Unsent messages to DYLAN

i miss you so much , but you don’t see the good in me you still think i’m the same as before. i’m sorry :/

hey bae ik its difficult and its not going to stop being difficult but u better fucking stay, i love you, happy early birthday and yes this is from who you think it is xoxo

I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed me most. I hope you’ll let me be there from now on

sometimes I get scared you’ll read the submissions under your name and think they’re from me. they’re not, I hate you. just a reminder :-)

We are always in weird situations, but no matter what ill always love you. I don't know what i'm doing anymore. Am i making the right choice or am i gonna be hurt again, but no matter how much you would hurt me, id let you. That's the problem. id let you.

I know we agreed not to say anything else but I don’t think you check this anymore anyway and I just needed to tell someone or just say this other than my own head but I could have died or something last night and it’s so funny but then in my stare I got to thinking and I spun myself into the thought that you wouldn’t care if what happened killed me and then I got really sad and I’m sorry but yeah. I just wish I could call you again and that we could talk about our entire days again. Merry Christmas btw

Hey, i love you so much i just dont know how to tell you. i really really do but im scared you will leave me. I dont want to ever ever loose you. youre the best thing to happen to me please. I really really do. Please dont go.

No one wants to hear about your sex life all the time, you sound like you’re 13. Also you treated me like shit and wrecked my confidence, you should be ashamed of yourself

It’s been a while since we stopped talking. Sometimes I find myself thinking about you or thinking about small things you told me. Why can’t I forget you?

God I don’t understand how I fell so effortlessly in love with you when you fell so effortlessly out of love

the color of this message is the closest i could find to your eye color. “blueish-greenish” you would always say. with that perfect smile.

I felt so much happiness and love after the first time we talked on the phone. I hope you’re doing fine without me now.

hi :) there’s something about u i can’t explain and i like u lot i know i’ll never tell u but for now i’ll keep talking to u in our book n quill on minecraft :)

Thank you for the hug. Though we haven’t spoken in a while, I always return back to that moment when I need to be reminded of home. You were always my home. Thank you for letting me love you.

i still think about you everyday. i had to take you off my socials because i needed to forget you, but i can’t. you’ll always be my first love and my hardest lesson. take care of yourself okay.

we are not in love or anything you are just very attractive in my eyes and i feel like there is something going on in the snaps we send but i wish there was more

i say it all the time but i wish i could’ve said and done more. i love and miss you. we will meet again some day.

here i am again, writing to you. because of you i’m so scared to be in love again. you were my everything and then you weren’t. i’m so scared of that happening again. you know joseph and i almost started dating but i was to scared. you broke me. - i think you know who.

you will not be the one i marry or have babies with but you will be the one i tell my daughter about when she’s going through her first heartbreak... i miss you and will love you always

i’n sorry i hurt you. i just don’t think i’m worthy of the love you give to me. you deserve the world, you’ll be ok

i wanna know how ur doing. u will always have a place in my heart and i know i have one in yours. take care of yourself d

you taught me a wham load of lessons, and i know it was years ago and you still miss me, but i still love you so much. You are one of my favourite people to vibe with and you mean the world

if u ever get anxious and think nobody likes u, i always have and always will. ilysm and i think ur such a charismatic and hilarious person and i admire that sm. whenever you’re sad pls remember that everyone makes mistakes and there’s always people who will care about you.

I love you but you probably forgot me. lowkey wish we never met online cause why tf did I fall in love w someone I have never even met

we would’ve stayed together for a long time, if you hadn’t always compared me to anime chicks w/ big tiddies

hey ik u litterally still sit next to me but i still love you forever. ik ur out with my best friend and all that but i would rlly like to become close again. anyway ly ig :,)

Fuck you for making my last December miserable. Fuck you for making me feel stupid and unwanted. Fuck you for commenting on parts of my body I can't change. I can not believe I said I loved you, our relationship was a joke and I know you weren't affected by it at all, you used me until it wasn't convenient anymore and I was left wondering if I really was that bad. Fuck. You.

You can be a bit odd sometimes, but i'm in absolute awe with every little thing about you. I'm so glad i brought you to my favourite place in the city because now, all it reminds me of is you.

love you forever and always, A

ik you like me, and i like you too. but i love what we have so much right now i'm super scared to tell you. well, just wanted to let you know that you mean a lot to me. ik you're going though a lot right now, and just know i will always be there to listen to you whenever you need it. i miss you and love u so much okay bye

You are and always will be my home... might sound dumb but I still have hope one day you'll be mine again.

Another word? What? And yeah I’ll stop talking to you if that’s what you want. Thank you for responding until then. Goodbye! And yeah work went well I hope the same for you and get home safe have a good night. And I just am idk why

Yes, are you? And fuck, I’m so screwed! I hope you are having a good day and that work is going well as well. Have a good night

this’ll be embarrassing if you ever find this lol. but i think deep down in my heart i’ve always loved you, we really fell for each other back in september of 2018, but you know how that turned out. you were the first proper relationship i had and the only person i’ve ever loved that strongly. nevertheless i’m glad i got you back recently, you really make me feel safe and i look up to you in a way. even if nothing ever properly happens between us again, i’m so glad i got you back as a friend, you’re cool. and ily. you probably know that anyway

I just ran a mile and I think I’m dying so yeah. I hope your day is going well. I think I’m gonna jump in the shower And 1. Another year by finneas
2. A=1 good luck

Ricky was the weird guy who quit from Jexals, I told you all about him. In this one you weren’t yelling at me so I didn’t punch you haha. Also I’m sending you a virtual hug through this because I want one but you don’t have to accept it if you don’t want it. 2 questions: 1. Do you like Christmas music? I have a song for you if you do.
2. Do you want a hint for one of the things sent on here that you don’t know about?

Goodmorning boy! Yes you were nice to me. It was a weird dream tho. I moved out of my house and I was living with my grandma and you came over to visit after everything but you brought Ricky with you which was strange but in the end you just hugged me and I was calm haha. Also no at this point in time I win. My heart literally hurts so bad and all it wants is you so I win. I like the color you used btw

I’m still awake but I should sleep and it’s not like you’ll check this again anyway but in words you may have won but in actual feelings I’ve got you beat haha. Ugh at least in my dreams you’ll be here with me. Why so many miles??

Different names kinda but also numbers or letters just things you'll never find. Btw it’s our bedtime, so once you read this you have to go lay in bed and get off cod it’s the rules haha (please laugh like how I used to tell you bed time) I’m jk do what you like haha. Goodnight.. sweet dreams... most :/

i'm kinda hurt by the way you talk to me do you even care anymore? yet im still so attached and cant let you go

you once told me that i meant the world to you, and that i was the best person you had in your life. if that was true why'd you leave me. you were the best of me.

I just meant that there are so many of these dedicated to you that you will never see because you would never think to look them up haha but yeah. I hope you have a good rest of your day

i dreamt about you all night and woke up feeling so strange. i saw the song you posted on your story last night and wondered if it was for me, but i feel like i have no right to think that. i miss you so much but i keep telling myself you’re doing better without me. i’m trying to do better for you. i love you always.

Sorry, 1 more. I’m eating pizza rolls with bbq and I’m thinking about you. I also saw a ghost which I wish I could tell you about. I got into my first college and my first scholarship. Just wish I could tell you all of this

I’ll stop writing them specifically to you again. I’ll come up with all of the other ways I thought to again. That way you can stop thinking about me. I hope you’re okay. I am truly sorry. I’ll stop complaining and being sad to you. I’m not your problem. I’m so sorry. I miss you so much

I am not happy. I pretend every day and then I cry every night. I am sorry for the pain I caused you and everything that happened. I miss you so much. I wish we could go back. I wish I could have one more hug. I wish we could fall asleep together because I haven't been able to sleep without you on the phone. I almost added a link to this for one last time but I know you wouldn't join so I didn't. now I can't stop crying so I'll stop typing. goodnight

i didn’t want to admit it but i think i’m in love with you. what could i have changed to make you feel the same?

Just because you’re sexy now doesn’t mean you have to be an asshole. Can’t you at least be my friend.

sometimes i still think of you, the good memories and the bad, but the first thing that comes to mind is how you left.

i dont know if youre reading this right now, but yes if you see this its from who you think its from and if you need a clue im a fag but i promise you everything will get better ily and u deserve the world

i know you told me you dont love me anymore, but part of me is still holding onto the idea that you could be lying. you were pretty good at doing that