Unsent messages to NOAH

You said it wasn’t goodbye, and even though it was that’s okay. You could’ve at least told me. I’m okay with goodbye because i treasured every moment with you and I hope the new girl treats you right. I hopes she’s patient with your basketball schedule and she’s not jealous of Sarah. And she ft’s you while playing your game and that’s she’s patient with you. That’s she’s understanding? you could have said it was goodbye, I hope you accomplish all your dreams and do everything you wanna do. I’ll be cheering you on the sidelines, you got this. I’m so proud of you. Thank you for teaching me about myself more than anyone else. Thank you for helping me talk to my mom. I’m forever grateful for what we had. But this is goodbye and I’ll always have love for you. Goodbye angel?

i cant wait for christmas so that i pull up to your house with a bb gun and shoot out all your christmas lights noah .

you said you wouldn’t break me like the others did. but u did worse. u shattered me, and i don’t have enough glue to fix all those pieces anymore.

i don't know if we ever would have worked out. i think i made the right decision but i never stop questioning it

you broke me. you won’t ever touch me again in this lifetime. i cant believe you lied to me the entire time. fuck you noah.

we obviously can’t even be just friends because friends don’t hu well at least I don’t with my friends, idk about u.

U keep talking about bad outcomes about trying to be in a relationship. Me getting my feelings hurt is a bad outcome of this friendship.

I don’t understand what happened or why you left but I wish you all the happiness in the world. I don’t rly like the word dummy anymore

I don’t know why I’m writing this, I don’t see us every getting back together but I am at peace with that. I just wanted you to know that I really did love you. With my whole heart I saw us making it to the end. I think happily of you, that summer. You helped me more than you know. I’m sorry I couldn’t be there when you needed me. But I needed me. I love to see you happy. Thank you for our little summer love, just two kids being stupid.

I’m truly sorry I was so rude after everything. Yes, you didn’t always treat me well but I took things way too far after the fact to somehow try and get back at you, it was stupid of me.

There isn't an hour in the day that I don't think of you. I miss you so much. I'll love you forever, I thumb promise.

it kills me to know that you’re less than 5 minutes away from me, with her. but you moved on so fast, that’s how i know you never really loved me

i’m sorry. i wish you would forgive me. maybe we just aren’t meant for each other but i can’t help but think about what we could have been.

hii noahhh,
you didn’t have to leave i was gonna be happy eventually. i mean here i am, happy as ever. i still miss you everyday though :/

i definitely believe in right person, but wrong time. i think eventually it will work out, and i hope u think the same.

hey. it's been a while. i know you're never gonna see this lol but anyways i just thought i should come on here and just say im FINALLY over you. its. taken. so. long. but im finally in a good place i think. i dont miss you anymore. the thought of you doesn't make me feel anything. your name doesn't hurt. when i see pics of u i feel nothing. im so happy. becuase i know this is how you feel about me. and i love it.

I love you so much but you bring me so much pain. You made me so sad that I have wished I was dead but you have made me so happy I never wanted to die. How do you do that?

just when you were finally back in my life, you were gone in a blink of an eye. gonna miss you homie.

i have to pretend like i’m over you but if i saw you happy with another girl i think my heart would break again

“i need more from u, more love. i wish we were like months ago” if that’s ???,,, you should message me please i need more of u as well

i like you.. alot. its crazy how i feel about you. you make me feel safe and i like being around you.

Im really glad that we're friends again, i forgot how much i missed you. Thanks for not making me feel like shit when everyone ignores me

I don’t even know where to start. When I met you I felt a connection with you I had never felt with anyone else. I knew I wanted to be your friend and when I did I realized I would give up everyone else to be with you. That sounds toxic but I never really connected with anyone the way I connect with you. I was so young and didn’t understand and I still don’t. I never understood why I thought about you more than anyone else. Why I was jealous of your crushes. Since I didn’t know I never made a move. I don’t regret that because I did move on. I liked someone else but I didn’t connect with them the way I did with you. And now we aren’t even best friends anymore. I’m not the one you rant to or the one you FaceTime when you feel like you will cry. I feel like I barely know you. And you don’t even want to hang out with me. I miss you so much. You were my everything but I wasn’t yours. I know I’ve moved on but it still hurts hearing about her and I sometimes I wish I was her. I find myself still holding on to hope even though that won’t happen. But you are amazing and deserve to be happy. Love you Noah.

ur such a piece of shit you made me believe we had something then broke my heart i haven’t felt love since

you don’t know but i saw ur tweets about me lmao. seeing u at the concert was weird. u look different. i hope ur doing well tho all the best bro

you trusted me and told me everything yet gave up on me after me being the one that sat with you through it all

You made the hardest year of my life just a little bit harder, and while I still talk to you I will never forgive you for that

fuck you asshole i was 15 and thought you liked me back

i should have known better and I should have ruined your goddamn life.

I have a few last things I’d like to say. Hi luv, if this is rlly you reading this.. I wanted to remind you of the good we had together, as well as give you the depth of my emotions that you always deserved but never got to hear out. I was so unbelievably infatuated with every aspect of your being. your big blue eyes paired with the most subtle smirk. You were perfect in my eyes. I remember the way you looked at me, that had to have been real right? Passing by “our place” in a car that is not yours will forever produce looming fog around my heart, our memories and smiles n smoke seshes fill my mind with happiness for a moment until I’m reminded that you left, you’re gone and you aren’t coming back. Do you remember how embarrassed u felt when I was waving at strangers? Or the time we sat at our sandy spot pretending we were Picasso. I had never felt more alive. You told me that you loved me, and that you were for realz, I didn’t say it back right away but I knew I loved you then. Do you still have that leaf I picked up off your front lawn and regifted 2 u? Or what ab that horrible painting you kept and said you loved? Was any of it real or was I just falling in love with the temporary love you felt? I know my love was real but was yours? I saw you again and surprise surprise you got what you wanted, and I haven’t heard from you since. It’s deteriorating honestly but I ignore it and proceed because thats all you can do sometimes. I’m letting you go, as cheesy and over played as it is, “if you love someone you let them go..” just promise to remember the time we spent even if you claimed you were happier without me, those words in particular stuck with me at the end, but I beg that you remember the smiles and love we shared, especially the way I looked into you rather than at you, I really did see you even tho I had a funny way of showing it, I almost let you do the same. I will forever love you sweet, bc when you truly love someone, that feeling never truly leaves. I wish you love.

i miss you so fucking much. but i hear you’re doing good and i’m not gonna fuck that up for you anymore.

i tried talking to you and as days passed with no replies.. i should’ve known that someone else was occupying your time

I said it on the night we ended things, but it's still true. You will always hold a special place in my heart.

i wish we could've been something... you'll always have a special place in my heart... words i never said "i love you"

You texted me on accident the other day, but it didn't stir anything deep inside of me. I've found someone better now, seeing his face makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I hope you find yourself one day, you deserve the world, but I've given up thinking I could give it to you, that's something you have to do on your own. We walk different paths now and forever. Good luck in life, I don't miss you anymore.

you were supposed to be the one. when you were leaving i asked you what happened to forever. you looked broken. fuck you

I really hate you but I can’t stop loving you, no matter how hard I try you always are in the back of my mind and in my memories. It takes everything in me not to imagine what would’ve happened if we hadn’t broken up and if we hadn’t been so stupid.

I gave you every single piece of my heart through all your lies and all the hurt. Now I hate myself while trying to love you.

i want to text you and talk to you but i know its a bad idea because you never stay around for long. imy

I miss you sometimes. Well all the time. When a song comes on the radio I think of you. Or I drive by someplace we went the memories come flooding back. I miss you bosh. I love you. Please don’t fall in love with someone else

i’m an understanding person but i still don’t understand why you left me like you did.... you knew i would have done anything for you yet you still left me and made me feel like shit :/