Unsent messages to JAMES

Please just be honest with me.

i like you i'm just keep pretending i don't.

I remember the days my heart beat sang your name and when I was hopeful you’d figure out your feelings for me but you never did and I still have hope years later. we were stupider and younger then but I think I loved you

it’s been a year now, and i’m happy to finally see you happy. i’m so proud of you and who you’ve become. i’ll love you until my lungs give out.

we were definitely siblings in a past life. i love and appreciate you so much james ; you’re my bestest friend :D

you guys are weird bt it’s a yess queen self adjusting not giving a fuck queen ew I’m going to throw up who says queen :,)

u don’t understand how much my eyes lighten when i see u, u are everything ive ever wanted & im not giving up on us.

How come we've liked each other on and off, at different times, for so long and then, when we finally get the chance, we both don't take it? I like you so much it's unbelievable but all I get now is mixed messages. Where do we go from here?

I miss you, I wish I could've changed our outcome, but sadly our love is unrequited. Goodnight James, I love you.

une barque sur l’ocean. We loved it remember because it was geeky to listen to classical but it was us. two that never crossed paths before. crossing for even a splinter of my path with you is wonderful.

sometimes i cant sleep without saying goodnight

i know its probably annoying but thanks for always saying it back

hi babe. thank you for being you. i know we’ve both had a hard past, with lots of broken promises and fake love. there’s been lots of heartbreak and tragedy. but we found each other. you are not my other half, but my equal. i was okay on my own, but you came in to make me a better version of myself. i haven’t been this happy in a very long time. your’e my rock, my muse, my yellow, the reason i want to stay. thank you for seeing things in me that i didn’t think were there. for so long i have felt unlovable. when i see myself as less, you see me as more. and that is something i find truly beautiful. i won’t leave you, not in a million years. i cannot wait to spend my life with you pretty girl

because of you when i think of love i think of pain because you made me think that was all it could be

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I will hate you forever. You know what you've done. I hate you. Live with that.

I'm trying so hard to get over you, but you're always in my dreams and the sadness returns every morning

I am so grateful that you showed me things that made me open my eyes and made me show I’m worth more then that.

I loved you then & i love you now. it’s me & you forever baby even if you aren’t mine anymore.

This was the color of the sweater you wore and always matched to mine. I want you to know that I really do think that somewhere, we are meant to be together. Just not now, and just not here.

hi jamie, if you want to see the unsent messages from me look up jamie sni i posted a couple under james but your name is too common loser. anyways, hope b and j are well and i miss marley.

I think one day fate will bring us back to each other. We’re soulmates and I know it. Until we’re in love again. Forever and a day my love.

haven’t figured out how to think about you without it ripping my heart out. You are irreplaceable. In another lifetime, love you always.

i wish it could have worked out but we caused eachother too much pain. take good care of the rats please

Thank you for singing “Uptown Girl” to me. It’s so stupid but I appreciate knowing I could be loved like that.

i wish we were more than just friends. you made me the happiest i had been for the short time we were acquainted.

i am sorry i wasn't the one you wanted, but why did you have to get with her, out of all people,her. i miss us.

fuck you. you never loved me, you exploited the fact i was a vulnerable, closeted, underage lesbian. and obviously, i never loved you. i hate you.

I’ve never felt this way about anyone before, and nothing kills me more than the fact it might have meant nothing to you. I’m thinking of you, whilst you think of her.

I just wish you would’ve been honest with me. You are the last person I wanted to be hurt by. It hurts to live without you.

Thank you for teaching me I can love someone enough to want the best for them outside of myself.
Also fuck you.

I said that I forgave you when you apologized, but in truth I don’t. Your apology came two years too late. You only apologized to relieve yourself of guilt, not because you truly were sorry. You still have no idea what you took from me. My self esteem, my confidence, my happiness were all destroyed. It took years to build myself back up. Even after your ‘apology’ you continued to cross boundaries and play with my emotions. Sorry doesn’t make up for the long nights I cried in my room until I fell asleep, or the emotional spiral of wondering what I said or did wrong this time for you to ignore my texts for weeks. I asked myself everyday why I wasn’t good enough, why you didn’t love me and why were you so indecisive about being together or not. Six months you went back and forth about wanting to be together and through it all I stayed because I thought I loved you. And when you called it off for good it took less than six weeks for you to get a girlfriend. It took me a long time to realize that none of this was my fault, it was yours because you were too much of a coward to be alone so instead you used me to fill the emotional and sexual void until something ‘better’ came along. For that, I can and will never forgive you.

you've made a lot of mistakes in the past, I try to forgive but you somehow find a way to make is worse... :/

i knew you'd come back to me. And when I felt like I was an old cardigan, under someone's bed, you put me on and said I was your favorite.

i didn’t ditch you without an explanation, i just came to my senses. i was oblivious for so long to the damage you were causing. from the constant manipulation to the hurtful things you used to do or say. people warned me about you and the things you used to do but i dismissed their concerns. it took so long for me to realise what you were doing to me. and i can’t do it anymore. i’ll admit that i miss the memories we share too but the negative outweighs the positive. let this be a learning experience and please never treat people the way you treated me. you have potential and i hope you grow from this. goodbye.

i’m sorry i couldn’t give you what she could, and i’m sorry that i won’t be able to be there for you when she’s gone. i still appreciate you even though i have to tell every bone in my body to hate you.

Why did you have to do those things in the past? why..? I know you was just hormonal.. but why? I wish you was just as innocent as you seemed you are. I wish you didn't say those things you claimed you believe in, they were very wrong. Just.. All I can say is why?

you know exactly who this is. i love you but we both know were horrible for eachother. im sorry but youre a horrible person.

sometimes i miss everything we had. but when i think about it. me leaving was the best decision ive ever made. i made new friends and im so much happier and positive towards myself. theres a guy who makes me feel so special and i hope you can find that one day and be at peace :)

j, thank you for always being so caring and loving towards me. the day i started liking you i never in a million years thought that i would have the honour of calling you my boyfriend. you're amazing and literally the best thing that's walked into my life. i love you. i can never thank you enough for all that you do for me. i have high hopes that this relationship will be a forever thing. never let anyone bring your hopes and dreams down, you have a bright future ahead and i hope i get to be the person by your side, supporting you through it all. once again, i love you with all of my heart and soul

how dare you come back into my life just to hurt me again. you knew i would take you back and you took advantage of that

Why are you doing this. Why are you leaving my on delivered when I didn’t do anything. I’ve never been anything but nice to you and we’ve always had good conversations and you’re still doing this. Why? Why am I not good enough for you?

you're not my first love. but you're the person i think i'm interested in atm. please don't disappoint me. i have no idea where you stand. maybe this is all in my head, maybe i'll get over it in a week. our friend group would judge us so hard, it's honestly funny.

The colour we would've dyed our hair together, I know I'm no longer what you want, but I love you forever and always. From, Leah (Mrs Putin.)

I wish I wasn’t so awkward and shy around you, because I wanted to kiss you back, and I really like you

i miss you. i know why you did what you did, but it hurts that you left me in the dark. i hate you for doing that to me, but i wish there was a way to bring you back.

knowing that we liked each other years after was the happiest and most tragic feeling i've ever felt. i wish things could've been different. you still linger in my head. i wish i was more confident then. you like confidence, don't you?

I hate you. I often find myself trying to figure out what went wrong. When the first moment was that i should have left. What i could have done to prevent the pain. I hope you hurt as much as i did. Please never come back.

You were the first person to ever truly mess me up, i will never forgive you for the pain you caused. I hate you.

you dont understand how much i like you. you make me feel like i have nothing to worry about and that everything will be okay and i know you said you liked me too but ill just never get over the fact that ill never be your number one and ill never be able to live up to her

I still miss you but it’s time to move on now. I can’t change what happened that night. Do you really feel nothing for me now? Well I suppose it doesn’t matter. Even if you did still want me I couldn’t do it, not after her. It’s selfish of me but I’d be lying if I said I hoped you two will be happy together. But as I said, it’s time to let go. Later, my dear

I don't know where we're going with this but I know that you make me feel so comfortable and I trust you so much and you've taught me to be so open and accepting with myself and I hope it doesn't go shit between us. I really like you.