I know we agreed not to say anything else but I don’t think you check this anymore anyway and I just needed to tell someone or just say this other than my own head but I could have died or something last night and it’s so funny but then in my stare I got to thinking and I spun myself into the thought that you wouldn’t care if what happened killed me and then I got really sad and I’m sorry but yeah. I just wish I could call you again and that we could talk about our entire days again. Merry Christmas btw