Unsent messages to JAMES

I don't even understand how i feel anymore. I love you, but I can't have you in my life. You left when I needed you the most, you blocked me for two months when I didn't even do anything wrong. You cant fix the damage that did. You've got a special place in my heart, and always will, but for now Im gonna have to love and care for you from a distance because i need to focus on myself for once.

I miss dancing in the kitchen w u at 4 am, I miss your voice, I miss your smile, I miss everything abt u.

Thank you for loving me when I didn't love you back. I'm sorry, I wanted to but I couldn't. I still loved him. I hope she makes you happier than I did.

You were my everything and you just walked away like I was nothing. All I want is to hear you say that you never loved me the way that I loved you. Maybe then I would be able to move on without my heart aching every time that I hear your name. My heart breaks every time that I hear your laugh or think about you, because you weren’t just my first true love. You were my best friend.

i think i’m over you.you’ll always have a place in my heart but i think i’m ready to start living instead of just existing.

we were friends for 6 years, now you’ve got a gf and you haven’t talked to me in 2 months. i’m scared because i’m starting to find myself not care for the person i used to care the most about.

today you reminded me of happiness and it's scared me. What if you leave, because they always leave right?

Hopefully this one stays hidden. i can't pretend you didn't hurt but i can pretend you didn't hurt as much as you did

i dont know why but from the moment we met you felt so right. i dont know what will happen for us but my heart is with you always

i dont know why but from the moment we met you felt so right. i dont know what will happen for us but my heart is with you always

i dont know why but from the moment we met you felt so right. i dont know what will happen for us but my heart is with you always

You were so toxic you made me tell you everything to get it out just to use it against me at the end. You had me so in love just to go cheat and be with somebody else. I feel like you loved hurting me more than you loved me. You were so mean to me. I still for some reason love you so much. I wish it wasn’t you that was the special one love of my life type. You hurt me so much I don’t know why you hate me so much.

i wish we could’ve worked out, i would’ve hugged you tighter if i knew it would be my last time. i love you forever

maybe its best for us to be friends, but i'd be lying if i said i didn't want to go back to how it was :/

You’ve never liked me back. Not even once. But I’m glad because if you did I would’ve done something I regretted.

You will always mean the world to me even if i no longer mean the world to you. You never deserved the hurt people put you through and i should never have been one of them people. i will forever love you J.

im so scared but im trying to be better for you. you have helped me so much more than you will ever know. i love you loser, forever and always

i want to hate you but i can’t. hope she was worth it. i’ll still miss you forever. thank you for being my best friend

the beginning was great. we had many laughs and truly cared for each other. the end was horrible. you used me and did not look back. the middle is what i am most thankful for. i was happy.

I never understood why you ignored me. All I wanted to do was make sure you were okay, and yet we broke up. I tried to remain friends with you, but you act like I did not exist, like I meant nothing. I don't miss dating, but I miss our friendship. Still kinda mad you dated my friend though, that hurt. But I hope life treats you well. I finally moved on.

James, we haven't talked in ages but just know I'm falling for you harder each day and I'm afraid I fall in love with you

You were my first ever boyfriend. Since we broke up I’m realizing a lot about how manipulative you were. I hope you never treat another girl like that again. I’m happy now and finding out more about my own identity now that I don’t have to cater to every single one of your needs. Fuck you. But also thank you for the lessons.

You were my first ever boyfriend. Since we broke up I’m realizing a lot about how manipulative you were. I hope you never treat another girl like that again. I’m happy now and finding out more about my own identity now that I don’t have to cater to every single one of your needs. Fuck you. But also thank you for the lessons.

i wouldn't say i loved you, but you taught me what love looks like and for that i say thank you, even though you took it all away from me in the end

i really like you & i want to say sumn before it’s too late. but what if you don’t feel the same? i’m alrdy used to talking to you everyday & i don’t even wanna think of how it would be if you didn’t like me back.

hey. i think that you were my actual first guy best friend. everything was strictly platonic but i just want you to know that i loved and still love you so much. even though you decided to go and become an asshole and pretend you didn't care abt any of us anymore, i still love you. even though i am sure you never do, i think about how happy I was when i was your friend. although that period of time probably didn't mean as much to you as it did to me, i just want to say thank you for being my friend at all. i wish we could still be friends because everyday i miss not having someone who i could call the male version of myself. i miss when we used to walk out of school together, and walk to class together. i just miss you. and i am so sorry that i didn't try harder to stick around but it was just super hard to when you started treating everyone like garbage. and honestly that really hurt me because i genuinely cared about you so much and it hurt when i realized that you didn't care the same amount as i did. nevertheless, i still love you. there will always be a part of me that will miss you and want to be your friend again and love you. i chose this color because it is one of the colors for the river dale vixens, which was our first inside joke.

there are times when i still lie awake you know. hoping that you will message me. tell me that its me you love. tell me that it wasnt all for pics or gratification. but i know that its stupid to think like that. you will never love someone like me. you never even liked me. you used me. you changed but at what point i cant remember. the past few years have merged into a second. i can barely remember the first time we met. i should try to forget you. but here i am, once again thinking about you. and i wish i wasnt.

I know we decided to remain best friends but I honestly wish we were more. You truly make me happy and smiley:)

You think you're cool & funny but you're not, you're just a dick. As far as I can tell, you have no real thoughts about how people may be effected by your actions. So with all due respect, eat shit & die.
Sincerely, Nat from your health class

i would give anything to be able to be with you, for the years without you have been miserable. i’ll never know what it’s like to be yours.

You hurt me .You left me with nothing.I regret everything I did with you .You just erased me like nothing fuck you.

More then friends. Less then lovers. That's what we where, and towards the end you became a stranger. I don't miss you most of the time. But then sometimes it hits me and it hurts so much. You where my friend before anything else and I sometimes wonder if I hadn't of told you how I felt would we still be friends now, would you still be in my life. Our chance has gone and the scary thing is I think it was are only one.

I miss staying up late to talk to you and telling you everything. I miss the old you. It's not the same anymore.

i know you love someone else but you deserve so much better than her i want to show you how much you deserve please just let me in

You broke me. It took me 2 years to find that I was worth more than your bullshit. Everyone always told me you weren't worth it but in my eyes you were perfect.

You’re a dickhead and you’ll never change. You will always be that manipulative person that everyone hates.You’re a worthless piece of shit :)

You asked me for nudes and you were so toxic I would cry after talking to you. She kept bringing you back and I kept pushing you out.

there’s so much i want to say, if i don’t have a word limit. you have skewed my vision of love, and im incapable of love furthermore. i wish you didn’t hurt me, and we’re the version of yourself that i romanticize. i know deep down, that you are. maybe you won’t be scared to be that tender-hearted guy that i once knew. you’re my twin flame, even if it hurts. i cant reach out anymore, i wont bug you. cause if you wanted me in your life, nothing would stop you from taking me in. you’ll always be my best friend, even if all you do is hurt me. i know one day you’ll be set free from this mess of a life you live. i know we’ll meet again. ?

there’s so much i want to say, if i don’t have a word limit. you have skewed my vision of love, and im incapable of love furthermore. i wish you didn’t hurt me, and we’re the version of yourself that i romanticize. i know deep down, that you are. maybe you won’t be scared to be that tender-hearted guy that i once knew. you’re my twin flame, even if it hurts. i cant reach out anymore, i wont bug you. cause if you wanted me in your life, nothing would stop you from taking me in. you’ll always be my best friend, even if all you do is hurt me. i know one day you’ll be set free from this mess of a life you live. i know we’ll meet again. ?

there’s so much i want to say, if i don’t have a word limit. you have skewed my vision of love, and im incapable of love furthermore. i wish you didn’t hurt me, and we’re the version of yourself that i romanticize. i know deep down, that you are. maybe you won’t be scared to be that tender-hearted guy that i once knew. you’re my twin flame, even if it hurts. i cant reach out anymore, i wont bug you. cause if you wanted me in your life, nothing would stop you from taking me in. you’ll always be my best friend, even if all you do is hurt me. i know one day you’ll be set free from this mess of a life you live. i know we’ll meet again. ?

i loved you more than anything. we were young and made mistakes. I know we could've made our way back this year, but you chose someone else. you told me no one could replace me and we were meant to be. but you did replace me. no one feels the same as you. i never thought you would move on. I hope she makes you happy. i love you, i always will, and even if you never come back i still will hold you a place in my heart.

i never told you. years later, i still regret it. i regret never telling you the truth. i still love you.

I feel vulnerable around you now. You've seen sides of me you shouldn't have. It's difficult to look you in the eye, it feels cold.

I never thought we would break up. I respect your wishes to give you space and time. I almost texted you but I decided to do this instead. I hope you're doing well. This is the hardest thing I ever had to go through. I miss you so much and I hope to talk to you soon. I thought you should know I put on an excess amount of the cucumber and mint chapstick today. See you in the future

You helped me find myself and I will love you unconditionally. Right person, wrong time. I am happy I ever had the pleasure of being in love with you ❤️ I miss you

why did you have to do me like that? i knew we werent gonna be together but i still wanted to keep you by my side even if it ended up hurting me

you were my first true love and even though we no longer love each other in that sense, i’m thankful for the moments we had

I really did love you I’m sad that things didn’t work out I miss you and I hope we meet again in the future I love you forever

you left me out of nowhere and left me thinking where I went wrong. I may care for u still, but what's the point if you stopped trying... I guess I'll stop too.

i wish u knew how much i liked you. i really wanted you but i know you’re happy with her. i hope i see you again.