Always thought in the end it'd be you. I know you care so either you're too scared to be vulnerable or you just don't care enough. You make it too hard to love you so I give up. If you don't tell me soon I wont be there anymore

Saw your face at my door today. It’s been months and I thought I was ok. Thanks for the reminder that I’m still not over it. Or you.

I love you so much even if you can‘t love me back. At this point i knew it would be the best to let you go because my love can only hold you up and bring me down.

idk if you meant it but i missed you too, idk if you meant it but you're also the only person i want, idk if you meant it but i like you too.

the pain caused by losing you was unmatched to most pain. my love for you will continue to grow until i am old. even tho we were far away my heart will always be fond of you until i take my last breath connecting with you changed my life. you are we truly remarkable person. when you told me you didn’t wanna be with me anymore it killed me but i knew you needed to be happy.

no sabes lo mucho que te extraño, no sabes lo mucho que mi corazón te anhela bonita pero solo espero que tú estés bien aunque así te vez... bien

I respect my bf’s wishes because I would've demanded the exact same thing. Me and him are so similar and I get what it feels like.

i can’t even tell you how many times i’ve been told “ you’re one of my best friends” but i was expecting more from you

im so sorry for dropping you the way i did and im so sorry that ive dragged you along for so long i dont know why i was so confused and i know that every time i apologize it probably doesnt help anything. i havent forgot ab you (obviously) but i think im just scared and i dont know why. every time i run away i end up coming back and i know it hurts you more than me. i just dont want to ruin everything between us if it could still work.

weve said it so many times but it was just awful timing. i was so ready and i heard you were too but then you stopped bc of someone else. id been waiting for MONTHS but i wasnt ready to get hurt again so the second i heard about her i made myself lose all feelings. ive tried so hard to make them come back and it seems to work for a little but then i think about her and then their gone again. i dont want to stop you from moving on but i dont know if i can even move on myself. i dont want to hurt you but letting you down but i know it has to hurt not knowing at all and i feel so bad not being able to give you an answer but i know its not know but i still dont know if its yes

i do care, i promise. please reach out if you need. i hope you’re doing better and i hope you understand why i can’t call.

i loved you yeah, but did i really love you?, or the toxic you, i never loved the real you. it's because you never showed it .

Whenever I think of you, I’m scared. I think I’m not over you. Don’t think I ever will. Will you ever look back to me?

Hey,
i rewatched your favorite movie tonight. i can still imagine you quoting it before the lines are even said.

You make me want to be soft and open and vulnerable. No one else does that to me. It’s driving me crazy.

u have taught me what it’s like to be treated well. to be finally truly loved and cared for. thank u, my soulmate. i love u.

It's hard to grapple with the fact that you know more about me than anyone else, yet you are a stranger to me now.

I think I’m starting to move on from you. I don’t feel guilty trying to move on and leave you behind anymore. it’s still extremely hard to let go of the expectations I had but I know they were never going to be true. I still miss you, you were a good person but you weren’t supposed to be my good person for the rest of my life I guess. it stings but it’s okay.

I say I hate you, but that’s not true... I’m just scared how much of myself I gave you and how much I’ll never get back

i’m really sorry for the past i know ive done some really bad things and i would do anything to take that back man. help me what to do to get you back in my life

I don’t think you realised the impact you had on me , you sharing the music you liked with me means I can’t listen to certain songs anymore. I miss you.

I was a bit harsh on our last conversation but I hope you know that I really wish you’ll figure it all out and be good

i was never afraid to wake up next to you without makeup and messy hair, because i knew how fucking ugly you looked like when you woke up

Hi. I love you. I just don't know how to tell you. But you make my day. Everything from your laugh to your babbling, i love it. i love you. One day, I'll tell you.

to be honest i have no idea why i’m writing this, i know you probably would think this is weird or whatever if you ever saw it. i don’t know what colour to put because when i asked for your favourite you said about five, i’ll give you orange though, if see this then you’ll know it’s for you - hopefully lol or not that might be embarrassing. anyways, i thought i’d be over you, completely over you but even after six months of not communicating when i saw you again all the feelings i left you with came back. i miss when you smiled at me, i miss how you would always hype me up when i dissed myself, i miss walking with you and noticing our height difference - because you’d make me feel safe, i miss how you used to tell me about your dreams and when you used to ask me questions, i miss you. so much. i wish we could speak again but i know the cycle would just repeat itself. i’m so sorry for messing it up so many times. i’m so sorry for making you feel like shit. i am so sorry for ignoring you even when you were all i could think about. writing this hasn’t made me feel any better but maybe you’ll find it one day, or not and it’ll just be out there on the internet for eternity. either way my feelings for you won’t change in this moment. maybe when we’re older we’ll see each other and laugh about our little crush as a teenager, maybe i’ll never see you again. i hope i do. thank you for believing in me.

You're that one person I would drop everything for. I miss you so much. You don't realize how good you made me feel about myself. I felt safe with you around. I miss every little thing about you. Your smile, your eyes, your touch. Most of all I miss your laugh. It would brighten up the whole room. I miss the car rides. I miss laying with you. The last night we were together I sat up to look out the window and you sat up with me and just held me. Is it because you knew it was the last time you would see me. Do you miss me as much as I miss you. You called a mutual friend of ours to ask if I was okay because you thought something had happened. Does that mean you still care or were you just being nosy. You claim to hate me but I know there has to be a part inside of you that loves and misses me like I do you.

i miss u so much lol. just texting you again after not texting you for a while makes me so happy and warm inside.

It’s been 4 years since you left and I know that my heart will always be yours. And there’s nothing that makes me happier

i wanted to tell you that night. i wanted to tell you but no matter how hard i tried i couldn't force those words out of me. it's been a year but i can't forget. so i'm telling you now: i love you. i still love you.

I nearly called u while drunk yesterday. I thought I might ruin ur night tho just like u ruined all of my nights for the past 3years

you stopped talking to me but yet you say you changed? you matured? you're gonna leave me again i know it. so goodbye

I hope one day we meet again and finish our story because I truly believe this wasn’t how it was supposed to end. I hated watching you become a stranger more than anything. You were my dream, but you changed on me when you promised you wouldn’t.

it’s almost been 2 years and u still live in my head. u took everything from me and i still think about u all the time. fuck u.

it’s almost been 2 years and u still live in my head. u took everything from me and i still think about u all the time. fuck u.

if u could go back to before we met, would u do it again? do u ever wish we just never met and did what we did? because i think about it all the time

i’ve known you for almost 6 years and until now you still never fail to amaze me. i’ll always love you.

I think it’s time for me to let go. I mean, I already have. It’s just I hoped you would come back and I know you aren’t. One last walk and that’s it I’m deleting you forever. I need to move on :(

I am so sorry I messed up.. I was so insecure and didn’t know what to do. I wish I could turn back the time and tell you how much I liked you.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t communicate the way you wanted me to, even though I told you that’s one of my strongest faults...

sometimes it feels like everything i do with other people is wrong when youve done even worse things but i shouldnt worry abt that? at this point our patches are mentally draining

i really liked u in 3rd - 4th grade , i never really found out if u felt the same . i dont like u anymore but i still sometimes think about u . why did we stop talking ?

it will be hard not thinking about you everyday and starting to forget about you slowly. i knew you we’re bad for me.

Why don’t you love me back? No one will ever love you the way I do. Is it really worth it, losing me for him? Why do you love him? It hurts. So bad. You can have him but when it doesn’t work out like you wanted it to, don’t come running back to me.

Sure it was annoying that you never smiled in pictures, but you smiled for me and that made me feel special.

you consume my thoughts. i can’t believe that we could be looking up at the same sky at the same time.

I’m so fucking in love with u, I’ve never felt like this before and I’m scared but u r still the best thing in my life, I love u

it was a fun time back when. I think about it sometimes. Thanks for that. Just wish you didn’t kill it with fire.

i've slowly forgotten all the little things, but ill never forget the way you made me feel when we first started talking

I will need be your first choice, ever. You'd talk about her in front of me like you didn't know it was pushing me further to the edge. It is inevitable that I will leave first.

ever since the breakup, a few changes have happened. my new classes are way easier than the one's i had last sem, that means no more stress crying over any homework, which, if you remember, i used to do a lot. when we were still together, i remember bringing up how my basketball season was supposed to start this winter. unfortunately, they cancelled the season again because of corona which really sucks. i also had a spiritual awakening not too long ago, which before you call me insane for, has actually helped me with this whole separation process. life at home has been going pretty well until the last few days. i've become quite dependent on weed as a way to help me cope, which you can assume my parents aren't supportive with. though they're not mad, i cant help but feel as if i let them down. i've been having a lot of breakdowns and i guess depressive episodes without it and though i know its best to quit now, but i don't think i can see that happening. i haven't opened up to much friends about this, you're one of the first. i just think they'd find it difficult to understand why i cant stop, because frankly i dont know either. my mom has just been upset and my dad had to take a stress leave from work. i feel really shitty, as if i can't do anything other than let them down. they want me to go to therapy again, but i'm not really willing to do that. they've been more understanding with my mental health. they've been really patient with me and i just want to make them proud. i didn't mean to make this a whole vent, it's just so easy to talk to you, which after months of not speaking, you'd assume differently. i gained a little confidence during winter break, the tiniest amount perhaps. talking to other people still doesn't feel right so i avoid doing that but that's really been all. things haven't been great, but they haven't been horrible and i guess that's pretty much all.