I know that some day u will come back
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From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 4, 2021, 5:45 pm UTC
the tears, the fights, the lonely nights we’ve had even when we are right next to each other.. the sadness, the madness, & the happiness .. through it all I still manage to fall in love with you, more & more everyday... it’s you. It can’t be anyone else.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 4, 2021, 7:34 am UTC
you make me feel like a brand new person someone worth doing things for I wish I could figure myself out for us
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 4, 2021, 7:02 am UTC
I’m so sorry. For everything. You treated me the best. I really did love you. I just love him more and always will.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 4, 2021, 12:03 am UTC
Una vez más , soy yo y es que realmente no puedo con tanto , no entiendo el nivel de cinismo , ya me habĂas engañado supongo que a ella si la amabas, no lo sĂ© pero ÂżPor quĂ© seguir conmigo despuĂ©s de eso?
DespuĂ©s te alejaste de ella (yo seguĂa sin saber nada)
Para mi eras el chico perfecto , todo bien entre nosotros éramos los más felices , todo era perfecto pero...
ÂżCreĂste que jamás me lo contarĂa? Pues te equivocaste , de todos modos creo que jamás me lo hubieses contado.
Cada canción me recuerda a ti , lloro cada noche , me hago la fuerte con todo los demás pero realmente duele. Te sigo extrañando , creo que ahora más que nunca , muero por escribirte y contarte como estoy , como lo hice durante estos 5 años , ahora simplemente me conformo con ver tus estados , supongo que eres feliz.
Te amo , te deseo todo lo mejor.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 3, 2021, 11:23 pm UTC
Ya pasĂł un tiempo y aĂşn no lo comprendo ÂżPor quĂ© despuĂ©s de tanto seguir fingiendo? CreĂ que era tu amiga , nada de lo que decĂas era cierto , fui la tonta que se creyĂł el cuento , soy de la que se burlaban mientras me jurabas amor ÂżPor quĂ©? SĂ© que nada volverá y sĂ© que no deberĂa extrañarte despuĂ©s de todo el daño que me causaste pero no se como manejar esto , te extraño...
Me encantarĂa verte y darte un fuerte abrazo , decirte que aĂşn te amo y que por eso te perdono , no se si todavĂa "me quieres" ... Sabes? es evidente que no , nunca lo hiciste
Soy la tonta que sigue esperando señales , la que no acepta que ya nada volverá.
PerdĂłn por tanto y gracias por tan poco.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 3, 2021, 7:15 pm UTC
I’m so in love with you but you choose my best friend over me. Am I suppose to pretend I’m not in love with you?
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 3, 2021, 7:11 pm UTC
So stupid of me for hoping that there’s a chance you might like me back. I’m ready to forget you. Forget about my feelings for you. I’m ready to move on and feel love again.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:27 pm UTC
Whenever I go out, I hope I'll run into you so I can be reminded of your what your face looks like, and to see what it would be like after all this time.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:15 am UTC
I miss you. You fought so hard for so many years, thank you for trying so hard. I wish that I could see you again and give you one more bear hug. I hate myself for rolling my eyes whenever you would call us. It was because you loved us so much and I see that now. I miss you.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 3, 2021, 2:08 am UTC
i didnt actually knew you, but i still think about you. i remember your laugh and the way you said my name and the way your hand felt in mine, but i cant remember the color of your eyes. its been a while since i looked in them
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 2, 2021, 2:00 pm UTC
Du hättest wenigstens mal antworten können oder mir direkt sagen was los ist, ich hätte dir gerne eine Chance gegeben-
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 2, 2021, 11:24 am UTC
It makes me sad how I love and care for you so much but I just know I will never feel that way from you
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 2, 2021, 7:30 am UTC
Hola mi primer amor, me acuerdo de la primera vez que te vi, pues en ese mismo instante fue que me enamore de ti, fue amor a primera vista pues en ese entonces ni tu nombre sabia, en unos dias seran 4 años desde la primera vez que nos vimos, lo que siento por ti esta intacto, guardado en un pedacito de mi corazon y alli se quedara hasta el fin de mis dias, ahora estas con alguien mas, ella se ve que es una buena chica les deseo lo mejor.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 1, 2021, 5:22 pm UTC
I thought being so supportive would make you see how much I meant but it made it easier for you to take what u wanted and leave.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 1, 2021, 5:20 pm UTC
I was so angry you picked her, but I realized I was mad that i just wasn’t going to be enough for you.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 1, 2021, 11:42 am UTC
i picked pink because its both of our fav colors, my body still lights up when i remember what your lips felt like against mine. please, take care of yourself.
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 1, 2021, 10:20 am UTC
i’m sorry for whatever i did to make us not talk anymore. but i really miss you, i wanna hangout. I hope you’re not mad at me but i don’t even know the problem
From: ABC
To: D
Date: January 1, 2021, 5:07 am UTC
ik what we had to you wasn’t anything much but to me it was fucking everything and i’ll never be able to tell you that. you’ll never feel the same about me. where did i go wrong
From: ABC
To: D
Date: December 31, 2020, 4:54 am UTC
Watching the sun rise in your sweatshirt while singing along to our favorite songs will forever be my favorite memory. I wonder where that boy went. Hopefully one day hell come back to me...
From: ABC
To: D
Date: December 31, 2020, 3:25 am UTC
i’m happy for u that you reached acceptance (with us) i’m just sad it didn’t take you that long to reach it
From: ABC
To: D
Date: December 30, 2020, 3:21 am UTC
You showed me how I should be treated. I wish I had seen it then. If you gave me another chance, I’d never let go.
