Unsent messages to K
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 4:49 pm UTC
u were the only thing made me happy when I was alone n sad, but now u r the biggest reason that I am alone n sad
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 4:23 am UTC
i see your car everywhere. it's never actually you, but i sometimes like to think it's some obscure sign.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 4:13 am UTC
honestly, i do think you're sorry. i do think you cared. i just don't think you knew how to tell me, or yourself.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 4:04 am UTC
when you said violet was your favorite color, it became the most vivid to me. it was the first to fade when you left.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 4:03 am UTC
i still dream of you. the sound of your voice apologizing to me rings so clearly i almost mistake it for reality.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 3:56 am UTC
being in public places where you could easily be gives me anxiety. but my eyes still wander, looking for you.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 3:50 am UTC
i still listen to the songs you would sing in the car, even though i never liked them. but they're all i have left of you.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 31, 2020, 2:07 am UTC
Te amare, aunque me siga lastimando tu partida
Se que fui lo mejor, en darte todo y que mis esfuerzos valieron la pena.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 30, 2020, 8:25 pm UTC
did you ever feel guilty at all for what happened? you knew how i felt, you knew how much i was hurting, and yet you still continued to hurt me over and over again. i was such a fool to think that you would do anything else.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 30, 2020, 8:22 pm UTC
you couldn't have even had enough feelings to respond to my message. i feel as though i've been left on read for the last 5 years and it hurts me everyday.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 30, 2020, 8:21 pm UTC
did you feel anything at all when you were doing that? did you have any idea how much i was hurting, how much i was afraid to go outside, and still am because of you? do you have any idea that what i told you still stands?
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 30, 2020, 1:00 am UTC
i told you that i felt like people only wanted me for my body. i guess you just had to make me sure of it.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 29, 2020, 11:43 pm UTC
omfg, why cant u understand that i love u w all my heart. u were the one person always by my side. no shit i caught feelings. and after that stupid letter, u started ignoring me, well fuck you, fuck our friendship, fuck the memories, the things u did to cheer me up. fuck all of those late night texts of u telling that im gorgeous and that any guy that sayed otherwise was a jerk, fuck all the hugs, all the times we sayed we loved each other. FUCK MY LIFE WHITEOUT U IN IT. i just cant understand how did everything faded so quickly. you literally still are my closest friend and now that were not okay, my life is just gone. i dint know how longer i can do this whitout u. you are my yellow
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 29, 2020, 6:02 am UTC
why does it hurt so bad. i thought love was supposed to be good. why does it feel like this. why won’t it stop.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 28, 2020, 1:33 pm UTC
please get better. those scars on ur leg made me so sad. ur so worth it and ur beautiful and ur sweet. u make me happy
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 28, 2020, 7:36 am UTC
Lo siento, debĂ de haberte dicho lo que estaba pasando, no era mi intenciĂłn que nuestra relaciĂłn terminará de esta manera, espero algĂşn dĂa podamos sentarnos a platicar acerca de todo lo que hicimos mal, sigo pensando en ti todos los dĂas.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 27, 2020, 5:03 pm UTC
If you don’t wanna text then just tell me bro. It’s so annoying when you text me first and then leave me on read like make up your freaking mind. Do you wanna text or no it’s not that hard
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 27, 2020, 6:33 am UTC
i know i deserve better and they way i was treated wasn't real love, so why do I look for you in every person i meet? Why can't i get you out of my head?
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 27, 2020, 6:12 am UTC
i know i need to let you go,but something does not let me...
not a day has passed without thought of you.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 27, 2020, 3:47 am UTC
i really wish i knew it was love at the time. you were smart enough to see but i was to naive to notice.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 26, 2020, 11:53 pm UTC
I’m not mad at the fact you didn’t want me I’m mad at the fact you acted like you did. I’m mad at the fact you made me think we were gonna be together so much longer. I’m mad at the fact you enter a new relationship a day after we broke up. I’m mad at myself. I’m mad that I can’t get over you and that you’re constantly on my mind. lol.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 26, 2020, 5:49 pm UTC
I still remember that night and you saying that you've waited for me whole your life. Today you have kid with sb else. D
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 25, 2020, 11:32 pm UTC
Na 3 jaar krijg ik u nog steeds niet uit mijn hoofd. Het ging beter, echt. Nu is het enige wat ik wil bij u zijn maar je bent ermee aan het spelen. Weet wat je wil, en niet de ene week wel en de andere niet. Ik mis u. Elke dag een beetje meer.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 25, 2020, 10:31 pm UTC
i hate you so much and i hope you get everything you deserve. you never liked me but i cant take back what i felt.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 25, 2020, 8:46 pm UTC
always when we listen to beautiful boy by john lennon, you sing beautiful girl instead of the original lyrics and always sing louder than i can so you would win this never ending game of ours. i love you more.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 25, 2020, 5:38 am UTC
we were just kids. it wasn’t meant to be and i think i’m finally okay with that. i hope they treat you well.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 25, 2020, 4:40 am UTC
I just want you to be happy, and ik that will never be with me. but I will always want it to be you, not him, not anyone else, only you, but it never will be.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 24, 2020, 5:39 pm UTC
I don’t get how u could do that I rlly don’t, u hurt me badly. I never tell people that I like them, but when u said it to me I knew I felt the same. I don’t what it was but I was drawn to you and your company. I now realise most of what I loved about u was pure fantasy and in my head. But those moments up sat by u watching the sunsets where it all stemmed from. I just don’t understand what changed? why was I not good enough? Why did u say u missed me if the whole time u knew u wanted to be with her? And why couldn’t you just be straight up with me and tell me, instead of giving me something false. You really hurt me and while I stay sad over u, you’ve already become official with her despite saying u didn’t want to commit to anyone. It jus makes me feel awful, what did she have that I didn’t? What changed? what did I do to Change your opinion of me? I should’ve known when she was on the best friend list but it jus hurt that u could lie to my face and say u liked me when u jus wanted to mess with me. It’s just such a cruel thing to do, you knew I would get attached once you’d said that. The saddest thing is I still miss u and I know if u wanted to see me I would come.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 24, 2020, 12:13 am UTC
you were my reason to stay,but you left. i tried so hard to fix us but ig i wasn’t enough. i will always love you. i miss you
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 23, 2020, 6:06 pm UTC
i’ll never understand what you did. how you left me feeling so worthless. so empty all the time. you broke me with no explanation why
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 22, 2020, 2:55 pm UTC
i will always love you endlessly there is no way to describe the love i have for you. you were my best friend for the longest time and although you say we still are and as much as i would like to believe it, it’s simply just not the same.
we talk as often as possible about everything and anything but we both know it’s because we feel it’s a duty, a chore or an obligation.
i know that when you have news good or bad i’m not the first you want to tell and i think you know that’s how i feel as well. it’s sad because i thought we’d be ride or die guess not.
in all honesty i want you to stay in my life forever but i know that if you do it won’t be as good as we pictured it to be.
girl i wish nothing but the best for you and all the happiness you deserve.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 21, 2020, 6:59 am UTC
In another life maybe I’d have said something sooner. Now you’re nothing but my unicorn that got away.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 21, 2020, 3:12 am UTC
im ready to move on. ive found better people and im sure you have too. im also sure this is gonna hurt me way more than its gonna hurt you so the probability of this staying is slim. but on the off chance it does i want to send this. i would say thank you but i really dont know what it would be for. for ignoring me every chance you got? for being a dick 99% of the time? you were toxic and so was i so i cant hold it against you too much but like i said ive found better. i dont think we were ever supposed to be friends. looking back nothing about us said 'this is going to work.' throughout our school years i would get annoyed by you constantly. and even past that i couldnt stand you. yet i never stopped considering you my best friend. would i take back those years? no. do i wish i had someone else instead of you? no way. we were awful together yet id keep it the way it was. part of me thinks this isnt the end of our story. but the other part is screaming to me that of course it is.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 20, 2020, 7:38 pm UTC
I can’t believe I didn’t know. I feel like I’m losing you slowly...like sand running through my fingers. pls come back to me
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 20, 2020, 8:20 am UTC
I used to think you were the most beautiful and breathtaking person id ever seen in the universe. looking back now, it might’ve just been your blue eyes that did it to me
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 20, 2020, 7:49 am UTC
I know you didn’t do it on purpose.. but I was being invalidated and manipulated during the end. And it sucks cuz I was very blindly in love.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 20, 2020, 1:14 am UTC
why did you have to tell me you were still in love with me months after? would it have worked out if it werent for him?
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 19, 2020, 7:01 pm UTC
i write our initials here every time i send one in because i'm afraid you'll see what i've said. love, p
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 19, 2020, 5:06 am UTC
I know this is going to end eventually because you'll never fall for me. I'm terrified you'll break me.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 18, 2020, 2:24 am UTC
It feels so weird to write about you. We aren't even friends. I do wish we were though. I've liked you since last year, literally almost a full year now. I could list every reason why I like you. The first things I think of when I hear your name is your messy buns, sounds weird but I think its so cute how you can look pretty without even trying. I like that you don't try to impress anyone. You're also really smart and athletic and I admire that. And to top it all off you're funny, I like your sarcasm and its even better when you smile after you make a joke. I like you so much that I want to hate you, I want to hate you so I don't keep messing with my own feelings. There is a very little chance that you feel the same way about me. I almost think im being unfair with myself for allowing myself to like you this much. I even try to talk to other people but literally just making eye contact with you gives me butterflies and I could talk about you for hours.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 17, 2020, 7:08 am UTC
i know you love me and i love you too but i don’t even love myself enough to love you how i wanna love you....
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 16, 2020, 9:16 pm UTC
I miss the way you held my hand and the way you always looked at me. Im sorry even though its not my fault. I loved you.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 16, 2020, 8:40 pm UTC
I thought I was over you. But after a year and a half I still love you with my whole heart :( ill love yo forever
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 16, 2020, 12:56 am UTC
i am so in love with you my heart hurts. i wish i could accept u love her and move on. you are so perfect. please give me a chance
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 15, 2020, 6:12 pm UTC
what does she have that i dont? i gave everything to you for nothing in return. as long as you're happy, right?
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 15, 2020, 5:53 am UTC
i wish we didn’t change. i still have love for you, but wishing for the old you isn’t doing me any good. i need to let go.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 15, 2020, 4:24 am UTC
A month after we broke up you told me you never stopped loving me. The next day you want space and tell me that it'll never be the same. And the day after - you love me again and im the only one for you. I cry almost every night, i'm hurt and exhausted, but i don't wanna lose you nor push you away from me. I love you so bad.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 14, 2020, 9:46 am UTC
you made me feel something after a long time of no emotions, but then you left and I went back to being numb.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 14, 2020, 6:58 am UTC
You told me if I ended it again you didn't know if you could start over again..
I'm glad you couldn't.
From: ABC
To: k
Date: December 14, 2020, 6:17 am UTC
remember that night we spent watching shooting stars for hours? i used every wish hoping you’d finally notice me.
