using your full name because that's how i referred to you when talking to friends. you were the first person that made me believe it was possible. you made it seem like you cared, that you saw a future. i didn't expect it, but i started to fall for you. and someone i got the courage to initiate it. when i found out that you felt it was forced and unwanted, my heart shattered a little bit. to think that something so small and innocent was becoming a real thing and then to find out it was actually nothing. it's going to take me a long ass time to let someone else in, let alone close. i wish you the best, though. pretty eyes and dimples always were my weakness. i hope you find her, whatever i couldn't be.