Unsent messages to JAMES

Why did you have to do that. I can't believe I put up with that, I gave you so many chances to become a better person.

For the first time I don't know what to say to you, and that makes me so happy. I used to write pages and pages of the things I wish I could ask you.

I know you're really bad for me. But I still fell in love with you anyways. And now I'm stuck with a love that will forever be unrequited

it was only a 7 day relationship now 3 years later i’m still in love with you and i’m so worried i’ll never forget you

i’m so sorry that we were always on and off, it’s one of my biggest regrets and i wish i spent more time with you and i’m happy that you’re happy

why did you choose her? huh? WHY DID YOU CHOOSE HER?!? after everything we had, i was gonna ask you to date me the next night, the next fucking night bro. AFTER EVERYTHING WE FUCKING HAD, YOU FUCKING CHOSE HER? all the i love yous, all the late night calls where i stayed up instead of getting my hours of sleep. wtf man. fuck you. you really hurt me and now all i can do is watch you be happy with her and not me. fuck you man, fuck you.

I never understood the concept 'you can't love anyone until you love urself' until u showed me what it meant.

I’ve loved you ever since I saw you. I know I ruined our friendship but my love for you will never be ruined.

I loved what you were but now I hate what you have become. I don’t love you anymore and I am relieved to say that

I loved you when i was 12 and 13 and had no clue what love is. And i love you now that we're together. I miss you even when im with you. I love and appreciate you so so so much

If i wouldve known this is how it wouldve turned out i wouldnt have said anything... but just suffered in peace with you instead of without

you were my calm before the storm, before everything in my life came crashing down. you made me feel so comfortable, everyday we were together. You loved me and soothed parts of my soul I thought were broken forever. I wish you hadn't taken your life, J.

why did we listen? why didn't we do what we wanted? maybe it WAS what you wanted. i couldn't ever tell.

The way I felt for you was more than I could handle. The sad part was that you would never feel the same.

hey, its kinda funny how we met. we were always fonded over on how cute we looked together, even though you really never payed no mind. I always thought when i met my first love that they would be with me forever and ever, you know in the fairytales? But i guess its true what they say. Fairytales aren't real, they don't come true. While u flirted with my friends I was stuck wondering what meme i should text you to make you laugh. I knew you had been in a tough spot because of your recent relationship, and in that moment i wanted to be there for you. I wanted to tell you that everything would be okay. I, truly, cared for you. More than i ever have for someone. This entire thing might sound so dramatic, but feelings are true. My feelings are true. I loved you. Now i see it clearly. I loved you so much. I never would've thought i would have my true love in 8th grade, but then I met you. You were different, you were special. No one could tell me otherwise. I hope your happy with your newfound love and that she makes you laugh and smile the way I wanted to make you feel. To be honest, I dont think I could. But I would've tried really hard too. I love you, James. Have a great life. Hopefully we can talk and laugh together again :)) Im sending this as a final goodbye, as a final detachment from you. Forever and ever.

I hope some part of you learns to love like you said you would. don't put someone else through the pain that still lingers with me over a year later

we haven’t talked in a while, and we were young and it probably didn’t mean a lot to you but i’ve never stopped thinking of you for some reason, it’s been years

i miss you so much,words cant express how happy you made me feel. I felt so comfortable with you, im sorry of i wasn't enough,every person i meet i try to find u in them,but there will never be anyone like you your so different and i still love you, i wish i could tell you how i felt but for now i hope she makes u happy and i hope she has what i didn't. i love you

it is crazy because my entire life i have said i am in love with these other guys but, i never knew what it felt to be in love and the feeling it gives you until i met you. i read these messages you send me and your voice when you facetime me and all i can think of is... damn i love you. I have never met a guy that has said "i love you too" when i have said i love you to them in such a meaningful way and actually mean it and the only way i know you mean it is because when i first told you i loved you, you didnt say it back and it hurt me until i understood why. you told me that same day,"i was taught to never say i love you to someone if i didnt mean it." since that day i rarely said it until you got that feeling in me, that little voice in my head to say i love you and i texted you saying it and you replied with "i love you too."

it you! you're the reason why I'm so broken and ill always hate you for that but ill always love you too

I know you still care about her, and it's okay. I just want you to be happy. But please, let me go before I get hurt.

Hey lol it’s me I wanted to tell you that all this time I had a crush on you since the 4th grade I think you know am not sure but I love you so much I know we never had a good relationship as friends and it never worked out am so sad about that because I wanted to talk to you it’s been 4 years since we met and my feelings never changed for you till this day I feel the same I felt back then I really wanted to tell you how I felt about you but I never had the chance to do it and that made me so sad and mad that i was to nervous to tell you but I hope you’re doing ok and that you made new friends and had an amazing birthday days pass by and I still think about I haven’t seen you in months and I don’t think I will ever see you again and it makes so upset but I wish the best for you and everything you wished for came true this is how I really feel about you and I hope you’re doing ok love you bye.

yeah.
i know red's your favorite color.
and i love the way you write your a's.
ive always been an extra in the movie that you star in. waiting to be seen. and i know, i just know that we could be happy, but i guess its just me who knows this.
but what you should know is that:
i appreciate you for exactly who you are.

I didnt know its possible to love a person as fast I loved you.Then you fucking ruined it. We would’ve been so good

dear james
i love you. you don’t know it yet. i hope you love me too. i always wondered what it felt like and then i fell for you. thank you. i miss you so much.

It has been almost 2 months since the breakup. I still think about you everyday and try to understand why you broke my heart. You seem to not need me. I see your friends posting about you and I'm glad you're happy but it also hurts knowing I wasn't able to put that smile on your face. I hope one day we can talk and become friends again. I've never experienced pain like this and it has left me broken. I tried to find ways to hate you, to make the healing process easier but I still miss you. A

im sorry for what happened that night. it's my biggest regret. i miss having u as a friend and talking to u everynight. pls give me a chance to make things right.

i don't want to drive you away by telling you how i feel, i told you i'm over it so we can at least be friends. you're all i want, you know this. i know you know, you're not stupid. i wish you'd tell me you want me back, even if you don't. i ache for you everyday and it never eases, not once for a second. i know you're over it and don't care for me anymore, i understand, i'm easy to forget. i don't blame you for what you did, i'll always love you with every inch of me and ill always be waiting for the dat you want me back. i know its been a year and you no longer think about me but i want you to know you're the first thing i think about in the morning and the last at night. its always been you james, you know this. it hurts that you don't even want to acknowledge me anymore, ill never fully understand why i wasn't enough for you or what parts of me weren't right, in all honesty i don't think i could handle knowing so i'm glad i don't. i just want you back, please change your mind. its all i want, ill wait forever if i have to. i know you're my soulmate, i know this. i promise. maybe i'm not yours, but god do i know you're mine. i understand that you only want to be friends and i'm so grateful you even want that but i can't help but get attached again, getting jealous of someone who isn't even mine. its always fucking you, i can't escape you. i don't want to, seeing you in my dreams is the only reminder you were real, what we had was real. i love you, more than you'll ever know. i promise ill wait for you, please, i'm begging, one day want me back. ill always be ready for you, change your mind, please.

you keep popping up in my dreams.. i truly believe that our timing was just bad. someone told me that if it's meant to be we'll find our way back to each other. you never know

Your secret admirer- you’re the most pretty guy I’ve ever seen seeing you makes me nervous-S.A ps don’t post this on your story idiot if you wanna hear more

last night i sat in the same swings we sat together hand in hand in. i even had on the space bracelet you got me. i guess our "forever"s weren't the same.

using your full name because that's how i referred to you when talking to friends. you were the first person that made me believe it was possible. you made it seem like you cared, that you saw a future. i didn't expect it, but i started to fall for you. and someone i got the courage to initiate it. when i found out that you felt it was forced and unwanted, my heart shattered a little bit. to think that something so small and innocent was becoming a real thing and then to find out it was actually nothing. it's going to take me a long ass time to let someone else in, let alone close. i wish you the best, though. pretty eyes and dimples always were my weakness. i hope you find her, whatever i couldn't be.

you’re everything everything everything. i hope we’ll pull through but i know we will. i’m just glad we had the time

if the world was ending i’d spend my last moments with you. you’re the most important person in the world to me

i’ve had first love never die on repeat. you’re my best friend. we’ll come out of this strong. ur still my everything forever

i will never forget. i’m so grateful for everything. please remember me and please don’t love her more

i know it’ll be okay but it’s hard without you. can’t wait to see you again. fuck u but i love you and i understand

when I close my eyes I can feel the contour of your hips in my hands. It's the most beautiful feeling

I love you so dearly. I thought 1,976 miles would have nothing on us. I was so wrong. Come back home.

God, our timing was just so wrong. I started to fall for you as you were about to leave. I hate that I didn't tell you how I felt until you were gone.

I miss your hair, and your smile, and your eyes. Mostly I miss that feeling when you finally see the person you miss again.

I wish I could think about you without smiling, I wish you would be erased from my life, but you've been etched into my brain and I hate it.

Why did you lead me on and use me? I gave you my love and support but i was just some toy to you. I hate you

I’m sorry it’s my fault wasn’t it? I don’t think it’s possible to fix this
I hope your doing well and I’m glad to see your account got recognized a bit!

You're not om whatapp but om messenger.. Bro i can see... You are neglecting me and you're going to lose me

hey i just wanted you to know that i'm finally over you. you're going through some shit rn but i hope it'll get better soon. love you.

I would’ve done whatever it was to make you happy. You were my sun that shined out the darkness in my life and I thank you for that. Thank you for teaching me that I’m capable of being loved and thank you for just being kind to me all the time. I loved you, so much my heart hurt. Even now I love you. I don’t know if I’ll ever stop but hopefully I can move on and have serenity

i wish you knew how much i truly loved you and how much i regret the amount times i was mean to you. i feel guilty about it every day. i’m sorry

We haven't talked in like a week.. But somehow i keep falling for you.. James i miss you SO much and i miss hearing your voice and you calling me beautiful and the goodnight messages.. I just want to hug you so bad rn❤️❤️goodnight mi amor

you're a child. stop messing with other people before you mature yourself and learn what a relationship actually is. fuck you. lol