I miss you. I was a bitch you you and took my pain out on out relationship. Wish i could turn back times to 2018 and relive our lives the way we had planned without the complicated situation. Now we’re strangers when I need you the most. I hope we can reunite and meet up soon as this situation is getting unbearable.

N x

i love you always stupid :)
enjoy college tomorrow, i miss you and your the best thing to ever happen to me xx

I thought I liked you and that everything was going fine but your friends would joke about my weight and you didn’t defend me. You laughed with them and that was my biggest insecurity. You kept pressuring me to send things that I didn’t want to send. You got mad when I wouldn’t reply. I finally started to think a bit and realized that it wasn’t what I wanted. And you don’t get a second chance for that. I have learned from this.

you taught me the beauty of souls who find each other in a world with billions. my finger tracing the inside of your palm lingers my skin still.

I can’t stop thinking about you but I know you don’t feel the same way. I don’t know if I am doing something wrong or if you are over me. I love you so much and am really glad you are in my life.

i kissed another guy wearing the necklace you threatened me over. it felt good. you won't know but i will.

i knew it was a lie when you said “i’m fine”, i just didn’t see it ending like this, guess the fault is mine.

all I wanted was to talk everything out, but you couldn't even let me do that, and now idk if I'll ever get closure.

Thomas. I tried to find the closest color I could to lavender. When you dm'd me for the first time it filled me up with a joy I hadn't felt in a long time. I hope you understand that the joy I felt wasn't love but the happiness to have someone finally ask how my day was. You are a dear friend to me and I hope that despite the fact that we will most likely never be together, I value the relationship we do have. I'm sorry.

I was hoping for you to message me first and I’m still waiting, but I think this just proves what I’ve been afraid of all this time.

in all honesty i don't feel bad :D it was better for me so i did what felt right and i can't apologise for that

i have never loved anyone more than this. you truly made me feel special. i'm sorry i wasn't enough, please come back. no matter how hard i try i can't fall in love with someone who isn't you.

you broke me. you broke me until there was barely enough to put back together. even so, i still love you.

i know it is going to be hard, to not go after my first love; you. I will always remember the night in the dunes, how the sunlight hit you magically once the sun rose above the ocean.

Thanks. Thanks for not giving a single f*ck about my feelings. You made me realize I liked women and barely anyone at all. So, thanks for treating me like garbage. Also, stop saying the N-word. It’s not cute and doesn’t make you tough.

wish you could come home; you don't deserve any of the shit you're getting. i believe in you, miss you bud.

I’ll never admit it aloud but letting you go was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
No regrets though.

convenient to us? you’ve always been convenient to me. confused by that. it’s not like feelings go away and i don’t wanna stop

for some reason you randomly crossed my mind just now and I know it’s been years since we’ve talked but I still have the same love for you as I did, and I forgive you.

I still care so much about you. And I wish we could at least be in our lives again. But Ik u don’t want that

I know you were forced to end things. Our story is still left unfinished.... maybe one day we can finish it.

why can't you love me the way you loved her. why can't you show me the same let alone better affection like you did with her. why can't i get the paragraphs. am i not enough? am i not her?

I wonder if you wear the bracelet I made you anymore. I still read my old journal. I know what I did was right, but I wonder what I lost sometimes.

My heart burns with love for you, I just can’t express it right and you’re slipping from my grasp. My heart turns cold.

I still think about you a lot even though there's no reason to. I don't want you anymore but I wish you could want me like I wanted you. It weren't worth all the energy. Happy new year, here's to getting over it for good.

it kills me that i’m so in love with you. but because i don’t look like the ideal “fit girl”, you won’t love me back

I chose this color because it reminds me of your eyes, I never thought I'd fall in love with someone I met on the Internet but you came along and captivated me, you're a very sweet boy, I wish you didn't live 6,000 miles away, I wish I could keep you close to me but I can't.

the day i knew i loved you was the day you held me in your arms as i cried into your chest, completely soaking your favourite shirt. we didn't say anything, but i knew it from then on. i knew you didn't love me when you talked about her the way i talk about you, when you looked at her the way i look at you. my heart will always yearn for yours. i love you

ouch. her? i don’t get it. i don’t think i ever will. i thought maybe, one day, it’d be me & you. i think i was wrong.

I wish I never asked about your car, I wish I closed my ears when you promised things you couldn't keep, I wish I never fell for you, I wish I could stop thinking about you

this Friday it’ll be a year since we’ve seen each other. so i guess this is me telling you that i had feelings for you. I still think about you sometimes, i think that maybe you liked me back but other days i think it was all in my head or maybe you were just being friendly. Either way i miss you despite the feelings, you were fun to talk to and be around. Hope you’re doing well

i still love you. I hope that maybe one day you will return those feelings. I have tried hard to love myself, but you're the only person who ever loved me. i miss you.

What made you fall out of love with me that night. Too many arguments, what a lie. Why did you hurt me so much. I have so many questions, why can't you let me have peace. Why can't you let someone who did so much for you have love again alone. I did everything. Goodbye.

I don’t know why I allow you to keep hurting me. Part of me still wishes you could change. I won’t wait forever.

i like you. you're very pretty and i think your puffy hair is cute. i'm sorry but i don't know what happened or why you stopped being you but... i miss you

I don’t even know where to begin. You hurt me. You broke my heart and shattered my soul. I cared for you so much. Every morning, when the sun came up and showered us with it’s beautiful orange light, I thought of your face smiling down at me. Every night, when the stars came out and the moon graced us with its presence, I thought of the way you would hold onto me when you fell asleep ever so peacefully. I didn’t know you for long, but I felt more for you in 3 months than I did for anyone else in all my years of living. I know I am still young, but sometimes I can’t help but think our short, beautiful time together is all I will ever have. We had a lot of great memories together and you made me feel so much. Hell, you even made me fall in love with the color orange. But for the longest time, I tore myself apart because of something that happened to inconvenience you. You were so sweet, but you were so goddamn selfish. If I were given the chance to go back to us, I know I would’ve jumped at it. But I’ve finally realized that I deserve more. At some point you were my everything. But now, you are nothing to me but a distant memory. I pity the person you have become. You use to be so bright-eyed and genuine. When I look at you now, I see an empty shell of a man, and that’s so fucking sad. I hope one day you realize that you’re not the person you pretend to be, that you’re capable of so much. But I refuse to let myself hang onto your ghost in hopes that I will be the one to fix you. I know now that it’s foolish to believe such trivial things. Please, for your own sake, grow up. All I could ever want for you is true happiness, even if it’s not with me. Take care of yourself, baby boy.

I regret a lot of things that happened between us. I don't regret loving you. Never will.
Truly yours...

i hope i never come back on here to write something bad about you... you mean the world to me and our story is just starting.

I love you. I wish I were brave enough to tell you, but I'm too scared of ruining this beautiful friendship that we have. Just friends is enough. It has to be. I can't risk losing someone like you just because I couldn't keep my feelings to myself.

I’ve moved out of NC. I won’t forget how I felt with you, we never even dated.. you made me happy but yet I felt so damn used.

I wish you had loved me the way I loved you. My whole entire day was devoted to thinking about you. Not one day went by with you not crossing my mind. I hope you're doing well right now, I asked you to talk to me today and you will probably blow it off. You tend to do that. Don't make promises you cannot keep. It hurts the heart and the brain.

After everything we've been through, you deserve the peace you've been getting, I'm just sorry you were never able that kind of peace with me

i am over you but i still think of you. you hurt me more than anyone and i still cant find it in me to forgive you. even after 4 years

whyd u leave..? i really loved u man. like we thought of our family and our future together. we both dreamed of it. ive never been so heartbroken in my life, and im never going to love someone the way i loved u. hope ur well w ur hoes.

it is embarrassing knowing that i still think of you, daydream of you so often. i know that you don’t care—that you will never come back. i wish i could hate you, but i don’t think i will ever truly get over you. let alone forget you. fuck you, thomas.

i still love you.
i wish i didn’t.

im finally over u now. im not mad at you anymore. when i think about you i smile at the good stuff. i did really love you tho.

You were my smush.. wish you didn’t have to leave me like that. I wanted to stay friends so I wouldn’t have to bear the thought of losing you

Tonight we sat in my car as u cried. I wish u could believe how much I love you. I’ll be waiting for u. You’re worth it.

I’m happy we are still friends but thank you for treating me the way you did. It made me grow in ways I didn’t know were possible

How do i tell you i love you.. its all so complicated- we are both happy maybe i will keep it to myself