when you left i went back to the spot i first met you and layed there for hours and looked at the sky and cried

I’m sorry that I left you. You are my best friend and I’m sorry I put you through all that pain. I know what it feels like because I felt pain too.

in grade school i changed my wardrobe so you’d notice me. i’m sorry it was too early for us. maybe things could’ve been different.

you broke me skittles,in ways i never thought a person could,i’m sorry i’m not good enough for you,i’m sorry i’m not livvy

I’ ve worn the ring you once gave me, every single day since. It makes me feel close to you even though you are gone. How could you leave after everything? Please come back, I want you.

Falling for you was a complete accident. At first we were just talking about video games, the next minute I want to be combing my fingers through your hair.

I know you said you see me as just a friend but I will never stop loving you. I know that would be weird for you to hear. But I love you. Please love me. please. please please. I love you so much oleplease.

I tried to talk to you and be friends at least. You’re not the same anymore and that hurts, I miss the sweet boy I fell in love with.

I’ve sent you so many messages on here. And I almost always use this blue. As it was the color of my prom dress and I loved how you looked in that bow tie.

Wait for me please. A year and half and we can be together... we belong together and we both know that. I love you

im tired of thinking of you every minute of the day your beautiful blueish green eyes that i would stare at for hours at a time if i could, your laugh your stupid hair cut the silly videos you send me.. you have my heart and i want it back..i love you, goodbye

we’ve been doomed from the beginning. it’s an unlikely of scenarios, ours. yet still i yearn to tell you how i feel in hopes that you’ll feel the same. or if not, so i can continue on my journey to something new.

i liked you for a year and you got a girlfriend over the holidays and i kinda lost feelings. but u and ur girlfriend are so cute together so its fine

you were the person who taught me maybe right person wrong time was real. why did it all have to fall apart?

you really had me there. made me believe i was something special. made me believe you felt the same way about me. and then you ignored me, and pushed me away. and then you did what you did on new year’s eve and i finally realized. you can say what you want, but you’re still in love with her. and she is messing with you and she doesn’t even care. she’s using you. i am just really tired. tired of being lied to. tired of being the second choice. i’m hurt. you hurt me. and you don’t even care. you never cared. i hope you realize what you lost.

i guess you're just an ass to everyone. thank god i escaped. too bad to that poor girl you cheated on though, what a shame. cant do anything right

I have to let you go. My heart will forever yearn for what could’ve been, but it’s best for both of us that some things go and stay unspoken.

The day you left me for her will haunt me forever. I have never felt whole since. I’ll probably be yours always and forever. J

it’s been over a year and i miss you every day. i wish i’d been enough for you to get over the long distance. i’m sorry for how i acted after we broke up. please think good things about me

i have been in love with you for as long as i can remember and you've helped me through a lot of hard stuff in my life and you were my best friend for so long but honestly i feel like i don’t even know you anymore and i can’t even say i miss you when i’m not around you because i don’t miss you, i miss the person you used to be. and i know that we will never work and i should just give up on trying at this point but i cant because i don’t want to give up on our fairytale. that’s what we would be, a perfect fairytale. but it’s just not realistic and i know it will never happen and i disagree with so many of the things you do but then i spend two minutes with you and suddenly i’m right back where i was all those years ago when you actually noticed me instead of just thinking of me as the girl you used to know.

i miss you, but you are still in my life. its strange i know i was the one who said we couldn’t the second time around but i can’t help wanting you to be mine. i think that’s it though, i don’t want you i just don’t want you to want anyone else. ?

I think about you every day. Do you think about me as much as I think about you? Most of the time, the thoughts and memories made me cry. Other times they made me smile. But now when I think about you, I don’t feel anything at all.

I wish you lived in the now instead of the future. I wish we had made the best out of the time we had together.

I hope you get what you deserve you used me knowing what I had already went through I can’t have a person touch me the way you did out of fear

i'm so sorry to talk shit abt u the week before you left us forever. thank u for all the fun german classes tho

I always had eyes for you but you had them for another girl. I pity your loss of someone who actually cared.(me)

I don’t think I should still think about you but I do.When times were good between us I felt like I was on top of the world. Thank you for the memories I loved them they were great. I know there was something between us even though we didn’t show it we knew it was there I think it still is there I hope we cross again. I love you still.

i miss you. i wish things could’ve worked out between us. i really believe that you are the one for me. right person, wrong time my love. i love you so much

you were perfect in the way that when i needed someone the most you appeared. I do miss you a lot, but i think that’s because i miss ur company not your affection. I love you bub. Have a beautiful life

u took the only thing i can’t get back and then pretended i was no one. yet i came back again and again

You made the Boulevard meaningful to me and I hate it so much that you had to leave for that to happen.

before i met you, i never thought i would get better. i never thought i would see happiness again. but i have learned to find that you are my happiness. everything about you makes me smile, like your blue eyes, brown hair, your freckles, the way you smile, your ability to light up any room, and so much more. i didn't know what perfect was until i met you. i love you so much and i can't imagine how my life would be without you. thank you.

it hurts because I just want one more hug. I just wish we could still talk but I know we can’t because it hurts me too much so please tell someone how its going, how home is, how your parents are because I know its hard but please tell or talk to someone if its not me. Trust me you worry to much about what other people think, they won’t think your weird or not like you if you tell them something about you trust me. I’m always right remember? I loved you then I loved you when I broke up with you and I still love you know. I just wished you knew how much everyone cares about you. I don’t think we will get back together and Im fine with that because we are well and truly just so different from each other. I’m fine with it I just miss you. I just wish I had done better, sometimes I forget what happened and imagine that you’re on your way to pick me up like you did in summer and we’d sing those songs back when we were okay. But all I wanted was for you to be happy and yet here I am still crying over you ans missing you even after what you put me through? I still love you and I think I always will that happens with first loves. You were my person but yoyre not anymore ans that hurts because when I feel like this I know you were the only one who really knew me luke. You were the one who I could go to and I know it took a while ans I miss you for that because I have no one. But it’s okay. I’m sorry it had to be this way but you have to promise me still that you carry on pushing through and doing what you’re doing no matter how hard it gets. You can’t break a pinky promise. I’ll love you always dickhead and I’m sorry that was the top most of my affection when we were together and I wish I’d loved you harder when we were together because it’s what you needed and I’m sorry. I’m so fucjing sorry luke. I wish you’d come back but I know it’s not good for either of us. I love you endlessly

To my first love you and I had a special connection that I won’t get with anyone else.you were my first everything.i won’t get another first.but I just hope that even though you left you still think of me like I think off you everyday I don’t think I will ever feel like this again.goodbye

I keep checking to see if you’ve written to me on here. Please I need to hear from you. Just spill it all out.

You were a neutral good. Like soupy oatmeal. I fell for your eccentric mind and the dreams you inspired me to tell. I don’t know how I fell so hard, you never noticed I did, and then it was October.

I love you so much but I’m scared ur going to break me again. And I’m scared you don’t see the love I have for you

im in love with you.i really shouldn't be, but I can't help it. your a piece of art Lucas. I have always been interested in you as person, im just now realizing its a romantic interest. I always said I didn't want to get close with you because your so much like him... and I did anyway, and I found out you much better then him. I didn't think that existed. I know I need to get rid of these feelings, but maybe I dont want to. I wish I could tell you how much im in love with you.

hey i still see u every day and it’s hard to forget what happened between us. i don’t miss u but i do in a way.

i miss you so much :( talking to you was the only thing that kept me alive, I love you. I hope you find the happiness, you deserve, see ya in another life

hey. i’m falling for you, even though i know it’s not requited. you just make me happy. so fucking happy.

I would've happily had my heart broken by you. I still long for the chance to tell you how much I love you.

im not going to lie to you Luke because I hid it from you Lon enough and you know I distract myself and I didn't want to tell you because I know you're going through it too. but im struggling so much and I've gone back to my old habits Luke my skin stings in the shower and my stomach growls all the time. I want you to promise me you'll get better because I know you can because youve done it before so you can do it again I believe in you. I think it was your message about the hospital and I worry about you Luke but I can keep projecting things onto you and you can't do it for me that's why we broke up the pressure you can't physically make someone better but leaving your hurt on them as it hurts them too and eats the up inside and I know that goes both ways. I can't message you properly or see you and I know I said id see after new year but I can't do it Luke im sorry. it will ruin me and im trying to get better and I know that's selfish but as I said its not going to work maybe when we do find each other when we're both older and almost forgot maybe we.ll come together. I didn't believe in right person wrong time until I met you. but that's it Luke thats now all I can do. just know ill love you forever I still remember everything about you the way your eyes crease when you smile and the beautiful colour they were when you could see them when you weren't high. They were the colour of this post. ill never forget and never forget that

I know and I want to hear about your day and I asked how you were to Gaby to see if she'd seen you around college to check up on you. But if you want to talk to me just send a message on here and just know I'll read that. I've changed a lot from that shitty art room but I haven't changed the way I feel about you. Luke listen I can't speak to you directly because it hurts that's why I did this and I've written on here various times in the last 5 months and even when we were together. But I've got to do it for me I hope you understand why I can't message you. I love you still

i loved you. but, you never loved me back. i have notebooks full of stuff i would say to you. but i’m too shy..

Thank you for showing me how to be happy, I only wish we were still close. You have a special place in my heart, stinky :)

everytime i think about you, i wonder why I would ever love you, and i still can’t answer that question.. i wish I didn’t because I know you could never care for me the way I need you to, but you’ve left such an imprint on me that the only thing I can think of is going back to you, so fuck you for leaving me, and constantly running through my head I hate you so much for it, but I could never stop loving you.

Why did you do this to me? I never asked you to do this... It just hurts... Stop asking my friends about me...

The way I feel when we're on FaceTime isn't the same when I'm on FaceTime with someone else. You make me laugh non-stop and it feels like I'm escaping reality. I respect you for being in a relationship and I hope that she treats you well. I blame myself for us not being together right now. If I didn't sabotage every good thing that happens to me, we would be together. Even if we were together, I wouldn't be good for you. I am selfish, constantly needing reassurance, and jealous. You deserve a girl that is going to treat you amazing. You're genuinely such a good guy and I am so grateful for those three months.

i wanna kiss u so bad *cry laugh emoji* pain lol hahahha fuck u i hate u so much why do u do this to me this is literally torture