its been 2 years but it still hurts me to see you with someone else. she's everything that i'm not. I wish I told you i still loved you when i had the chance

I miss you and I regret not going on that call with you when I had the chance. I think it’s about time I let you go fully and let you live your life. I will always love you and never forget all the moments we had with each-other. I might’ve lied about a lot of things because i thought i wasn’t good enough for you. Forgive me please

just because we didn’t work out doesn’t mean you weren’t the best thing that ever happened to me. love you always.

Hi baby... I know iv'e given you plenty of reasons to be insecure, iv'e dissapointed you, hurt you, left you countless times... I don't even understand why i did what i did. Maybe im scared, you just seem to perfect and it kinda scares me, but im done running. It's you, it's always been you, nobody quite get me like you, nobody makes me feel like you, its like a constant rush when i talk to you, my head spins just thinking about you. I know it doesn't make a difference telling you this, I know I have to prove it, words aint action. I'm done bullshitting, I promise you I will never run away again, you told me the other day that sometimes I forgot how understanding you are, and I do forget that. I promise I will always talk to you, tell you things straight up. I'd rather hurt you for a minute than lose you again. You are the most beautifull, smartest, funniest, loving, caring, honest, energetic, down to earth person iv'e ever met, and shit you are better than me in pretty much any fucking game, what more could a guy wish for. I'm gonna have to stop myself here. I will always love you, your on my mind always.

When you left you took my love with you now I can’t love anyone like I loves you. You were my first love my soulmate everything I ever wanted but you didn’t want me I hope we meet again and in a another life we’re happy together. I still love you even tho you put me in so much pain and made me lose myself. Now without you everydays the same and i wanna thank you for teaching me how to love and I found myself but I realize you were bad for me and I hope you feel the heartbreak I felt and every shitty emotion and every shitty day that came with it but that’s the problem. I still love you.

i am terrified of getting too close, of letting you in, of inevitably hurting you. i wish you nothing but happiness, just i know it can't be with me

its been so long that i dont even remember your name. you were the reason i realised i was into girls, so thank you for being kind to me during swimming practice. we were friends for only a short while but ill always be thankful. i hope the uk is treating you well and you continued swimming

i actually thought i loved you but now i realise i was young and naive, we wanted different things and that's okay, i wish you well :)

i know i wanted to break contact but today has been so fucking hard. i'm so sorry - coming from someone who made that mistake too many times, he doesn't deserve you. he promised he'd be different to the others, n he promised to protect you - he's not worth it. you're a really forgiving person so i won't be surprised if you give him another chance, but you just need to think - how many chances can you give to someone that won't change?

you're way too forgiving. obviously it worked out well for me, but every time you allow someone toxic back into your life - you're just hurting yourself. but i think you already know that. im looking forward to the day where you put yourself first, cause out of everyone i know - you're the person who deserves to be the most happy. does that make sense? i'm sorry if it doesn't, you know i'm not good with words.

Friday the 13th not today the one before this one. Do you remember? I will always wonder what we could have been.

yk how C said to me the other day that it was partially my fault? that's what shes doing to you. she's had these problems for years, before what she did. she never had a reason before, it was just how she felt - which made her feel hopeless. but after forcing you to talk about everything, she now has someone to blame - other than herself. you did not do this to her. she has full control over what she chooses to do. you never even acted out against her, as much as she deserves it. so who the fuck does she think she is, making the most forgiving and kind person blame themselves?

you're the only person i've been w that my family knows about - they can tell how i feel just by me mentioning your name. also, can't believe we couldn't go less than a day.

even if we don’t talk or see each other anymore, i still like you after all these years. i’m sorry. i can’t get over you.

why did you leave when you said you would never? Was it all a lie? Were you just bored? Was I nothing to you, because you were everything to me.

i don't love bad people. me, the person who loses feelings after a week, never cries over anyone and never gets heartbroken (that wasn't your fault tho) - fell in love with you. i was immature, hurting and had so many issues - you were the one to change me for the better. bad people can't do that. you've got a good heart, you're the only one who can't see it.

i was the exact same, i promised i'd change every time but i didn't realise my faults until a few months ago. we were both toxic, but only because we were hurting and we took it out on each other. be angry at me or anyone else, just don't be angry at yourself. he's not going to change until you've both moved on. sadly thats just how it works.

you didn't do anything wrong. i was immature and didn't know how to act in a relationship, n every time you'd tell me how horrible i was being - i'd act out against you n get really mad. the fact that you forgave me so many times is crazy, i didn't deserve you.

trust me, you've gone through sm in the past year - please put yourself first. i already know what the answers gonna be but have you forgiven him?

why why why i literally miss you so much stupid. life is so boring without you and i really wish i had you in it. we got so close so fast and i’ve never met anyone like you. you think you don’t deserve anything but i promise you that you deserve the absolute world and pls stay here. if not for me your brother okay.

I hope your happy. I think I'm happy but then on the off occasion I think of you and I'm not sure. u broke me and I can never get over that

I know things are really rough and I’m sorry for never being able to help and only making things worse. I’m sorry I’m so annoying and that I only talk about myself and constantly vent to you....but lately I felt like things haven’t been the same and it really gets to me so......I think we should stop talking to each other. I’m sorry

i know my opinion means completely nothing, but i think you should try things out w his mate? from what i've heard, you get along really well, might be worth a try?

I'm still unsure if you left because I was too sick or because I didn't try hard enough for you. Either way, it's killing me.

i write our initials here every time i send one in because i'm afraid you'll see what i've said. love, p

I miss my best friend. I just miss it. I miss staying up all night laughing. I miss staying at your house for days at a time. I miss getting ready for school together. I miss our family dinners. I miss drinking cheap wine and passing out on your couch. I miss all of your dogs laying on top of me while I slept. And I miss friendsgiving. And I miss sitting with you in the garage while you hit your bong. And I miss watching you roll. I miss the way you’d make fun of me for the tiny hits I’d take off the blunt. And I miss leaving your house with the smell of weed in my hair. And I miss our late night drives that we called adventures. And the taste of rum on my tongue as we laughed in the garage. I miss laying next to you and not being able to stop laughing. I miss the feeling of home away from home. I miss the paintings on your walls. I miss never doubting that I was your favorite person and you were mine. I miss screaming out about how the stars are aligned and that this will be our night and that we have a bond unbreakable by the universe. I miss it all. And most of all I miss you. Even though you don’t miss me. Even if you left me to drown in the waves while you found your sunshine. Even though you’re happier now and better off without me. I miss it.

why did you have to tell me you were still in love with me months after? would it have worked out if it werent for him?

there hasn't been a single day since we met that i haven't thought of you. it hurts to know you'll always mean so much more to me than i ever did to you

i wish i could forget all of the times you told me you would never get tired of me. funny how things ended up.

I wish you could just see me now. I'm doing so much better. losing you was the best thing that ever happened to me. I've learned to actually love myself and not focus on all the flaws you would point out. thank u for helping me realize how much more I deserve. when I think about u I don't even feel a sting in my heart anymore. I feel nothing and it's the best feeling ever.

I know you didn’t do it on purpose.. but I was being invalidated and manipulated during the end. And it sucks cuz I was very blindly in love.

I used to think you were the most beautiful and breathtaking person id ever seen in the universe. looking back now, it might’ve just been your blue eyes that did it to me

i think the only thing keeping me going is the hope that maybe one day, fate will bring us together again.

When I said I would do anything for you, I wasn't aware you would make me prove it. Why did you hurt me?

I can’t believe I didn’t know. I feel like I’m losing you slowly...like sand running through my fingers. pls come back to me

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you stabbed me in the back and twisted the knife, but if you called me and needed me, i’d be on my way.

ur the reason i started listening to girl in red and i just wanted to thank you for that. ur happy without me and ik i will be happy with another girl that isn't u one day. i hope u and her have an amazing life

you broke me so many times, and I had to fight myself to stay with you. i am not in love with you but I love you. and i need you to understand the amount of pain you put me through. i want to say it was worth it, but in reality it wasn't, because i constantly break myself thinking of what we were. but i don't want it or you back.

pros and cons list? you know i'm not very good w things like this either. i also never wanted this to be a him or me situation, you haven't lost me and you're never going to. i still need to distance myself though because he is clearly not okay with you talking to me, i really don't want him to start treating you like shit because of it. so if you two get back together, i will step back and stop reaching out to you, but this definitely doesn't mean you've lost me - i'm always gonna be here. Just maybe don't message me on ig, cause he's clearly not okay with that.

thats what i've been saying to youuu, when was the last time you were single for more than a few weeks? imo, you should take some time to heal from everything you've dealt w during the past year, but it's obviously up to you. w the sc thing, im not sure, i still need some time to move on. talking on here just feels different, i feel like i'm still getting the distance i need - without having to miss you.

you made me really happy and gave me something to wake up to in the mornings, now I'm in that dark place again. You know why this is green haha, I miss our inside jokes. We don't even talk anymore.

its not that im avoiding u
i swear i had the worst fucking day
and others have taught me never to tell

I hope you realize one day how deeply I loved you and how much you took me for granted. I gave you everything and you just threw me away.

im ready to move on. ive found better people and im sure you have too. im also sure this is gonna hurt me way more than its gonna hurt you so the probability of this staying is slim. but on the off chance it does i want to send this. i would say thank you but i really dont know what it would be for. for ignoring me every chance you got? for being a dick 99% of the time? you were toxic and so was i so i cant hold it against you too much but like i said ive found better. i dont think we were ever supposed to be friends. looking back nothing about us said 'this is going to work.' throughout our school years i would get annoyed by you constantly. and even past that i couldnt stand you. yet i never stopped considering you my best friend. would i take back those years? no. do i wish i had someone else instead of you? no way. we were awful together yet id keep it the way it was. part of me thinks this isnt the end of our story. but the other part is screaming to me that of course it is.

I’m terrified by how much comfort the thought of you brings me i don’t know how i’m ever to tell you how i truly feel

Am I too dramatic or is it acceptable that I feel what I feel? Should I talk about it or not, like it's completly fucking with my head and idk what to do.

the fact that you probably care about me is not the fact, what I wanna know is, what you think about me as a person and what you really think of me? Am I a girl who just makes you happy just because you feek lonely? Just because you want the status of 'having a girlfriend' in front of the boys? Like what is the point of the relationship? What is your motive of loving me, why am I the one that you want to be with, like i don't understand..

You say that you love me, but is it really what you mean or do you tell me that just because that's what people do when they're in a relationship???

In another life maybe I’d have said something sooner. Now you’re nothing but my unicorn that got away.