I am not happy. I pretend every day and then I cry every night. I am sorry for the pain I caused you and everything that happened. I miss you so much. I wish we could go back. I wish I could have one more hug. I wish we could fall asleep together because I haven't been able to sleep without you on the phone. I almost added a link to this for one last time but I know you wouldn't join so I didn't. now I can't stop crying so I'll stop typing. goodnight
