Unsent messages to DYLAN

I know things could’ve happened between us if your parents weren’t so against it, because of my religion. We were extremely young but we could’ve been first loves..

I still love you, even after you hurt me. I think about you every day. Also, I dyed my hair blonde since you always told me not to

I will forever have love for you. I can’t keep fighting for you anymore so I’m forcing myself to move on. Thank you for all the memories, and for making me happy for almost an entire year. We could’ve worked things out but you don’t want me anymore and I have to accept that. I thought we were forever :/ ig we both know who loved the other more. I hope one day we can start things over, we can have an even better relationship. We know each other better than anyone else. Why would you want to start over with someone else? I know your goals, I know what makes you happy, I know your biggest fear. But in the end it doesn’t matter anymore, if we’re meant to be then you’ll be mine again. Deep down I do hope we’re meant to be. For now I’m going to let you go. As much as it hurts, I’m not going to allow myself to fight for someone who just doesn’t want me. I love you. I wish I could send you this. Be happy my love.❤️

You’re my forever and i just hope this is the right time. To far away to touch but still to close to forget.

when you love, you do it with your whole heart. thank you for being the first person to show me how good love feels. never stop loving.

remember when you said you would always love me ? what the fuck happened to that ? i question everything about what we had now . we coudla been so good for eachother but whatever . imy lets be toxic again

i think about you every day still. i don’t know why you suddenly disappeared? you’re in a relationship and so am i. i shouldn’t be this hung up on you. yet, here i am. the winter we had was one of the best times in my life. i think your girlfriend looks like me. my heart still hurts

i think about you every day still. i don’t know why you suddenly disappeared? you’re in a relationship and so am i. i shouldn’t be this hung up on you. yet, here i am. the winter we had was one of the best times in my life. i think your girlfriend looks like me. my heart still hurts

I love you more than you know. I’m sorry I was not worth enough to you and that you left. I will always wait for you. I will always love you. I’m so sorry. Please come back. I hope you come back. I feel it.

i know we never dated but i miss you so much. i still care about you, i wish we didn’t live so far away. :/ thank you for always being there, i wish i could talk to you one last time.

hey dyl,
happy 17th birthday sweet boy. john and i miss you more than you know. i hope that you aren't suffering anymore. one day we will meet again.
xoxo

I will always love you with all my heart and you will forever be my person but we just aren’t meant to be and I’m okay with that. I just wish we were still friends

I wish we could just start things over. I hope ur doing well!! Have fun tmr turning 16. You always will hold a special place in my heart.

dylan, you taught me how i should be treated at such a young age. you were so good for me, and i regret not ever making it official, even after all the years of you begging me. even after all the years of love and memories. you made me who i am today, and i love you. i miss talking to you, i miss trusting you with everything in me. i hope we can find our way back to eachother someday.

hey. i hope ur okay. u know after that. i still think about you and what ur up to. please don’t it. please ik it’s hard. i know i get it. trust me. just don’t. i’m here for you. i hope ur well and u know got it figured out with them. ur still on my mind. i hope i’m on urs. please stay bb- *****

bitch where do I even start. let's start here. the summer going into grade 9 "I" texted you asking to go out. it wasn't me just to let you know, it was Emma. you said that we could be friends but look where we are now. you can't even walk down the same flight of staircases as me. and the fact that we have both classes together just makes it better doesn't it. also I can't believe I ever liked someone like you. before I thought you were so nice and caring but once high school came around you just turned into a different person, I don't even trust you to be quite honest. I'm better of without you and marrying Jeon Jungkook instead.

Sometimes I think about what it'd be like if I never loved you, and then I remember that you don't believe I ever did

it’ll be a year since we broke up next month which feels unreal, i miss you more every day. i’m sorry. i’ll love you forever.

dylan i know realize it wasn’t a right person wrong time, it was a right person wrong universe. i didnt want to admit i was a lesbian, and truly i did love you. that’s why i broke up with you, not because i hate you. it’s been a year and a half and i still feel terrible, but being gay isn’t something i can control. i’m sorry.

ik we went our own ways a while ago but i’ll literally never forget you i was like on love with you but too pu$$y to tell you and i really regret that bc we really could have lasted :/ also you were the reason that i decided not to commit not alive even though you probably didn’t know that. thanks for the few great years that we were friends tho it was awesome and i miss it

in drama we have to pretend we’re together, but just so you know, when we hold hands and my face turns red, im not acting...

I love you. I would seriously do anything to stay this way forever. and if something ever changes i’ll always love you.

I wish I still saw you the way others see you, but you've ruined yourself for me. You hurt me, especially because you were my friend. I've never felt weaker and more powerless.

you were one of a kind. not the kind I was looking for tho, your still very special even if we don’t speak. I love you.

You never liked me back, maybe that was the part that hurt so bad, or maybe it was knowing how no matter what I still loved you. You will always be my best friend.

I want you to know how thankful I am for you showing me how to love. Even if you didn’t love me back.

Hey, I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough for you. I did love you but you didn’t love me. And that’s ok please just be happy , I’ll always love you

If we had gotten our timings right and told each other how we felt, do you think we’d be together today?

I wish you noticed that I loved you. But you betrayed me, it hurts so much missing you. But I'd rather be the "funny guy" than being who I really am, like I was around you. But you've changed, you used to be so kind and down to Earth. What happened?

i like you so much and it hurts that you lied and used me. ik u said that we were just buddies but you constantly calling me perfect and you referring to urself as my bf will not make it easy for me to think that we are buddies. how long have you been dating her? why did u lie to me? you dk how much that hurts me. ik for a fact that it doesn't matter to you but for me it does bc you're not the one who is being lied and used to. also im dumb for writing this bc im wasting my time to a guy that doesnt want to do anything with me. good luck to you and your girlfriend.

you played me out like a fool, you broke me, you made me believe you actually loved me. regardless of what you've done, I still love you and see the good in you. your actions brought the worse of me and now I've just had enough. I didn't want it to end like this but I've drained myself so much loving and forgiving you, I was blinded to you for too long and finally I've realised that I need to show myself a bit of love. I don't hate you, I never will even with everything that's happened behind my back. I just think this has to be the end of it and I need to learn how to move on, finally. I love you, but im sorry im done.

Used to dream about the color of your eyes for hours. The next time I saw you they could barely meet mine.

you put me through fucking hell dylan and i don’t know why you’re lying about it, i hate your fucking guts but i still love you so much 3 months fucking on and i hate myself for that

i know i did a lot of things wrong, but you didn’t have to kiss her and then breakup with me. i’m not sure i’ll ever be the same