you were the best dog i've ever had. i miss you so, so, so much. i have never had my heart broken like that day.

I think I’m in love with you and it really hurts because I know that you’re falling for the girl who is much prettier and nicer and funnier than me and I understand why but it still hurts yk. When ur leaving me on delivered I know ur texting her instead and that’s fine I can’t control u but it stings. U also bring her up all the times w funny things she’s said and it makes me wish I could make u laugh like that. One time I was in the same room when u were talking to her and I’d never heard u laugh the way u did but it made me realize u can be much happier w her than w me. I’ve told u how I feel a few months ago and it wasn’t reciprocated so after a week I told u I was over it even though now I’m more into u than ever. I’ve loved u for the past two years and I’ve told u twice how I felt and the first time u felt the same way but I told u too late and the second time u were over it. It’s fine but I feel like we r soulmates and I don’t wanna ever let u go even though I can feel u drifting. I just miss u and I miss the times we’d go out every week and sneak out at 4am to watch the stars. It’s always confused me how u thought of me as just a friend yet u wanted to sneak out w me. And we call almost every night but ur always talking about her and I was with her yesterday and I saw what u see in her. So I want to try and back off and I wish you well. I love you Leo.

I just have so much to say to you but idk how. Ur my favorite person. My favourite notfification. But you keep leaving me on delivered to the point where I’m losing hope. I’m even on delivered now. I just want you to know that I do love you and I genuinely believe that we are soulmates. Do you remember how we instantly got along within the first week of sitting next to each other in English and geography having never spoken to each other before? I’ve been at the same school as you for 8 years yet for the first 6 our paths never crossed and then in the 7th year we were sat next to each other and everything just clicked. We instantly got on and we were both into each other immediately yet we were both too nervous to tell the other. But my best friend liked u so I had to let her have u cos she was going through a hard time. So u dated her after u got over me and dated her for 10 months. Within this time ud message me and meet me after school every week which is bad I know but I was still really into u but no one knew. Then u broke up at the start of lockdown. So throughout lockdown we were messaging more and getting closer and ended up meeting once a week for about 2 months after restrictions were lifted. Those were the best 2 months. I loved when I sat on the handle bars of ur bike and we screamed as we we through some bushes cos we thought we were gonna fall or when we were play fighting in a river and u lobbed me over ur shoulder and then threw me in the water. And the time when we snuck out at 4am to try watch the sunrise except we missed the sunrise cos we were too busy eating dried mango and finding a good place to sit. We said we were best friends but I always secretly thought we were more. After this I told u how I felt and u didn’t feel the same way. This crushed me but I understood and made peace with it but u were so nice ab it and we stayed close. Then we went back to school and we were in no classes with each other so we never talked in person but we still texted but we were definitely drifting. But then I realized one day a week we had a class with our classrooms next to each other at the end of the day so I started walking slower out of my class and u would catch up and then I’d go with u to music to get ur instrument. This still happens now every week and we just have a debrief and we also call every other night or so to catch up and rant about the people at school. I think I’m slowly losing feelings, at least I hope I am considering it’s been two years hahaha. I’m not gonna see u for 3 weeks now and u have me on delivered so I’m gonna take these holidays as a chance to really focus on work and family and not think ab u or text u unless something serious happens. I hope this works considering it’s been two years. My best friend doesn’t know that I liked u while U were dating her, no one does. People think I liked u back in July and that was it. But it’s been two years and idk if I can do it anymore because it’s killing me hearing u talk about these girls who are so much prettier and much better for u than I am. I don’t wanna distance myself because I can’t lose u as a friend u mean so much to me but I just really want to get over u. But then I remember ur smile. Ur hair. Ur humour. Ur laugh. And u were invited to this New Years thing with all these gorgeous popular girls that I wasn’t invited to and the thought of u getting with one of them kills me. I know u told me u don’t wanna go and ur gonna try get out of it but there’s still the possibility. I love you Leo. I always will. You’re the one person I don’t think I’ll ever truly get over. Even in many years when I don’t know u any more, u will hold a special place in my heart and I’ll be reminded of the BEST summer I’ve ever had with you. Thank you for everything. Ur a truly amazing person and I will never stop caring for u. Just don’t forget abt me okay?

I miss you more and more everyday I miss your touch I miss your kiss I miss your hugs everytime I hear your name I cry I hope you find someone who loves you as much as I still do x

I miss you more than words can say but you broke me so bad that im forever stuck overthinking every little thing.

I love you, and I always will. When I said I wouldn't give up, I meant it. I know it's hard. Just please come back to me. The distance is so hard, but I promise it can be so worth it. I need you. I miss you everyday. You're everything. Don't do this to us. Don't let us end like this. I love you so much. Nothing will change that. It's hard and I hate being away from you too. But love is stronger than a few thousand miles. Our love can beat it. Please don't say you don't love me anymore, because I don't believe you. I don't believe that after everything, you could stop loving me. Please come back. We can do this. We can beat this. Don't give up on us. Don't give up on me.

Leo, you really have shown me what real love is in such little time we have spent together. i’m so thankful for you and how you understand me in a way no body else does and the way you make me laugh and make my insecurities disappear. There’s nothing i don’t love about you. your smile, your eyes, the way you joke about, how confident you are, no joke i could go on forever. i’m so glad that i’ve met you. i love you Leo. stupid noobisculus.

there’re so many colors to choose from but it doesn’t matter because you won’t see this, you’ll never know what I really feel towards you, I tried to tell you but you’re with her now, I just hope she makes you happy

I miss you dummy. I'm sorry we hurt each other to the point where we're not in each other's lives anymore. I wish we could go back and do things differently.

Calm down Leo, your always worried . its okay to be worried but not when it starts to take over you and you start worrying and thinking negative everything, stop! legit... find something... thats my only hint for good to come "find something or someone" I love you

It’s me. It’s been a long time since we last talked and I kinda still like you. We used to be really good friends and then you left me for the girl down the street

I wish I told you that I loved you. I think you knew. But if you did, I don't know why you hurt me so badly and expected me to forgive you. Still, I can't seem to let you go.

hey bb. i wish you didnt leave. tbh u were using me but ur face was too cute to let go. pls come back and rail me like u said u would. ty babes

i never loved you. you manipulated me. you scared me. even though we dont talk anymore, im still afraid

I’m so sorry for the way I treated you. You didn’t deserve it but I had to put myself first - if you’re seeing this I wish you the best in life :)

i dont love you anymore, dont think i ever did
i mean, i did loved you but no in the amount i am cabaple of. i think i could've done better, but you cheated anywas... so i dont know why i care about this.
what matters is that, the next person i love... i will give my all
it's going to take a long ass time for me to love/ be in a relationship again... i can feel it, but oh boy when i do... its going to be so good and better than anything else.

i'm saying this, but i think when you find someone else, even tho it's been a while, i will probably cry

I wish you just told me straight to my face instead of letting me feel abandoned and heartbroken. But I still care about you.

i really dont know who i am without you. it hurts that youre drifting from me but ultimately i want the best for you. i love you more than i could ever describe in words. im sorry.

I think about you a lot and wish I wasn’t too scared to text back that night. I would give everything to rewind time.

i literally like you so much but you are giving me mixed signals :/ which doesn't help me out at all cuz idek if you like me or not

¿Porque dejaste de hablarme sin avisarme? Duele pero... solo te pido un favor. Dime que estas bien. No tienes que decirme que me quieres, solo escribeme y dime que estas bien y no te ha pasado nada.

idk why but you make me happy. i told myself not to fall again i think i’m succeeding. i’m sorry if i can’t give you back the love you expect. first i have to know if you’re serious about us.

Me estás gustando, y no quiero que sea así, pero siento que no hay nada que pueda hacer para poder evitarlo, te estás colando en mi corazón de a poquito y quiero que dejes de hacerlo, pero no puedo alejarte, y lo peor es que no sabes que es así, pero ahora soy capaz de admitir que sí, me gustas, pero no creo que funcione, porque como te dije estás soltero pero no, disponible.
No sé, si esto te llegará algún día, espero que sí lo llegas a leer, ya no te vea de esa forma.

I wish everything was different, I wish we could be something. I'll always hold onto hope but it hurts so much that I've got to let go. All I want is to know if you feel the same. But I know you could never tell me because it could ruin everything you have.

Lamento haber creído que tendríamos una segunda oportunidad, pero ahora vives en otro país y no sé que hacer cuando vuelvas en diciembre y yo ya no te importe en absoluto pero a mi me importes demasiado.

i don’t think you know how much i like you. when i talk to you i feel happy and less stressed but now you don’t reply and it makes me sad. i wish we’d kept talking and that you liked me because i missed the hours we’d spend talking about our similarities and we’d reply so quick to each other. now i feel like this liking thing is one way. have a good life and i hope we stay lose xxxxxxx

you’ve been my friend since kindergarten, i’m truly the most luckiest person to have been in the same school with you at the same time in the same city. what you do never goes unnoticed and i hope you know that. you do so much for me nothing i do can ever repay you for how much you’ve done for me. you’re an angel on earth and you are a person i can actually call my best friend and that makes me so happy. i can connect with you and i feel comfortable with you. you’re the only one outside of my family like that. our bond is never ending no matter what i will always be here to talk to you. you deserve so much more than you get and i promise you one day you will have it all. even through everything you go through i will always be here for you, i wish i was better at comforting. you deserve the whole universe and more. i want to see you thrive and glow. you’re smile and laugh is my favorite. you have the best humor in the world. anyone would be luck to be with you. i’m sorry if i’m ever not a good friend at times.

hey I kinda miss you you pendejo but I get it you probably don’t give a fuck about me anymore huh but it’s ok I just wanna see you happy

hey I’ve been wanting to check up on you but I don’t wanna seem annoying so yea man fuck it I miss your ass and I hate that I do because you probably don’t give a shit about me no more but wtver I just hope youre happy and I hope that maybe one day you’ll realize how much I actually care about you I’m not like the other hating ass bitch ?

i need to make this decision about whether to move out of the state. out of naive hope, i imagine me staying and us reconciling, but the pessimistic adult in me is telling me that is not going to happen, you've moved on, and you're going to keep moving on without looking back. my heart sinks at the thought of us never talking again. i'd like to believe we really were made for each other. i can't shake that feeling. i can't stop reliving that first night when i met you. i literally have never felt that way meeting another person in my life. maybe our leaves will bump into each other again down the river? divine timing?
i know it's not normal to feel this distraught. i know it's not normal to feel like my world is crashing and burning. i know it's not normal to feel like your departure reflects terrible things about me or my past. but i'm not normal. the past month has been the most difficult month i've ever gone through. your absence has left a gaping hole in my chest and the vibrance of life has dulled immensely. Recently, things have gotten better though, slowly, but surely. i'm able to leave my bed and function on a basic level but i'm still trying to find myself. i still spend too much of the day wondering what you're doing, if you're okay, if you're excited about turning 25. i wonder what you think of me. i wonder if you regret meeting me. i wonder if you're doing better off. i wonder if you miss me.
i know there's no point to the wondering. i am truly exhausted from looking for ways to silence the voices. i find it easier to just let them talk over each other now.
i can't tell if this is making me stronger or if it's pushing me deeper into the earth. i don't think i ever truly lived for myself and this has forced me to. i know i should be grateful. i know i should be jumping at this chance to learn to love myself and grow up out of that hurt teenage girl. and i am grateful because i know ultimately you were taking care of our mental healths. i just feel this loss so strongly that it's blinding me from seeing much else. i'm having trouble seeing the future or how to get there. i'm having trouble releasing and letting go and surrendering. i'm sorry for getting so irrationally attached to you and taking so much of your energy and time. thank you for inspiring me, thank you for making me feel light as a feather after 8 years of feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. take care of yourself. i love you leo

hiya :) you're in my philosophy class and you probably don't even know me but...just wanted to say that I think ur pretty cute and I won't have the guts to tell u that irl

i didnt know if I could love until I met you and now I don’t know how to find the feeling again without it feeling ingenuine

remember rabbit movies? truthfully i hope you never see this because then you'd know i was thinking about you. but i am. i should be thinking about other people so why do i think about you.

it sucks having to act like i’m okay around you. it takes everything in me not to spill my heart out to you.

You’ll always be my soulmate i just wish I’d have seen that sooner, realised all the things I wanted us to do together

you came into my life when i needed someone the most. You were always there for me even if we were not on the good terms. You said you would always be here. Now you are gone, you are with her now. I just hope she makes you happy. You will forever have a place in my heart. I love you

I miss our late night walks around town, remember when you pointed out that my top was see-through and i laughed because i wore that top to see if you noticed what i wear, the same with when we first met and i wore an iron maiden shirt and you pointed out that it was an iron maiden shirt. I miss you, text me please.

i love your pink beanie and your sliver rings but i have still have a better style then you deal with it, hun ;)

i thought you were perfect - i guess i still do, i could never tell you, i wouldn’t want you to know. i think i’m over it - sounds weird when we have never even been a thing, but completely unaware you have been on my mind for two years. i think you deserve everything good in this world and i want you to be happy. i wanted you, you will never want me. i can’t cling on, i can’t want people that don’t want me. i don’t want to hurt anymore.

Hey, I’m sorry for being distant. I’m not doing well mentally and I personally don’t believe I’ll be making it to the future which is why I’m so hesitant when you say ‘I love you’. I don’t want to disappoint you further, please live a long happy life. I know you harbour some bitter feelings towards me which is understandable. Please move on and find someone stable. As selfish as this may sound, I’d feel less guilty ending myself if you move on. I love you.

i liked to way u made me feel special when i was loosing hope and how u said my name. made me feel like i was the only person in in the world

I hope you’re happy with her, of course, all i want is for you to be happy. But i will always secretly wish i was the one who is yours.

hi, you're an idiot. i wish you knew how much i love and hate you. you make me so happy. but at times im confused. but i still love you

i really liked you but as usual i was afraid of what you’d do to me so instead i broke up with you which i fucking hate myself for but it doesn’t matter anymore does it you’ve got a new girl and she’s pretty i’m quite literally nothing compared to her but oh well i’m doing ok alone and ur great so fuck it it doesn’t matter

i miss you so much, why do i like you when all you do is ignore me, i compare everyone else to you and it sucks

non so se leggerai mai questo messaggio ma sappi che sei diventato un pensiero constante però ho paura di come possa finire e cosa possa succedere.Nonostante ciò io davvero tengo a te però sono molto impacciata a dire le cose

I miss you. I wish that day i had stopped you from going out, now i dont know if i'll ever see you again. you've been in a coma since 1st july. it's killing me that i cant speak to you, i know this is mean of me but i tried to find someone to replace the love you gave me even though we werent together, and we were talking and all of a sudden i just realised, its you, youre the one i want to be with for the rest of my life. i dont know how to tell him but i know that its not him whos made for me. i love you forever, goodnight.

I want to cry to you to tell you how I’m going to die soon and only you can stop it you just push me away to show off

I wish we hadn’t dated so young.. but it’s been too long for us to try again, so I just have to love you from afar

I wish you could call me beautiful. Even if it’s just for one more time. And even if you don’t mean it.