Unsent messages to K
From: ABC
To: k
This is fucking with your head? Should I be sorry yes but I’m not. This is what you wanted.
Is the medicine nice? Yeah I’ve been dealing with this shit for months. Fuck you.
From: ABC
To: k
I’m sorry for leaving you, I will always regret it. Never listen to the other voices who try to make the things you love go away.
From: ABC
To: k
I'm still waiting, love.
I'm still here.
I know you can apologise to me eventually, take your time. In the end I'll always be the one to care no matter how many times you continue to hurt me. love, H
From: ABC
To: k
Sometimes I wish I never cross paths with you, but then again, even with you gone you still continue to shape me into the person I am today.
From: ABC
To: k
Sometimes I wish we never cross paths, but then again, even with you gone you still continue to shape me into the person I am today.
From: ABC
To: k
Sometimes I wish we never cross paths, but then again, even with you gone you still continue to shape me into the person I am today.
From: ABC
To: k
It's been a year and I'm in a much better headspace now that we don't talk. I miss you and I hope you're doing okay and that you're happy with your life.
From: ABC
To: k
Every time I see you with another girl it hurts. It hurts because I know that will never be me but its ok I guess
From: ABC
To: k
i’ll never understand what you did. how you left me feeling so worthless. so empty all the time. you broke me with no explanation why
From: ABC
To: k
You were the only guy I’ve ever been comfortable with 100% and you took advantage of that I hate you. Yet I still love you :/
From: ABC
To: k
it's been so long and you're still all i think about. Every passing moment i think of you and it consumes me. You're my biggest goal yet greatest regret at the same time. I just wish we weren't strangers anymore.
From: ABC
To: k
not typing your full name because i’m still afraid, but i often wonder if you ever even feel bad about what you did to me.
From: ABC
To: k
i’ll never forget the way you threw rocks in the rain, i’ll never forget you no matter how much i want to.
From: ABC
To: k
sometimes i really wish all the pain u have can just leave and i still don't know if i caused it.and im sorry and i love you forever.
From: ABC
To: k
The timing, it didn’t seem right. But if I had a star for every thought I had of you, the universe would be small in comparison. I miss you and I hope our stars align so we would be together again.
From: ABC
To: k
Hi *****, it took me so long to come to terms with my feelings for you, i pretended not to like you, your intelligence, smile, kindness, it was all too much for me. I didn't realize it but those precautions i took to ignore my feelings only made me fall for you harder. I tried so hard to hate you, but i couldn't. I can finally say that you were my first love, my first guy friend, and the first person to make me feel validated. Thank you for that, i hope you have a wonderful and successful life, you deserve it after how much time and effort you put into it. You'll always have a special place in my heart, and you have taught me a lot. I love you.
From: ABC
To: k
i love you more than life itself. you saved me and i fall in love with you more each and every day.
e x
From: ABC
To: k
Sorry I had to completely cut you off from my life with no warning.
But I had to do what's right for my mental health.
From: ABC
To: k
u are my yellow and I think i love u... u are one of my bestfriends and I just want u to love me back
From: ABC
To: k
my letter is still taped to your wall. i hope you smile when you read it, i hope it brings peace to the darkest parts of yourself.
From: ABC
To: k
i wish you could've told me what i really did wrong. and not let me alone with my thoughts. but thanks anyways. i found my true self because of you. and im not sad anymore. i couldn't care less about you now. even though i still wrote this.
From: ABC
To: k
you don't even know what you mean to me and thats even the saddest part. I hate you a lot but I still think about you everyday. its so stupid bc you left me without any explanations. I didn't deserve it and you didn't deserve me.
From: ABC
To: k
You seem very in love with your gf. At least you make it seem like it. Thanks for always keeping me entertained, especially during lockdown. I wish for your happiness always, sunshine.
From: ABC
To: k
you were my reason to stay,but you left. i tried so hard to fix us but ig i wasn’t enough. i will always love you. i miss you
From: ABC
To: k
i hate you and the things you did but i do not regret what i felt for you and the memories we’ve made.
From: ABC
To: k
I guess I can't blame you, we were just kids. I don't know if I forgive you or not but I'll act like I do.
From: ABC
To: k
i still miss everything about you i miss our dumb conversations i miss your laugh i wish you would come back but i broke you too much i wasnt ready for you and i dont want to hurt you anymore so im letting go now...its time for us both to be happy
From: ABC
To: k
I will never tell you how I feel, because I cant bare to go through the pain of officially knowing I'm not the one you want.
From: ABC
To: k
Im not even sure how to start this. Im mad, im hurt, im confused and its all because of you. ive carried the burden and guilt and sadness over our broken friendship for so fucking long and it makes me so angry that you obviously do not give a shit. i have spent countless hours feeling guilt and regret over things i have no reason to feel bad about. all of this time ive been blaming myself but looking back, I did nothing wrong. YOU lied to me, told me that my boyfriend was a fuckboy to try to get me to leave him just because you couldnt stand seeing me happy. i believed you at first too, because here i was thinking that you had my best interests at heart. why did you hate that i was finally happy, when i was your biggest supporter when you started dating your boyfriend. every achievement you made, every goal you accomplished, every good thing that came your way i was always there to be happy for you. because i genuinely WAS happy for you, even all these years later im happy for you, and proud of your accomplishments. fuck, i even spent time manifesting good energy and good things to come your way, because despite all of the pain youve put me through i still want you to succeed. it would make me so happy to see you flourish and do amazing things in your life.
but at the same time i cant help but feel sadness knowing you probably dont wish the same for me. if you werent happy for me then, you definitely dont want me to do well now. so thats hard to accept. you never even reached out. you just moved on. fuck you for that a little bit. you left me feeling so alone and hurt by you.
From: ABC
To: k
i wish you cared about me the way i care about you. i wish you were scared to lose me the way i am for you
From: ABC
To: k
ik u don’t like feel the same way but i’m in love with u with every fiber of my being at it all means something to me. every single moment i’ve gotten to spend with you in this life has been a blessing. you’re a fucking modern day monét and i’m so glad my eyes got to bathe in your light.
From: ABC
To: k
Hey I should’ve told u before we had to go quarantine, thanks for making me laugh and being there for me
From: ABC
To: k
I hope theres a cold spot in hell for you. Throughout all this time, you never seem to leave the back of my head.
From: ABC
To: k
i hate myself. the fact that i let you bring me down so many times. if you hurt me i'd brush it off bc you don't know how much i liked you. i hate that you can make me feel the best but also the absolute worst. how i knew i deserved so much better then second or third place but even after everything we've been through i still love you.
From: ABC
To: k
i still see you in sunsets. i still hope this life will lead us back to each other. my forever summer love.
From: ABC
To: k
u promised that no one would receive the same love u gave me. so why are u doing everything u did with me... with her
From: ABC
To: k
I still get nervous when u talk to me, and i still love every part of you. I really hope you're happy
From: ABC
To: k
I don’t get how u could do that I rlly don’t, u hurt me badly. I never tell people that I like them, but when u said it to me I knew I felt the same. I don’t what it was but I was drawn to you and your company. I now realise most of what I loved about u was pure fantasy and in my head. But those moments up sat by u watching the sunsets where it all stemmed from. I just don’t understand what changed? why was I not good enough? Why did u say u missed me if the whole time u knew u wanted to be with her? And why couldn’t you just be straight up with me and tell me, instead of giving me something false. You really hurt me and while I stay sad over u, you’ve already become official with her despite saying u didn’t want to commit to anyone. It jus makes me feel awful, what did she have that I didn’t? What changed? what did I do to Change your opinion of me? I should’ve known when she was on the best friend list but it jus hurt that u could lie to my face and say u liked me when u jus wanted to mess with me. It’s just such a cruel thing to do, you knew I would get attached once you’d said that. The saddest thing is I still miss u and I know if u wanted to see me I would come.
From: ABC
To: k
Blood red was the colour of us, passionate and burning. Blood red is the colour of me, broken and bleeding.
From: ABC
To: k
hey,
I wish I could hate you but I dont and I'm pretty much over you but I dont like the way things ended between us I just feel like our story isn't over u rlly do suck sometimes though
From: ABC
To: k
When we where first talking and you said you could easily find some else and replace me. I didnt think you were serious.
From: ABC
To: k
I just want you to be happy, and ik that will never be with me. but I will always want it to be you, not him, not anyone else, only you, but it never will be.
From: ABC
To: k
We may never speak again in this lifetime, and I’m ok with that. Just make sure you come find me in the next one.
From: ABC
To: k
we were just kids. it wasn’t meant to be and i think i’m finally okay with that. i hope they treat you well.
From: ABC
To: k
when you look at me i get shivers down my spine the way you say certain things i melt, i am completely in love with you and you’ll never know.
From: ABC
To: k
i want to text you every single day but then i remember you left me so easily. you didnt even think twice.
From: ABC
To: k
i still haven’t quite figured out why u didn’t fight harder to keep me as your best friend you meant the world to me and i would’ve done anything for you..now we’re just strangers with so many memories together and it hurts so bad
From: ABC
To: k
always when we listen to beautiful boy by john lennon, you sing beautiful girl instead of the original lyrics and always sing louder than i can so you would win this never ending game of ours. i love you more.
From: ABC
To: k
i hate you so much and i hope you get everything you deserve. you never liked me but i cant take back what i felt.
From: ABC
To: k
i dont know how you dont care. i dont know how you can look at me like im nothing after all we have ben through. i love you more than i have ever loved. and everytime i look at you i still see that love. i still imagine the taste of cherry carmex on your breath. my friends tell me i should tell you how i feel, if only they knew you how i knew you. i know you'd say nothing but "oh". i know your pride will always be bigger then the love you have for me. i know that you will never admit that you cared. i know you. i know the way your eyes speak more than your words. i know the feeling of your hands on my skin. i know how you say "i love you" in your own language. i know the way you get silent when you are angry. i know the way you get enegetic when something good happens. i know you treated me wrong, i just dont care.
