Unsent messages to THOMAS
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 13, 2020, 12:31 am UTC
you are one of the most talented people i know, it just flows out of you. you bring joy to all you know.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 12, 2020, 3:06 pm UTC
hey tom, i hope you're doing ok. remember that you are enough. you're one of the most wonderful things that has happened to me over these past few years. you're my chosen family, love you
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 12, 2020, 2:37 am UTC
i miss you when i have you. i crave your presence when you're right next to me. when i'm with you i still feel alone
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 9, 2020, 9:33 pm UTC
I regret a lot of things that happened between us. I don't regret loving you. Never will.
Truly yours...
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 9, 2020, 1:38 am UTC
I wish I never asked about your car, I wish I closed my ears when you promised things you couldn't keep, I wish I never fell for you, I wish I could stop thinking about you
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 8, 2020, 3:49 am UTC
convenient to us? you’ve always been convenient to me. confused by that. it’s not like feelings go away and i don’t wanna stop
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 5, 2020, 10:26 am UTC
i knew it was a lie when you said “i’m fine”, i just didn’t see it ending like this, guess the fault is mine.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 3, 2020, 2:23 pm UTC
I don’t even like you as a friend and you are the worse fuck I’ve had in my life sorry I always lied :( ur not my king
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 2, 2020, 11:58 pm UTC
i liked you so much. i thought what we had wasn’t fake. yeah maybe only a little happened, but i didn’t think you’d end things the way you did.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 2, 2020, 2:12 pm UTC
I wish I could hate you. You made me fall in love with you and you didn’t love me back. I can’t hate you though and that’s the problem.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: November 2, 2020, 2:59 am UTC
There was a time when I didn’t see anyone else in your place, now all I see are sun rays and empty spaces.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 30, 2020, 2:37 am UTC
I wish you knew the ways you make me feel and how better of a person you’ve made me. I’m so proud of you and I’m your biggest supporter on everything you do. I love you so much that I silently adore you doing anything, especially driving. I love you so much that I give you my favorite pillow (the good pillow) when we sleep together.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 27, 2020, 4:13 pm UTC
I don't think about you that much anymore. And when I do, it doesn't hurt, I just feel numb. I hope life treats you well.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 27, 2020, 4:10 pm UTC
I don't think about you that much anymore. And when I do, it doesn't hurt, I just feel numb. I hope life treats you well.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 26, 2020, 6:52 am UTC
hi baby I cant love anyone more than i love you thomas you are the one for me and i hope you feel the same way?
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 22, 2020, 2:37 pm UTC
Dear tommy,
I think about you every day.
It’s been a long time since we spoke but I still remember you being my first kiss when we were like 7 :)
When I think about you, I think of the camp drafts and the rodeos that we went to when we were kids.
2 skinny kids running in red dirt and jumping fences, riding our horses late at night and hiding from our parents.
I remember when you told me you were leaving, I couldn’t believe it I was so sad we were good friends. The workers would make jokes about us being soul mates I guess they were wrong...
I just want to let you know you still have a small place in my heart still. They way you made me feel I’ll never forget, I felt brave with you and fearless:)
So whenever I’m scared I think of that time you held my hand and told me to count to 10 on the old airstrip when we were 9 and you told me everything was going to be alright.
Ps. I found someone he’s really nice and treats me well x
Love from your first kiss
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 20, 2020, 6:46 pm UTC
i love you and i always will but i can’t wait around anymore. thanks for being my happy source for awhile
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 15, 2020, 4:20 pm UTC
Long distance is hard, but you are worth every second of it. Thank you for staying, and I hope we get that apartment in Long Island one day
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 14, 2020, 12:36 am UTC
I love you so much i hope i can spend forever with you!!! i’ve already started collecting the things i want to take with me when we move in together. you make me so so so happy, i hope you love me as much as you say you do. it only dawned on me today that you might think about me even when i’m not talking to you. friday is taking its sweet old time coming along. can’t wait to see you again.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 11, 2020, 3:18 am UTC
I see you for every perfection and imperfection you have. I see all of you and cannot imagine a world without you in it.
At the same time, however, often I find myself wishing I had never met you
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 10, 2020, 5:17 am UTC
Tonight we sat in my car as u cried. I wish u could believe how much I love you. I’ll be waiting for u. You’re worth it.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 10, 2020, 1:14 am UTC
You were my smush.. wish you didn’t have to leave me like that. I wanted to stay friends so I wouldn’t have to bear the thought of losing you
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 6, 2020, 4:35 am UTC
I don’t know why I allow you to keep hurting me. Part of me still wishes you could change. I won’t wait forever.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 3, 2020, 9:11 am UTC
I still care so much about you. And I wish we could at least be in our lives again. But Ik u don’t want that
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 3, 2020, 5:21 am UTC
for some reason you randomly crossed my mind just now and I know it’s been years since we’ve talked but I still have the same love for you as I did, and I forgive you.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 3, 2020, 1:15 am UTC
I’ll never admit it aloud but letting you go was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
No regrets though.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 2, 2020, 7:54 am UTC
i know it is going to be hard, to not go after my first love; you. I will always remember the night in the dunes, how the sunlight hit you magically once the sun rose above the ocean.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 2, 2020, 2:40 am UTC
all I wanted was to talk everything out, but you couldn't even let me do that, and now idk if I'll ever get closure.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 1, 2020, 1:49 pm UTC
I can’t stop thinking about you but I know you don’t feel the same way. I don’t know if I am doing something wrong or if you are over me. I love you so much and am really glad you are in my life.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: October 1, 2020, 12:14 pm UTC
you taught me the beauty of souls who find each other in a world with billions. my finger tracing the inside of your palm lingers my skin still.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 30, 2020, 10:36 pm UTC
thoughts about you have been running through my mind constantly. i just want another chance to talk to you. even if it’s only friendship, our relationship meant way more to me than you would know. i told you i was always here and i still stick to that to this day. i love you.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 29, 2020, 10:55 pm UTC
I still have your napkin rose. I miss you every day. Im so sorry I hurt you. I will always love you sweet boy.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 27, 2020, 8:16 pm UTC
i fucking hate you. you are the reason i cut myself. fuck you. thanks for taking advantage of me @ my lowest
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 24, 2020, 6:36 am UTC
why’d you let me leave? if u were so in love with me like you said. why did u let me walk away and be okay with never talking again?
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 22, 2020, 12:09 am UTC
You already know I miss you, so stop playing with me and either let me go or come back already. I can’t keep waiting
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 21, 2020, 11:25 pm UTC
I hate that you were my first love... I should’ve seen the signs... But, thank you for being the heart break that made me grow. I wish you could’ve seen me blossom, you would’ve been proud. But, I know there’s someone out there who will cherish me. I just hope you found your happiness with her.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 17, 2020, 12:54 am UTC
I'm sorry we never worked out but at least you're still my best friend. Maybe love wasn't meant to be romantic for us.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 16, 2020, 1:42 am UTC
you don't love her, you loved your study abroad experiences. she was just there, and I think you're falsely equivocating.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 14, 2020, 5:15 am UTC
talking to you makes me smile, i can't help it. i want the very best for you, always. call me next time.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 13, 2020, 6:52 pm UTC
I keep comparing everyone I meet to you even though I know I shouldn't. I miss what we had. I hope we meet again someday.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 13, 2020, 6:35 pm UTC
i have had the biggest crush on you for almost 5 years now. our bond is so special, and i would hate to jeopardize anything we already have between us in our friendship. that being said, i would still love to hook up and move our relationship to be more romantic.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 12, 2020, 5:50 am UTC
it is embarrassing knowing that i still think of you, daydream of you so often. i know that you don’t care—that you will never come back. i wish i could hate you, but i don’t think i will ever truly get over you. let alone forget you. fuck you, thomas.
i still love you.
i wish i didn’t.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 9, 2020, 10:56 pm UTC
it kills me that i’m so in love with you. but because i don’t look like the ideal “fit girl”, you won’t love me back
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 7, 2020, 11:56 pm UTC
i have never loved anyone more than this. you truly made me feel special. i'm sorry i wasn't enough, please come back. no matter how hard i try i can't fall in love with someone who isn't you.
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 7, 2020, 9:30 pm UTC
in all honesty i don't feel bad :D it was better for me so i did what felt right and i can't apologise for that
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 7, 2020, 12:30 am UTC
I miss you. I was a bitch you you and took my pain out on out relationship. Wish i could turn back times to 2018 and relive our lives the way we had planned without the complicated situation. Now we’re strangers when I need you the most. I hope we can reunite and meet up soon as this situation is getting unbearable.
N x
From: ABC
To: Thomas
Date: September 6, 2020, 4:18 pm UTC
i love you always stupid :)
enjoy college tomorrow, i miss you and your the best thing to ever happen to me xx
